“I don’t know,” she said. “It’s gone. You chased it off. You were here.”
“Yes, I am always here.”
THE NEXT MORNING SHE woke in a state of happiness so extreme that she thought she should ground herself, for safety’s sake. She should call Luke — at least to alert him to the dismal outcome of her searches in the upper field, so he could adjust his plans or schemes.
But what if ?
That little thought surfaced, again, about something during her searches that she might have overlooked. She flicked it to the side. She pictured taking Gianni to the meadow to show him what was there, making him the gift of the fascinating botanical questions the place raised.
Again, at that, something clenched. Not just the inevitability, then, of revisiting the matter of her paintings, painful to her on several levels now that her gift had so strangely packed up and left; but the feeling that to go there with Gianni, to the field of frantic hopes she and Luke had shared, would be the true act of betrayal.
But I have already betrayed Luke, she thought, remembering how that first night, in the bath, Gianni had drifted into her mind, and how after that, at unexpected moments, she’d feel an inner little tipsy surge when the thought of Gianni occurred. At these moments everything developed a fevered glow. Surely that was love, which had been incubating in her all along, while the odd barbed thing that had hooked her to Luke was twisted mainly to a fear for him, for the way that he’d torn down his own defences and shown himself to her — seemed to have done that, she told herself now, because wasn’t it likely she’d been just a necessary step towards his dream of exploration in Anatolia?
CLARE AND GIANNI HAD just stumbled up from the big bath downstairs, wrapped in towels, when Marta came in. She thumped a warm loaf of chestnut cake on the table — freshly baked for Signora Chiara’s breakfast, she said, giving Gianni a look. She thumped down cups and plates, and a pot of espresso so strong the tiny cups jittered with disapproval.
Later, she took Clare aside and told her in a harsh whisper, as if this was something the Italian visitor should not hear, that Niccolo had brought in yet another dog, one who was particularly cross, to patrol her land, because he had developed some further concerns.
Oh good! Bene, bene, eccellente! Clare said; the more dogs the better! She played it up. The dogs were part of a drama the two of them were acting out to demonstrate their importance to the place, she decided. She said she hoped Marta would thank Niccolo for taking care of these concerns.
Today she had enough concerns of her own. She was off to visit Gianni’s estate near Siena. Gianni had assured her that his wife lived in Bologna, as did his children, too, most of the time. He had such a desolate expression as he told her this. And though his mother did live on the estate, with “ninety percent certainty” she and his stepfather would be at the sea, at their place at Lerici. But Clare had overheard Gianni talking on the phone to that beautiful Mammà; she had heard him mention her name, describing Clare as “una donna con molti grandi talenti!”, and Clare figured that with ninetynine percent certainty Mammà would be waiting at some mullioned window to spy on her.
Through the Looking Glass
AS THEY TURNED NORTH off the familiar winding road past Montepulciano and Pienza, a tractor pulled onto the highway just ahead, slowing Gianni’s Land Rover to a crawl. This was almost a mirror image of a similar moment with Luke on the road from Tarquinia. Gianni slipped quietly along, almost nudging the tractor’s rear, until the farmer pulled aside. The Land Rover sailed past, and on through the looking glass, Clare thought: the countryside was transformed as well, everything that had been green and new was now tawny and bristling, the fields dotted with fat jelly-rolls of hay, cloud shadows carving deep purple canyons into the stubby gold.
The road wound past small villages and ruined castles and bosky groves, then further fields — such variation and repetition, like some lovely musical arrangement. She decided to let her concerns about meeting Gianni’s family drop behind. She would take Gianni’s word that the beautiful mother — and the stepfather stolen from a previous long-established marriage — would be at the sea.
They wound down into a farther valley, where tender shoots of rice were poking up and the morning light was steamy, then patchwork fields replaced the paddies and red-tiled roofs dotted the hills. “What amazes me about this country is that there is so much country,” she said, aware that she’d been silent for too long.
“From my ancestral tower,” he said, “I will present you with a most beautiful panorama.”
“That’s the first I’ve heard of any tower.”
“Oh we have very good defences at La Celta.”
She asked what exactly they defended. He turned another of those fond, unsettling looks on her. “Mainly we are involved in bringing back what has been lost. You will see.”
Then he slammed on the brakes. “Aiii, I have allowed myself to be distracted.”
A leather portfolio slid against the back of her seat. Another of those fine, cared-for possessions of his, she thought as she reached back to secure its location; like his shoes, the aged leather of the case was polished to a buttery lustre, revealing an innate sense of the worth of well-worn things. All very well, if there was someone around to do the buffing up. All very well, if you could suddenly spring on someone else the fact of an ancestral tower.
He reversed, pulled in through a gate where stone pillars held urns of geraniums, started up a drive between a double row of cypresses, took a hairpin turn, and then another and another. When the drive levelled she saw, through a leafy screen on the downhill side, a jumble of buildings with a battlemented tower. He turned off the cypress-lined drive onto one that twisted downward. Some minutes later, they drove through an archway into a flagged courtyard with a well at its centre and a stone animal rearing on a plinth, its features so worn away it could be a rodent of some sort.
Our ancestral mouse?
He parked in a farther courtyard. Two big whitish dogs burst from metal-studded doors. Gianni sprang out to embrace them, introduce them. “This is Rudolfo, and here we have Charles, because we thought he had an English temperament.” The dog stuck his nose in Clare’s crotch, then looked up with mild eyes of the same deep amber as his master’s.
His own apartment, Gianni said, was at the top of that tower. He was vague about what lay behind the many doors as they climbed up, fifty-two steps, light filtering through occasional arrow slits.
When they stepped into a darkened hallway at the top, Clare had an impression of terracotta floors, ceiling beams as thick as barrels. A pinkish glow filtered from a room where there must have been an open shutter; she caught a glimpse of a rosy quilt, a doll.
He led her up one more set of stairs to a landing, then through studded doors into a space almost completely dark. With a conjurer’s flourish, he went around opening the shutters on low square windows with stone sills as wide as sidewalks. She barely had time to form an impression — thick rugs, a fireplace, a trestle table with perhaps a kitchen alcove behind — before he steered her through arched doors onto a narrow balcony hovering over a vertical drop. Far below, a slim river wound silvery through patterned fields. A train that looked like a toy was pulling into a tiny tile-roofed train station at the river’s edge. Beyond were many layers of hills, each one paler than the last, then beyond those were the deep blue mountain ridges.
“Wow.”
“When I return here, I think always ‘wow’ as well.”
She asked what those towers were, clustered in the near distance. That was Siena, he said. In the evening, when the sunset caught it, she would see that the whole town gave off a rosy glow from the light it had absorbed all day in its stones.
“You never told me your ancestral acres lorded it over Siena.”
“So you like it, then? My kingdom?” He looked almost apprehensive. “Now here is something we must perform.” He swooped her up like a bride. “I regret I did not carry you up the stairs. But n
ow I formally welcome you, Clare Livingston, to my kingdom where all is yours to command!”
SHE PULLED AWAY SO that she was standing again, stung by how foolish she was, after everything he’d explained about his marriage. There were rules to this sort of thing, lines she had to walk. She must be careful not to step over.
“So tell me, what’s the story of this place?” she said quickly, to cover the awkwardness of not letting him carry her over the threshold. “How come it’s called La Celta?”
He would come up with something foolish, she knew, to ease them over that awkwardness, which of course he had caught.
She was right. His eyes flashed mischief. He asked if she knew the famous medieval English soldier of fortune, Sir John Hawkwood. There had been many other such companies of mercenary soldiers, he said, who had come here to spread much terror, “but the most dreaded was our Celt, who came with a band that played terrible instruments and all wore skirts, and occupied our castle before moving on to Verona. There he took the family name of the Montecchi, just to blend in. You have surely heard of the feud between the clans of the Montecchi and the Capuleti, and the tragedy your Shakespeare later stole?”
“You’re absurd!”
“You do not believe? Very well, I will show you to your quarters,” — much fake Scottish rolling of the r’s — “and then prevail upon you to take a spot of lunch.”
But that would mean a trek back down to his car, while in one of those apartments bordering the courtyard, she’d decided for certain now, the Senior DiGiustinis lurked and spied.
“I’m not at all hungry, actually.”
“In Italy we always must eat our midday meal, or we will not have the verve afterwards for making love.”
“It’s un-Canadian, though. We think it’s like swimming. You could sink.”
“Very well. As you are my guest, we must do everything in the manner your countrymen would approve.”
So when she woke up much later, in a bed almost the size of Nova Scotia, she was starved.
SHE HEARD HIM TALKING in the other room. She recognized the already familiar rhythms of a phone conversation with his Mammà. A few times even on the drive here there’d been a small twitter hardly louder than a bat squeak from his pocket, and he’d pulled out the phone and checked the number. She’d come to recognize the mother-conversation tone: humorous, indulgent. These chats were never short.
Clare stretched out in the vast bed, which Gianni claimed had once been the playing field of a Spanish prince. The bed had remained in the tower bedroom since the days when Charles the Fifth had occupied Siena; as he explained this, Gianni had climbed three steps on the far side of the footboard and stood on a little carvedwood ledge there, saying that this was where the Spanish prince had delivered bedtime sermons to his spouse.
“And I suppose Juliet slept here with her Scottish lad as well?” she’d laughed, from the acreage of silk-covered feathers below.
“You do not believe in my Scottish heritage? Permit me to show you, then, my Highland fling.” He’d pulled off the white silk shorts, popped the final button on his shirt, done a swan dive that landed him beside her on the cloud-like layers.
Now, in the last light filtering through closed shutters, Clare saw that the bedroom held much more dark carved wood. She couldn’t help wondering what scenes those brooding chests and cupboards had witnessed. At the far end of the room, a set of steps led to a trap door in the ceiling. Gianni had said they would go up onto the parapet later to see the stars; he said that here, in his kingdom, there were different constellations altogether.
She found a bathroom through a set of studded doors, a vast marble sarcophagus with polished brass taps that gave out lots of hot water. He found her there and brought a long red flannel robe and wrapped her up. “You smell so good.”
“You too. What have you been up to out there? You smell of bacon.”
“I have been starting a little spaghetti carbonara; I hope this will be fine. I do not have a lot of supplies.”
The kitchen table held a basket with tomatoes and a clutch of basil, and a round of Tuscan bread. Someone called Manfredo had brought the tomatoes from a vegetable garden out beyond the battlemented walls.
“Does Manfredo bring your fireplace wood up all those fifty-two steps as well?”
“Sometimes, sì.” A vague twist of the hands, as if refusing to limit the possibilities — sometimes carried by Manfredo, and sometimes by himself, and perhaps sometimes by flocks of doves?
The window looked down into the dark courtyard where a wrought-iron lamp threw a faint gleam on the cobbles. She wondered which of the shuttered sets of windows might hold the senior DiGiustini.
She asked what had happened to his Land Rover. He said that Manfredo had taken it to wash, then to the stable.
Of course, she thought.
As they ate, he told her how the place had fallen almost to ruin when his stepfather, Tomasso, bought it.
“You mean these are not actually your ancestral acres?”
He laughed, spreading his hands, letting that particular ancestry escape. “But I am the one who is bringing everything back into shape.” He was very proud of what he had accomplished; for example, to have all the apartments around the castello brought into modern comfort for his workers.
“Your workers live in the buildings around the courtyard?”
“Yes, many of them,” he said. “Around here is generally much life, though this evening I think you have put an enchantment on.” He said that next day he would show her all that he had done to reclaim the heritage of the place. “For imagine! Tomasso even wanted to turn the castello into apartments for Americans to rent! What does he care, when he can still have his fine private life up at the villa.”
“At the villa?”
“Yes, yes, you will see.” He waved his hands, in that vague airy way, in the direction of the hill behind.
Always One Forbidden Room
BEFORE THEY WENT TO bed again, Gianni showed Clare a handdrawn, tinted map of the whole estate, which hung at the top of the tower stairs. It was really more like an illustration of a kingdom in a fairytale, with the villa as the focal point, situated at the end of the cypress drive, within acres of box hedges, herbaceous plantings, landscaped groves with hidden grottoes, and vast slopes of lawn. The villa was large and white, with a double baroque staircase folding back on itself to a regal arched entrance on the second floor. A fountain with dolphins spouted high plumes of water in the gravelled entrance court.
Very early the next morning, Gianni slipped out silently to meet his manager. Later, a phone rang somewhere in the apartment.
Mammà? Ever present. Never seen.
Perhaps never seen, in fact, by the likes of Clare. For it had all been a ruse, she decided, this story that the parents were off at the sea. They had their fine life up at the villa, and whatever the son and heir got up to in the castello they conveniently ignored.
That had been fine with Clare last night. But now, lying in the silky bed, sated, pampered, loved, she started hearing snaky whispers suggesting that having all this — having it and at the same time not having it — made her some kind of laughingstock. Then she was out of bed, wrapped in that long red robe, going through pockets, pulling open drawers, trying the doors to all the lower rooms, now locked, even the one where she’d seen the rosy bedspread and the doll. Eventually, she went to sit in one of the tower windows, crosslegged on the broad stone sill. She watched the sun come up over the far hills, a great ball of light that exploded across the sky, magnified by mist. She pictured the map of the estate, the fairytale kingdom. She thought how in fairytales there was always one room that the visitor was forbidden to enter, a kind of test.
When Gianni returned, he urged her to dress quickly.
“Come, we will find some little unicorn perhaps, for you who do not believe.” He led her to his garden, situated between the first defensive wall and a second one, in an area that had once served to shelter reside
nts of the surrounding hamlets from marauding armies.
“Look!” he said. “Something even more remarkable.” He gestured towards a mass of scented bergamot among the crumbling stones of the garden wall. “We have some members of royalty who have lingered in their life cycle just for you. Our little Spanish Queens!”
A flash of saffron crystallized the light. A butterfly settled among the blooms, followed by another, a ripple of silver from its underwing, a pattern of black lace over the velvet wing-top. “She is one of our very rare ones,” he whispered. “In many countries she does not anymore exist. Do you know how many in Europe have become extinct?”
It was too terrible to think of. “No!”
“In Holland, this wealthy nation with its tulips and its diamonds, eleven species no longer come. In little Belgium, despite its chocolate and its fearsome civil service, there are thirty-two species which are extinct. Extinct. Is this not a dread word? Shall I tell you their names? Shall we make a poem?”
He walked back and forth in front of the crumbled wall.
“Redwing Skipper, Mazarine Blue, Purple-Edged Copper, SilverWashed Fritillary …”
On he went, and on; the litany of empty names the earth was becoming layered with, smothered by the silence of those wingless names. Clare saw herself creeping around in the long red robe, opening drawers, prying at locked doors, a larva of suspicion.
LATER, GIANNI TOOK CLARE around to meet some of his employees. He introduced her to Bastiano Gentili, his manager, telling Bastiano that she was “a most talented and famous artist who has come to grace us with her presence.”
When they walked away, Clare asked him, please, not to introduce her that way to others.
He broke a twig from a tree and snapped it, then turned to her with such a look. “Clare, I have been stricken,” he said, “Stricken, yes! — to think that words from me might have kept you from continuing the paintings for your new work.”
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