‘I couldn’t get the battery out,’ she said, raising a helpless arm in the general direction.
‘It’s okay, we’re here now.’ A young male police officer was beside her. He ushered her back to her own car.
She put her hand on the door handle.
‘I’m afraid I’ll need a statement before I can let you go,’ he said, taking a notebook from his top pocket.
Claire checked her watch. ‘I really need to get going. I…’
‘It’ll only take a few moments.’
I don’t have a few moments, Claire wanted to tell him. ‘I really don’t think I’ll be much help,’ she said, quickly, hoping her tone would hurry him up.
‘How about you let me be the judge of that?’ he said.
‘I don’t mean to be rude but there’s somewhere I really need to be. Could I just call into a police station later? Or maybe phone you in a couple of hours?’
‘I’m afraid not – it’s important to get the facts down as quickly as possible.’
Claire took a deep breath and tried to keep her exasperation at bay. But her eyes kept going to the watch on her wrist.
‘Right. Full name and address please.’ The pencil he held was poised above a small notepad.
Claire rattled off the details.
‘Now, what exactly did you see, Ms McIntyre?’
‘Well I was just driving along – on the speed limit – and they roared past me – definitely speeding. When I came around this bend they were just there, like that,’ she said, indicating towards the wreckage.
‘You say they were speeding – any idea how fast?’
‘No, not really.’
‘Significantly faster than you or just a bit?’
‘I have no idea. It all happened very fast.’
‘But they were definitely speeding?’
‘Yes.’
‘And you can be sure because…’
‘Because I was doing the speed limit – 100 – and they both went past me. That means they were speeding, right? Look, I really don’t have time for this.’
‘And you say you came around the bend and there they were?’
‘Yes.’
‘And then what did you do?’
‘I was trying to call emergency but my phone didn’t have a signal. And then the couple in the four-wheel drive turned up.’
‘So they were the ones who called the emergency services?’
‘Yes – the woman did.’
‘So their phone had service then?’
‘I guess it must have done,’ she said, a sarcastic tone creeping into her voice. She half expected him to tell her to change her carrier to someone more reliable.
‘Right. And then what did you do?’
‘Well I was trying to figure out how to disconnect the batteries. That’s what I was doing when the CFS – and you – turned up. Please, can I go now?’ She willed herself not to look at her watch.
‘If you’re sure you’ve got nothing more to add.’
‘Yes, I’m sure. That’s all I know.’
‘Right, thank you. Yes, you can go. But we might need to contact you at a later date.’
‘Fine.’
The police officer opened Claire’s door and she got in. ‘You okay to drive?’ the policeman asked. But it sounded more like a statement than a genuine enquiry.
‘Yes, fine, thanks,’ she said, nodding. But Claire didn’t feel fine at all. She felt shaken and traumatised, not at all like she should be driving. But she had to sort out Paycheque, and time was running out.
She started her car and looked down the road. She began to feel queasy at the thought of having to drive past the wreckage. Suddenly Keith was in one of those cars, fighting for his life, in immense pain but only able to offer groans as his body failed. She had to get out of here.
‘You sure you’re okay? You look a bit pale. Maybe you should hang around for a bit longer.’
‘I’m fine, really,’ she lied. She checked her mirrors, put the car in gear, and pulled carefully onto the road. After she’d passed the wreckage she noticed in her rear vision mirror that the CFS crew were beginning to block the road with witches’ hats.
As she drove, Claire debated whether to call in and see if Bernadette was available to lend a hand. She felt wrecked. It had already been a long, difficult day and it was far from over. Claire pulled a sticky hand from the wheel, ran it across her forehead and let out a deep sigh. She’d gone off to clear her head with a bit of shopping before visiting Jack. If only she’d gone for a walk instead.
Claire pulled into the rough driveway and tried to ignore the depressing emptiness that was the absence of horses mooching about in paddocks. She consoled herself that all that was about to change. But would it? She wondered. One horse was a start, but it would hardly bring the old place back to life. Horses were social animals – what if Paycheque was miserable here on his own? She brightened – people were always trying to find homes for unwanted horses and ponies. Bernadette was bound to know someone who knew someone. That was one of the great things about country life.
Claire was so focussed on summoning the energy to go into the house she almost didn’t see Bernadette’s car by the front verandah. Her best friend was grinning cheekily at her from the back steps. Claire leapt out of the car and threw her arms around her.
‘What are you doing here?’
‘Little bird told me you might need a hand picking up a horse.’
Claire’s eyes were wide. ‘How the hell…? This place is far too small,’ she said, and laughed.
‘I’ll tell you on the way,’ she said, clapping her hands. ‘Let’s get this show on the road.’
‘The ute keys are inside,’ Claire said. She retrieved the house key from her glove box and then stood in front of the door. She wanted to be strong and just open the door and walk in. But she couldn’t. She felt a complete fool – it was so damn childish.
In a split second Bernadette had grabbed the key.
‘Pathetic, huh?’
‘Not at all. But I say we deal with it another day – we’ve got a horse to get.’
‘Keys are on the shelf above the kettle, just inside the kitchen.’
‘Thanks. Now you organise a halter and fill a hay net. I’ll meet you at the float.’
Rarely did Claire McIntyre enjoy being told what to do, even by her best friend. But right now she was relieved to have someone else giving the orders.
Twenty minutes later they were heading off.
‘I can’t believe the ute started first time,’ Claire said.
‘Obviously I had my tongue held right.’ Bernadette grinned and patted the steering wheel, cooing, ‘Who’s a good girl, then?’
Claire hadn’t objected when Bernadette had climbed back into the driver’s seat after hooking on the float. Now the adrenaline was starting to subside, she didn’t think she’d be able to drive anyway. She stretched her legs out and noticed a pair of work boots on the floor at her feet. She picked them up and turned them over wondering what they were doing there.
Bernadette noticed her quizzical expression. ‘I grabbed the smallest from the laundry – I assumed they must be yours.’
‘Yes, thanks, but I can’t possibly wear them.’
‘Why not?’
Claire indicated her attire with raised eyebrows.
‘I don’t care how you look – safety first. I’m not having a cantankerous horse and you with a broken foot to deal with alone. Anyway, Jack would kill me. Remember the day he caught us without boots and helmets at the quarry?’
‘God, yes. And we were doing so well impressing those boys until he turned up. How embarrassing.’
‘Yeah, but don’t worry, no one will see you today.’
They were bound to bump into the whole damn town if her current track record was anything to go by, but Claire was too tired to argue. She just hoped Paycheque would behave himself. At least they had safety in numbers, if not strength. She and Bernadette had always been a
great team – highly competitive at times, but a great team when it counted.
After a few moments, Claire snapped to attention. ‘Oh my God! I still haven’t rung the hospital,’ she blurted. ‘Jack’ll be wondering where I am.’
‘It’s okay – I rang them and explained. Well sort of. They said they’d make up some innocuous story. They’re still keeping things simple with him until he’s stronger. So don’t worry, it’s all under control.’
‘I can’t thank you enough, Bernie – you’re the best…’
‘I know, I know. Don’t go getting all carried away,’ Bernadette said quickly. ‘We’ve a mission to complete.’
Claire sat upright. ‘So how did you find out about all this anyway?’
‘About third hand I think – you know how the bush telegraph works. Daryl Hannaford came into the shop – you remember him, has the cherry orchard out on Grey’s Road. Anyway, he was at the post office and overheard one of the guys from the abattoir telling someone else the hilarious story of some crazy, dolled-up city chick by the name of McIntyre turning up and paying double to save a horse from the knackery.
‘Oh great,’ Claire groaned, ‘I’m now my very own urban myth.’
‘Country actually,’ Bernadette corrected with a grin.
‘But I didn’t tell anyone my name.’
‘It’s stamped on your cheque, silly.’
Chapter Eleven
A few hours later they had kicked off their shoes, poured glasses of wine, and were curled up on Bernadette’s couch. Paycheque was settled at the farm with plenty of food and water.
The horse had behaved perfectly, loading and unloading like a dream – though Bernadette hadn’t given him any choice. She’d marched up to the little horse, put the halter on him, and was leading him up the ramp before he had a chance to object. All the time she spoke in a commanding tone, telling him she didn’t have time for any games, and to consider himself very lucky not to have ended up in the shed like his friends. He hadn’t stood a chance.
Claire had barely gotten her boots on before it was all over, but she didn’t mind at all. She didn’t have the energy and patience for a battle of wills, which invariably occurred when it was the last thing one could cope with.
Horses always knew the best time – or worst, depending on how you wanted to look at it – to put up a fight. Often you only had to show you had all day and were prepared to win at all costs and their bravado would crumple like a haystack piled too high. Most people just didn’t take the time to understand what made them tick.
The girls were silent, enjoying their wine. Claire was too exhausted for chit-chat, Bernadette too deep in thought.
‘Claire?’ Bernadette asked after a few minutes.
‘Yeah,’ Claire said wearily.
‘What now?’
‘What do you mean, what now? Oh. I’ve outstayed my welcome, haven’t I?’
‘Of course not! Don’t be ridiculous – you’ve only been here twenty-four hours. No, I mean, what now for Paycheque?’
‘Tomorrow I’ll turn him out into the paddock and he’ll stay there until Dad’s well enough to deal with him.’
‘But that could be weeks, maybe months. Meanwhile you’ll have to check on him at least every second day. How are you going to do that from the city?’
‘So I have worn out my welcome.’
‘No, but you probably will have in a few weeks. Anyway, you’re a city chick now, remember? You hate being up here in the sticks for too long. Ringing a bell?’
‘Bloody hell, Bernie. You’re the one always saying, “feel it inside, listen to your unconscious, follow your heart, blah blah blah.” And what do I do? Take a step in that direction and instantly I’ve done the wrong thing…’
‘I’m not saying you’ve done the wrong thing at all. Paycheque needed saving – Jack needed him saved. But you know there’s a lot more to it than that. What the hell are you going to do with him?’
‘I don’t know. I need a few days to think things through.’
‘If only you’d done that the first time around,’ she muttered. Claire’s face fell. ‘Sorry, that wasn’t fair.’
‘No, it wasn’t. Bernie I feel guilty enough about getting rid of Dad’s horses so quickly without you rubbing it in, thank you very much. Anyway, this time it’s only Paycheque – it’s a totally different situation.’
‘So why were you in such a rush to get rid of them?’
‘Dad wouldn’t have wanted anyone to be burdened with looking after them.’
‘You could have done it, you’re his daughter. I think that’s a little different.’
‘How was I going to do it while working and living in the city?’
‘You could have used some of that leave you never took and moved into the farm for a while.’
‘Yeah, and what would I have done all day? I would have been bored out of my brain.’
‘I don’t know – maybe chilled out, enjoyed the fresh country air and contemplated life? You could have kept Jack’s horses fit. It would have been good for you. Instead you had to bulldoze your way into his life and take charge.’
‘I had to. Jack wouldn’t want to be a burden.’
‘So you keep saying – you’re starting to sound like a broken record. Anyway he was in a coma, he wouldn’t have known. It’s time you stopped with the bullshit and admitted the truth.’
‘What do you mean?’ Claire sat up.
‘Claire, just bloody admit it – the reason you were so quick to sell his horses was to force him into retirement, regardless of what happened with his health…’
‘That’s not…’
‘So why not just send them out for agistment?’
‘Because agistment costs a fortune and I needed the money to pay his bills.’
‘Get real, Claire. You know nothing about his finances – you haven’t shown an interest in years.’
‘Why are you being so horrible all of a sudden?’
‘I’m not. I’m your friend, Claire, and I love you. I’m just trying to get you to be honest with yourself so you can start dealing with all the pain you’re bottling up inside. It’s not healthy.’
‘I have dealt with it. I’ve got Paycheque back, haven’t I?’
‘So you’re going to track the others down and have them back in the paddock when Jack returns – pretend nothing’s changed?’
‘Don’t be ridiculous – I have no idea where the others are. Anyway, we don’t even know if he’ll be up to training again.’
‘You’d like that, wouldn’t you?’
‘Bernie, that’s a horrible thing to say. He’d be miserable without his horses.’
‘Why didn’t you think about that two months ago? Just admit it, Claire. You’ve tried to control him, just like you try to control everything else in your life.’
‘I did what I thought was best.’
‘Yes, but for you, Claire, not for Jack. Can’t you see that?’
Claire sighed deeply. Bernie was right, just like she always was. She had tried to control Jack, taken the first opportunity to try and change his life to better match her ideals. She sat in silent contemplation for a few minutes.
‘Maybe you’re right. Oh Bernie, what have I done? What am I going to do?’
‘Well, for a start you need to stop trying to control everything. Things tend to work themselves out okay if you let them.’
‘You really do believe that, don’t you, no matter how bad things get?’
‘Yes, I do – and one day you will, too. You just need to learn to trust your intuition.’
‘Which is what you can help with, right?’ Claire smiled, despite being hurt and annoyed.
‘Exactly! Have I ever let you down before?’
‘No.’ Claire grinned. She could never stay annoyed at Bernadette for long – her friend’s wisdom always managed to penetrate her darkest, most negative moods.
‘But first we need food – I’ll heat up the leftovers. And get another bottle of win
e. No reasonable plan was ever laid without copious amounts of wine. Don’t you move,’ Bernadette ordered.
Later that night, Claire lay in bed emotionally and physically exhausted but unable to sleep. Her head was still spinning, partially from the wine and partially from the day’s events. Tomorrow she would find out exactly what Jack’s condition and prognosis was, and establish a rehabilitation strategy for when he could come home. Of course Bernie was right: she couldn’t oversee his recovery and Paycheque’s wellbeing based in the city. There was no alternative but to move into the farmhouse. She had known it all along, just hadn’t wanted to face it.
At first she’d shuddered at the thought of immersing herself in country life – it was quite another thing to be able to escape back to the city when it all got too much. But as Bernie had been quick to point out, she could always rent her own place nearby if it all got too much living with Jack.
Despite the options, Claire had had a vision of herself as a scary old spinster with a houseful of cats. She realised she’d spoken her fears aloud when Bernadette replied that she’d make sure only two cats were on the premises at any one time. At that moment, Bernadette’s three rescued moggies had wandered past. The girls had exchanged glances – Claire raising her eyebrows – before both of them erupted into fits of laughter.
‘Okay, you’re allowed three,’ Bernadette had said after a few moments, clutching her stomach with one hand and brushing away the tears with the other.
Now Claire lay in bed wondering exactly what she was so afraid of. Bernadette was perfectly happy, unmarried in her own cottage with her menagerie. But somehow that wasn’t enough. She had no idea of what, but she wanted – needed – more.
She finally fell asleep to the droning purrs of the three cats which had sprawled out around her on the queen-size bed.
Chapter Twelve
‘Dad, it’s so good to see you finally awake!’ Claire cried, rushing over to the bed.
Claire was surprised and disappointed to find the only improvement in her father’s health were his open eyes. He was gaunt: a pale salmony grey. He tried to smile a greeting but his face refused to oblige. The corners of his mouth held small glistening pools of dribble. It was heartbreaking.
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