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by Wyman Guin


  bore down on him out of an undecipherable dark... the

  ancient, implacable face of the Medicorps. As if to pro-

  nounce a sentence on his present crimes by a magical dis-

  closure of the weight of centuries, a pool of sulphurous light

  and leaf shadows danced on the painted plaque at the base

  of the statue:

  On this spot in' the Gregorian year 1996, Alfred Morris

  announced to an assembly of war survivors the hypothal-

  amic block. His stirring words were, "The new drug se-

  lectively halts at the thalamic brain the upward flow of

  unconscious stimuli and the downward flow of unconscious

  motivations. It acts as a screen between the cerebrum and

  the psychosomatic discharge system. Using hypothalamic

  block, we will not act emotively, we will initiate acts only

  from the logical demands of situations."

  This announcement and the subsequent wholehearted ac-

  tion of the war-weary people made the taking of hypothal-

  amic block obligatory. This put an end to the powerful

  play of unconscious mind in the public and private af-

  fairs of the ancient world. It ended the great paranoid

  wars and saved mankind.

  In the strange evening light, the letters seemed alive, a cen-

  turies-old condemnation of any who might try to go back to

  the ancient pre-pharmacy days. Of course, it was not really

  possible to go back. Without drugs, everybody and all society

  would fall apart.

  The ancients had first learned to keep endocrine deviates

  such as the diabetic alive with drugs. Later they learned with

  other drugs to "cure" the far more prevalent disease, schizoph-

  renia, that was jamming their hospitals. This big change

  came when the ancients used these same drugs on everyone to

  control the private and public irrationality of their time and

  stop the wars.

  In this new, drugged world, the schizophrene thrived better

  than any, and the world became patterned on him. But, just

  as the diabetic was still diabetic, the schizophrene was still

  himself, plus the drugs. Meanwhile, everyone had forgotten

  what it was the drugs did to youthat the emotions experi-

  enced were blurred emotions, that insight was at an isolated

  level of rationality because the drugs kept true feelings

  from ever emerging.

  How inconceivable it would be to Helen and the other

  people of this world to live on as little drug as possible . . . to

  experience the conflicting emotions, the interplay of passion

  and logic that almost tore you apart! Sober, the ancients

  called it, and they lived that way most of the time, with

  only the occasional crude and club-like effects of alcohol or

  narcotics to relieve their chronic anxiety.

  By taking as little hypothalamic block as possible, he and

  Clara were able to desire their fantastic attachment, to delight

  in an absolutely illogical situation unheard of in their society. .

  But the society would judge their refusal to take hypothalamic

  block in only one sense. The weight of this judgment stood

  before him in the smouldering words, "It ended the great

  paranoid wars and saved mankind."

  When Clara did appear, she was searching myopically in

  the wrong vicinity of the statue. He did not call to her at

  once, letting the sight of her smooth out the tensions in him,

  convert all the conflicts into this one intense longing to be

  with her.

  Her halting search for him was deeply touching, like that of

  a tragic little puppet in a darkening dumbshow. He saw sud-

  denly how like puppets the two of them were. They were

  moved by the strengthening wires of a new life of feeling to

  batter clumsily at an implacable stage setting that would

  finally leave them as bits of wood and paper.

  Then suddenly in his arms Clara was at the same time

  hungrily moving and tense with fear of discovery. Little

  sounds of love and fear choked each other in her throat. Her

  blonde head pressed tightly into his shoulder and she clung

  to him with desperation.

  She said, "Conrad was disturbed by my tension this morn-

  ing and made me take a sleeping compound. I've just awak-

  ened."

  They walked to her home in silence and even in the dark-

  ened apartment they used only the primitive monosyllables of

  apprehensive need. Beyond these mere sounds of compas-

  sion, they had long ago said all that could be said.

  Because Bill was the hyperalter, he had no fear that Con-

  rad could force a shift on him. When later they lay in dark-

  ness, he allowed himself to drift into a brief slumber. Without

  the sleeping compound, distorted events came and went

  without reason. Dreaming, the ancients had called it. It was

  one of the most frightening things that bad begun to happen

  when he first cut down on the drugs. Now, in the few sec-

  onds that he dozed, a thousand fragments of incidental knowl-

  edge, historical reading and emotional need melded and, in a

  strange contrast to their present tranquillity, he was dream-

  ing a frightful moment in the 20th Century. These are the

  great paranoid wars, he thought. And it was so because he

  had thought it.

  He searched frantically through the glove compartment of

  an ancient car. "Wait," he pleaded. "I tell you we have sul-

  phonamide-14. We've been taking it regularly as directed. We

  took a double dose back in Paterson because there were

  soft-bombs all through that part of Jersey and we didn't

  know what would be declared Plague Area next."

  Now Bill threw things out of his satchel on to the floor

  and seat of the car, fumbling deeper by the flashlight Clara

  held. His heart beat thickly with terror. Then he remem-

  bered his pharmacase. Oh, why hadn't they remembered sooner

  about their pharmacases. Bill tore at the belt about his waist.

  The Medicorps captain stepped back from the door of their

  car. He jerked his head at the dark form of the corporal

  standing in the roadway. "Shoot them. Run the car off the

  embankment before you burn it."

  Bill screamed metallically through the speaker of his radia-

  tion mask. "Wait. I've found it." He thrust the pharmacase

  out the door of the car. "This is a pharmacase," he ex-

  plained. "We keep our drugs in one of these and it's belted

  to our waist so we are never without them."

  The captain of the Medicorps came back. He inspected the

  pharmacase and the drugs and returned it. "From now on,

  keep your drugs handy. Take them without fail according to

  radio instructions. Do you understand?"

  Clara's head pressed heavily against Bill's shoulder, and

  he could hear the tinny sound of her sobbing through the

  speaker of her mask.

  The captain stepped into the road again. "Well have to

  bum your car. You passed through a Plague Area and it

  can't be sterilized on this route. About a mile up this

  road you'll come to a sterlization unit. Stop and have your

  person and belongings rayed. After that, keep
walking, but

  stick to the road. You'll be shot if you're caught off it."

  The road was crowded with fleeing people. Their way was

  lighted by piles of cadavers writhing in gasoline flames. The

  Medicorps was everywhere. Those who stumbled, those who

  coughed, the delirious and their helping partners . . . these

  were taken to the side of the road, shot and burned. And

  there was bombing again to the south.

  Bill stopped in the middle of the road and looked back.

  Clara clung to him.

  "There is a plague here we haven't any drug for," he said,

  and realized he was crying. "We are all mad."

  Clara was crying too. "Darling, what have you done?

  Where are the drugs?"

  The water of the Hudson hung as it had in the late after-

  noon, ice crystals in the stratosphere. The high, high sheet

  flashed and glowed in the new bombing to the south, where

  multicoloured pillars of flame boiled into the sky. But the muf-

  fled crash of the distant bombing was suddenly the steady

  click of the urgent signal on a bedside visiophone, and Bill

  was abruptly awake.

  Clara was throwing on her robe and moving towards the

  machine on terror-rigid limbs. With a scrambling motion, Bill

  got out of the possible view of the machine and crouched at

  the end of the room.

  Distinctly, he could hear the machine say, "Clara Manz?"

  "Yes," Clara's voice was a thin treble that could have been

  a shriek had it continued.

  "This is Medicorps Headquarters. A routine check discloses

  you have delayed your shift two hours. To maintain the sta-

  tistical record of deviations, please give us a full explanation."

  "I . . ." Clara had to swallow before she could talk. "I must

  have taken too much sleeping compound."

  "Mrs. Manz, our records indicate that you have been de-

  laying your shift consistently for several periods now. We

  " made a check of this as a routine follow up on any such

  deviation, but the discovery is quite serious." There was a

  harsh silence, a silence that demanded a logical answer. But

  how could there be a logical answer.

  "My hyperalter hasn't complained and Iwell, I have just

  let a bad habit develop. I'll see that itdoesn't happen again."

  The machine voiced several platitudes about the respon-

  sibilities of one personality to another and the duty of all to

  society before Clara was able to shut it off.

  Both of them sat as they were for a long, long time while

  the tide of terror subsided. When at last they looked at each

  other across the dim and silent room, both of them knew

  there could be at least one more lime together before

  they were caught.

  Five days later, on the last day of her shift, Mary Walden

  wrote the address of her appointed father's hypoalter, Conrad

  Manz, with an indelible pencil on the skin just below her

  armpit.

  During the morning, her father and mother had spoiled

  the family rest day by quarrelling. It was about Helen's hypo-

  alter delaying so many shifts. Bill did not think it very

  important, but her mother was angry and threatened to com-

  plain to the Medicorps.

  The lunch was eaten in silence, except that at one point

  Bill said, "It seems to me Conrad and Clara Manz are guilty

  of a peculiar marriage, not us. Yet they seem perfectly hap-

  py with it and you're the one who is made unhappy. The

  woman has probably just developed a habit of taking too

  much sleeping compound for her rest-day naps. Why don't

  you drop her a note?"

  Helen made only one remark. It was said through her teeth

  and very softly. "Bill, I would just as soon the child did not

  realize her relationship to this sordid situation."

  Mary cringed over the way Helen disregarded her hearing,

  the possibility that she might be capable of understanding, or

  her feelings about being shut out of their mutual world.

  After lunch Mary cleared the table, throwing the remains

  of the meal and the plastiplates into the flash trash disposer.

  Her father had retreated to the library room and Helen was

  getting ready to attend a Citizens' Meeting. Mary heard her

  mother enter the room to say good-bye while she was wiping

  the dining table. She knew that Helen was standing well-

  dressed and a little impatient, just behind her, but she pre-

  tended she did not know.

  "Darling, I'm leaving now for the Citizens' Meeting."

  "Oh. . . yes."

  "Be a good girl and don't be late for your shift. You only

  have an hour now." Helen's patrician face smiled.

  "I won't be late."

  "Don't pay any attention to the things Bill and I discussed

  this morning, will you?"

  "No."

  And she was gone. She did not say good-bye to Bill.

  Mary was very conscious of her father in the house. He

  continued to sit in the library. She walked by the door and she

  could see him sitting in a chair, staring at the floor. Mary

  stood in the sun room for a long while. If he had risen from

  the chair, if he had rustled a page, if he had sighed, she

  would have heard him.

  It grew closer and closer to the time she would have to

  leave if Susan Shorrs was to catch the first school hours of

  her shift. Why did children have to shift half a day before

  adults?

  Finally, Mary thought of something to say. She could let

  him know she was old enough to understand what the quarrel

  had been about if only it were explained, to her.

  Mary went into the library and hesitantly sat on the edge

  of a couch near him. He did not look at her and his face

  seemed grey in the midday light. Then she knew that he was

  lonely, too. But a great feeling of tenderness for him went

  through her.

  "Sometimes I think you and Clara Manz must be the only

  people in the world," she said abruptly, "who aren't so silly

  about shifting right on the dot. Why, I don't care if Susan

  Shorrs is an hour late for classes!"

  Those first moments when he seized her in his arms, it

  seemed her heart would shake loose. It was as though she had

  uttered some magic formula, one that had abruptly opened

  the doors to his love. It was only after he had explained to

  her why he was always late on the first day of the family

  shift that she knew something was wrong. He did tell her,

  over and over, that he knew she was unhappy and that it was

  his fault. But he was at the same time soothing her, petting

  her, as if he was afraid of her.

  He talked on and on. Gradually, Mary understood in his

  trembling body, in his perspiring palms, in his pleading eyes,

  that he was afraid of dying, that he was afraid she would

  kill him with the merest thing she said, with her very pres-

  ence.

  This was not painful to Mary, because, suddenly, something

  came with ponderous enormity to stand before her: / would

  just as soon the child did not realize her relationship to this

  sordid situation.

  Her relat
ionship. It was some kind of relationship to Conrad

  and Clara Manz, because those were the people they had

  been talking about.

  The moment her father left the apartment, she went to

  his desk and took out the file of family records. After she

  found the address of Conrad Manz, the idea occurred to her

  to write it on her body. Mary was certain that Susan Shorrs

  never bathed and she thought this a clever idea. Sometime on

  Susan's rest day, five days from now, she would try to force

  the shift and go to See Conrad and Clara Manz. Her plan

  was simple in execution, but totally vague as to goal.

  Mary was already late when she hurried to the children's

  section of a public shifting station. A Children's Transfer Bus

  was waiting, and Mary registered on it for Susan Shorrs to be

  taken to school. After that she found a shifting room and

  opened it with her wristband. She changed into a shifting

  costume and sent her own clothes and belongings home.

  Children her age did not wear make-up, but Mary always

  stood at the mirror during the shift. She always tried as hard

  as she could to see what Susan Shorrs looked like. She giggled

  over a verse that was scrawled beside the mirror...

  Rouge your hair and comb your face;

  Many a third head is lost in this place.

  ... and then the shift came, doubly frightening because of

  what she knew she was going to do.

  Especially if you were a hyperalter like Mary, you were

  supposed to have some sense of the passage of time while

  you were out of shift. Of course, you did not know what was

  going on, but it was as though a more or less accurate

  chronometer kept running when you went out of shift. Ap-

  parently Mary's was highly inaccurate, because, to her horror,

  she found herself sitting bolt upright in one of Mrs. Harris's

  classes, not out on the playgrounds, where she had expected

  Susan Shorrs to be.

  Mary was terrified, and the ugly school dress Susan had

  been wearing accented, by its strangeness, the seriousness of

  her premature shift. Children weren't supposed to show much

  difference from hyperalter to hypoalter, but when she raised

  her eyes, her fright grew. Children did change. She hardly rec-

  ognized anyone in the room, though most of them must be

  the alters of her own classmates. Mrs. Harris was a B-shift and

  overlapped both Mary and Susan, but otherwise Mary recog-

  nized only Carl Biair's hypoalter because of his freckles.

 

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