Adam has a distinct memory of overhearing me whisper into a friend’s ear, “My God, check out his lips,” and knowing that I was talking about him. Yup, he was right. Even then, Adam had these gorgeous, full lips that just cried out to be gnawed on … But I digress.
It was a cool evening when we all set out from the Brits’ dorm to walk to the dance club in Talpiot. Until then, Adam and I had only admired each other from afar. But he had decided that, on this walk, he was going to speak to me. And so he strode up alongside me, and we started talking. To this day, although neither of us can recall a word that was said, we both remember with crystal clarity how immediate the connection was, and the breathtaking excitement we felt. We talked and talked, until we hit the club and the music drowned out all conversation. So then we danced and danced, rapturously, illuminated in the blues and reds and stark white of the ever-shifting club lights, unaware of anyone or anything else. It was electrifying.
We walked home together at six in the morning and stopped at the beautiful Talpiot overlook to watch Jerusalem turn gold with the sunrise. We both knew that something extraordinary was brewing.
From that night on, we saw each other when we could, and got to know each other in bits and pieces. Meanwhile, I had parted from my program and found myself an independent kibbutz to finish out my year. So when Adam’s group was coincidentally sent to my kibbutz for the weeklong wrap up of their program, it seemed that fate had intervened on our behalf. I was nearly paralyzed by anticipation and nervousness waiting for him to arrive. Had everything we’d experienced in the whirl and excitement of our brief episodes together been real? Could it be sustained beyond those moments on the dance floor or watching the sunrise?
The day arrived. I didn’t know exactly when Adam would be arriving on my kibbutz that evening, so I went for a late-night swim (read: scaled the fence around the pool for a skinny-dip) with my friends. When I returned, I opened the door to my room to the surprising sight of Adam sound asleep in my bed. I had never seen anything so entrancing. I couldn’t explain what I was feeling, but it was colossal. I watched him sleep for a long time.
As Adam tells it, he arrived on my kibbutz a bundle of nerves, and realized that he had no idea how to find me. He asked around until he was directed to my room, and let himself in. There wasn’t much else in the room besides the bed, and so he settled himself down for a bit of a rest while he waited. I find paraphrasing him way too embarrassing, so I’ll let Adam speak for himself here: “I got into your bed, and suddenly, my whole body seemed to be crackling with electricity. I could smell you in the sheets and the pillow. I closed my eyes to breathe you in and soon, exhaustion overcame me. The next thing I knew, you were waking me up, all cool skin and wet hair and sparkling eyes. I had never seen a more beautiful sight in my life.”
It was in that moment that we fell in love.
Adam blew off all of his group activities to spend every possible moment with me. I’d get up at four-thirty in the morning to go out to the fields, make it back by eleven a.m., and the rest of the day and evening was ours. We lost all track of time when we were together.
I remember so clearly the day that Adam’s group was leaving to go back to England. We had already kissed goodbye a thousand times, the bus had been boarded and was lumbering away down the dirt road while I wept and waved. When the bus stopped at the kibbutz gate to wait for someone to come out to open it, Adam threw open the emergency window at the back of the bus, climbed out, and ran back up the road to steal another kiss.
(Sometimes I amuse myself imagining how STM would have done it. I envision him leaping out of the back of the bus, sauntering over, looking me dead in the eyes and declaring (as he has in the dead of night), “Kissing’s good for your health. So pucker up, baby, I’m gonna make you live past a hundred!” Not quite the stuff of a great romance.)
Adam and I soon found ourselves back in our respective countries, trying to navigate a relationship from opposite sides of the ocean. Remember, this was before the Internet; there was no e-mailing, IM’ing, text messaging, video conferencing. Transatlantic phone calls cost a fortune, especially for a couple of nineteen-year-olds. But it was also before the death of the written letter, and, even better, audio cassettes.
Yeah, remember those? Adam and I raised the art of the mixtape to new heights: our foremost form of communication, we mailed back and forth recordings of us talking, intermixed with music. I so clearly remember those desperate trips to the mailbox numerous times a day, hoping to hear from him, and then the exultation of opening a package and sliding the cassette into the stereo. Accustomed as most of us are now to anytime, anywhere communication, it’s not often that we have the opportunity to experience that bittersweet, agonizing anticipation. Even back then, Adam was so emotionally expressive, so clearheaded in his feelings. I would listen to his tapes hundreds of times, until I had every word, every breath memorized.
I was prepared to do anything to be with Adam, even wait. But for him, it was too hard. As he explains, “I was crazy about you, the feelings were overwhelming, unlike anything I had ever experienced. But at nineteen, I couldn’t bear the pain of being separated from you, of having those yearnings continually unfulfilled. I dealt with my emotions by burying them, until I could leave you behind. I buried a huge part of myself in the process.” After a few months, we parted very painfully.
My heart was broken. A part of me harboured the hope that Adam would find his way back to me. Meanwhile, I dated my guts out, looking for someone to fill the void he’d left behind. But no one that I met could measure up to my memory of him. After two full years of anguished pining, I finally moved on and committed to a life without him.
Of course, being the master of timing that he is, it is precisely around that time that Adam came to his senses, pulled himself together, and decided that he had made a terrible mistake—that we belonged together. He began calling and writing, trying to woo me back. But for me, having worked so hard to get over him, it was too late. My heart was closed to him.
And thus, it was Adam’s turn to hope and pine. For months, he waited every day for the phone to ring. And then, finally, he went on with his life as well.
TOP TEN
STM Pick-up Lines
10 “Kiss me. Tastes good, doesn’t it. Why don’t you go back and have a second helping? Be greedy.”
9 “Keep close to me. My love is infectious, and there’s no cure.”
8 “Of course I know where your eyes are. I just like staring at your tits.”
7 “Let’s swap saliva. I know, love is messy.”
6 “You’re in the crosshairs of my love. And my aim is true. Bitch.”
5 “Well, don’t YOU look like the icing on a fuck cake.”
4 “Nothing’s invisible to my love radar. I’m picking you up loud and clear.”
3 “Your three steps to happiness: Sex, Food, Me.”
2 “Sure you can have my phone number. It’s like having a direct line to God. But better. Because I answer.”
1 “Rub my tummy, bitch.”
2007, New York City. Twelve years had passed since we had last spoken, fifteen since we had seen each other. I had long ago moved on with my life, and had a number of serious relationships, none of which were quite right. I had thought of Adam occasionally, but only as a distant element of my past. And then, one day—on a momentary whim—I did what millions of ex-girlfriends have done the world over: plugged his name into Facebook. And there he was! Swiftly, without too much thought or analysis, I dropped him a friendly e-mail.
Adam’s response was immediate and enthusiastic, and we charged into catch-up mode. He had gotten married (Oh.); he had gotten divorced (Oh?); he had two children (Ohhh. Well …). We graduated swiftly from e-mail to IM, to phone, to Skype. We spent hours each night talking on video, without any acknowledgment that anything romantic was going on. The official unspoken line: “Oh, this is normal, we are just old friends who happen to spend FOUR HOURS every night Skyping. Nope, not
hing to see here.” What a feat of mutual denial it took to pull THAT off.
One day, I suggested that we needed to get together for cup of coffee. Just so we could, y’know, settle the past and put it behind us. He agreed. So he did what any sane, totally-just-friends person would do under the circumstances: purchased a plane ticket, London to New York. The most expensive damn cup of coffee in the history of the beverage.
It was midnight, December first when I arrived at the airport to pick up Adam. Yeah, let’s review that. He’s coming for a CUP OF COFFEE, we’ve never acknowledged that there’s this little matter of WHERE HE’S GOING TO SLEEP and his flight gets in at MIDNIGHT. So there I was, waiting for my totally platonic friend from London to drop in for a nice cup of coffee. The nerves were killing me.
Of course, Adam got held up in customs. It seems his insane-hyena-on-ecstasy grin caught the eye of the officers who probably thought he was high or crazy or both. They pulled him aside and started grilling him as to the nature of his trip, in response to which he told them our entire love story thus far. Adam must have successfully appealed to their romantic sensibilities, since those customs officials did eventually send him out to the airport lounge where I was waiting for him.
Adam says, “I had never been so hyped-up with anxiety in my life, charging through the airport, getting though customs. But then I came through those doors, and the moment I first saw you, I knew that I was in love with you, had never stopped loving you, and that I wanted to spend my life with you.”
I, on the other hand, couldn’t look at him. Literally. Even though I had been staring at his face in 2–D for hours every night, there was something so significant, so momentous, so goddamn BIG about seeing him for the first time after all those years, I just couldn’t do it. We stood there toe-to-toe, my eyes on the linoleum, for twenty minutes. And the longer I waited to look up, the BIGGER it became, until we had passed beyond the realm of the dramatic, into the territory of the utterly absurd.
Finally, just to put myself out of my misery, I lifted my chin and flicked my eyes to his, and then as quickly as possible buried them again against his chest in a smothering hug. It was a lot easier driving, when I had an excuse to only glance at him for fleeting moments. By the time we arrived in my neighborhood, I could almost look him full in the face.
Six weeks later, we were engaged.
When are you gonna learn:
when transporting giraffes, shouting “duck” every time you hit a bridge doesn’t work!
Elephant trunks should be used for elephant things only. Nothing else.
Mmmm, I do like your shampoo.
Smells like llama spit. Is it llama spit?
Smells like llama spit.
Listen up, people.
Sasquatch has been in my sock drawer again, and now he’s somewhere lose in the bathroom.
So I’m setting up a six-foot perimeter fence, and someone bring me my clippers.
He’s mine this time.
Hey, I know you, but I don’t like your face.
Take it off … That’s much better, much better.
You can’t do that to a jellyfish. I’m calling the authorities. You dirty jelly molester.
I’m just a chubby ninja.
Able to move between skinny people.
Tiptoeing elephant. No one can see me.
And then I attack! With ice cream and jelly, with chocolate sprinkles on top.
Mmmmm.
How do blind people know they’re done wiping? How?
I’ve got to get me two or more of those little fellas if I’m going to be able to make goblin soup. Mmm-hmm. It’s so true.
If that shark thinks it’s coming to bed for a cuddle, it’s got another think coming.
God, it’s all me me me with that fucker.
Drilling … drilling … keep on drilling … drill … Oops! Fuck me.
Now this little piggy went to market.
And this little piggy had roast beef.
No, this little piggy had none.
Because this little piggy was vegan.
He doesn’t eat roast beef. He’s weak.
He’s easy catching.
Has everybody got their gerbils? Alright?
Good. Okay, commence shaving!
What the fuck’s wrong with your face?! Christ on a bike, next time you’re smiling, warn me.
As incredible as me.
As spectacular as me.
As awesome as me.
Oh, the similes are just so limiting. Really.
Oh, this is a one-man job. A very big man with six arms and enough ears for each one of your fucking suggestions.
Where’d you put the pelican food? Where’d you put the pelican food?! They’re gonna be really cross if we don’t get the pelican food. Shit. I found the toys for the toucans, but I need the pelican food. If you don’t find their food, I’ll find a reason to punch you in the face. I’m not going out there without the pelican food. Fuck it, you can go out there.
You explain it to them. They’re all beaky and flappy. Once they get excited, they just cause a mess. There’s no reasoning with them, either. Nope. Unreasonable beaky twats. Big mouth fuckers. Find their food!
We should stand up for the downtrodden and ugly. Let them taste freedom for a moment … and then nuke the cunts.
I can see your future.
And—oh. You just had the best bit.
Talk once more, and I will sue you for ear abuse. Shame on you.
Shame! Auraphile.
The noodles are coming!
Stand by your chopsticks.
Steady the miso … Steady …
Don’t do anything until you see the whites of their strands.
It’ll suck to be a moose.
You just can’t play Pong.
I’m sorry,
I can’t come to the phone right now.
But if you’re not my mother, you can leave a message. Beeeep.
You didn’t leave me any ice cream.
Why didn’t you leave me any ice cream? You shit-head mother fuckers, you never give me any ice cream. Well happy fucking birthday. You’re fucks, the lot of you.
I only wanted some ice cream. With chocolate sauce. And Oreo. And marshmallow. And some chocolate sprinkles. Yeah, that’s all I wanted. AND A SPARKLER.
Couldn’t even do that for me.
I hate you all.
FUCK BAGS!
Damn those tortoises.
They outnumber us fifty to one, and we’re not allowed to carry stun guns! Oh!
Milkshake time! Everyone grab your cow!
BLECH!
You can’t give me that cottage cheese shit. It’s like albino diarrhea.
No puppy! Bad puppy!
Make you into puppy slippers.
One of the fun unexpected side effects of STM going public is that we’ve heard from and met some of the most extreme sleep talkers and walkers in the world. Compared to some of them, Sleep Talkin’ Man seems downright subdued! Once, on a talk show, we met a woman whose antics were truly impressive. On the mild end were the long bouts of sleepwalking where she’d pace angrily around the house wielding kitchen knives, or methodically wash all of her panties in the cat’s water bowl. On the extreme end was a story she told about the night that she went into her grandmother’s room, dragged granny out of bed, forced her into the bathroom, and tried to give her a bath.
So many people have written in to share their sleep talking and sleepwalking stories with us. It seems almost everyone has a tale about the bizarre things their bedmate, sibling, parent, or college roommate has done in the late-night hours, and, yowza, there are some shockers! An entirely unfettered subconscious can prompt some astonishing behavior, including breaking into your neighbor’s and crawling into bed with them, and (ew!) drinking the oil off the top of a jar of natural peanut butter.
I’ve sprinkled our favorite fan stories that we’ve received throughout this book as “Letters to Sleep Talkin’ Man.” I love this stuff. To m
e, the best thing about these anecdotes and the others we’ve heard is that (usually) no one is hurt by anyone’s sleeping antics and, in the end, everyone’s got a great story to share.
Letter to Sleep Talkin’ Man
One night I was having this dream, but it was the kind of dream where it feels like you’re actually awake. So as far as I knew I was awake, but I was actually sleepwalking. I went into the bathroom and saw the toothpaste lying on the counter, missing its cap. I don’t know why but for some reason this was the WORST possible thing that could EVER happen and if I didn’t find the cap IMMEDIATELY, the world was going to END!! So I looked everywhere—on the floor, under the cabinet, everywhere. No cap. Time was running out! Then I saw the roll of toilet paper and had an idea …
I grabbed the toilet paper and started wrapping it around the toothpaste. I wound it around and around till the whole roll was gone. So now I had a big ball of toilet paper holding the toothpaste in the tube, but NO! That wasn’t good enough! So I went into my room and opened my dresser drawer and
grabbed a couple T-shirts and wrapped those around, too. Finally, when I had a bundle the size of a football wrapped around the toothpaste I felt relief. The world was finally safe! I put the giant toothpaste tube–ball into my drawer, closed it, and went back to sleep in peace.
In the morning I woke up to the sound of my dad yelling, “WHEEERE’S THE TOOTHPASTE?” Suddenly I remembered the whole thing. “No, it can’t be,” I was thinking, “it had to be a dream …” But I opened my dresser drawer and … yep, there was the ball. So I started unwraaaapping it and unwraaaapping it—it took FOREVER. When I finally got all the stuff off, there in the middle was the toothpaste … with the cap on.
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