He whispers: “Judy?”
All he can hear is her scratching and his breathing. He wants to touch her, to hold her. He wants her to turn around and hold him.
“Judy?”
He reaches out an arm, his hand floating in the darkness, approaching her shoulder. She seems to shrink from him.
FADE
WHEN HE WAS young, he listened to a lot of Joy Division, and the album he played most often was Unknown Pleasures. The music – and the lyrics – appealed to a sense of grandiose melancholy within him. Joy Division were different from other bands. They even eschewed normal conventions of the recording industry: Unknown Pleasures wasn’t split between side one and side two. Its sides were called Outside and Inside. Outside had a back label, Inside was white.
Somewhere along the line, he had lost the inner sleeve, with its track listing information that appeared nowhere else on the packaging, so that he didn’t know which of the two sides of the album was meant to be side one and which side two. He decided it was up to the listener and it seemed to him that ‘She’s Lost Control’ was the perfect opener, while ‘New Dawn Fades,’ with its loaded guns and valedictory mood, was obviously intended to be the closing track.
When he taped it, he recorded it in that order, and it was the cassette he listened to most of the time.
It came as a shock when the album was released on CD, to discover that he had mixed up the sides. That the album opened with the relatively jaunty ‘Disorder’ and then as early as track two the listener was plunged into the existential horror of ‘Day of the Lords,’ which in turn meant that the album would conclude with the spare, echoey soundtrack of whip cracks and smashed glass that was ‘I Remember Nothing.’
HE FINDS HIMSELF on the landing again, facing the stairs up to the second floor. It’s very dark. He can still hear the scratching, but it appears to be coming from in front of him rather than from back in the room where he reached out to Judy and she turned away. If indeed it was Judy. He never saw her from the front, but he knows the shape and size of her, he knows the fall of her hair, the way it sticks out from her head a little on the left-hand side and curls under her chin on the right. Even from behind and in the dim glow of his mobile phone he had been sure it was her. Who else could it be? This was her home.
But the scratching is coming from above. He starts to climb, placing his palms flat against the walls in the absence of banisters. The walls feel drier, but dirty. Covered in a film of dust. He wipes his hands on his jeans. Continues ascending without the use of his hands. At the top of the stairs, the scratching is louder. He can’t see a thing. He takes his phone out of his pocket and presses the button to switch on the light. Then he jumps because she is right in front of him and in his fright he drops the phone. If he had taken another step he would have bumped into her. She has her back to him again – this he saw in the split second of dim illumination before dropping the phone – face to the wall right there on the landing.
“Judy?” he says, as he bends at the knees and feels around for his phone. “Judy?”
Scratch, scratch, scratch.
“Judy, will you turn round, please?”
Scratch, scratch, scratch, scratch.
He can see the curve of her back now, the fall of her hair.
“Judy, please!”
He locates the phone, puts it in his pocket, takes a step towards her, starts to come around to her left. She turns a fraction away from him, to the right.
Scratch, scratch.
He moves to the right, she to the left.
He lifts his hand, takes a final step forward.
FADE
IN JAPAN HE taught English as a foreign language, but took no formal tuition in Japanese. He felt excluded from society. Outside. What he did learn, he picked up from people he met, women he went out with, and from videos and, later, DVDs. He recorded Hitchcock movies off the television dubbed into Japanese, films he knew more or less off by heart, Rear Window, Vertigo, The Birds, and picked up words and phrases, even some constructions, that way.
When the J-horror trend emerged, he watched certain films – those that seemed closer to the suspense films of Hitchcock and others than some of the more supernatural fare on offer, so: Ringu, Audition, Dark Water – over and over again in the original language without subtitles.
It got to the stage where he was confident enough to speak to clients and colleagues in Japanese, but he started to get the feeling he was living in a movie – like being in a dream – and then he couldn’t shake it.
Finally, he decided, he was inside.
HE STANDS IN the middle of a room at the top of the house. He knows it’s at the top of the house in the way that you know things in a dream. But he also knows he is not dreaming.
It is dark.
Scratch, scratch, scratch, scratch, scratch.
He feels bare boards beneath his stockinged feet. He is shaking.
He can see a pale shape in the corner, facing the wall. The faintest glimmer coming off the hair.
“Judy?”
Scratch, scratch.
“JUDY!”
His voice is shockingly loud in the confined space, but flat. No echo. He listens to the thump of his heart. He takes a step forward and stops, unable to approach any nearer, incapable of turning away. He becomes aware of a faint square outline on the wall to his left. Curtains or a blind. Against the opposite wall, barely visible only when he doesn’t look directly at it, is what appears to be a large quadruped – big head, long body, short legs – or possibly a man on his elbows and knees.
He smells something sharp and sour. Meaty.
From behind him comes a small noise.
Then a hand on his shoulder.
FADE
HE COMES TO, curled up on his bench by the New River, teeth chattering. He slides round and sits up, staring blankly at the bright green weed that covers the surface of the water. He pulls his thin jacket around him in an effort to get warm. His shoes, he notices, are undone.
The streets are quiet, mid-morning lull. He walks slowly, more of a shuffle, his shoes still unlaced. He remembers how one of the first impressions he formed of the Japanese was that they shuffled rather than walked. They didn’t pick up their feet. It annoyed him at first, and then he got used to it, and soon he didn’t mind it. After a few years he no longer noticed it.
Approaching the house from Newington Green, he sees the green door before the red door. He stops in front of it and knocks twice. He remembers putting the door on the snib. He waits a few moments, then pushes on the door. It opens easily. He removes his shoes as he enters and places them just inside, then pushes the door to.
He looks around the room. It takes a moment to register. The place looks different – and not just because he is seeing it in daylight. The sofa is different. Less squashy, it has clean lines and looks firmer, smarter. He walks across the room and places his hand on the sofa. It does not feel gritty. He frowns, backs away, turns to the kitchen. Dualit toaster, Bosch fridge.
He steps into the hall, checks out the framed photo on the wall, which is the same. He recognises the street now as the one he is on – block of flats, wide pavement – only the house he is standing in is not present in the shot. It should be, but it’s not.
He faces the stairs and climbs to the half-landing. He feels the walls with his hands – they are clean and smooth. He places his stockinged feet with care, becoming aware of a faint smell of chocolate and ammonia – or something – something acrid and smoky. He turns the corner and continues to ascend. He touches his hand to the wall, which is neither cold nor damp. Stepping on to the landing, he peers into the first of the two rooms directly opposite. Sparsely furnished, it looks like the bedroom of a single woman. He walks softly across to the far wall, which is papered and painted. There are no marks on the wall.
Back on the landing, where the smell is stronger, he can hear a noise, not a scratching but a low murmur. He climbs the stairs. The murmur is a woman’s voice.
It stops when he reaches the top landing. There are two rooms, just as on the lower floor. He can see into the room on the left. The boards have been stripped and polished, as on the landing itself. In the room, which is flooded with light from the uncurtained, open window, there is a long, low couch like a chaise longue. It is positioned alongside the right-hand wall, exactly where he had thought he had seen some kind of animal. Lying on it, on her back, her blonde hair streaming out over the couch’s single arm, is Judy. Standing beyond her with his back to the couch is a man of average height, but, as he starts to turn, well-above-average body mass. He holds a lit cigar in the stubby fingers of his right hand.
“Judy?”
She looks towards the door.
The man with the cigar gives a loud laugh and then says, “Are you conducting a survey?”
“Judy?” he says, ignoring the man with the cigar.
She raises her head and upper body off the couch and rests on her elbows, looking amused.
“Judy,” he says, “what’s he doing here?” He points to the man with the cigar. “You go to him. I’ve seen you. Every Monday. What’s he doing here?”
The man with the cigar laughs again.
“I think someone came in the wrong door, Madeleine,” says the man with the cigar. “Don’t you?”
“Madeleine?” he says. “Where’s Judy?”
“Next door, of course,” says the man with the cigar.
“Judy,” he says, hearing the pleading tone in his own voice.
“Next door,” says the man with the cigar.
“What do you mean next door? There is no next door. Just an abandoned pub.”
“The room next door, dummy.”
Madeleine laughs and doesn’t raise her hand to cover her mouth.
He starts to back out of the room as Madeleine reclines once more and the man with the cigar turns his back to her again, as if they are about to resume an interrupted session.
On the landing he takes a breath. The stairs down are in front of him. He turns to his left and stands in front of the door to the other room. He sees his hand reach out and grasp the knob and twist it. The door opens on to more stripped pine floorboards. He enters the room and closes the door behind him.
The room is about ten foot square with cream anaglypta wallpaper. There’s a sash window, which is open. Standing in the middle of the room, facing him, is Judy. Her hair curls up under her chin on one side, sticks out endearingly on the other. Her lips part. He sees her teeth glinting. A filament of saliva, pulled taut. He leans forward, closes his eyes.
They kiss.
Finally, he is inside.
When he opens his eyes, she’s gone and he’s alone in the room. He tries the door, but it’s locked. He goes to the window and looks out. The wide pavement, two storeys down; cars driving by, a taxi and a bus; the other side of the street, which he has walked down but never seen from this angle before. It’s not so interesting. He backs away from the window and approaches the wall to have a closer look at the anaglypta. Right where he’s standing, the textured wallpaper shows signs of having been scored with something sharp – a knife, a pen or, at a push, finger nails. He moves along to the left and finds more deep scratches. And more beyond those. He follows them on to the adjacent wall and so on round the room until he is back at the window, breathing fast and shallow. He leans out. The upper floors of the building immediately across the street have silvered windows. They must be at just the wrong angle, because he cannot see a reflection of the tall, narrow house. He cannot see himself leaning out of the window on the top floor. Just the block of flats behind, and the abandoned pub alongside.
He thinks of the photograph in the hall downstairs. He had thought maybe the picture had been taken before the house was built, but the house was older than the block of flats behind it. You only had to look at it to see that. You only had to look at it.
He looked down at the pavement. If the house didn’t exist, jumping from its second floor was hardly likely to kill him.
THE HOUSE
ERIC BROWN
Eric is best known as a science-fiction writer, but I knew, from the depth and strength of his prose, that he would be able to turn his hand to almost anything. Hence, I asked Eric to write outside of his field and ‘The House’ is the result of that request. If you know Eric’s work, then you know he is brilliant at portraying convincing relationships (check out his superb novel Kings of Eternity for example) and the couple in ‘The House’ show the strength of Eric’s fiction when it comes to matters of the heart. Here we have two people, fighting to stay together in the face of a very unusual haunting.
CHARLES TUDOR LOOKED up from his typewriter and blinked. It was a second before he came to his senses and realised the source of the interruption: the phone was ringing in the hall. He pushed his chair back and stood slowly. The summons could only be from two or three people – his agent, his editor, or some pre-pubescent girl in the marketing department at his publishers, Greenwood and Worley.
He moved into the hall and picked up the receiver. “Hello?”
“Charles, Edward here. How are you this fine spring morning?”
He blinked. “Spring?”
“It’s the first of April, Charles.”
“And you’ve called to play an April Fool’s trick, hmm?”
“That’s the Tudor I know!” his agent roared. “Droll as ever. No, no April Fool’s trick this year. I was wondering –”
Tudor forestalled him. “The answer’s ‘no,’ Edward.”
“You don’t even know what I’m about to ask.”
“I can guess. You’d like me to take part in some wretched publicity event.” The third book in the Tides of Time series was due to launch in a couple of weeks, and he would be expected to publicise the title.
“For Nigel,” Edward wheedled. “You don’t know how he’s bent over backwards to push the series. It’s the least you could do.”
“Fuck off.”
Edward laughed.
“What?” Tudor snapped.
“You invest that vulgar phrase with such Shakespearian gravitas, Charles.” His agent paused. “You do realise you’re getting a reputation as something of a recluse?”
Tudor sighed. Is it any wonder, he thought.
Edward went on, “To be honest, it would be a great favour to me as well as to Nigel. And to your readers.”
He hadn’t been up to London for years, and it would keep the drones at G&W smiling...
“You have a massive fan base out there,” Edward said, “all eager to meet the creator of the Tides of Time books.”
He relented. “One event, Charles. One. No more.”
His agent chuckled with relief. “That’s all we ask, Charles. A signing at Waterstone’s, Piccadilly, in a couple of weeks.”
“I’ll need a drink to get me through the bloody thing.”
“I’ll have the best French red on hand during the signing, and afterwards I’ll take you to lunch.”
“The Ivy?”
“Done,” Edward said. “Everyone at Greenwood and Worley will be so excited.”
“Fuck off.”
HE RETURNED TO his study and finished the paragraph, which brought the scene to a close.
He sat back and looked across the room, to where he knew he would see himself, long and grey, in the mirror propped between the bookshelves. He was sixty-five, he realised with a reaction little short of amazement. Where had all the years gone?
He remembered a long, hard walk he had done in his twenties, back from the pub to this very house, long before he’d married Emmeline. Three miles through horizontal sleet, frozen to the marrow. He’d looked ahead and told himself that it would soon be over; soon he would be sitting before the blazing fire, looking back at the labour of the walk... An hour later he had done just that, and had known that his life would follow this pattern, too. One day he would be contemplating his existence from the vantage point of old age, and the long cold walk would seem to have pas
sed in an instant.
The idea had terrified him then, and it was easy to recapture that youthful terror now; though, paradoxically, the terror was temporized by the passage of the treacherous years themselves. The terror had transmuted to bemused acceptance.
The view through the French windows was little changed in forty years. The lawn stretched to the fulsome willow, and squirrels frolicked, twitching, back and forth. He saw Emmeline run naked from her studio, taken by some impulse of her manic phase to disport herself amid nature... He smiled to himself and blinked and she was gone, a vision of utter beauty alive, now, only in his memories. The image of her was replaced by other, later ones, which he tried to banish.
He pulled his gaze from the lawn and regarded the bookshelf beside the mirror. Seventy books bearing the by-line of Charles Tudor filled the four shelves, all of them for children. His first three books, reading editions of his early plays, he had long ago taken out into the garden and burnt along with a trunk of Emmeline’s clothes. He told himself that the ranked titles did not make him bitter, did not denote a lifetime of wasted effort that would have been better spent writing serious plays.
But that would have been impossible, he told himself.
He sighed and brought his flattened palms down, once, on the arms of the chair, then stood.
Lunchtime.
TUDOR HAD HATED the stultifying routine of book-signings in his early years as a children’s writer, the embarrassment of events attended only by his editor, agent, three sheepish shop staff and a couple of kids disappointed that their favourite writer should turn out to be so... boring. Now he abhorred signings because they were so bloody popular.
The children’s section of the store teemed with what seemed like a hundred noisy ten-year olds, shepherded by harassed staff who themselves seemed not much older.
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