My deep sigh is audible and I detect the hint of a smile on his face when he sees how relieved I am.
He leans close. “Believe me, you are the only one I want to have a thing with.”
While I’m inhaling his musky scent, it dawns on me what he said. “I’m so glad you decided to meet with your dad. I hope it goes well.”
“Do you have any words of advice for a guy who’s about to meet the father he never knew?”
I stare at his gorgeous face, wondering if he got his looks from his father. “We don’t get to choose our family, Caden. And we will only ever have one mother and one father. If this guy can’t be your dad, nobody else can. I think you should be open-minded. Give him a chance. We’ve all made mistakes in our lives. We shouldn’t be defined by them.”
He nods. “Thanks, Slugger.”
I laugh at the Murphy Brown reference.
He leans in and gives me a kiss on the cheek. A sexy, lingering cheek-kiss that warns all the other guys to stay away.
And then, just like how Caden watched Corey walk away, I follow Caden’s every step to the locker room, appreciating how his prominent calf muscles flex with each long stride. How the strong lines of his back ripple under his tight shirt when he tosses his towel into the bin. How he looks over his shoulder at me to catch me staring.
When he rounds the corner, I slump over and knock my forehead on the counter a few times, berating myself for becoming a love-sick puppy.
“Oh, my God, are you Caden Kessler’s girlfriend?”
I look up to see two patrons standing near the counter. The women are wearing workout clothes that look like they were purchased from a children’s clothing store. Their breasts almost spill over the too-tight sports bras, and the boy shorts they’re wearing barely cover their entire pubic region. These girls are obviously not here to work out.
“Uh, no,” I say.
“But you want to be,” the taller one declares.
“Is there anything I can help you ladies with?”
“Besides getting us his phone number?” the short one says, giggling.
I don’t bother to answer.
“No, really,” she says. “Like, can you get it for us? I’m sure you have it on your computer somewhere. Oh, do you have his address, too?”
“Member records are private,” I tell them.
“Maybe we could come to an agreement,” she says. “I’ll pay you. How much is it worth?”
My jaw drops. “I don’t care how much you offer me, I’m not giving you his number.”
“Everyone has a price,” the tall one says, eyeing me up and down. “Surely a lowly desk clerk such as yourself could use an extra few hundred bucks.”
“You would pay a few hundred dollars for his phone number?” I ask, both surprised and appalled.
The shorter one looks excited. “Sure. How about we make it three?”
“Oh, my God. No!” I grab some papers off the counter and turn around.
“Bitch,” one of them says. “Like she has a chance with him.”
They walk away laughing.
Chapter Thirty-one
Caden
I finish the rest of my drink and order another. Every time the damn bells jingle when someone comes into the bar, I crane my neck and look to see if it’s him. I had Ethan track down my dad’s phone number and set up this meeting.
I’m not even sure what I’m going to say to him. Part of me wants to just meet him and then tell him to get lost. Tell him he has no right to be in Lexi’s or my life. But the other part of me, the part that Murphy appealed to—that part wants something I’ve never had. A father.
The waitress puts another Jack and Coke in front of me. I thought I might need something a little stronger than my regular beer for this monumental meeting. Plus, liquor mellows me out. I don’t want to get riled up and end up causing a scene. When she steps away, I see him. He’s looking around the bar at every patron until his eyes meet mine.
He freezes. I freeze. We stare.
He walks over with a cautious smile on his face, nodding his head along the way. He stops and stands at the end of the booth. “Caden, thank you for meeting me.”
He holds out his hand but I can’t shake it. He left us. He just up and left the three of us and my mom had to work two jobs to feed and clothe us. That is not the kind of man whose hand I want to shake.
His smile falls. “Maybe we can work up to that,” he says.
I nod to the other side of the booth. “Have a seat, Shane.”
His surprised eyes snap to mine. He sits and says, “Maybe we can work up to that, too.”
“To what?”
“You calling me Dad.”
I snort an incredulous breath out my nose. “Don’t count on it.”
“Listen, Caden. I know I was a terrible father. I know I have a lot to make up for. You asking for this meeting is one of the best things that’s happened to me. I’ve wanted to reach out to you for years. Especially when your mom died. But a few weeks ago, when you pushed me against that wall, I thought that was it. I thought there wasn’t a chance in hell you’d ever give me another look. And then your friend called me. And now here we are.”
“Wait. You know my mom died?”
He nods. “I’ve been keeping tabs on you for years.”
“Alexa?” I ask, having to keep my voice low because what I really want to do is crawl over the table and strangle him for stalking my sister.
“It about killed me when she went missing a few years back.”
“Then why now?” I ask. “Why did you come to New York and follow me around?”
He pulls out his wallet and removes a picture, sliding it across the table. It’s a picture of me when I was younger. I don’t remember it and I have no idea how in the hell he got it.
“What can I get you?” the waitress asks him.
“Club soda with lime, please.”
The waitress walks away and he looks around the bar and laughs. “Been a while since I’ve been in a bar. Good to see they haven’t changed much.”
I ignore his statement and pick up the picture. “Where did you get this? Did my mother send it to you?”
“Shannon? No, she never sent me anything. It’s not a picture of—”
“Well why the hell would she send you anything?” I cut him off. “You left her. You left us.”
“No, son. I didn’t.”
I grit my teeth. “Do not call me son.” I take a drink and slam my glass back down on the table. “And what the hell do you mean you didn’t?”
“Caden, your mother threw me out. With good reason, I might add. I was a drug addict. Cocaine. And my addiction drove us right to the poor house. Came home one night and she had thrown all my belongings on the front porch. Said never to contact her again. I thought about fighting her, because damn, I loved you kids, but I knew no judge would give custody to an addict. It killed me, Caden—the thought of not seeing you and your sister. So, I did everything I could to make some money so I could be a good dad to you and come back and fight for you one day.” He shakes his head, clearly disgusted with himself. “But I did a lot of stupid things back then. Cocaine had a tight grip on me and I messed up. I couldn’t even steal cars without letting the drugs get the best of me. I ended up doing a few years in prison.”
“Yeah, I saw your mug shot. How proud you must be.”
“I’m not proud of anything, son—uh, Caden. The only damn thing I’ve done right in my life is have three great kids. Not that I have anything to do with it, I credit their mothers for everything.”
Now he has my attention. “Three? You have three kids?”
He puts a finger on the picture and pushes it back to me. “This is your half-brother, Scott.”
I pick up the picture and stare. He’s a goddamn carbon copy of me. “How old is he?”
“Twelve. And he’s the reason I’m here. He’s had a big growth spurt this past year. He’s grown up fast. Grown up to look just like his older bro
ther. And don’t think it’s gone unnoticed. People are starting to tell him how much he looks like the New York Nighthawks’ star catcher. The person he shares a last name with. We never told him the truth about him being your brother. But when you became famous—well it’s been harder and harder to convince people you aren’t related. And then when my wife got sick …”
“You re-married?”
A sad smile crosses his face. “Dawn is the best thing that ever happened to me. She helped me get right after my release from prison.” He looks down at the picture of Scott and frowns. “She died two years ago. Cancer. Scott took it hard, as you can imagine a ten-year-old would. He fell into depression. Doctors couldn’t help him. Medication didn’t work either. So six months ago, I took a chance. I took a chance and told him about you and Alexa.”
I scrub my hand across my jaw. “I have a brother?” I’m still trying to absorb the words. I look Shane in the eyes. “I want to meet him. Is he in town?”
He shakes his head. “No. He’s in Atlanta. I’ve been coming here on business. I’m scouting locations for somewhere to start up a new program. And anyway, I was hoping you and I could repair our relationship before introducing you. Get things off on the right foot.”
“Repair our relationship?” I look at him through damaged eyes. “I don’t care if my mother threw you out or not, you are the one who cut off all contact. I’m twenty-five fucking years old, Shane, and I’ve never received so much as a phone call or a goddamn birthday card. What you broke is beyond repair.”
“What are you talking about?” he asks, cocking his head to the side. “I sent you cards every birthday, Christmas and Easter. I sent gifts, too. Even from prison. I sent them for years, Caden. Despite the fact your mother told me to stop. She said it hurt you and your sister to get gifts from the man they despised. But I kept sending them anyway, until the one Christmas when the presents I sent you were returned along with a note from you and Alexa asking me not to contact either of you again.”
“That’s crazy,” I tell him. “We never wrote any such letter. And we never got any cards. We never got anything from you.”
He looks about as broken as a man can look when he hears my words.
“Caden, no. I did. I sent them. I promise you I did.” He closes his eyes and sighs in frustration. “She must have hidden them from you. Or thrown them away. I can’t believe she would do such a thing. I tried so hard to get you what I thought would make you happy. One year I stood in line for hours so I could get a pink scooter for Alexa—one with those tassels hanging off the handlebars. She loved pink. From the time she could dress herself, she would only wear pink. I think she must have been six or seven that year.”
“She was eight,” I say, shaking my head in disbelief. “I remember because it was the best present she ever got. She flipped out when she opened it. She never let the thing out of her sight. It—it was from you?”
He nods, his eyes becoming glassy with tears. “Did you get any of the others? The pogo stick? The collection of Superman DVDs? The Game Boy?” He runs a hand through his hair. “The … the baseball glove?”
My heart lodges somewhere in my throat. So many things are going through my head right now. Not the least of which is that my mother might have lied to us. She may have passed all those gifts off as being from her. She withheld the fact that my father was trying to contact us all those years. That she was the one who kept him from us.
“When?” I ask, needing more concrete information. “How old was I when you sent the glove?”
He thinks on it a beat. “You would have been five. Same age as I was when my father gave me one.”
Oh, my God. He is the one who got me the glove? The glove that had me begging my mom to let me play T-Ball? The glove that still sits on my dresser as a reminder of where I came from and what I had to go through to get here.
The glove that made me who I am today.
“I became a baseball player because of that glove,” I say through the lump in my throat.
Tears spill over his lashes as he can no longer control his emotions. He reaches over and puts his hand on mine. I don’t pull away. I don’t pull away because I hear Murphy’s words echoing through my head. What if it turns out to be the best thing that ever happened to you?
“So,” I say, choking back my own tears. “Tell me about my little brother. Does he like baseball?”
My dad laughs. Then we spend the next two hours getting to know each other; making up for twenty-five years of lost time. He tells me about the program he runs. I tell him about my job. He shows me pictures of the step-mother I never knew. I let him scroll through pictures of my nieces—his grandkids—on my phone.
“What do you need from me, Caden?” he asks, when our conversation winds down. “I’ll do anything you ask.”
I look at the picture of Scott, once again. “I need you to go with me to see Lexi,” I say. “And then the three of us are taking the first flight we can get to Atlanta.”
Chapter Thirty-two
Murphy
I stare at the picture of Caden and his brother, amazed at how Scott is just a smaller version of Caden. Who could have imagined that his dad reaching out to him could have led to this? Their relationship is far from ideal, however, as Caden has a lot to overcome in his mind before he can fully accept his dad. But he’s trying. He’s talked about him a lot tonight. And the way he looks when he speaks of Scott—I can tell he’s already become the proud older brother.
“Thank you,” he says, putting his fork down, full of the dinner we’ve once again cooked together at his place.
“You cooked half of it,” I say, getting up to clear the dishes.
He grabs my arm, pulling me back. “Not for dinner.” He nods to the picture of him and Scott. “For that. I wasn’t ready to face my father, Murphy. You are the one who encouraged me to do it. And now my whole world has changed. I can’t thank you enough.”
I smile down at him. “You would have gotten there eventually. All I did was give you a little nudge.”
He pulls me onto his lap and I deposit the plates back on the table. My heart beats wildly in my chest. I’m sitting on him in a way girlfriends might sit on their boyfriends. He’s staring into my eyes the way one lover would stare into another’s.
We haven’t talked about it. About us. Not since our last date—or whatever. We’ve texted. We’ve had conversations at the gym. But, other than the one time he said that the only person he wanted a thing with was me, he hasn’t mentioned it.
He runs a finger lightly across my scar. “Let’s go out for a drink,” he says, eyeing my neck like he wants to devour it with his lips.
My mind barely comprehends his words because all it’s focused on is his growing erection beneath me. I don’t want to go to a bar with him. I don’t want to go anywhere but back to his bedroom where I can fulfill the fantasies that have been consuming my every waking hour.
But when my head clears and comes down from the clouds, I realize how monumentally bad that decision would be. I mean, this isn’t even a date if you ask Caden.
“A drink sounds great,” I tell him, extracting myself from his lap.
We clean up the kitchen before heading out. On the way to the front door, he reaches into a bin, pulling out a couple of Hawks hats. He puts one on his head and then puts the other one on me. He takes care to fit it perfectly to my head and then he tucks my hair behind my ears.
“Have I ever told you how good you look in my hats?”
I laugh. “Your hats?”
He shrugs confidently.
“It’s not even daylight, Caden,” I say, going to remove mine. “Why—”
“Camouflage,” he says, putting a hand on the top of my hat to keep me from taking it off.
I frown, wondering if he’s afraid to be seen out with me.
He puts a finger under my chin and raises my head up until our eyes meet. “Don’t read too much into it, Slugger. What we do together is nobody else’s busines
s, that’s all.”
I nod, willing myself to believe his words. “But where will we go without you being recognized?”
“Someplace dark. We’ll sit in the back.”
“Are you sure that’s a good idea?” I ask, not wanting him to get mobbed by fans.
He eyes me up and down, perusing every inch of me like he’s appraising a prized possession. He grabs my hands, pulling me so close that my chest touches his. When he leans down, the bills of our hats collide. “You look amazing. You smell amazing. And all I’ve been able to think about tonight is dragging you back to my bedroom. So, yes, I’m sure we need to get the hell out of my apartment and go somewhere safe.”
Heat courses through my veins and I smile thinking that he’s been fantasizing about me as well. “I’m not safe with you?” I tease.
A hand comes up to caress my scar and his breath warms my face. “You’ll never be safer with anyone else, Murph. I swear it.”
He pulls away before his lips have a chance to touch mine, leaving me wanting more. Needing more.
“Come on, let’s go,” he says, opening the door and pulling me through.
~ ~ ~
I still can’t believe Caden has gone unnoticed. Yes, it’s dark. And yes, we’re sitting off in a corner. But even the whole way here, when we walked along the crowded streets, nobody singled him out.
I’ve often thought New York City is a good place to get lost. To blend into the crowd. Mallory told me not so long ago that it’s why her uber-famous husband, Chad, likes it here so much. The city is busy. People rarely take the time to pay attention to each other. It’s especially true on a Saturday night when everyone seems to have a place to go and is in a hurry to get there.
The waitress places our second round of drinks on the table and Caden carefully sips his while I all but guzzle mine. Anything to distract me from the soft under-the-table touches. The strong leg he has pressed against mine. The seductive glances. They all have my body humming.
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