“Christian it wasn’t your fault either. I felt something was wrong and I should have never let Allen talk me into going alone with him. He was my friend and I honestly thought he would understand that I would never be more than friends with him.’
“Allen really had been a nice guy before he went nuts. Everyone liked him and I only wished he would have remained the same man I knew from when we played at the ball the first time we met.’
“Allen was always a funny flirt and was a lot of fun to be around. I will miss my friend in some ways, but at the same time I am glad he is dead. Maybe now he won’t suffer any longer.”
Ashton said sadly since Allen had been a dear friend. Ashton had cared very much for Allen and felt so bad when he broke Allen’s heart. Still Ashton had told Allen several times that he wanted to just be friends. It really sucked that things had turned out this way.
“So, you did care for him.”
Christian said dejectedly. Christian did not like competition and pretty much hated Allen.
“As a friend, of course I did. If you had gotten to know Allen before he went nuts, you would have probably liked him too. I should have never agreed to go on a date with him, but I wanted you to feel what it was like to be ignored and hurt like you hurt me. So, I guess I used Allen a bit and it was wrong of me. I will never play with anyone’s feelings like that again.’
“I am also a flirt and I gave Allen the wrong ideas about me. I knew better, but I still did it. It was me who drove Allen over the edge and it is my fault for leading him on.’
“I also did not know the significance of a pocket watch to a reaper. It was like giving the poor guy an engagement present. I read his thoughts even while I was sedated. His thoughts were so loud and no matter what I did I knew I was in the wrong. I should have inquired with Kingsly and William about Allen’s gift since I should have gotten him a simple keychain or something less significant.’
“Like I said, I led him on and made him believe I wanted to be in a serious relationship with him. I screwed up and it is my fault he went insane.”
Ashton stated with a frown. Ashton would never forgive himself for hurting his friend.
“Ashton, you did not know your gift would be taken the way it was. Hell, when Sebastian helped you pick it out he was thinking of how much William liked his watch that he and Calis bought him.’
“Also, I knew you were a flirt and have known that for years Ashton. I always found it adorable even when at times it made me jealous as hell. Harmless flirting never hurt anyone and you never did throw yourself at Allen. I watched you with him even when you went to that restaurant in town. I took a table not too far from yours to insure you were safe with him.’
“You were always upfront with Allen. You always let him know you wanted to be merely friends. He pushed it not you. Allen was obsessed with you and you did nothing to provoke that.”
Christian stated firmly as he turned Ashton around to kneel in front of him.
“Ashton, my precious boy, you are never to blame yourself for the events that happened in your life. You did not ask to become a slave and you did not ask to become a lover to a sick old man. You did what you had to so you could survive. That is all you did.’
“I should go to hell for what I did to you and rot there. I should be shamed by my cold heartless actions towards you. We could have been in love together for eternity. I could have taken your soul and we would have been together in a way that is even more powerful than what we have now.’
“You would have lived inside of me as my dearest love and our love would have been strong enough for you to become eventually a physical being as you are now with the two of us having the bond that would surpass any you could possibly imagine.”
Christian said cupping Ashton’s face gently in his hand.
“So, you wouldn’t have just eaten my soul and left me to hell in your body.”
Ashton asked since he did not know Christian had indeed loved him.
“Had I not been a fool, I would have taken your soul, eaten it, and spent eternity with you by my side. I would have felt the light and then your soul would burst free with you being as you are now. I would cling to you no matter the pain and our souls would be as one.’
“A demon never wants to be alone forever. We constantly search for souls, but there are few of us like myself and Sebastian who will starve ourselves for a perfect soul.’
“You my dearest have a perfect soul. Your soul was filled with both the beauty of your innocence and horror. It was the perfect blend of both good and evil. Now it is merely filled with good and innocence. It is still a perfect soul to me, but before your soul would have been absolutely delicious to me and it would have been my very last meal as a demon.”
Christian said as he caressed that beautiful face and hugged Ashton to him. Ashton wasn’t sure about this conversation. He did not want to be seen as merely a meal to a demon.
“So, you still want to eat my soul?”
Ashton asked feeling a bit odd about this whole thing. Christian of course felt he was giving Ashton a compliment plus showing his true love for the boy.
“Yes, I do. I still crave it although I cannot eat it now. I talk to your soul with my own and they both wish to be one. Like I said you cannot even fathom the power when souls finally merge. It is like nothing you have ever experienced in your life and my only wish is to do a merger with your soul so we can feel each other’s love forever.”
Christian said as he pulled away and Ashton looked down into the tub. Ashton now knew that Christian was still obsessed with gaining his soul so did he truly love him? Ashton knew he loved Christian, but did Christian really love him or just his soul?
“Ashton, I love all of you. I truly do. I just wish I could show you the feeling of being as one. Calis and Sebastian’s souls merged after they proclaimed their love for one another and after they made the final contract with each other. I carry your mark, but you no longer carry mine. I believe if we do this our souls will merge into one and we shall have eternity together with added power to the bond we share.”
Christian stated hoping Ashton would consider this.
“How would we form a contract? I mean I already know what I did to you although I don’t see you as my slave. You are also more to me than a mere butler as you well know Christian.”
Ashton said wondering what Christian wanted in order to fulfill a new contract.
“Ashton set me free. Allow me to refuse your orders when necessary. Please my love, if you love me than set me free of the chains you have bound me with and give me that same privilege that Calis gave Sebastian.”
Christian begged as he looked into his little lover’s eyes.
“I already do that now Christian. I mean when you balk at something you merely do not do it usually. I rarely give you orders now as it is.”
Ashton said trying to figure out what Christian wanted.
“Yes, I know this, but the words have not been said and fact is really you could order me to do several things with me unable to refuse them. All I am asking for is your words to make this contract.”
Christian looked into Ashton’s eyes to see if the boy was willing to do this for him. If Ashton did this, than he would be truly free and would know his beloved’s true feelings of love for him.
“Fine, we shall make this contract. From this point on you may refuse my orders.”
Christian kissed him as his mark showed up on Ashton’s tongue with a bright light surrounding them both exploding merging their souls in a way that made them truly as one. Ashton then felt it, the combining of souls and the deep love that Christian felt for him. Their souls were touching and combining into one powerful light. It was amazing and Christian was right, the power Ashton felt was unreal.
Christian held Ashton in his arms tightly as Ashton leaned against him.
“Now do you feel it Ashton? Do you feel our eternal bond? Now you should know my true feelings for you.”
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stian felt completely free. He was no longer a slave even if he would still remain as Ashton’s butler. Christian was only a slave to the love he felt for this precious boy and he was fine with that. Now they would live together and die together. Once a soul merged it was as though they were one body. If anything happened to Ashton, Christian would feel it so intensely that he would know exactly where Ashton was no matter what. Christian would be with Ashton in his mind feeling and seeing everything he saw. Christian would know what Ashton was thinking even better than before.
“I love you Ashton.”
Christian kissed the top of the boy’s head and caressed him gently.
“I love you too Christian.”
Ashton said as he held his beloved butler.
“Ashton marry me. Marry me and be my husband. I have a ring for you I was going to give you at the reaper’s ball, but we were unable to do that. Please Ashton be mine.”
Christian kissed Ashton passionately and Ashton smiled widely.
“Of course, I will marry you Christian!”
Ashton practically yelled out with the biggest smile on his face as he laughed happily then kissed Christian all over his face.
Christian was glad his little lover was happy and held his most precious boyfriend as he bounced a bit in the tub splashing water everywhere. Christian held his little lover still for a moment and nibbled on that little ear.
“Ashton, I know you were traumatized so I won’t push, however when you are ready for me let me know. It may be hard for me for a while since you are temptation itself, but I will do my best to respect your wishes.”
Christian said softly into that perfect ear and then kissed Ashton gently on the neck.
“Christian I have been raped before. It is a terrible thing, but I never considered what you do with me as rape. You are always so gentle with me and what we do is out of love. Just show me with all your heart how much you love me. I need your touch and maybe making love to me will help me forget all the bad.”
Ashton said looking Christian in the eyes then kissing him gently on the lips.
“Ashton, I will touch you and give you pleasure, but I will not penetrate you except with my tongue until I feel enough time has passed for you to get through this difficult time. Also, this rape just happened so for now I want you to keep your eyes open when I do touch you and know that it is me who is doing this. I don’t want you to ever feel regret or fear from me. I want nothing we do to remind you of the pains you have suffered.”
Christian kissed his beloved gently all over his face, on those soft full lips and gently nibbled those ears.
“Christian…….”
Ashton started to argue since he felt he was ready for Christian just to take him.
“No Ashton. You will heed my words. You are not ready for more; I will know when you are my dearest. Now that our souls are combined I know how you really feel and you are afraid to be penetrated, even my tongue will be a challenge for you. As an immortal adult, I am responsible for your wellbeing. Even Sebastian is a mere pup to me.”
Christian said with a bit of a frown since he was indeed older than Sebastian. In truth Ashton was just a baby compared to him and yet the boy tried to give him everything of himself. It was beautiful and Christian loved Ashton so much for the child’s innocence and purity. Christian did not want to destroy the trust he had with Ashton and tarnish the boy’s innocence.
“Ok Christian, but I do not want to wait long for you to make love to me. I love being touched and made love to by you. I’ve never felt such pleasure until you had touched me and made me see that sex did not have to hurt.”
Ashton frowned a bit as Christian caressed his cheek then playfully flicked that cowlick that was like a permanent feature in the front of the boy’s bangs. Ashton was such an adorable little thing and Christian loved him so much he ached with it.
“The water is starting to get cold Ashton so we need to get you washed up and ready for bed.”
Christian said as he made Ashton sit back down and washed the boy everywhere including that silky golden hair. Then Christian swiftly washed himself and his hair getting out of the tub with Ashton to dry them both.
When the two got into the room Christian noted that the room was a bit cooler and the window was open with three reapers standing there with William finally closing the window.
Luckily, Ashton and Christian were wrapped in towels otherwise Christian would have been rather displeased.
“My little Prince………please forgive me!”
Kingsly sobbed as he rushed to Ashton dropping to his knees grasping Ashton across the legs almost making the boy fall on top of him.
“Kingsly, I am not mad at you. Why do I need to forgive you?”
Ashton asked since he was confused.
“Allen was my protégé and it was my fault that he went after you! We should not have ever let him go! I should have been there for him and for you!”
Kingsly cried as the harsh words from the board members still echoed in his brain. William had put a stop to it, but they had all blamed Kingsly except for the original Grim Reaper who simply stood in a black cowl robe with his skeletal face and glowing red eyes boring into him as if accusing him to of failing Allen.
“Kingsly please stop it. It wasn’t your fault and the Grim Reaper knows this. I told you I took care of it and I did. Ashton doesn’t blame you and fact is no one had the right to accuse you of anything. You are a good reaper and so was Allen before he went insane. His issues were not your fault my love.”
William said as he rushed over to Kingsly gently pulling him off the boy as Kingsly sobbed in William’s arms.
“But I cannot forgive myself…….”
Kingsly said shaking his head in agony. The board members did a number on the poor reaper before William had said anything and Kingsly was so very sensitive it was as though they stabbed him in the back.
“Kingsly you have always been so nice to me and you’ve been like family to me. You are the weird older brother I never had and I love you. I don’t blame you at all.”
Ashton walked to the bed and sat down. He was tired and did not want to think about Allen anymore. Ashton did not want to comfort anyone else since he was already dealing with his own pain, but Kingsly was special to him.
“We won’t be long Ashton, but Kingsly and Ronald wanted to come check up on you to see if you were all right. We all knew Allen well and feel very bad that he had hurt you. We all feel it was our responsibility to watch over our own and we failed in that. It will not happen again so we are doing searches far and wide for reapers gone rogue so that we can either dispatch them or keep track of them. Nothing like this will happen to another person again.”
William said as he walked around the bed and gathered his jacket from the dresser.
“I was going to clean and press that.”
Christian said in frustration since the jacket was a bit dirty.
“You have done enough although I am not certain I trust you just yet. The reapers care very much for the two cherubs in this household and it is my job as their personal reaper to insure their safety from anyone. I may care for Sebastian and trust him now, however if either of you chose to become demons again I will warn you once that if a hair is harmed on either of these boy’s heads by either of you I will personally come down and kill you.’
“Really, it disgusts me that two grown men are having sex with mere immortal children. I do know that now obviously mentally these boys are not children to the modern world. However, in the world of the immortals like me they are babies.’
“Also, both you and Sebastian instigated sexual relations with these children before they were adults in mind. It is sick and I thought humans were bad. Both Ashton and Calis have been through enough hell in their lives without either of you dragging them down into your own personal issues.’
“Sebastian is going to get an earful too so do not think this is personal just because I don’t like you Christian. I don�
��t like a lot of people as Kingsly knows. It takes a lot for me to feel anything for anyone.’
“I know Liam and he will have some words for you to Christian. Before you even think of marrying this child, you have to get his blessing or we won’t allow it. We have ways of killing both Angels and Demons so do not think for one second we are not watching.”
William said before taking Kingsly to the other side of the house.
“Sorry about that. William is very strict and does everything by the book as well as having a stick up his ass a mile long.”
Ronald said to Christian who finally breathed again since William scared the hell out of him.
“Actually, I owe a lot to that man so I will try my best not to piss him off.”
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