Romance in Color

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by Synithia Williams


  To Cathy Ray, Patricia (Patty) Pugh, Denise Jackson, and Zaida Martin. Thank you all for your continued support and encouragement, and for giving me your time and helpful advice. And a special thanks to you, Patty, for pushing me so hard to work on this book and complete it. If not for your relentless insistence that I stop procrastinating, it might still be sitting on my hard drive.

  To Kurt, my very enthusiastic friend and editor. Thank you for the male perspective.

  Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright Page

  Acknowledgments

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Epilogue

  Chapter 1

  Candace Brown stood in the hotel lobby staring at the row of elevators, hesitant to push the button that would take her to the upper levels. Nash, her once-in-a-blue-moon lover had called. He’d said he was in town, but only for the night. Her “if you had any sense” inner voice had shrieked bad idea as soon as she’d hung up the phone. But every woman alive knows raging hormones and no sex for months will kick a sensible thought in its ass, and trample it right into the dust.

  She’d rushed out the door, jumped in her car, and driven there at breakneck speed, ready for a long-overdue romp between the sheets. Now with only an elevator ride standing between her and satisfying the ache between her legs, that nagging voice reemerged and refused to be ignored. And it told her she was about to take stupid to a whole other level. Suddenly she was undecided.

  In the few months she’d known him, he’d never shown a capacity to care about other human beings or feel real emotion. There wasn’t a sensitive, civilized bone in his body. Lately, he’d started the annoying habit of calling her “Freak.” He claimed it was a term of endearment, but the unpleasant way the word rolled off his tongue felt more like accusation than kindness. She loathed the way it made her feel. Nash enjoyed using offensive, demeaning language to make her uncomfortable and feel less like a woman and more like an object.

  Basically, Andrew Nash was an asshole. He’d weaseled his way into her life using his affable charm, a trait she’d quickly learned was pure gimmick. Her first mistake was agreeing to go out with him, immediately followed by her second: going to bed with him. And she’d continued falling into bed with him again and again, all while ignoring her better judgment and ditching her sense of pride.

  So why did she keep coming back? Because he was handsome and fit, and in spite of his asinine behavior, the man knew his way around a woman’s body. His hands and mouth flowed like pure magic over every inch of her—pushing her buttons, plucking her cords, and playing her like a fine-tuned instrument. Aware of his abilities and her weaknesses, he skillfully used both to manipulate her and turn her inside out. When she was with him, she was the freak he’d named her—he knew exactly how to make her lose control. It pissed her off that the man who let loose her deepest inhibitions took such great pleasure in mocking her for it.

  The fact that Candace’s lust for Nash far outweighed her self-respect hadn’t mattered until now. So what had changed? Why hadn’t she pushed that elevator button? Maybe she’d finally grown tired of his demeaning comments and deliberate disrespect. Maybe the sex wasn’t worth the insults. Maybe it was time to stop settling for temporary satisfaction while enduring constant humiliation. While struggling to make her choice, she was distracted by her reflection in the highly polished chrome of the elevator doors. The sight stirred up a startling memory; the walls and sounds of the lobby melted away, replaced by a more powerful and provoking image.

  All of a sudden she was with Nash, standing before a long bank of windows as high as the ceiling, staring back at their reflection in the tinted sheets of glass. The world beyond was muted and shrouded in darkness, illuminated solely by pinpoints of artificial light that flickered in distant windows or flashed by in the street way down below. The room was nearly as dark, dimly lit with soft lighting that spilled over from an adjacent room. Their naked bodies were cast in silhouette and posed on full display in front of the window, where they stood uncaring and unashamed.

  She leaned back and relaxed her body into his, her hips and thighs cradled against him. She gave in to the tingling sensations created by caressing hands that glided over her sensitive skin in long, sensual strokes. Hands that swept across her shoulders, down her back, and reached underneath her breasts, cupping and lifting them high. Molded around her full and swaying flesh, his fingers pulled and pinched her distended nipples hard, sending electrical shivers down her spine. Warm, moist breath pushed through her curls and tantalized her ear and neck. His wet tongue probed her ear and teased her neck and throat, seeking the soft, telltale sounds of pleasure as proof that she craved his touch.

  He pressed her tightly against him, fusing them together and pulling her back against his stiff arousal. The coarse hairs on his thighs and pelvis chafed against the soft skin of her bare back and bottom, the friction tormenting her. He bent her forward doggy-style in front of the window and moved his body seductively over hers, rubbing against her entrance before easing his stiff length into her waiting wetness. They shared the titillating sensation of penetration, the electrifying feeling of his steel sliding through her satin. Their bodies quivered in pleasure from the intimate joining, his cock encircled by her liquid heat.

  Immersed in the moment, they wordlessly watched their bodies in motion, reflected in the glass. She saw through half-closed lids the paleness of his white skin against her darker complexion, and shuddered as his shaft moved with a slow, steady rhythm, in and out between her slick, silken folds. Together they moved in one fluid motion like partners in a private dance, pulling apart and meeting in the middle with force and fervor, again and again. Overcome by nearly unbearable sensations, she alternately welcomed the pleasure and fought against the building ache that would too soon take her over the edge. Fiery heat poured through her veins and scorched and burned her from the inside. The warmth surged and bubbled up into her throat as she soared inevitably toward climax, and emerged as the sound a woman makes on the verge of losing control.

  His pace quickened and became more forceful. He pulled her up and pushed her hard against the window and pressed her face and breasts into the glass, her arms splayed out to her sides. Her back arched deeper and her legs spread wider to accommodate his furious and repeated plunges inside her velvet channel. She was lost in passion, overcome by sensation. Approaching the edge of his climax, he grabbed a handful of her hair, yanked her head back, and wrapped his arm around her waist. He pulled her down and pounded her again and again with his thrusting cock. His fingers unerringly found her throbbing clit and furiously rubbed against her sensitive flesh until she erupted in an orgasm so strong she staggered and nearly crumpled to the floor ...

  The buzzing sound of her phone vibrating in her purse interrupted her brief, yet vivid recollection. The caller ID told her it was Nash.

  “Hello?”

  “Hey, Freak. I’ve been waiting for over an hour. Where are you?”

  Her jaw tightened. Instant clarity flooded her indecisive mind, and common sense demanded to be heard. There wasn’t a damn thing between her and Nash except hot sex. They weren’t even friends. Their “relationship” was purely physical and based on convenience for her
and mockery for him. Suddenly she realized that being the object of ridicule for the sake of good sex was ridiculous.

  A dull red shade of anger spread across her cheeks. This was it. This was her wakeup call. She wasn’t taking any more crap from Andrew Nash, no matter how good he was in bed.

  “I’m not coming.”

  “You’re not coming? Yeah, right.” He laughed in sarcastic disbelief. “That’s a good one, Freak. So where are you?” he continued. “The nights a-wasting, and I’ve got plans for that freaky brown-sugar ass of yours.”

  “I said I’m not coming. I’m not taking any more of your shit. You may be a good fuck, Nash, but that’s the only ‘good’ thing about you. I’m ending this while I still have some of my dignity intact. Sorry for the short notice, but I know you won’t have any trouble replacing me with some other freak.”

  “Look, Freak, I’m not in the mood for games.” His voice took on an angry edge. “Get your ass over here. If you keep me waiting too long, I might have to spank that pretty brown ass, just to teach you a lesson.”

  The mere mention of the promised spanking made her weak in the knees. A gush of liquid desire soaked her underwear—and pissed her off even more.

  “You’re an asshole, Nash,” she hissed through clenched teeth.

  “Yeah, I know.” He laughed harshly. “But you’re gonna show. We both know you’re a fucking addict, and I’m your drug.”

  Candace viciously stabbed the “end call” button on her phone, walked swiftly back toward the hotel entrance, and gave the valet her ticket. Still fuming when her car arrived, she handed the young man a generous tip and silently celebrated her small victory by charging the parking fee to the asshole’s room.

  Chapter 2

  Candace picked up the phone. “Doctor Jeffers’s office, how may I help you?”

  “Hi, Candy, is Joyce in?” Candace smiled at the sound of Sarona’s voice. She, Joyce, and Sarona had been friends for years. Joyce and Sarona had met at an airport while waiting for a connecting flight home. The two struck up a conversation over a mutual obsession for designer shoes and handbags. Candace had worked for Joyce part-time while attending college, and Joyce offered her a job once she completed her degree. Now the three were nearly inseparable.

  “Hi, Sarona. Yes, she’s in. She’s with a couple of clients, but she’ll be done any minute if you don’t mind waiting.” Joyce was a relationship/marriage counselor and sometimes sex therapist, and her full client list kept Candace’s reception desk very busy.

  “No, I don’t mind. It’ll give me a chance to catch up on the latest gossip. What’s new? Have you found a man yet, or are you still doggedly holding onto your ‘wild, single, and free’ status, refusing to give in to the power of love?”

  “Nothing’s changed. I’m still living single.” Candace laughed. “But I have sworn off dating for a while.”

  “Shut your mouth. I don’t believe it. Why?”

  “Because, the last guy I was seeing was a jerk. He was great between the sheets, but a total ass on his feet.”

  “Girl, when are you going to stop hanging out with losers? We both know you can do so much better. I swear, sometimes I think you go out of your way to hook up with the worst guys around. You’ll never find Mr. Right when you insist on looking for Mr. Wrong.” Sarona’s voice was filled with exasperation. “You’ve got so much going for you, Candace. You’re beautiful and crazy smart. I just know there’s a great guy out there somewhere who would love to get to know you, if you gave him half a chance.”

  “Ah yes, my friend, ever the optimist. Just because you’ve been lucky in love doesn’t mean the rest of us are as fortunate. I’ve got news for you: the dating pool is pretty shallow, and being ‘crazy smart’ isn’t in high demand.”

  Candace couldn’t find a way out of her predicament. The deep end was filled with puffed-up, self-important egotists who had no idea how to spot a great catch. At the other end were timid, afraid-of-their-own-shadow types, with such fragile egos that a strong-willed, outspoken woman scared the hell out of them. Her choices were either assholes or sheep. The chances of finding a decent, eligible, intelligent bachelor who’s able to cope with an independent woman were slim to none.

  “So I won’t be looking for Mr. Right, Mr. Wrong, or Mr. Anybody for a while. I’m taking off the silk thong and putting on my one hundred percent cotton panties, and I’m going to stock up on batteries and become reacquainted with my vibrator.”

  “Girl, you are too much.” Sarona laughed. “You can be so cynical sometimes.”

  “Cynicism is only one of my endearing qualities. What about you?” Candace asked, deftly changing the subject. “The last time I heard from you, you were away at a work conference with some guy, and I quote, ‘living la vida loca,’ and spouting something about ‘shouting hallelujah from the rafters.’ Care to share the details?”

  “I’d love to, but that would require an entire evening complete with wine, cheese and crackers, and assorted chocolates, as well as a notarized agreement not to divulge any or all parts of the conversation.”

  “Whoa. It was that good?”

  “Yeah. It was that good.”

  “Well, sign me up and swear me in. I can’t wait to hear the whole story.” At the sound of a door opening, Candace looked up to see Joyce ushering a couple out of her office.

  “As always, it’s great talking with you, Sarona.” She softly chuckled. “But Joyce is available now, so I’ll put you through.”

  “Thanks, Candy. Hey, keep your calendar open. You, Joyce, and I are going to have to get-together when I get back from my trip. It’s time for another girls’ night out.”

  “You’re going on another trip? This is your third one this month. Joyce won’t be happy to hear that. She’s already been complaining about all those canceled lunches and happy hours because of you working overtime. She’s actually threatened to force you to choose between her or your job.”

  “Yeah, I know. That’s why I’m calling. I have to break the news to her.”

  “Well, I don’t envy you that charming little chore.” Candace laughed as she signaled Joyce and pressed a button to transfer the call.

  Pulling files and preparing for the next appointment, Candace replayed her conversation with Sarona in her head. It sounded like she’d had quite an adventure during her recent trip, and that was great. But, unfortunately, whenever any of her friends scored big in the game of love, it didn’t bode well for her. It meant they’d want to include her in their world of happiness, which always translated into another round of well-meaning meddling and matchmaking. Somewhere along the way, Joyce and Sarona had made it their self-appointed goal in life to find Candace a “Mr. Right.” The two were determined that she do what was expected of every woman of a certain age—settle down, start a family, and live happily ever after. Because it was their dream to do so, they thought it was only natural she should feel the same way.

  She made a face and cringed at the thought. What was all the fuss about anyway, to rush into marriage and motherhood? For Christ’s sake, she was only twenty-seven. She loved her freedom and celebrated every moment of it. Ever since she’d begun working for Joyce, she’d watched clients come and go, and sometimes come back again. She’d seen firsthand how difficult it was to make a relationship work, and she wanted no part of that drama.

  Besides, there ain’t no such thing as Mr. Right. Suddenly, her mood rapidly descended into a dark and cynical place. That man is a fairy tale, just like Santa Claus, trumped up and told solely to little girls. Ultimately, children grew up and stopped believing in Santa Claus, but little girls became women who never stopped believing in Mr. Right. She’d learned that fairy tales were best left to children, not grown-ass women. Andrew Nash was living and breathing proof of that lie.

  She hadn’t always been so cynical. She’d once held the same blind belief of all women in search of that one man destined to fulfill their fantasy—until selfish, uncaring men like Nash had dashed her dreams
and destroyed her hope. The facts of life opened her eyes to the truth: that not everyone gets a happily-ever-after ending; sometimes all they get is “the end.”

  Candace stared blankly at the papers spread across her desk, her thoughts anchored in another place and time. Painful memories had been suppressed, but not forgotten. She knew what it was like to be in love. She’d been there, done that—twice. And twice her heart had been broken and handed back to her in pieces.

  At sixteen she’d been sweet, sensitive, and naïve, trusting her emotions and believing in the fantasy. She’d given away her heart and her virginity to another sixteen-year-old because of her faith in the fairy tale. She was in love, and love was reason enough to justify her decision. A week later, he was gone. He’d moved on to another girl and left her feeling so hurt, confused, and ashamed that it was hard to breathe. She hid her suffering behind fake smiles and forced laughter, and pretended to agree with others who insisted it was only a teenage crush. Time passed and life went on, and she’d gotten through it. But if it was “only a crush,” why did it still hurt at twenty-seven as bad as it had at sixteen?

  At twenty-three she’d deliberately pursued relationships with older men, blaming her earlier heartbreak on her immature partner. Age and experience would make all the difference in the world. Wouldn’t it? The second love of her life was a dream come true: handsome, sweet, attentive—and a liar. She wasn’t the only woman in his life, just one of many he wined, dined, and used for his selfish entertainment. There’d been plenty of warning signs, but she’d chosen to ignore them, stubbornly fighting to hold onto the dream. Eventually, she’d caught him in one too many lies and had to acknowledge another failure. And her belief in forever-after began to unravel.

  It didn’t matter that the circumstances were different; the pain was the same. She’d sat alone in the dark with the curtains drawn and her face stuffed in a pillow to soak up her tears and muffle the sobs. Then she crawled under the covers, closed her eyes, and wished she could die, just to make the hurt go away. She didn’t die. She endured and made a vow. Never, ever, again. That would be the last time she’d serve herself up on a platter, because she’d never survive heartbreak number three. Sure, it was true that time healed all wounds, but wounds deep enough left scars.

 

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