“I know what you want, Chloe,”
She cried out my name when I bent my head and took one hard nipple into my wet mouth. One of her hands came up to grip my hair to hold me in place. This was something else that I only let her do. No one touched my hair, but I could never tell her not to. I sucked harder on her nipple before biting down gently as my other hand found her other breast and kneaded gently. I found her nipple with my thumb and pointer finger and rolled gently at first then harder until she was pulling my hair hard and screaming my name. By this time she was driving me slowly mad. I wouldn’t be able to go slow for much longer with the way she was wiggling under my body and moaning. She had never in our entire sexual history responded quite like this. Had I shown her so little gentleness?
She was acting like this was the first time she had ever been given this, slow gentle sex. But that couldn’t be true. True with the two of us I was always fast and hard, but I wasn’t the only man she had ever had sex with, was I? I was trying to think about that when I felt her tiny warm hands come up and start unbuttoning my shirt. Then I lost all thought when she parted the shirt and put those warm hands on my chest touching me how she knew I liked. It was my turn to moan. The built up pleasure and adrenaline of the night was making me very sensitive. Chloe dragged her hands down my stomach finding the hair that led from my belly button down to my jeans and followed it down. Once there she quickly unbuttoned my jeans and started tugging my pants off. I leaned up making it easier for her, when she got them as far down as she could go I kicked them the rest of the way off.
Then I moved back down to her, we were skin to skin earning moans from both of us. Chloe began moving her chest side to side rubbing her hard tips against my chest giving us both pleasure. I bent down to kiss her, thrusting my tongue into her mouth as one of my hands went down and found her already hot and wet for me. Chloe trembled against me at the first touch and I felt her body begin to convulse.
“Already?” I whispered awed at the fact that she was flying over the edge with so little from me. My fingers barely brushed her sex and she was coming for me.
“Yes! It feels so good,” She moaned out bringing her mouth back to mine in a fiery kiss.
I kissed her back wondering why I had never done this with her before. She was always responsive to me, but I never dreamed that from my kisses and light petting that she would orgasm. It showed me that she most likely had never been made love to and that for some reason made me sad for her. Again I wondered if I was the only man she has ever been with. The thought made me want to pound my chest and roar, as the beast inside me demanded that I claim her. Again I was pulled out of my thoughts when one of her hands dropped down and wrapped around my aching erection. I grunted into her mouth and began rocking my hips into her hand. Then I understood why she went over the edge so easily with just light touches from me. Just her stroking me had me about to burst. Even if she had been made love to before it was just different when it was the two of us together. I had never felt anything like this before.
“Zane! Please, oh god, please, I need you,” Chloe begged her eyes blind as she arched her back pushing closer to me pushing her breasts flat against my chest.
“You have never once in all of this time begged me,” I whispered out to her kissing her eyes closed, “And you don’t have to beg me now beautiful,”
With that I grabbed her hand and gently pulled it away from me, linking our fingers together as I placed our hands beside her head. I shifted my hips pushing my body closely to her opening and gently pushing in. Chloe sighed with relief beneath me when she felt me entering her, as she brought her hips up to try to get me deeper inside. I grunted and slammed my mouth down on hers as my head was swallowed by her tight opening. I pushed down and trembled in her arms when her warm walls swallowed me whole. I opened my eyes and caught her looking at me. I kept eye contact with her as I started to slowly rock into her. I slowly pulled back all the way until only my tip was left inside of her, before pushing in a little faster and as deep as I could go. Chloe moaned my name and threw her head back as her body started convulsing around me. Her pussy contracted around my dick trying to milk me for everything I had.
“Shit baby hold it for a minute,” I moaned out to her. “I can’t last if you go,”
I had never once called her baby, and just hearing it from me made her face glow with pleasure as her eyes lit up. I saw the look and at that moment I hated myself for giving her so little. She should not get that damn happy from just the word baby, why the hell did I treat her so damn bad? I shook the thoughts away when I saw Chloe grit her teeth in an attempt to hold herself back for me. That was the sexiest thing that I had ever experienced and I whispered that against her mouth as my body slowly picked up speed. Our hands were still linked and I pulled back from our kiss keeping my eyes on hers. We had never watched each other fly over the edge and I wanted that this time. Just one more experience for us before it was all over. Chloe began bringing her hips up as I thrust down causing me to slide deeper into her. When Chloe felt how deep I was she arched her back and closed her eyes.
“No baby, open your eyes and look at me,” I breathed against her lips, “Let me watch you.”
Once again Chloe obeyed me instantly opening her eyes and looking deep into my eyes. Her body was still convulsing and she was whimpering from trying to hold herself back. I felt the tremors from deep inside of her as each one caressed my dick as I pushed into her. I began to feel the all too familiar tightening in my lower stomach.
“Let go Chloe, now baby let go for me,”
She responded instantly moaning my name loud as her body shattered underneath mine. Her insides gripped me tight convulsing around me as her warmness surrounded me. I moaned her name and let myself go. I exploded inside of her, letting her body milk me. I pushed deep and held myself still as her body took everything I had. The entire time we watched each other. Chloe was glorious in her abandonment. I knew as long as I lived I would remember what she looked like as she lost control under me. When the pleasure started to quiet down to a gentle hum I felt my teeth unclench as I slowly lowered myself down to her, crushing every inch of our bodies together. We were both still convulsing but it was calming down. My eyes searched hers and I could see her love shining though. Never more than right now did I wish that I could return her love. But for some reason that I didn’t understand I could never feel that way about Chloe. Slowly I brought my mouth to hers and nibbled her lower lip.
“That was the best..” I began but she cut me off by kissing me.
“I know,” she whispered when she pulled back.
I doubted that she knew that I was going to say the best I ever had. I was sure she thought that I meant that it was the best that we ever shared, but she was right to cut me off. I shouldn’t say things like that to her. There was no future for the two of us. I sighed and was about to move off of her but her hands flew up and gripped my hips hard. I looked down at her and saw the fear in her eyes, fear that she was losing me. Just as fast as the emotion entered her eyes, a wall came down and shut me out. I was amazed at that, I wondered just how much she kept hidden from me.
“Sorry,” She whispered letting my hips go, “I just wasn’t ready to stop yet,”
I knew it was a cover up. She could care less if we had sex again that night. She just didn’t want me to leave her. Now I wasn’t sure what to do. How could I pull out of her and leave her when she looked like her heart was breaking right in front of me? Before I could figure out what to do she made the decision for me. She pulled her body away from me frowning a little as I slipped out of her and then turned onto her side effectively shutting me out. We both knew that this was usually the time that I left her. I had never spent the night with her before, that wasn’t what I was there for. Tonight should not have been any different, especially since I was getting married the next day. But I couldn’t get that look of fear out of my mind. I might have hurt Chloe more than anyone ever had or could, but I couldn’t
do that to her tonight. Especially after what we had just shared with each other.
Slowly I laid down on her bed making myself comfortable before I reached out and grabbed her pulling her body into mine. I felt her tense against me, which shot a sharp pain through my chest, before she slowly started to relax against me. But I could feel her body shaking and I knew, I fucking knew that she was silently crying. That shattered me, as the pain in my chest deepened. I brought her closer to me holding her as tight as I could. I buried my face into her neck and closed my eyes. How many times had she let tears fall silently down her face over me as I dressed and left her? I wondered, and was ashamed of myself that I would never know the answer. But I was here now.
“Go to sleep Chloe,” I whispered into her neck, placing a kiss on the point that was pulsing against me.
“Aren’t you leaving?” She responded, we both noticed when her voice broke. But we ignored it, both silently deciding not to mention her feelings again.
“No, not tonight,” was all I said.
We both knew that she should kick me out, this was only going to hurt her more in the long run. We didn’t know what it felt like to be in each other’s arms all night, and god help me I wanted to know. It would probably make everything harder for her, but I knew she wouldn’t tell me to leave. Even now she still wanted anything she could get from me. I heard her sigh before her eyes closed and she snuggled into me and fell into a peaceful sleep. I heard her breathing even out and knew that she was asleep. I smiled into her neck and closed my eyes letting myself follow. For the first time in years I slept peacefully, that was another thing I would have to think about. For some reason things happened with Chloe that never happened with anyone else. I could never understand why that was. But I was sure it would come to me eventually.
3
ZANE
The next morning I woke up with a pressure on my chest and the smell of something exotic wafting in my nose. I still couldn’t place the scent, but I knew who it belonged to, it was the smell I associated with Chloe. A smile came to my lips as the events of the night before came flying back to me. I squeezed Chloe harder and pulled bringing her closer to me. Slowly I opened my eyes and looked down at the sleeping face of what could only be described as an angel. I had always known that Chloe was hot as hell. She was beautiful in a way that still allowed her to look innocent and hot at the same time.
But now looking down at her sleeping face, I was taken aback at how gorgeous she really was. With her eyes closed her long lashes grazed her cheeks, her face was rosy from sleep, and her hair was surrounding her face and running down over my chest. Her hand was curled into a fist on my chest right above my heart, as if she was trying to claim me even in her sleep, and her face was half buried into my neck. A strange warmness entered my chest and made my heart pound faster. I bent my head down to kiss her forehead at the same moment she opened her eyes and brought her head up. My lips brushed her lips instead and the kiss slowly deepened.
Chloe was a little disoriented because she was not fully awake just yet. But she knew it was me, and opened her mouth to let her tongue come out and play with mine. I pushed my body up and over so that I was lying on top of her. That’s when we both realized that we were naked. I shot her a wicked smirk and started pushing down so that I could enter her. Right when my tip was inside of her the alarm clock on the side of the bed went off bringing us both out of the bubble we were in.
I was a little confused as to why she had an alarm set this early in the morning, but as I looked down at her to ask I saw that her face was pale. She looked as if she had a bucket of ice water thrown on her as she fought off the tears in her eyes. That’s when I remembered what today was. I groaned and fell onto my back hating myself even more. Then my mind was assaulted by thoughts. Was I sure that I wanted to get married? Waking up with Chloe had me happier then fuck, and without words she had been ready and willing for me, accepting my body inside of hers before she was even awake. I had all of these new and strange feelings inside of me right now, but before I could say anything Chloe slid out of bed and grabbed my shirt from the night before. I watched as she pulled it over herself but left it unbuttoned, and I thought she was sexier than I had ever saw her. The shirt lay over her body parted down the middle showing me the sides of her breasts and her flat stomach.
“You’re gorgeous,” I murmured as if in a trance.
She flushed and sent me a shy smile, “Thanks,”
“Chloe, I need to talk to you,”
“About what?”
But I wasn’t sure what about. What was it that I wanted? Was it Chloe? But how could I leave Jessica at the alter on our wedding day? That wasn’t something I could do, I might be an asshole but that was just fucking horrible. Although by marrying her I would be hurting Chloe even more. This was a very fucked up situation and now I understood what the guys had been trying to warn me about. My silence must have been too much for Chloe because the rosiness of her face went away and her eyes that were so open to me the night before now had shudders over them.
“Zane you can talk to me later, you have to go to Blaze’s house and get ready,”
I knew that I should have argued with her, but I didn’t know what to do. I let out a groan and got out of her bed and started pulling my clothes on. She sent me a small smile before taking off my shirt and tossing it to me. Then she walked into her bathroom and shut the door. I closed my eyes and groaned then turned to leave. I left without another word to her, but that was the biggest mistake I could have ever made. But I wouldn’t know that for a while yet.
Two hours later we were all at the church standing up at the alter. I turned to look at Chloe who was standing behind me and let out a small chuckle. She was wearing a tux, as my best man she said that she couldn’t be wearing a dress. But this wasn’t a man’s tux, this one fit her body perfectly, hugging her closely and showing me her perfect curves. She was also wearing a cute little bow tie and I thought she looked not only sexy as hell but so adorable. I kept my eyes on her until Blaze whispered something into her ear. Chloe broke out laughing and I clenched my teeth. Before I could ask them what the hell was so funny, the music changed and Jessica began walking towards me.
I had always thought that when I got married I would be filled with joy and warmness. Two emotions I did in fact experience on my wedding day but in the arms of another woman. I also wondered why the hell I thought Chloe looked prettier in her tux than my future wife looked in her wedding dress. Why wasn’t my heart pounding in my chest as the woman I was marrying walked towards me in her dress? Why didn’t butterflies bombard my stomach as I took in the sight before me? Those things all happened whenever I knew that I would be seeing Chloe that day. Jessica stood in front of me but there was no love shining in her eyes for me like there was from Chloe whenever she looked in my direction.
All I felt at this moment was sick. How did I let things get this far? I did not want to link myself with this woman. I had known that there was no love between us, but she had just made it blatantly clear that the only reason she was marrying me was because of who I was. She wasn’t looking at me with love and adoration in her eyes. She was looking at me like she had just won the damn lottery. Why hadn’t I seen this before? Thank god for Chloe. She had warned me from the day I proposed to Jessica that I needed to get a pre-nup. At first I wrote it off thinking that Chloe was just upset and lashing out. Then Cage smacked me upside the head and told me that there was no way I was getting married without making Jessica sign one. So I had caved, and thank god I did. I owed Chloe a huge fucking thank you. Honestly I didn’t care about the fucking money, but I had a problem with her marrying me just for it.
“I Jessica, take you..” I was listening to the words she was saying, and with each one I felt the noose around my neck tighten.
She said ‘I do’ and just like that I was hanging by the throat. I was told that I might get cold feet, but I didn’t think that this feeling was cold feet. This was an all-consumin
g feeling that I was destroying both mine and Chloe’s life. Man when I fucked up, I really went all out. Then all too fast the minister was looking at me.
“Zane, repeat after me,”
Just like that I was sweating and choking. So I did the only thing I could do. The same thing I did when we first started the band and I had stage fright. I left my body and went on autopilot. The words ‘I do’ left me without my knowledge, and then I was kissing my new wife. I knew, I fucking knew that the life I knew was now over. I was so focused on my thoughts that I didn’t have time to consider Chloe’s.
CHLOE
I stood behind Zane and was smart enough to know that there were photographers taking pictures. So I wore a mask over my emotions, only letting the truth show when I saw the photographer taking a break. But on the inside I was dying. I felt cold and alone, and there were sharp knives flowing through my veins going to my heart and stabbing me. I vaguely heard the minister reciting words, but the moment Zane said ‘I do’ I heard it clearly and my world shattered. I kept my face impassive after my first look of pain.
Blaze who was behind me brought his hand up and placed in on my waist in a comforting motion. It was the hand that wasn’t facing the audience so I had no worries about anyone seeing us. Slowly I leaned back until I was resting against Blaze, letting his strong body support me. I heard him whisper how sorry he was into my ear, that earned a small smile from me. Finally it was over and Zane and his new bride were walking out the church doors. I watched them go but didn’t move from where I was standing to follow the others out of the church. I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn’t notice Blaze until he was standing beside me. He brought his arm up and wrapped it around me bringing me into a hug that made me feel comfortable. Blaze was always there when I needed someone, he was the only one who was aware of how much I loved Zane and how much I was hurting.
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