Almost Easy (Sinister Ascent Book 1)

by Brittany Clark

  “You don’t fucking get it. She thinks about leaving me! And she wanted me to sign something saying I wouldn’t take anything from her! I have more than her,”

  “Actually you’re wrong,” Blaze cut in

  “Excuse me?” I seethed

  “If you would have bothered to read these before you jumped down her throat, you would have saw that this was a pre-nup for you. It states that if the two of you were to divorce that she would get nothing from you,”

  “What?”

  “You heard me. It says here that the paperwork is being signed after the date of the wedding because the two of you got married so fast that you didn’t have time to consider it and that she wanted to make sure that no matter what happened all of your assets would be protected,”

  “Wait,” I whispered feeling a trickle of fear crawl up my spine, “She did this for me?”

  “Looks that way,”

  “Fuck,” I screamed hopping up to run to the back of the bus.

  Once I got back there I knew immediately that she was gone. One of the windows was open and my wife was not there. The others heard me cussing like crazy and they all rushed back to where I was to see what the problem was. It took them only seconds to realize that Chloe was gone. She had hopped out of the window at the last town we were in before the bus had started moving again. I yelled for the driver to turn around but we all knew that it was pointless. The place we had just left was huge and it would be impossible to find her. But I didn’t want to listen to reason. I had once again fucked up, and this time I doubted that there was anything that I could do to get her back.

  “Where the fuck is she!” I screamed climbing back onto the bus with the others following me.

  We had turned the bus back around and been out for nearly three hours trying to find Chloe. It wasn’t an easy task in a town this size and it proved pointless when there was no sign of her. I had also been calling her but her phone was going straight to voicemail. Which meant that she had shut it off. I knew that she was mad at me, but I needed to talk to her and I couldn’t let her go on thinking that I had meant what I had said.

  “Hey, her phones off right?” Cage asked earning my attention.

  “Yeah,”

  “What if she’s on a plane?”

  “What?”

  “Think about it. You have to shut your phone off when you’re flying. What if she went to the airport and flew home?”

  “That’s actually a good point Cage,” Axel responded as my eyes turned haunted.

  “I can’t believe she fucking left me,”

  “How can’t you believe it?” Blaze shouted finally snapping

  “Because she should have stayed and talked to me,”

  “Zane, you have no fucking idea what you have done to her over the years,”

  “Yes I fucking do. I know I’ve hurt her and shattered her dreams and heart. But I was making up for all of that,”

  “That isn’t all that you did,”

  “What the hell does that mean? Huh Blaze? Since you know her so fucking well why don’t you explain it all to me?”

  “Fine I will. Do you know that after you left for your honeymoon I stayed with her at her house every night as she cried into my chest wondering why she wasn’t good enough for you? Or that every time you showed up with some other woman on your arm you took another piece of her heart until she told me that she felt like she had nothing left? How about the fact that when you finally started showing her you wanted her, that she hated herself for giving into you so easily even when she didn’t fully trust you? Or the final and the kicker is when she begged me to give her advice on if she should forgive you and give you a chance and I told her yes, go for it and you fucking broke her heart again!”

  “I didn’t fucking mean to, I was just upset over what I thought she was asking me to do,”

  “That’s the worst part. You didn’t trust her. After everything she has ever done for you. Her being there when no one else was, helping you when you were sad, or mad, or hurt. Standing at your side when you married someone else, and always forgiving all of your bullshit, she was there through it all. Then you pull this shit on her, showing her that you don’t trust her, that everything she had ever done for you meant nothing. You asked her for a divorce after being married for only two days, like a fucking child throwing a temper tantrum and you made her sound like a fucking gold digger for bringing you back here and making love to you on your wedding night. Which if you would have opened your eyes you would have seen why she had really done it,”

  “Let me guess, you know the answer to that as well?” I asked sarcastically, I wasn’t pissed at Blaze, I was masking my feelings with anger. Everything that he had been saying to me was tearing me open, leaving me an open wound.

  “Yes, I do. Especially since she fucking told me,”

  “Then why did she do it Blaze? Why did she have to drag me back here instead of going out to celebrate, to fuck me if it wasn’t to make sure that we couldn’t get an annulment?”

  “It was to make sure that you couldn’t get one, but not for the reason that you are thinking,”

  “What the fuck does that mean?” I asked rubbing the bridge of my nose as a tension headache roared up.

  “She was still afraid that you would turn around and change your mind. In the past whenever she would tell you that she loved you, you would run off and get with someone else. That changed and wasn’t a problem now, but she was afraid that you would have thought that you moved to fast and change your mind,”

  “She should have known that I wouldn’t have done that,”

  “Just like you should have known that she wouldn’t have tried divorcing you for monetary gain?” Blaze spat back at me.

  I closed my eyes as my heart felt like it was bleeding out of my chest. I had known that I had hurt Chloe more than anyone ever could and she had told me a glimpse of how deep that hurt ran. But I hadn’t known half of what Blaze had just told me. I hated knowing that she still didn’t trust me fully. I would not have changed my mind about marrying her, but she didn’t know that now, especially since I did just that. I had asked her for a divorce like a damn idiot. But I didn’t do it because I didn’t love her. It was because she had hurt me. Although if I had trusted her at all I would have listened to what she had to say before I jumped the gun and accused her how I had.

  “She cried for a month?” I whispered, that had stuck in my mind and hurt more than anything else.

  “Yes, she did. You hurt her Zane. I did everything that I could to get the two of you together, only for you to fuck it up a few months later. Had I know you would have done this to her I would have encouraged her to move on from you,”

  “I didn’t want to fuck this up! I want to be with her. She’s my fucking wife and I will get her back,”

  “I hope so. If you do I am going to tell you one thing. Hurt her one more time, make her cry one more fucking time and I will beat the shit out of you,”

  “I will let you if I do. If I make one more mistake I will let you beat my ass, even though nothing you could do would hurt me more than I already am. However there is one thing. There is no ‘I hope so’ when it comes to me getting her back. I will get her back,”

  “What if you don’t?” Axel asked. “What if she listens to you and you get divorce papers in a few days?”

  “I won’t sign them. There is no way that I would ever willingly divorce her,”

  “How is that fair to her Zane?” Cage questioned, “You’ve hurt her bad for twelve years. If she really wants it to be over between the two of you, how would it be fair to her for you to not let her go?”

  “Because we belong together! There is no one else out there for me. No one could ever love her like I do. Let alone she could never love someone like she loves me,”

  “Then I have a few words of advice. If you get her back, and I’m saying if because it doesn’t look good for you, try your hardest to not fuck up again. She doesn’t deserve half of what
you’ve done to her. If you fight for her and get her back don’t make her regret it,” Blaze said.

  “I will never give her anything else to regret. But I can’t fix anything from here. I need to go home,”

  “I will go about canceling the rest of the tour, we will have to make it up though so that we don’t let the fans down,”

  I nodded at Blaze and walked away. I could hear Axel telling the driver to turn the bus around, then I tuned everything else out. My heart felt like it was going to burst out of my chest. I was in so much pain and knew that she was hurting worse than me. I had hurt her over and over again. There was a chance that she wouldn’t forgive me, why would she trust me again when I had such a bad track record with her? No matter what the outcome would be I had to try. I couldn’t let her go, she was my everything. I had to keep what little hope that I had alive.

  CHLOE

  By the time that Zane would have realized I was gone I was already too far away for him to find me. I was sitting on a plane as I waited to take off. I had left right after going into the room, I grabbed my purse leaving everything else behind. I made sure that I had my phone and wallet then took off. None of my belongings mattered and it all could be easily replaced. I just had to get the fuck off that bus and away from Zane. I should have been used to him hurting me by now, but I had really thought that this time around it would have been different. Even though I knew that when he said he wanted a divorce it wasn’t something he meant, it was said in anger, I just couldn’t handle it anymore.

  It wasn’t even those hurtful words he had spewed at me, no what hurt the most was what he had insinuated about me. He should have known me well enough to know that I would have never tried to take anything from him. Then to make matters worse he turned our wedding night into some type of monetary advancement for me, when that wasn’t the case at all. The reason I had dragged him back to the bus to make love to him was because there was still a part of me that was afraid that he would change his mind, I didn’t want to give him the chance. But it didn’t even matter now. This was over, I can’t believe that in the end it would be me that left him. He had hurt me one to many times and I couldn’t do it anymore.

  35

  CHLOE

  I pulled my front door open and saw Brittany flinch at my appearance. My hair was knotted on the top of my head and there were huge bags underneath my red rimmed eyes. It was obvious that I spent more time crying these days then sleeping. I didn’t care how I looked though. After rethinking everything that Zane had done no one should really blame me. If anything they should all be mad that he had fucked up yet one more time. In my opinion this one was the worst of them all. I let out a sigh before I moved aside to let Brittany into my apartment. I didn’t really want company, especially someone who I knew would report back to Zane on how I was doing. But Brittany was my friend and it wasn’t her fault that we had a dip shit of a friend.

  “Did Zane ask you to come here?” I instantly asked when the front door closed.

  “He called me and told me what happened. Then asked me to come over and make sure that you were home. He is worried about you,”

  “I don’t know why he would be, it is obvious that he doesn’t give a shit what happens to me,”

  “Chloe, you know that that isn’t true,”

  “I don’t know anything anymore Brittany. I thought that he had changed and that we were going to be together. That isn’t going to happen now,”

  “He did change. You two were happy together,”

  “Yeah we were until he showed me that he doesn’t trust me. Hell, Brittany, he called me a fucking gold digger,”

  “He was upset about the papers, he’s thinking rationally now,”

  “But he shouldn’t have jumped to conclusions. If he truly knew me he would have known what I was trying to do. It doesn’t matter, he said he wants a divorce and honestly I’m done. I can’t keep putting myself through this. I love him with everything I have, but this is torture plain and simple. I’m giving up, he might not have meant it when he said he wanted a divorce but he is going to get one,”

  “Chloe, think things through before doing anything rash,”

  “I have. It’s been two days Brittany and I have done nothing but think it through. I can’t do this to myself anymore. I can’t walk on eggshells waiting for the time that he will hurt me again,”

  “Every relationship has problems,”

  “I know that, but this isn’t normal. Think about it Brittany, really think about it. Forget for a second that he is your friend. If you had a friend that told you all the shit that I have over the years, all the shit that her boyfriend had put her through, but you didn’t know the man, what would your advice be to her?”

  Brittany kept her mouth closed giving both of us her answer. If this were anyone other than Zane, Brittany would have told the girl to get out a long time ago. The only reason I had stayed as long as I did was because I loved him. Love wasn’t enough anymore. It was obvious to anyone who looked at my face that my mind was made up. I didn’t want to go through this anymore and Zane was going to have the fight of his life on his hands trying to convince me to stay with him. I just wasn’t going to listen to him.

  “How about you wait to do anything until you talk to him?”

  “I am not waiting for this tour to be over. There’s two months left,”

  “No, they canceled it,”

  My eyes widened when I took in that bit of news. If they had canceled the tour that would mean that they were on their way home. It might have been childish of me, but I wasn’t ready to face Zane. I knew that the first thing that he would do was come to my house to talk to me. I couldn’t see him right now, there was no way that I could talk to him rationally. I was so hurt that I knew if I saw him I would do something that I would regret. Without a second thought I ran to my room, pulled out my suitcase and began tossing clothes in. Brittany walked into the room behind me her eyes widening when she saw me throwing things at random into the suitcase.

  “What the hell are you doing?” She asked me

  “I can’t see him. I need to leave,”

  “Chloe, running isn’t the answer,”

  “Brittany, listen to me. I am mad as hell and hurting bad. If I see him, no matter what it is he wants to say to me, I will do something that I will regret out of anger. I need to calm down and really think before I see him,”

  “But leaving,”

  “I need you to be my friend right now. Not Zane’s friend, but mine. Can you do that?”

  Brittany sighed but put her purse down and started helping me pack my things. Within minutes I was in my car.

  Brittany watched her tail lights disappear. When they were out of sight she pulled out her phone and called Zane. She was Chloe’s friend and she wouldn’t tell Zane anything that Chloe had told her, but he should know that she took off. She heard his phone ring twice before she heard his voice in her ear.

  “Did you see her?” Zane asked instantly in way of a hello.

  “I did, she looks like crap and she took off,”

  “What the hell do you mean she took off?” Zane screamed earning the attention of all the guys around him.

  “I told her that you canceled the tour and she knew that meant that you were coming back here to talk to her so she packed a bag and jumped into her car. She wouldn’t tell me where she was going or when she was coming home,”

  “She didn’t want to see me that bad? How the fuck am I supposed to find her now? She could be fucking anywhere!”

  “It wasn’t that she didn’t want to see you, or well not in the way that you’re thinking. She said that she was so mad and hurt that she needed to calm down before she saw you. She said that if she didn’t she would do something in anger that she would regret later,”

  Zane closed his eyes and sighed. He should take that advice and live by it for the rest of his life. If he had calmed down and heard Chloe out then he wouldn’t have said something out of anger that he would regr
et for the rest of his life. Now he had a huge problem. How the hell was he supposed to find her now? She could have gone anywhere she chose.

  “Did she say anything else about me?” He whispered.

  “I won’t tell you what she said Zane, because it isn’t my place to do so. You need to talk to her about everything. However I will tell you that the woman I just saw was ready to leave you,”

  “I won’t let her,”

  “You’re about to have the fight of your life on your hands. I’m rooting for you,”

  With that Brittany hung up leaving Zane to think about everything. It broke his heart knowing that Chloe wanted to leave him. But he couldn’t blame her, this was all his fault. He had driven her away with careless words. What he had said wouldn’t have been so bad had he not hurt her repeatedly in the past. Now this was just one more nail in his coffin. Soon he would be closed off from Chloe completely, he did have the fight of his life coming soon. And he would come out a winner. He would not let Chloe go. It was time to start preparing for battle.

  ZANE

  My fists collided with the wall as an angry yell tore from my throat. The guys made no move to calm me down, mainly because they knew what I was going through. It had been two weeks since Chloe left and we were no closer to finding her. I had went to everyone we knew and asked if they knew where she was. All of them had replied with the same damn line, ‘isn’t she on tour with you?’ She had told no one where she was going, which made it even harder for me to go about finding her. She could fucking be anywhere in the world and I would have to wait for her to come home. Or wait until I opened my mail box and saw a brown envelope that was holding divorce papers in them. I felt my heart clutch once again in the now all too familiar pain.

  “I have to fucking find her,” I said calming down enough to take a seat at the table with the others.

  “Think about it Zane. There has to be a place that she would take off to. You’ve known her almost her whole life. You would know if there was a place she would go,” Cage said.