THE MAN WHO WATCHED THE WORLD END
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is coincidence.
THE MAN WHO WATCHED THE WORLD END. Copyright 2013 by Chris Dietzel. All rights reserved.
Published in the United States by CreateSpace Independent Publishing.
ISBN-13: 978-1484080511
ISBN-10: 1484080513
Cover Design: Truenotdreams Design
Author Photo: Jodie McFadden
THE MAN WHO WATCHED
THE WORLD END
Chris Dietzel
Table of Contents
December 1
December 2
December 3
December 4
December 5
December 7
December 8
December 10
December 11
December 12
December 13
December 14
December 15
December 16
December 17
December 18
December 19
December 20
December 21
December 22
December 23
December 24
December 25
December 26
December 27
December 28
December 31
January 2
January 3
January 4
January 5
January 6
January 7
January 8
January 9appropriateedo
January 11
January 12
January 13
January 15
January 16
January 18
January 21
January 22
January 23
January 24
January 25
January 26
January 27
January 30
January 31
February 1
February 2
February 4
February 6
February 8
February 11
February 12
February 14
February 15
February 22
February 23
February 25
February 26
February 27
Acknowledgements
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December 1
It’s obvious now that the end of man won’t be signaled with mushroom clouds, an alien invasion, or a meteor, but with silence. Only silence, long and unceasing. We’ve always known this would be the case, however, it never seemed like the final day would really arrive.
My mother was fond of the saying, “All good things must come to an end,” a cliché that now makes me cringe. Yet, what was there to do about any of it? Nothing except to wake up each morning, go through the normal routines, and then go to sleep. Each day we were all a little older, a little closer to the end. And each day fewer people were alive than the previous day. That’s how it’s been for eighty years; it’s the way it will be at least a little while longer. I see now that from the vo matter what about ve beenery start, my life has been leading to this: my brother and I alone, witnessing the end of man’s 200,000-year reign.
I watched more movies as a kid than any other boy in the neighborhood. They fascinated me. While the adults were worried about grown-up problems, I could go to my bedroom, close the door, and put on a movie that let me go anywhere I pleased. The possibilities were only as limited as the imaginations that created each story. One day, The Godfather trilogy allowed me to live the life of mobsters. Another day, the Star Wars trilogy took me to a galaxy far, far away. Occasionally, Andrew stayed in his own room, but most of the time he was right there with me. All the while my parents and the rest of the neighborhood worried about what they were going to do—if they would move or not move, if they would be able to take care of their loved ones or if they would need caring for themselves. The adults’ worries, my parents’ worries, didn’t bother me back then because I had my movies. No matter how awful the scenario was in each film—a nuclear holocaust, aliens enslaving us, a race to save the Earth from a meteorite—the stories made me smile and gasp and giggle the way little boys do.
The actors from those movies have been dead for years. So have the writers and directors. The last movie ever made was produced fifty years ago. Not many people went to see it, but it was actually pretty good. It was billed as a culmination of everything ‘Hollywood’, and promised big explosions, incredible special effects, and a startling final scene. For the most part it delivered on its promises. Not many people were in the mood to go to the movies at that point, though. It didn’t help things that the infamous ending was its own kryptonite. The protagonist, a handsome and charismatic man, the envy of every man and the fantasy of every woman, proclaims that life is just a huge joke. Instead of pushing a red button and launching a rocket to save Earth’s population—still billions of people back then—from the dreaded invasion, he takes his lover in his arms, begins crying, then shoots himself in the face. Dramatic music kicks in. The screen fades to black.
Audiences hated it. Everyone involved with the film was lucky there were bigger problems in the world than an ending equivalent to being given the middle finger; if mankind hadn’t been dwindling away, the producer and director might have been charged with some sort of indecency crime, or, more ironic yet, simply shot dead. I still watch that movie every once in a while. From a technical perspective, the film is a masterpiece—excellent character development, cinematography, editing—although I only watch the ending when Andrew isn’t in the room with me. He shouldn’t have to see that kind of hopelessness. He stayed one time when I was tired and I didn’t feel like wheeling him out of the room just for the final two minutes of the movie. I had his wheelchair turned away, though, so he wasn’t looking at the screen and couldn’t see what was happening. When the final gunshot sounded, I looked over at him to make sure he didn’t give a reaction. If anything could make him groan with discouragement, it might very well be the desperation in that anti-clima hit the game-winning homerun aof ctic scene. But of course he didn’t complain: he has never had a voluntary movement or spoken a single word. No, Andrew didn’t get upset about the ending. He didn’t even blink. When the credits started rolling, I got up and turned the DVD player off, then the lights, and moved Andrew to the sofa so he could sleep there while I slept in my bed.
Every other time the movie’s ending is near, or if I watch a similarly upsetting movie, I wheel him out of the room. Even without the ability to offer a response, he shouldn’t have to see the worst that people are capable of. He’s 79, only a couple years my junior, but in my head he is still my baby brother. Nothing can ever happen to make me think of him any other way. The day he can speak for himself, say, “Hey, I’ll wipe my own ass from now on!” is the day he can start being thought of as a grown adult.
With the lights off, the sun having set for the night, I find myself sitting here thinking again about the end of that movie. Why not press the red button and save everyone? Why not give the people an ending that would allow a little bit of hope instead of a critical commentary on the state of mankind? Did the writer or director lose faith in people because of what had started happening in the world, or did the movie end that way because he had already become indifferent, prior to the Great De-evolution, and thought mankind deserved nothing better?
December 2If my house is a
prison, the animals are my jailers.
I was at the incinerator today, only fifteen feet from my patio door, when a bear spotted me. It was eyeing me from the edge of the woods, its claws digging into the ground with anticipation for when it had a hold of me. It was forty, maybe fifty, feet away.
Forty feet is no concern for a bear hunting an old man. Instead of turning and running, I took a single step backward. Then another. If I tried to dash for safety, it would close the distance before I could get indoors. The bear growled, then lumbered forward. An old man’s heart should not have to beat as fast as mine did when that beast came toward me. My eyes stayed down at my feet. Looking at the predator would only make it angry. I took another step backward, and it took two more paces forward. Even without trying, it had cut the distance between us by half. Sweat ran down my face. My hands were shaking.
The thought struck me then that I could use the incinerator for protection. Each time the bear would circle the large metal bin, I would do the same. But just as quickly, reality sunk in: I would get tired after two minutes and, anyway, the bear can run laps around me. My only hope was to get back inside my house.
I prayed for another animal, maybe a dog, to catch the bear’s attention, but for once it seemed the only animal in the open was this giant thing in front of me. Where were the other animals when you needed them! It became difficult to breathe slowly, to keep from screaming. My stomach kept shifting, offering growls of its own. The bear took another step forward.
And then, as the bear yet again closed the distance between us, this time to perhaps twelve feet, my hand grabbed hold of the doorknob, turned it, and I was back inside my home. Safe for one more day. The bear stayed there, staring at me through the glass. Although I was safe, my hands would not stop trembling.
Nature returned with a vengeance as soon as the Blocks initiated man’s decline. I’m pretty sure a family of deer lives in the empty Donaldson house next door. I looked through the window of the old McGee house the other day, and instead of seeing Jimmy McGee waving at me with a cup of coffee in his hand, the way he used to, a giant brown bear lumbered through the living room looking for something to eat. Foxes, wolves, and bears have all re-established themselves as the proper owners of the forest. Their new rivals are the cats and dogs that used to be pets. Every day a different pack of animals walks down the street in my neighborhood as if the roads were made especially for them.
Gone are the days when deer have to be concerned about cars. The days of foxes sitting by the roadside, afraid to cross the street, are long forgotten. Sometimes the bears get a sniff of food and pace up and down the neighborhood. I used to be able to bang pots and pans to startle the wildlife into returning to the woods, but now they look at me with amusement, their mouths slightly open like content farm animals.
It’s not just the bears that aren’t afraid of me, it’s all of them, every creature. The foxes, the raccoons, the wild dogs, the cats. They all laugh at my feeble attempts to reclaim my lawn. I’m constantly on alert when I go outside. A pack of wild dogs or a bear could catch my scent and see me as nothing more than simple prey. Maybe that’s all I am anymore.
The vast population of cute little kitties and puppies, the same ones that relied on people for food and water, slowly filtered out into the wild when their masters moved away. Labradors and golden retrievers were left to fend for themselves. At first, these animals were easy food for the foxes and wolves, but it didn’t take long for their domestication to wear off. Dalmatian a winning lottery ticket sof s and Rottweilers united in an attempt to have power in numbers. Tabbies and Maine Coons teamed up to take over the Phei’s old backyard. Some of these animals couldn’t acclimate to the new anarchy. Poodles and wiener dogs weren’t suited for finding food on their own. Both are probably extinct by now. But other pets were able to adjust and created a new home in the woods as though they had been waiting patiently for man to leave. I laughed the first time I saw a pack of wild chow-chows until I saw them race down a new born fox and tear it to shreds. The baby fox cried until it was finally dead. Its mother howled from the edge of the woods, helpless.
The animals, like the weeds and crab grass, have spread to every part of the once groomed community. A feral cat can have kittens up to four times a year. Beginning at three months of age, each of those kittens can start reproducing. The offspring of a single abandoned house cat could produce hundreds of cats in a single year. And none of these new cats knows what it’s like to rely on humans for food or to understand that humans aren’t to be attacked. Same with the dogs.
There may have been a single bear in the woods near our community back when people still played golf on the course. Now, there are probably a hundred bears surrounding the neighborhood. Hundreds of wolves have invaded the 18-hole community. And now, only Andrew and I remain to represent the old guard.
Every evening, the packs of wild dogs fight with the wolves as soon as the sun goes down. I hear free-for-alls that sound unnatural, like the type of fireworks that make screaming noises. The dogs howl and screech and bark. The foxhound, treasured for its beautiful fur, now displays stripes of scarred flesh mixed in with grimy hair. Even the bears, the kings of the forest, are never free of battle wounds.
The animals aren’t to blame for this. In the three generations it has taken man to go from the planet’s dominant species to sparse packs of feeble senior citizens, there have been a hundred generations of former house pets and forest animals, plenty of time for all of them to forget we were once their hunters and masters. They spy us from the edge of the woods, waiting for chances to sneak up and repay us for centuries" font-size:1.0rem; font-weight:b of servitude and fear. There was one time, I laughed until I pissed myself, when the Johnsons were chased back inside their house by a pack of feral tabby cats. The same kind of cute little kitten that would lap up milk and play with balls of string was throwing itself against the Johnsons’ screen door.
The smaller critters have also faired better without man. There were so many birds in the sky the other day that the sun was almost blotted out. The trees look like zoo exhibits, filled with cardinals, blue jays, little yellow birds that I’m not familiar with, robins, and crows. Vultures are everywhere, laying claim to the remains of animals left by the dogs and wolves. of my driveway sof
The only animal that hasn’t fared well is the deer. They are vastly outnumbered by the carnivores and have gone into hiding. I see a family of deer every once in a while, but every time I do I find my jaw clenched because I expect a pack of dogs to come out of nowhere and slaughter them.
Back in middle school, I learned that nature regulates itself. The eco-system is supposed to ensure there are enough insects to feed the raccoons, enough raccoons to feed the foxes, and so on, but ever since man’s decline it’s almost as if nature doesn’t know how to control itself anymore. The herbivores are almost gone and yet the predators still grow in number. It defies everything I’ve been taught, but I’m seeing it with my own eyes so I know it’s really happening. It’s almost as if all the animals are in shock and don’t know what to do except overrun everything, even each other.
No topic was discussed more during my dinners with the Johnsons than the animals lurking all around us. The three of us would sip glasses of wine, look out at the lines of abandoned houses, and discuss our plans as though all of our options still existed in the world. Sometimes, when we had too much to drink, we would joke about who would last the longest in the neighborhood and be the final person left in Camelot. We wouldn’t dare vocalize such things if we were sober because the implications were that two of the three of us would be dead and our siblings were either being neglected or had also died. Sober, we would have chosen instead to talk about the falling leaves or how the golf course had gone unattended for so long it looked like a pasture instead of eighteen holes of sport.
Years ago, I would take Andrew with me when I went down to the Johnsons’ house. More recently, I was leaving him on the sofa with music playing
. When the Johnsons came down to my house, they would also leave their younger sisters at home, a warm fire in the fireplace replacing the soft music I offered to Andrew. Everyone has their own ways of trying to make loved ones feel more comfortable. I praised the Johnsons as the only family that was happy to stay in their own home when every one else was leaving. That, combined with our intimate conversations all those nights, is why I was so shocked when they left a week ago. It’s why I’m still shocked.
There was no reason to get out of bed that night, no reason to go to my bedroom window; it was almost as if treachery could be sensed in the air because I stayed at the window, not knowing what I was looking for or expecting to see. There was nothing to signify a momentous event was getting ready to unfold. As I watched the neighborhood, the night went from the sounds of animals to their actual presence. A pack of wolves made their way down the middle of the road, a group of varsity football players, letting everyone else know they weren’t to be messed with. Upon seeing them, a couple of house cats hid under the porch at the Wilkensons’ former home. A pair of golden retrievers appeared a minute later, a dead rabbit dangling from one’s mouth.Xgeother
And then it happened: the Johnsons’ garage door opened, their SUV backed out, the garage door lowered again, and the over-sized vehicle pulled onto the street. It turned toward my house. Instead of stopping, though, it continued past my driveway and left the neighborhood. There were two figures in the front and two in the back. None of them turned and waved at me as they passed. The brake lights didn’t even flicker. And just like that they were gone.
I was left as the final resident of Camelot.
December 3Ideas about family, about the importance of always being there for loved ones, changed when the Blocks started outnumbering the rest of us. My parents and the rest of the community were still adjusting, back when Andrew was born, to the concept that a living person could be exactly like you or me, except they didn’t move, didn’t talk, didn’t do anything. Being that Andrew was one of the first Blocks, it took everyone in our neighborhood some getting used to. The day before my parents brought him home from the hospital, my father sat me down and talked about how Andrew should be treated. “You know how much you love Bumper?” he asked, referring to the stuffed rabbit I carried everywhere. “Your brother also can’t move or talk, but I want you to love him even more than Bumper. But be careful. You can’t drag your brother around the house by his arm the way you do your stuffed animals. He won’t cry out, but you can still hurt him.”
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