Dani found a reasonably short line at a concession stand and bought herself a lemonade, then permitted herself a peek back toward Zeke’s box before she moved on. She couldn’t see him. He was a man, she thought, who defied prediction. He got under her skin more than anyone in recent memory had. He was careful and controlled, undoubtedly good at winning his clients’ trust. But she wasn’t a client, and his reasons for being in Saratoga, she was now certain, had nothing to do with business. They were personal.
Had they brought on the ransacking of her bedroom Thursday afternoon? His room that morning?
She gulped her lemonade, suddenly feeling thirsty and exhausted. Not for a second did she believe Zeke would leave the Pembroke of his own accord. He’d push her as far as he could and make her throw him out. Probably even enjoy going toe-to-toe with her. Would she toss him? Or was she bluffing? She could argue, she thought, that having him stay where she could keep an eye on him wasn’t a bad idea.
She looked around her, not having paid attention to where she was going, and found herself face-to-face with Eugene Chandler. Before she could say a word, he took her by the elbow and pulled her aside. For a man in his eighties, her grandfather’s grip was like a leghold steel trap.
Her grandfather was highly proficient at concealing his emotions, and Dani had to look closely to see the telltale signs that he was angry and upset: deep breaths through the nose, tightly clenched jaw, extra-straight back, extra-quiet voice, extra-piercing blue eyes.
She pulled her arm free, or maybe he just let her go. “Is something—”
“I wish you’d warned us that your father was in town,” he said.
She felt blood rush to her face. “He is?”
Eugene Chandler’s legendary control faltered. “Yes, I spoke to him myself a few minutes ago. Didn’t you know?”
Dani shook her head. Pop’s in Saratoga. What next?
“Danielle?”
“I’m fine.” But she wasn’t fine. She had a professional security consultant from Mattie’s hometown skulking around, and now her father, whom she hadn’t seen in months, had turned up.
“Perhaps you should sit down,” her grandfather said softly.
“I’m okay,” she said, anxious to make her exit, to find her father and grill him. “Thanks.”
“Danielle…” He sighed. “Never mind. Go find your father. It’s good to see you.”
She wished she knew if he was being sincere or if he was just saying what he thought he was supposed to say. Either way, at least she’d know for sure where she stood with him. She tossed her empty lemonade cup into a trash bin and looked back, saw her grandfather join her aunt and uncle returning to the Chandler box.
She didn’t linger. She wanted to find her reprobate of a father and make him tell her what he was doing in Saratoga.
Not for a moment did she believe it was another coincidence.
Altogether, John Pembroke was glad his trip east had cleaned him out or he might have put a few bucks on a homely bay with fifteen-to-one odds. There was no intelligent reason for his pick. A hundred years ago his great-grandfather had entered a homely bay in the first Chandler Stakes and won. So it seemed a fitting tribute, if not good betting, to wager on a similar horse at the Chandler centennial. But John hated the idea of crawling to his daughter for money.
He yawned, shaking off his jet lag and night on a lumpy cot at a trainer friend’s crummy cottage. He’d entertained the idea of trotting up to the Pembroke and asking for a room, just to see what Dani would do. Show him to a park bench? Offer him a room for twice the cost? But John knew what she’d have done. She’d have let him stay with her. He was, after all, she would say, her father.
And wasn’t that the damn thing about it?
But he hadn’t gone up to the Pembroke, not so much because of Dani, but because of the memories. Right now, just being back in Saratoga, at the track, at the Chandler Stakes, was enough torture. Everywhere he looked he saw a reminder of Lilli, of all he’d lost, of how badly he’d failed her and his daughter. It was painful having one’s shortcomings before him at every turn. He didn’t expect anyone’s sympathy, least of all his own. He’d earned his misery.
A crowd had gathered at his stretch of white fence, where a skittish chestnut was being led onto the track, its brightly clad jockey a popular favorite. He waved and smiled, knowing how to play to his audience. Then, when his gleaming thoroughbred touched the dirt, he turned his attention to his job, and the fifty thousand people watching him might not have been there. John was suitably impressed.
He stuck a cigarette in his mouth but didn’t light it.
“I thought you quit.”
Turning, he grinned at his daughter, as small and pretty as ever. “Hello, sweet pea.”
“Don’t ‘sweet pea’ me, Pop. What’re you doing here? How come you didn’t tell me you were coming?” She stopped herself, her hands balled into tight fists at her sides. “Never mind. Obviously we can’t talk here. You, me, the Chandler Stakes—reporters would fall all over themselves if they saw us together. Where are you staying?”
“Don’t trouble yourself about me.”
“I’m not. I just want to be able to find you in case you try to wriggle out of telling me what you’re up to.”
“You sound just like Mattie in the old days when she’d yell at Nick for being such a heel. He used to say he’d never met a more unforgiving woman. Still says it.”
“The Pembroke men,” Dani said with a grudging smile, “don’t make forgiving easy.”
“True.”
“You’re welcome to stay with me at the cottage.”
He grinned. “Can’t leave your old man to the elements or you just want to keep tabs on me?”
But he noticed the dark circles under her eyes and the bruises and scrapes on her arms and legs, and his heart lurched.
“Pop,” she said, “we need to talk. Meet me up at the cottage after the race.”
He nodded, wishing and regretting and wanting so much to see his daughter smile—really smile—and to hear her laugh as she had when he’d scoop her up as a tiny black-haired toddler and toss her in the air. In those days, he had always counted on himself to catch her.
“I mean it, Pop. If you try to sneak out on me, I’ll call the law on you if I have to.”
“For what?”
“I’ll make something up.”
She darted into the crowd that was settling down now for the start of the Chandler. John held his position against the fence, watching his daughter. He’d heard rumors just in his short time in town that she was on the verge of self-destructing. That she’d rather end up broke and discredited like her father and paternal grandfather than rich and respected like her mother’s father. That she’d rather, in the end, be a Pembroke than a Chandler. John didn’t believe the rumors. All her life his only child had struggled simply to be herself. It was a struggle he understood, even if he’d been defeated by it, and even if she’d never believe he could know how she felt.
He turned back to the track and placed his forearms on the wide, flat top of the fence. The horses were taking their places at the starting gate. Amazingly, he hadn’t even picked up a program.
But it wouldn’t have mattered.
He wasn’t there. He was at the track of another era, not twenty-five years ago when Lilli disappeared or even thirty years ago when they’d been so happy together, but all the way back to his first summer in Saratoga when he was thirteen years old. His mother had “retired” from Hollywood by then and moved him to Greenwich Village. He’d come to love the hustle and excitement of Manhattan, even as he longed for the dry, sunny days of Beverly Hills and his father’s kidney-shaped swimming pool.
“Don’t worry about being stuck in New York forever,” Nick would counsel him during their weekly telephone calls. “Your mother will come crawling back to me soon enough.”
John had known his mother would never return to California. At first, eager New York hostesses had invited her
to all their society dinners and benefits. Mattie, who preferred flying kites in Central Park or wrapping herself in a tattered afghan by the fire and reading murder mysteries, refused—politely—any and all invitations. The twisted result was that she became even more of a legend. Her unconventionality in retirement coupled with her still-extraordinary beauty and the continued popularity of the fifteen movies she’d made had ensured her place not only in film history, but in the imaginations of ordinary people. To John, the Mattie Witt of film legend was unreal to him. The Mattie Witt he knew wasn’t so glamorous and young, but spoke in a lingering southern accent, had had her hair cut off the moment she’d hit the streets of New York, seldom put on makeup or followed fashion. One of her favorite outfits was an orange flight suit, which she’d wear anywhere. John would remember seeing pictures of his mother in sequined evening gowns and gobs of makeup, her lips painted red and her hair done up and diamonds glittering at her neck, and would collapse in a fit of laughter, so different was she after she’d quit Hollywood.
For their trip to Saratoga that muggy August day, she’d collected her convertible—bright red with a cream interior—from the garage and had John drag out her old upholstered valise, which she’d stuffed full. He’d packed it in the back of the car, along with two boxes of glass bottles.
“What’re the bottles for?” he’d asked.
“I’m going to fill them with mineral water and give them to friends as gifts. Here.” She thrust a shoe box at him. “These are my labels. We’ll ink them in during the evening and on rainy days.”
It had sounded horrid to John.
His eccentric mother had put on her driving gloves and wore a lemon-yellow Chanel suit as she drove with the top down, the bottles rattling in the back. Her eyes had seemed blacker and huger than ever.
“Where will we stay?” John had asked.
“At the estate your great-grandfather built.”
That sounded exciting to John. He’d never been there, and he’d imagined all sorts of things—maids, silk sheets, fresh-cut flowers, tennis courts, an indoor swimming pool.
“Remember he was a gambler who came to a bad end,” Mattie added.
“But in The Gamblers—”
“That movie is more fiction than fact. The real Ulysses Pembroke was shot dead over a poker game and left his pregnant wife penniless. He could have done something worthwhile with his life. He was extraordinarily bright—and yes, I’m sure, quite charming.” She glanced at her son with her dark, so knowing eyes. “Very much like your father, I imagine. And you, if you’re not careful.”
When they arrived in Saratoga, John had been hugely disappointed with the Pembroke estate. It was overgrown and spooky, a testament to his great-grandfather’s wasted life. Locked and boarded up, the main house was just too daunting, and Mattie and John dusted up the gingerbread cottage and moved in for their stay. As he’d explored the grounds, he’d found countless indications of what the property must have been like in its day—leggy rosebushes, giant hedges, perennials surviving against all odds, a slate tennis court covered with brown rotting leaves, cracked marble and stone statuary and fountains, an abandoned croquet ball. He’d cleared decades of fallen leaves, twigs, moss and mud from a mineral spring near the main house, among the few original Saratoga springs not already bought up and preserved by the state, and tried its bubbling water. The taste was absolutely hideous. He’d thought he’d been poisoned.
“Mother, Mother!” He’d raced into the kitchen, where Mattie was frowning over a table full of kerosene lamps. The cottage had no electricity. Breathless, he’d told her, “Mother, we can’t give that water to people! It’s poison!”
“My dear, it’s not poison, but I intend to give only a very small quantity of water from that particular spring. It’s quite strong and really more suited to bathing. No, the water I intend to give away is from the springs on the other side of the woods. Its waters are far tastier.”
All in all, John hadn’t been impressed with Ulysses Pembroke and, gradually, had come to admit his own father wasn’t much better. Cut from the same cloth, his mother liked to say. John, however, had been determined to be different. He’d do something positive with his life.
Tired of the Pembrokes, he’d asked if he could investigate the track.
Mattie had scrutinized him with a care and closeness that was unusual for her. Her child-rearing philosophy was laissez-faire, sometimes bordering on neglect—which she considered quite healthy. “Since you’re too young to gamble, I suppose it’s all right.”
Small for his age, John had managed to slip onto the grounds unnoticed and soon found himself at the paddocks, staring up at the shiniest, most beautiful horse he’d ever seen. A girl a couple of years younger than he came up to him. Her neatly curled blond hair was parted in the middle and held off her face with mother-of-pearl barrettes, and she wore a blue-flowered dress and navy buckled shoes.
“I don’t know you,” she’d said.
“Well, I don’t know you, either.”
She’d laughed. “Everybody knows me.”
He couldn’t tell if she meant to sound snobby or if she really thought everybody knew her. “Well, everybody knows my mother and father. My mother’s a movie star, and my father’s a famous movie director—and my great-grandfather was a train robber. I’m staying at his estate.”
“I know all the estates in Saratoga.” Her blue eyes had glistened as she took up the challenge. “You don’t have one.”
“The Pembroke—”
“Oh, that. It’s all boarded up. Father says it has rats.”
John had felt his first sting of real humiliation. “We just keep it that way so no one bothers the treasure.”
From her expression, he knew he had her interest, but her father, tall, fair and imposing, showed up and, with just a look, managed to scold her for running off by herself. “Lilli, I’ve warned you to stay away from the stable boys.”
“He’s not a stable boy. His mother’s a movie star and—”
“A movie star?” Eugene Chandler had turned and appraised John with such frank distaste he could still feel his cheeks burning decades later. He’d felt shabby in his jeans, in contrast to the rich man’s handsome gray suit. “You’re Mattie Witt and Nicholas Pembroke’s boy. Well, run along. You’ve no business here.”
Mattie had been unsympathetic to her son’s dejection. Why on earth should he care what the Chandlers thought of him? She was truly and honestly mystified. Only much, much later did John come to understand that his mother’s fierce independence hadn’t come naturally to her, that she’d had to fight and sacrifice—and suffer—for her treasured freedom.
That lonely summer, he’d only understood how much he’d wanted the Chandlers to approve of him. For the rest of that first August in Saratoga, he’d explored the Pembroke estate and Saratoga’s library and all its museums and streets, not just for a sense of the Pembroke past, of their abused energy and promise, but for a peek at his own destiny.
He knew he’d be different. He had to be.
Ten years later he and Lilli were married. Eugene grew fond of his son-in-law. “I swear, John,” he would say, “sometimes I forget you’re even a Pembroke.”
He’d lived to be reminded.
Now, so many years later, John ran his hand through his thinning gray hair and wiped the sweat from his brow, pushing aside thoughts of what might have been. He had to focus on what was. His wife had disappeared ten years into their marriage, and he’d become a bum and a wanderer and no kind of father to their only daughter.
Looking around him, he realized he’d missed the hundredth running of the Chandler Stakes. He glanced at the scoreboard. The homely bay had won. If he’d bet just fifty bucks…
“Look at yourself,” he whispered. “What’s become of you?”
He pulled himself away from the fence and almost ran straight into a brick wall of a man. He started to apologize, then the fellow said, “John Pembroke,” as if he were a ghost.
The man smiled, not a particularly friendly smile. “I take it you don’t recognize me. I’m not surprised. It’s been a while.”
But John only needed a minute, a chance to pull himself back out of his memories and self-recrimination. He was good at faces, and he’d read the book on Joe Cutler, and had heard his younger brother had quit college and gone into security work.
“Zeke Cutler,” he said. “You and your brother came to my office looking for my mother.”
They’d refused to tell him why, and he’d sent them packing. A couple of country boys from Cedar Springs, Tennessee. Mattie didn’t need them pestering her. She’d never mentioned if the two brothers from her hometown had found her, and he’d never mentioned he’d seen them. Mattie was entitled to her discomfort with her past. John had enough with his.
He looked at the man Zeke Cutler had become. It couldn’t be easy being Joe Cutler’s little brother. “What do you want with me?”
“I thought,” Zeke said in his calm, efficient way, “you might want to walk up to the Pembroke with me.”
Given his daughter’s disposition, John decided having a security and protection consultant at his side was a pretty good idea. Besides, he wanted to talk to Zeke, find out if they were in Saratoga Springs for similar reasons.
Scratching his head, John appraised Cutler’s impressive physique and hoped to hell they were on the same side. Slaying dragons had never been his long suit.
“This way,” Zeke said.
“Yes,” John said, stupidly irritated at being treated like a stranger. “I know the way.”
Ten
Dani didn’t relax until she was on her pine-scented driveway. When she reached her cottage, she paced in the garden, debating all the different reasons her father could be in town that didn’t have to do with her, her missing keys or Zeke Cutler.
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