Denise comes back from lunch. Bloody Nigel, she mutters to me. We could all be about to lose our jobs, and all he can do is smarm up to Guy and talk about business process reengineering or what have you. Theyre standing by the coffee machine now, talking about downsizing like its not human beings wholl be affected. Hes got no emotion, that man.
I nod sympathetically and put a few more files on top of myMarie Claire , just for good measure.
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Nigel doesnt come back as expected five minutes later. I try to get on with some work, but keep wondering if Guy saw what I was printing out. Maybe hes issuing my termination notice right now. Maybe hes keeping Nigel busy while he calls the police and were both going to prison and . . .
The phone rings. Itll be them! Oh God! The police are calling me and I havent thought up any excuse!
I pick up the phone tentatively.
Hello?
Hello?
Hello, who is this please?
My voice is faltering and my palms are sweating.
Georgie?
Oh, thank God, I recognize the voice.
Mike, I say with relief.
I knew youd be pleased to hear from me.
No, its not that . . . I thought you were someone else.
My, your life is full of little intrigues, isnt it. So, who am I up against? Whats his name? Ill have him.
No, you idiot. Its a work thing.
Right. Mike has never been interested in what I do at work. I wish Id let him think it was another man now.
So, anyway, about Rome.
I hold my breath. For a moment I think hes going to say its all off, that it was a mistake, that hes taking someone else and no hard feelings. To my astonishment Im almost relieved. I suppose itll be one less thing to worry about.
What about Rome? I say, trying to sound cool.
Well, how do you fancy meeting me there on Friday instead of us going together? Ive got some business stuff to do first, so I thought rather than you having to hang around on your own, I could get it all done on Thursday and Friday, and then meet you in the evening.
Well, thats okay then. Actually Im really pleased were still going. Obviously I wasntreally relieved when I thought Mike might be calling it off. This trip is going to be the best.
Sounds good to me, I say enthusiastically.
So, I could meet you at the station at nine-thirtyP.M . Italian time. Theres a Eurostar at five and you change at Paris. Sound all right to you?
Okay, Ill just book the tickets shall I?
Youre gorgeous. Oh, one other thing. Would you mind taking a bag for me? I have to go straight from the airport to a meeting and I dont want to be lugging loads of stuff with me. I thought you could maybe pop round to my offices later and pick it up.
But . . . Im about to tell him that Ive got enough luggage to bring myself and wont have room for any of his stupid papers, but then decide against it. I mean, one bagits not that much to ask, is it?
Okay, thats fine.
Youre a star, thanks Georgie. Ill see you later then? Ill e-mail you the address of my office. Bye, honey.
And hes gone. I am sufficiently buoyed up by the prospect of a weekend in the city of romance to ignore the fact that now, apparently, I am buying my own ticket, which isnt quite what I had in mind when Mike said hed take me.
As I put the phone down, Nigel reappears. He walks over to my desk and bends down so his face is at the same level as mine. I meet his eyes, but, as always, my attention is drawn by a large red protuberance just to the right of his nose. What a nightmare to still get loads of spots at Nigels age. I mean, I get the odd one or two every so often, but Nigels skin is truly adolescent. I wonder if hell have really young-looking skin when hes olderyou know, because of all the natural oils. It occurs to me that I have no idea how old Nigel is. Somewhere in thirty to forty territory I would imagine, but who knows?
Georgie, he says in a loud, jovial voice, Guy was very impressed with your report on Pensions Bulletin. Do you have another copy you could give me?
Pensions Bulletin? I look blankly at him. Ive already e-mailed the report to Guy, and who knows where I saved it to on my computer. Me and filing dont really go too well together.
Um, couldnt you just use Guys copy?
No. Could you just give it to me now?
Nigel is looking at me strangely. Why does he want it? I thought wed finished with all that mundane sort of work now. And anyway, doesnt he know that I totally ripped off his report?
Nigel, could you, um, just give me a while to dig it out, and then I could e-mail it to you?
I want thehard copy.
He wants me to give it to him now, and he wants the hard copy. Is Nigel flirting with me? Is this his idea of office banter?
Nigel, really, I had no idea . . . I grin at him. But he doesnt grin back.
The report that we were working on earlier, he hisses, and I suddenly twig.
You mean the HG stuff?
Nigel looks at me as if I am a complete idiot. Humbled, I pass over the printouts, sandwiched between myMarie Claire and a random pile of files.
Thank you, Georgie, much obliged, says Nigel loudly in a nothing untoward going on around here kind of voice, then he gives me a thin little smile before going back to his desk. Im not entirely sure Im wild on this getting to know Nigel better lark. Still, at least hes going to be absorbed in those files for the rest of the afternoon, which means I can get on with more important things.
My trip to Rome is proving problematic. I cant get a seat on Eurostarapparently there is some special offer on or something and all the tickets have gonewhich means Ill have to fly instead. Flyings okay; actually it will be quicker than taking the train, but there arent many cheap flights to Rome, and I also need to get from the airport to the train station in time to meet Mike.
Nigel looks over and I give him a big smile. The great thing about the Internet is that you can be buying flights for a fab weekend away, and as far as everyone else is concerned youre sitting at your desk working incredibly hard. David thinks a constructive day in the office is one where hes performed really well and got things done. I think a constructive day in the office is one where Ive paid all my bills online, booked a holiday, and compared ten different horoscope readings.
I find a flight for ?60 that gets in at 8P.M ., which will give me loads of time to get to the station in time to meet Mike. Relieved, I fill in my credit card details and press Buy Now.
Its only when Ive pressed the button that what Im doing really hits me. Im going to Rome with Mike. Im going to Rome with the person David hates and has asked (okay, told) me never to see. If Davids cross with me now, he will be livid if he ever finds out. Hell probably never talk to me again. The horrible guilt I felt on Sunday begins to wash over me again. I need to rationalize the trip to myself. The truth is, I decide, that Im only going away with Mike because David hasnt ever managed to get a free weekend. If he took me away I wouldnt need to go with other men, would I? And anyway, hes going to Geneva, isnt he? And he wont take me with him. So in a way, its pretty much his fault that Im going to Rome.
I glance up and see Nigel sifting through all the printouts on HG, but hes trying to do it secretly so hes got some Leary report on top of it. Every time someone walks past he slams the Leary report down on top of the figures and looks around furtively. Honestly, hed be rubbish as a double agent.
I try to stop thinking about David, but every time the phone rings I expect it to be him. Its so unlike him not to call me, even if we have an argument. I dont want to be the one to call him because fra
nkly he was totally out of line over the weekend, telling me what to do and everything. But I usually talk to David at least once a day and I miss telling him stuff. And I dont want to go to Rome without seeing him first. I need to make sure were okay, that everythings fine before I go. To be honest, Im almost hoping that David will cancel his Geneva plans and suggest that we go somewhere instead. Then I can cancel Rome and we can just have a lovely time together.
Except David never cancels his work plans. I cant help wondering if this trip to Rome is a sign. David obviously doesnt want to marry me or anything, and this could be the wake-up call I need. Maybe David just doesnt love me enough.
I pick up the phone and hit 1. (David is on my speed dial. I love speed dial, like Im far too important and busy to press more than one digit.)
Hello? Im immediately unsettledthis isnt Jane on the line. Jane always says Good afternoon, David Bradleys office or Good morning, David Bradleys office. She speaks a bit like the Queen actually. Or like a newsreader from the 1950s. Intimidating, but nice.
Hi, can I speak to David? Im not looking for reassurance that David loves me. I just want to see how he is. You know, in a totally nonparanoid kind of way.
May I ask whos calling?
Yes, its Georgie.
Georgie . . . from where, please?
Georgie, his girlfriend, actually. I sound a bit more agitated than Id like to, but who is this woman making me feel like I need to justify myself? Why doesnt everyone in Davids office know my name?
Okay, Im overreacting a bit. Must be the guilt.
I go on hold briefly, and then I hear Davids voice.
Georgie. Im so glad you called. Im really sorry about the other night. I had no right to talk to you that way.
Im sorry, too, I say and I actually mean it. Theres something incredibly reassuring about Davids voice. Whenever Im feeling even slightly unsure of myself, or dont know what to do about something, I just talk to David and feel like everythings okay again.
I wish I wasnt going away this weekend. Id invite you along but theres a new partner working on this case with me and I dont think Im going to get a lot of free time.
Thats fine, dont worry, I say quickly. I mean, Ive got loads to do this weekend anyway. Weve got lots on at work.
Youve got a lot on?
He sounds really surprised and I find myself getting defensive. Why should David have the monopoly on being really busy at work? I also have important things to do.
Yes, you know, strategic stuff, I say airily.
He chuckles. Right, well, you have fun with that. Is my girl becoming a fearsome business executive?
Sort of. Fearsome. I like that.
Look, darling, Ive got to go. Ill see you after the weekend, okay?
Okay, have fun.
Bye.
For some reason I feel very flat as I put the receiver back.
It isnt too far to walk to Mikes offices, even though it isnt exactly on my way home. Although I use the wordoffices in its loosest sense. For one thing, theyre in Soho, right in the middle of Frith Street, near all the cool pubs and bars. And for another thing, inside they dont have nasty flecked wallpaper like the Leary building; they have exposed brickwork with groovy circular desks and posters from gigs and clubs covering the walls. The radio is on and there are beanbags on the floor, a TV in the corner, and a bar. A bar, for Gods sake!
Tracey, the girl I had met at the Atlantic Bar, is sitting at a desk at the front of the office with two phones on it. Shes looking pretty bored. I smile at her.
Hiya! Do you always have to work this late?
I wouldnt feel sorry for her if I were you. She doesnt get in till twelve, says Mike, whos just appeared. Tracey raises her eyebrows at me and then goes back to looking bored. Mike gives me a kiss on the cheek.
Drink?
I look around and take in my surroundings. Mike, I cant believe you have a bar in your office. Do you ever actually work?
Bars essential. Need it to keep DJs and bands happy, shrugs Mike. I sit down on one of the beanbags and immediately regret it. Ive always liked the idea of beanbagsI mean they look really coolbut somehow the reality never lives up to expectations. They arent very comfortable, and its impossible to look good when youre on one.
Mike brings me over a beer and then tosses a holdall onto my lap. Its heavier than I expected and larger, too. Still, Im going to Rome, I keep reminding myself.
Wont be a problem, will it? I wonder what Mike would say if I said yes.
Its quite heavy, I say instead, but Mike doesnt answer.
So whats in it? I ask. I mean, I have a right to know, dont I?
Mike looks up sharply. Georgie, he says with a sigh, if you dont want to help me out here, just say so, okay? If you want me to have to pay another ?500 in excess baggage costs to take it with me, just say the word and Ill do it.
I stare at him. I forgot he could be such a drama queen.
Fine, Ill take it, I say crossly. I was only asking a question.
Thanks, Georgie. Look, sorry for snapping. Ive just got so much shit to deal with right now, yknow?
I wonder what sort of shit, but dont think its really the time to ask. Instead, I lean back on the beanbag and take a gulp of my beer. These are seriously cool offices. Maybe if I get made redundant from Learys I could get a job at a record label or something. I could sit around and listen to records and sign up cool young things. I could end up going out with a pop star.
Do you have to do much researchinto bands and stuff, I mean? I ask Mike.
He looks at me uncertainly. Research? Nah. Its all in here. He points to his head.
I lean back again, imagining myself in an interview at Polygram or somewhere, pointing to my head and saying confidently All my music knowledge doesnt come from researchits all in here.
Theres a loud buzzing noise and Tracey calls over to Mike, The boys are here. They say theyve come for the gear.
Mike stands up quickly. Yeah, right. Um, let them in, will you?
He turns to me. So dont you have to make a move?
Im sorry?
Weve got to clear out in a minute. Got a record launch to go to. Id love you to come but its a stupid guest-list thing. You can get back all right, cant you?
I struggle to my feet. I was rather enjoying my beer actually.
Oh, no problemIm going out tonight anyway. Im not really, but I cant help lyingsomething about Mike always makes me want to make out like Ive got a more exciting life than I actually do. As I pick up the holdall two men appear at the door. They dont look like record label types. For one thing, theyre wearing really bad jeans, the sort of thing people wore in the eighties. Although I suppose the eighties is meant to be back in again. It could be me whos out of touch.
Drink? asks Mike.
The two men both stare at me.
Georgies just leaving, arent you, he says, looking at me pointedly.
I walk toward the door. Honestly, Im doing Mike a favor with this stupid bag, and hes desperate to get rid of me. Im going to be revisiting my SWOT analysis just as soon as I get home.
Sorry mate, cant stay, says one of the men. Just give us the goods and well be on our way.
Tracey places a blue carrier bag with a large package in it on the reception desk.
Got a sample, have you? the other one asks. I pause at the door. I somehow dont think theyre talking about music samples.
Sure enough I see Mike reach into his back pocket and pull out a small wrap.
Drugs? I say indignantly before I can stop myself. Mike, I cant believe you.
Everyone stares at me.
Geor
gie, werent you on your way out? Mike says angrily.
Yes, yes I was, I fume, dumping the holdall and slamming the door behind me. As I stomp down the steps I wonder if this is what David meant when he said that Mike was involved in stuff I didnt want to know about. I knew that Mike sometimes did a few lines of cokeI mean, everyone in the music industry does it, he says. But this . . . well, this is different. Is this how hes been making his money? God, what a bloody idiot. As I reach the main front door, I hear someone coming down the stairs after me.
Georgie, stop a minute, will you? Its Mike.
No, I wont stop, I say, walking more quickly. I just cant believe you. You tell me youre running a successful record label, and all youre doing is selling drugs. No wonder David didnt want me associating with you.
David? What did he say? Mike is looking agitated.
Just that I should give you a wide berth. And I think hes right.
Georgie, its not what you think, Mike says quickly. Honestly, youve got to believe me. Im not into that stuff anymore. It was just a favor for a client. A major client, actually, and we need to keep him onside otherwise were screwed. I dont want to do it, but I just said wed hold on to some gear for him for a bitand now were giving it back. End of story. Please dont be angry.
I give Mike my best withering stare.
So why were they asking for a sample if its their gear?
Theyre just the idiots who do the collections, Mike replies quickly. They dont know me from Adam, so they want to check Im not ripping their boss off. Come on, Georgie, youve got to believe me. Look, come and ask them if you like. I mean, well probably lose the client, but Id rather that than have you think Im a drug dealer.
He stands aside so I can go back to the office. If its a bluff, its a clever one. I mean, theres no way Im going back in there.
Georgie Porgie, look, you know me. Im not a drug dealer, Mike pleads, looking me right in the eye. Dont let this mess things up for us, please?
He looks so sweet, I think, when his eyes do that gooey thing. I mean, its so hard to stay angry. Resignedly, I take the holdall from him. Okay, but dont do it again, okay? Its so stupid. You could end up in prison.
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