by Julie Kenner
“No one,” I say though I know he will see through the lie.
“Don’t lie to me, kitten. I don’t like it.”
I lick my lips. “I had you wrong,” I tease. “I thought you were a nice guy. I made you eggs one morning, remember? I never thought that the nice guy I shared breakfast with would have—”
“Would have what?”
“Would have watched me finger fuck myself,” I finish boldly.
“Watch?” he repeats as he lowers himself to sit on the edge of my chaise. His hip brushes the bare skin of my waist, making me hyperaware of his proximity. “I did more than watch, sweetheart.” He lifts my hand, then strokes it slowly, making me even more crazy in the process.
“I imagined that these fingers were mine. That it was me stroking your skin, sliding under your suit.” He moves my hand to my belly as he speaks, then he places his own hand flat on the back of mine before easing our joined hands down.
“Do you have any idea how hard I got imagining how slick you were, how tight your cunt was?” He guides two of my fingers inside me, and I gasp in pleasure and surprise as he pushes them deeper and deeper.
“Please,” I beg, but I don’t even know what I am asking for. I am a wild mess of feelings, hot and out of control. I want to come. I want to explode. I want his hands all over me.
“That’s it,” he says as I thrust my hips shamelessly, wanting more. Wanting everything. “Oh, yes. You like that, don’t you, kitten?”
“Yes,” I whisper. “God yes.” And yet I don’t know this woman—this girl who melts at a man’s voice, who submits to his whims. The Jamie I know keeps control by keeping a tight grip on a man’s cock and leading him around with it like a leash. But this Jamie—oh, dear god, right then all this Jamie wants to do is surrender to pleasure.
He is only tormenting me, though, a sad fact I realize when he withdraws my fingers, then tugs our joined hands free. Then he raises my hand to his lips, and I begin to melt again as he draws my finger in, sucking and licking with such deliberate intensity that I can feel the tug of pressure all the way down to my clit.
“Am I a nice guy?” he asks as he releases my hand. “I don’t know, Jamie. I guess that’s up to you. If you need a nice guy, I’ll be a nice guy. But I don’t think that’s what you need right now.”
I try to speak, but can’t seem to manage. I swallow, then try again. “What do I need?”
But he says nothing. He just smiles. And, honestly, he’s turned me into such a confused and emotional mess that I’m not sure if I want to kiss him or slap him.
I don’t like being confused, and my discomfort makes me bold. I prop myself up on my elbows. “What the hell kind of a game are you playing?”
“Who says I’m playing a game?”
“I do.”
He cocks his head. “All right. Why?”
“I seem to recall you saying no to me on the beach. And yet here you are.”
“Yes,” he says. “Here I am.”
“Ryan.”
He shakes his head, then strokes a finger along the line of my jaw. It’s a familiar, almost sweet gesture, and it unnerves me. “You called me Hunter before you knew I was watching. I liked it.”
“Ryan,” I say again firmly. “What’s your fucking game?”
He looks at me for so long I start to wonder if I should just call it a wrap and go inside. “Do you know why I said no?” he finally says.
I shake my head.
“Because I’ve watched you, Jamie. Watched and wanted. I want to kiss you, to touch you. I want to fuck you, Jamie, but I want so much more than that, too.”
“What?” I ask, mesmerized by his words.
“Everything,” he says simply. “I want to tie you up and fuck you until you beg for mercy. I want to use my palm to redden that ass—because we both know how naughty you’ve been. I want to make you come so fast and so hard that you scream, and then do it all over again.”
I lick my lips, my body already tingling in anticipation.
“In other words,” he continues, “I want you at my mercy, kitten. And I intend to make you purr.”
“Kitten?” I repeat. “Are you trying to tame me?”
“On the contrary. I like you wild. But I won’t have you walk,” he says firmly. “I won’t be one of the men you toss aside.”
He looks at me, and his expression is hard. This is the man who runs security for a multi-billion dollar corporation; this is a man who gets what he wants.
“So you tell me, Jamie,” he says. “Do you want me to fuck you? Or should I walk away right now?”
Chapter Four
Every ounce of self-preservation tells me to play it coy. To insist that I don’t do ultimatums. To tell him that I know damn well he wants me as much as I want him.
In other words, to take back the power.
I don’t.
I can’t take the risk that he will call my bluff. That he’ll walk away.
Because, damn me, I want the man.
I know all the reasons that I should tell him no—but I also know that I won’t.
Because right here, right now, I want this man inside me more than I have ever wanted any man. Hell, more than I’ve ever wanted anything.
“Jamie,” he says. “What do you want?”
“Yes,” I whisper.
“Yes, what?”
Slowly, I stand. Then I tilt my head so that I can look at him more directly. “Yes, everything,” I say. “You want me at your mercy? I’m already there.”
Pure desire cuts across his face, and I press my hand against his chest, then slide it down over his slick, hard chest. “Fuck me, Ryan Hunter. I want you to fuck me right now.”
“Well,” he says as he reaches behind me to unhook the back of my bikini top, “I do like the sound of that.”
The top hangs loose, and as he steps closer—as he reaches behind me to slowly lift my shoulder-length hair and then tug the bow at my neck free—I try to breathe, but seem to have forgotten how.
The top falls off my body, and I tilt my gaze down to see it land at my feet. I look back up to meet Ryan’s eyes. They are blue flames and seem ready to burn.
“The bottoms,” he says in a voice so tight with want that it does not sound like him. “Take them off.”
I swallow, then slowly ease my hands down my hips, hooking my fingers under the material, then shimmying out of the tiny bottoms. I let them fall to my ankles, then step out. I’m breathing hard, hyperaware of every tiny hair on my body. Of every small bead of sweat at the back of my neck. My nipples are hard and my areolae puckered. I am wet, and because I am waxed, I know that he can see how hot and swollen and ready I am.
He lowers his eyes to my feet, then traces his gaze slowly up my body. I try to stand still, but it is as if his inspection is a caress, and when he lingers at my sex—when he releases a low groan full of pleasure and need—it is all I can do not to slide my hand between my legs and try to release some of this building pressure.
His gaze continues up, lingering over my breasts before settling on my face. “You are stunning,” he says. “I like seeing you aroused. It makes the fire in you burn hotter.”
“You do that,” I say.
“I like that, too,” he retorts.
I lick my lips, waiting for him to tell me what to do, but he says nothing. I try to withstand the silence, but it is impossible. “Please,” I say.
“Please what?”
“Please touch me.”
He cocks his head as if considering the idea, then nods once. “Lay down on the chaise,” he says, and when I go there, he shakes his head. “No. Face down. And keep your legs apart,” he orders. “I want to see how wet you are. How much you want me.”
“Very much,” I admit as I move to comply.
I have laid out naked many times before, even here at this house when it was only me and Nikki looking to work on our tans. But I never thought of it as sexual. It was just me. Just skin.
Now, even th
e sensation of the sun on my lower back is erotic, and when Ryan steps to my side and then traces a finger lightly from my heel, up my calf and thigh, then over the curve of my ass and all the way to my shoulder, I fear that I just may die from the pleasure. “Wait here. Don’t move.”
I do as he says, though I cheat a little by spreading my legs more. I want him to see me—I want him to want me. And more than that, I want the sensation of the sun between my legs. Heat upon heat, fire added to fire.
He comes back quickly and without explanation, but when he sits beside me, I see that he has brought suntan oil. He squirts some onto my back, making me twitch from the sudden, ticklish sensation. But that is quickly quelled when his hands begin to stroke me, long, slow movements that heat my skin and fill the air with the scent of coconut and vanilla.
He pampers every inch of me, working on my hands—stroking and pulling each finger in a manner so erotic that every caress is reflected in my sex, which throbs and wants more and more as each moment passes.
He strokes my shoulders in deep, soothing motions, then moves down to knead my waist, my hips, and even my ass. He doesn’t slip further down, though—doesn’t touch me where I am so desperate to be touched. Instead he moves lower still, making my thighs slick, then focusing on my calves, my heels, the arch of my foot.
My breathing is fast, shallow. I squirm, silently begging him to slide his slick, oiled hand between my legs. But he is deliberate in his torment and does not take the hint. Instead, he bends low, brushing his lips against my ear and softly telling me to turn over.
I do, then force myself not to arch up in pleasure and longing as he gently but firmly rubs the oil over my breasts, then down my abdomen to stroke lazily over my pubis.
“I like that you’re waxed,” he says. “I like seeing your skin. Seeing you flush. Seeing how aroused and swollen you are. I bet you feel slick on my tongue. And now,” he adds as he slides his oil-slick hand between my legs, “I bet you taste like coconut.”
“Why don’t you find out?” I ask, my words little more than breaths.
“Maybe I will,” he says, then moves to the end of the chaise, roughly thrusts my legs apart, and buries his mouth between my legs, his tongue thrusting deep inside me.
The shift from slow and lazy to hard and wild is so unexpected that I arch up in surprise, lost in the swell of pleasure that is growing deeper and wilder within me.
“Yes,” I murmur, squirming against him, wanting him deeper in me, sucking me off, taking me all the way. “Yes, Hunter, oh, damn, yes.”
But then, just as I am about to explode, he draws away, leaving a soft trail of kisses descending down my inner thigh.
“No,” I protest. “Please don’t stop.”
“I’m not going to stop, kitten. I intend to have you every way I can, and then some. Sit up now,” he orders, and when I comply, he peels off his clothes.
I watch, mesmerized as he steps out of the briefs that are straining to hold in his erection. He is long and thick and perfect, and I lick my lips out of reflex. He notices and raises a brow. “Interesting,” he says. “Do you want to suck my cock.”
My own sex clenches with desire at those bold, simple words. “Yes,” I say, imagining the feel of him, the taste of him. Imagining even more the way his body would tighten and tremble, done in by my power to take him to the edge.
“Good,” he says. “But I have other plans at the moment.” He sits on the edge of the chaise. “Come here. Now turn around,” he says when I arrive facing him. I turn, and in my peripheral vision, I see him reach down and grab a condom packet. He rolls it on, then takes my hips and eases me backward.
“Knees on the chaise,” he says. “Kneel over me.”
I glance backward, then do as he says. It’s awkward getting on the chaise, then straddling him. But his hands are firm at my hips, and once I’m over him, I feel the head of his cock thrusting against me, and I wriggle, wanting him inside me.
“Go ahead,” Ryan says. “Take me. Take all of me.”
I reach between us and guide his cock into me, then I lower myself. He feels incredible, and I rise and fall, levering with my knees, up and down on his shaft. He is thick inside me, and the pleasure of this position is only enhanced when he lets go of one hip and slides his hand around to play with my clit.
Tremors run though my body, and I rock faster and faster. My hands go to my breasts, and then, when he takes his hand away from my clit, I cry out in protest, because I so desperately want to come with him.
“It’s okay. Touch yourself,” he says, and as he speaks, I feel his finger stroke me from behind, teasing my ass even as my finger plays with my clit and his cock fills me.
I am overwhelmed. I am nothing but pleasure and sensation and raw, wild need.
“Hunter,” I cry, as I piston faster against him, as the pressure builds inside me, as I feel him tremble deep, deep within. “Hunter.” I scream his name, and as I do, the world explodes around us and he empties himself inside me.
I collapse back against him, and he pulls me tight, his hands cupping my breasts, stroking and soothing. “That’s it, kitten. God, yes, that was perfect.”
We sit that way for a moment, and then he slowly lowers us both, our bodies still connected, to the chaise. I am breathing hard, feeling decadent and satisfied and wanton. He is gently kissing my back, my shoulders, and I think that for this moment, I have found heaven.
“I’m not done with you yet,” he murmurs, just as I am about to drift off to sleep. Instantly, I am awake again.
“No?”
“Oh, no,” he says. “I have plans for you. For that cunt. For that mouth.” He pulls out, semi-soft now, and rolls over to face me. “But only if you want more. I could have you all day and all night, so if you want to stop, you need to be the one to tell me.”
“No,” I whisper. “Don’t stop. Please. Don’t ever stop.”
“You’re staying in the guest suite?”
I nod.
“Go there. Wait for me.”
I do, padding barefoot and naked to the room that is my home whenever I stay in this house. I have never been uncomfortable in this room, but I am now. I don’t know where to sit or what to do. I don’t know how he wants me. I only know that I want to please him because I do not want this to end.
I feel wilder than I have ever felt with any man, and I want to go further with him than I have with any man. That makes me vulnerable, and that’s not something that I’m used to.
With Hunter, though, I like it.
Finally, I lay on the bed. I want him to see how much I need him. How turned on I am. I spread my legs and slide my hand over my sex. Then I close my eyes and imagine it is him.
“Now that is a pretty picture,” he says when he enters the room only minutes later. He is still naked, but now he has a length of cord coiled around his shoulder. In his hand, he holds a single glass of wine.
I try not to look at the cord—try not to think about how he said he would tie me up. Not because it scares me but because it excites me.
He takes a sip, then offers the glass to me. I drink, too, the act of sharing the wine wonderfully intimate.
I draw a breath, and my eyes slide toward the cord. Despite everything I’ve done—and I’ve done a lot—I’ve never actually had a guy tie me down before. Nikki would say it’s because I’m usually the one going after them—getting my kicks and blowing off steam—and that means that I need to be in control. Honestly, she’d probably be right.
With Ryan, though … well, with Ryan, I like the idea of him taking charge. I like it a lot.
I lick my lips, and hope I don’t look too eager. “So,” I say.
His smile is slow and lazy and wonderfully sexy. “So,” he repeats.
“Are you going to tie me to the bed now?”
“Not exactly,” he says with a kind of sensual mischief that creates a tug deep down in my belly. He nods to the bed. “Kneel for me.”
I glance at the rope, then at
the bed. Then I do as he asks. “Is this—I mean, are you—”
“Am I into BDSM? Am I a master? Do I want you to be my sub?”
I blink. Well. Now that he put it that way… “Um, yeah. I mean, are you? Do you?”
His smile is a little bit amused, a little bit smug. “I like being in control, kitten. I like giving pleasure, and I like receiving it. I like taking a woman as far as she can go. As far as I’m concerned, anything goes between two consenting adults. I don’t give a fuck about labels. But yes, Jamie, I want to tie you up. I want to see you bound. I want to make you mine. So tell me now—do you want that, too?”
My mouth is dry, but somehow I manage to give the only possible answer. “Yes.”
I think I see the flicker of relief in his eyes, and for some reason that small reaction calms my nerves. He wants me—wants this—as much as I do, and I realize with sudden understanding that whatever I give up is like a reciprocal gift to him.
He steps toward me, the cord in his hands. “Do you know what makes bondage so pleasurable?”
“The submission,” I say, now putting my thoughts into words. “Losing yourself to the will of another. Giving in to his touch completely. Trusting him completely.” I tilt my head to face him more directly. “And for you, it’s knowing that a woman is at your mercy. That you’re responsible for pleasure. For pain. That you can tease her and torment her.” I draw in a shaky breath. “Don’t torment me, Hunter. I want you too badly.”
“And I, you,” he says, then presses his lips to mine and kisses me tenderly.
He moves behind me and binds my ankles together as I kneel, then tells me to twine my hands together behind my back, but also under my rear, so it is almost as if I am sitting on my hands. He binds my wrists, and then uses a length of cord to connect my bound ankles to my bound wrists.
Not that I can see any of that, but I can feel most of what he is doing, and he tells me the rest. What I don’t know is what he has in store for me now that I am trussed up like this. But when he moves back in front of me I tell him what I want. “You,” I say. “I want you in my mouth.”
In this position, I am mostly bent over, and he is kneeling in front of me. He is erect and huge, and I think greedily that I can take all of him. That I need all of him.