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by John Kinsella


  our children might inherit, we mix up the tenses, sometimes

  she is here and sometimes gone,

  then we slide our arms underneath her, pass a length of

  white silk, under and over, and again, the act of shrouding

  stands us outside of anything we have ever done together;

  elastics, the hand-clapping games, sliding up and down the back

  end of the bath to make waves flood the bathroom, acting out

  the Chiko-roll ad, biting tough batter in slow-mo mouthfuls

  our acrobatic and dance routines, their critical, perfected finales

  all of these acts of sibling co-operation, establishing timing,

  rhythm, hand-eye finesse

  wait outside the rosewood double doors while we stand on either

  side of a table to do this for the first and only time

  Tracy Ryan (b.1964)

  Lost Property

  To be alone in the wide room

  in the house’s crooked elbow, turning point

  for extensions as the family grew

  and grew — and grew — to be alone in the one room

  nobody needed now, though it might be resumed

  like land, for guests or blow-ins, at any moment,

  without notice (and that was part of

  the appeal, the very tenuous feel of the place) to play there

  at five or six: to be immersed though not safe among the things

  that preceded you, immediate and limitless,

  everything already there, the way the world went on

  before you were thought of, that flux, and your small-child

  leisure for introspection while others shinnied trees for the same

  sense of endless outlook, here,

  in this would-be attic brought down to earth, whose breath

  was frosty as Mother Shipton’s well, holding the tossed refuse

  of older siblings, stages shrugged off: limp tutus, pink as dropped

  gum blossom, too big, though you stepped

  into them and stood, as if in a fairy ring you might animate;

  satin and tapshoes, toe-shoes from a sister’s long-gone bit part

  in Hans Christian Andersen, poems called Off The Shelf

  that you avidly grabbed for your own, puzzled

  at faded marginal doodles in real ink;

  dark ocarina whose holes you could never master,

  bakelite cracked, spookily fake-organic,

  as if a new kind of reptile had laid it,

  and a distant, shadowy instrument, lipped, where fingers should sit,

  with verdigris your father later chastised you for rubbing –

  an oboe perhaps — resisting your grip, but venting

  a slow corruption in you as descant,

  its distant kin in this vast orchestral silence:

  strange octagon you toyed with that would never quite close or open,

  squeeze box, little lung resisting pressure, push and draw, your hands

  impeded from fully parting or meeting, stretching

  in musical secretion, cat’s cradle, ectoplasm,

  crimped membrane so vulnerable to puncture,

  it made you wince, lantern-thin but giving sound

  for illumination. At last: harmonica, cupped, bracketed but not

  for all that an afterthought, heart of the whole unpeopled

  space, for the way it moulded to your own small wheeze

  and gave it a different life, if a pleasure to the player only,

  pleasure to make your mouth water, metal, felt, and papery

  velvet, though your brother might shudder

  at the old spit he imagined pooled there,

  to you it was honeycomb,

  striving to isolate each note, then giving up,

  as if you had many voices at once, speaking in chords,

  and could make yourself heard.

  First Burn

  All day she has pitched dry grass, Hardyesque,

  perched on the stack, helping to raze the block

  in a race against shire deadlines: fire risk.

  Only her colours are wrong — curls a stark

  hedge in English autumn, young fragile skin

  dead-of-winter white. But she will work

  to feel she’s useful, wanting to fit in,

  all my cautions thrown to the easterly,

  hot from the desert. I’ve done all I can —

  this is the point, the moment beyond me

  for which we’ve struggled, locked like Gabriel

  and Jacob, though the outcome may not be

  a blessing. She is tall and capable,

  strong on the outside — surely that’s enough.

  To look at her now no one else could tell

  what tinder, what touchwood she was made of.

  By evening there appears a subtle glow

  upon her shoulders, imprinted as if

  someone had held her fast; by morning so

  reddened and furious she is aflame

  with reproaches, and cries: You made me go

  to England and then you made me come home.

  Non-sequitur, she knows, but all the same

  I am the mother, I must wear the blame.

  Jackson (b.1965)

  suck faint amity

  At the end

  the days are long and hot

  and the nights are long and cold.

  The only plants left

  repel tongues, survive

  fire. The only animals left

  can hide anywhere.

  The few remaining humans, knowing

  no more, suck faint amity from the bitter needles, greyish

  trees, grey creatures and grey

  and ochre rock.

  Earthface thrusts out flare-flowers: one more vanity:

  howl-azure, shriek-cerise, desperation-gold.

  am I not?

  in stark black lines on white

  the cane toad

  with lumps and warts drawn as rounds and discs

  inked eyes

  a curve as a hint of tongue

  comes out of the night

  with its croak: am I not?

  am I not, too,

  made for some

  place?

  The Antipoet (Allan Boyd) (b.1966)

  fly in fly out fly in fly out

  fly in fly out fly in fly out

  and she’s on another swing

  a roundabout of airports

  another pilbara narrative

  racking up the qantas points

  at the exit seat, inside a novel

  pindan fingers

  pindan boots

  fly in fly out fly in fly out

  siren, rumble of blast

  iron hills to rubble

  at the next cat one shutdown

  we evacuate ourselves

  in a debt cycle

  for a new house i’ll never live in

  a boat I’ll never float

  and fly in fly out fly in fly out

  six years of missed birthday cake

  skype in a donga on mothers day

  can’t talk with a mouthful of flies

  on the tarmac haze, jet fuel stench

  at hi-viz horizons, the bus at 5am

  another DandA test before dawn

  one beer per man, open can

  in the wet mess, scrolling screens

  never drunk enough

  to fly in fly out fly in fly out

  in my box the

  flint-eyed mirror

  says get more sleep, smile

  inside these thinnest walls

  sounds of next door snore

  another breath

  to the beat of the air-con

  the tv red glow, fridge hum

  waiting for the alarm’s pierce

  fly in fly out fly in fly out

  now lost in suburban streets

  shopping centre carparks

  p
eeling products from shelves

  staring at labels, empty trolley

  missing the truck hum

  until she’s on another swing

  fly in fly out fly in fly out

  Lucy Dougan (b.1966)

  The Chest

  There is this attic memory for me,

  a chest that stood at the bottom of the bed

  and haunted us. A man made out of cloth rose from it:

  spectral husband, killer, stained bride

  or another self — unknown, uncountenanced.

  All my childhood threats lay coiled in that chest,

  ropes that led a snake dance down to other worlds.

  I should not climb in or I will be found,

  a blue child clad in rotting lace.

  I should be sensible and never shut myself in,

  even though at times, believe me,

  I yearned to be strange cargo

  showing the whites of eyes through openings,

  to wake at sea to a jolting cold and foreign voices.

  Beyond the chest hung curtains patterned with an orchard

  that cast a pied light made for wanderings.

  I packed myself away with the stiff grace and sweat of tissue relics

  and proclaimed — stowaway, chrysalis, cats for drowning

  — that when I burst out I would not be me.

  It was in this room that my father warned my mother not to stand

  against the drapes for fear of calling up the types who slithered

  on the smooth earth below or listed in clumps of rushes

  further in the darkness by the river,

  barely human, don’t think to call them so,

  and where my mother had told my sister and I about blood.

  I hid in the chest after that and dreamt about this new dark river —

  the force of how it ran and how to hide it.

  This morning I stretched out of myself in bright winter light

  and remembered the gift of a glory box from the father that I did not know.

  Sturdy as a small coffin, it found me close to his own death.

  What it should have held — voile for weddings, the sweet smell of swaddling clothes —

  has been an empty ache to it. Oh life spun around me alright

  with all its attendant wrappings but never so tenderly

  as the word glory speaks — put on glory raiment like a king or queen,

  those glowing souls of the ones who went before

  and kept things shining and folded.

  Or there is a word in his own tongue for glory box — lettuccio — one to wake to

  far off out at sea, borne away in a self unknown, uncountenanced —

  which is a kind word that belongs to boundless days

  in orchard light when all the room contracted to a chest.

  Close it up then. But first or last just one more thing —

  a man stands at the head of another open chest

  and places his hand upon the heart, feels the solid pumping life of it,

  a small fist that hits and hits again into his palm.

  At season’s change, the dark month, I lift the lid and curl inside,

  my heart, peculiarly, opening out.

  Mannequin Brides

  Queens of King Street,

  with backs to the harbour,

  they style stiffly,

  wise as dolls.

  Like all good oracles the brides speak in silken riddles.

  Strange sequined mirrors,

  they have grown genuinely reflective.

  By some art they have climbed

  outside their game of statues

  and their veiled souls billow out above

  the mortals down below.

  Those passing by begin to stride

  as they catch the beat of their own lost vows,

  the grave words they gave up or never spoke.

  They sense this only sideways:

  an agitation of white, of fallen petals

  to brush from the eye with rice.

  Perhaps the brides will forsake the itch

  of borrowed lace for the tat shops instead,

  being careful not to wed

  legends like Mine Forever.

  They are escaping

  the most important day of their lives.

  David McCooey (b.1967)

  Pink Moon

  I was staying in a Tuscan bed-and-breakfast.

  On my second day, a young Italian couple

  approached me, shyly asking if I was

  Nick Drake’s sister. (I never know how

  people find this out.) ‘Yes,’ I answered,

  ‘I’m Gabrielle Drake,’ not adding that I was

  once the more famous. In my silver catsuit

  and purple wig I was Lieutenant Ellis,

  Moonbase commander on UFO. Three

  decades later and Nick was the one having

  a documentary made about him. It was

  sad and beautiful, just like Nick, who’d

  thought himself such a failure, especially

  after Pink Moon made its appearance.

  As if making the apocalypse sound like

  a shepherd’s lullaby wasn’t enough …

  The Italian couple were endearingly solemn,

  but as always, at such moments, I didn’t

  know what was required of me. I looked

  across the expensive pool towards the green

  of the hills and said, ‘I think Nick would have

  loved this.’ They looked at me like I was an alien.

  Gabrielle Everall (b.1968)

  Stink

  Stink

  Perfume is all

  that unites lovers

  and disintegrates

  identities

  From ‘metaphor’

  to ‘metamorphosis’

  perfume harbours decay

  and unified with the other

  turns decay back into

  perfume

  Do you ever wonder

  if your scent can be smelt?

  She is odious

  her bad odour, her disrepute

  have the power

  to strip paint off walls

  the beaten housewife

  mops her house with perfume

  her worries absorbed in atomisation

  she liked to buy

  cheap imitation perfumes

  something so flowery

  it could double

  as a defence

  against rape

  she wanted to attract

  a man on a date

  instead she caused sinus, eye

  throat inflammation, migraines

  loss of motor control

  impairment to the kidneys, liver

  and central nervous system, cancer

  desir de femme

  tabu

  admit

  hypnotic poison

  allure

  l’air du temps

  unzipped universe

  why don’t they

  just call perfume

  flowers of evil?

  the privileged gaze is

  ephemeral

  while the history

  of the world is a

  nose

  when I smell my beloved

  my body levitates toward him

  his scent turns the sun

  into a wallflower

  a bath

  washes away

  my evil

  Baudelaire is

  swimming in it.

  Concord as you get off the Concorde

  Your grand entrance into Studio B ---

  it’s good to see

  your interplanetary slit-like eyes

  Never sure if your

  behaviour toward me

  is punishment or reward.

  When will you give me my gold watch?

  Adymson: I can’t be here for long.

  Werthergirl [deadpan]: why, c
os you’ll be in breach of your

  restraining order?

  You have the ability of my mother

  to know exactly what’s happening for me

  riding easy on the amusement park of my allegiance

  see you in another half decade

  you’re still part of my emotional memory

  only ECT could eradicate you.

  Amanda Joy (b.1970)

  Snake Skin, Roe Swamp

  Shedding skin of a snake, will

  loosen first at the lips, retract

  backward over bluing eyes

  dull crown, those sorcerous jaws

  Resistance is needed, seeking

  friction of rock, chafe of grass

  scour and scrub of brown balga

  It braces its body and slides out

  Slipped fishnet of bubblewrap

  mingled with a streaky mandala

  of divested paperbark, becomes

  my discovery, being its past

  I tease open a brittle end, puzzle

  my arm inside, until it is sheathed

  to the elbow, ghost eyes puckering

  my skin. My pulse its unsealed centre

  Vestiture of rain spittle in my hair

  A cool trickle slides inside my collar

  I tear the delicate mesh pulling it off

  in what becomes a deluge

  God of fragmentation, refusing

  to keep things whole, coming

  to me later. Showing again

  that repetition might simply be

  a lack of attention to detail

  John Mateer (b.1971)

  Ghost Wedding

  for Hoe Fang

  The boy was playing in his parents’ room,

  creeping under their bed in that first game

  of disappearance. He found the shrine

  his mother hid there: oranges, joss sticks, a photo.

  He asked:

  ‘Who is in that picture, that little girl?’

  ‘Your sister. She died before you were born.’

  He was happy in newly revealed siblinghood, his playmate,

  deep in the familiar Unknown, a ghost.

  ~

  Over the years his mother worried for her daughter’s

  happiness. She hired a matchmaker to seek

  someone suitable, someone who had also died young,

  who could be a good ghost-husband. He was found

  across the border, on the Mainland, that side

  of the Chinese Mirror. Eventually they were married,

  making both the mothers happy.

  ~

  Then years later, when he and his mother

 

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