Between the Devil and Desire

by Lorraine Heath

  Jack wasn’t going to comment on Olivia. She was too fine a lady for him to even have thoughts of while he was in this cesspool. “I know you’re not running boys anymore, but you know who is, and I suspect you still have your finger on the fence trade. I’ll pay you a hundred pounds if you locate it for me.”

  It was an ungodly amount, but the locket was Jack’s most precious possession, perhaps the only thing that mattered more to him than coins.

  Feagan rubbed his hand over his mouth. “That’s a lot of gin. I’ll put the word out.” He narrowed his eyes. “Anyone else I’d ask fer half up front.”

  Jack tapped a bottle. “I brought you something you value more.”

  “That ye did.”

  Shoving back his chair, Jack stood. “I’ll be seeing you.”

  “That ye will, me dodger, that ye will.”

  Jack took one last look around the squalor, remembering a time when his goal in life had been to be a more successful kidsman than Feagan. It irked him not to know who his anonymous benefactor was. If not for him, even with the teachings of Luke’s grandfather, Jack knew he would have returned to this foulness and lived a life only marginally better than Feagan’s.

  Chapter 16

  Jack was teaching Henry to be slippery, nimble, quick…in essence, to be a dodger.

  Sitting on the terrace and watching her son dash across the lawn, Olivia wasn’t certain how she felt about that development. She supposed no harm would come of it, as long as Jack wasn’t instructing Henry on the proper way to slip his hands into pockets without being detected.

  In this particular game a ball was involved, but Olivia couldn’t determine what the object was or how the game was played. She wasn’t certain the players even knew. They were content to grab the ball, run with it, and avoid getting caught. It was a rather undignified game for grown men to be involved in, especially when one was an earl. The Devil Earl, to be precise.

  Olivia had never met him before this afternoon. With his dark hair and silver eyes, he was almost as devilishly handsome as Jack.

  “It must be something they played on the streets,” Catherine, the Countess of Claybourne, said. Dressed in somber black, still mourning her father, she sat at the table with Olivia. She and her husband had arrived shortly after Jack had taken Henry outside for what was becoming a daily afternoon ritual. Within minutes Claybourne had followed Jack’s example and discarded his jacket, cravat, and waistcoat; then he rolled up his sleeves in order to gallivant over the lawn unhindered and give chase to Henry, who would run from one end of the lawn to the other carrying the ball and avoiding capture.

  Coming to a stop, he’d jump up and down, hold the ball high, and crow, “I won! I won!”

  Then they’d start at it again. The puppy was also involved, following Henry, darting in and out, sometimes tripping up the men—who laughed. Olivia couldn’t remember a single time that so much merriment had been exhibited in their garden.

  “Do you think that’s how they learned not to get caught when they stole something?” Olivia asked, imagining the ball symbolizing a loaf of bread or a melon.

  “Possibly.” The countess laughed lightly, then quieted. “Probably.”

  She didn’t sound at all disturbed by the idea. Her voice carried a bit of wistfulness, as though she thought about her husband’s earlier life and wished it had been different. A time existed when many of the aristocracy weren’t convinced he was the true heir, but something had happened to change their minds, although Olivia was unsure as to the particulars. “I never doubted for a moment,” Lovingdon had mentioned to Olivia in passing. “Resembles his father too much not to be.”

  “We came to visit several days ago, only to learn you were ill,” Catherine said quietly now. “I’m glad you’ve recovered.”

  “Thank you. I’m feeling much better.” She was acquainted with Catherine, although they’d never been dear friends, and she certainly wasn’t going to confess that she was well enough to go to the Great Exhibition.

  “I suppose some of your ill health may be attributed to the shock of learning Mr. Dodger was to serve as your son’s guardian.”

  Olivia shifted her gaze over to Catherine. She saw no censure, only a need to reassure. Two weeks ago, Olivia might have welcomed the reassurance. Now, she hardly felt any need for it. Jack was proving his suitability as guardian quite admirably.

  “If it’s any consolation,” Catherine continued, “he’ll serve as guardian of our children as well.”

  Olivia felt her jaw drop. “Not your brother?” Not the Duke of Greystone?

  Catherine shook her head. “Sterling was gone for some time. Since he’s returned, he seems very different. I can’t explain it. And Claybourne doesn’t know him at all, so he’s not comfortable with the notion of Sterling serving as guardian. Jack Dodger he trusts. Mr. Dodger saved his life on more than one occasion.”

  Olivia sipped her tea, wondering how all that had come about. Had it happened in prison? Why hadn’t he shared that story? She’d not ask Catherine for an explanation. Strange how Olivia suddenly felt uncomfortable remembering all the afternoon teas and speculations the ladies had made regarding him, each one eager to share the latest bit of unsavory gossip that had come her way. They’d treated him as a curiosity, not a man. In retrospect, it had been quite rude.

  Now, Olivia didn’t want gossip. She wanted to know the truth of his life, from his own lips. They’d settled into an easier camaraderie of late. They had breakfast every morning with Henry. In the evening, she dined with Jack alone. He asked her questions about herself: what she enjoyed reading, her theater preferences, how her day had gone. He gave away very little of himself. It occurred to her one night that he was striving to create a mental portrait of her so that he could better determine whom she might marry.

  “What’s your opinion of Mr. Dodger?” Olivia asked.

  Catherine turned her gaze back to the men and boy lumbering over the lawn. “Quite honestly, when I met him, I didn’t like him. He was insolent and has an exceedingly low opinion of the nobility. But I trust Claybourne and his judgment. Of course, it could also be that I don’t believe anyone will ever raise his children other than him, so I don’t really worry about it. It seems when a person has such a rough life in his youth that his later life should be filled with nothing except pleasantries.”

  Catherine glowed with the radiance of a woman madly in love with her husband.

  Olivia felt a spark of envy. She couldn’t imagine anything more wonderful than being married to a man you loved—unless it was being married to a man who also loved you.

  She watched Jack loping over the lawn. He possessed an athleticism she’d expected. She was quite mesmerized watching him, and hoped her company didn’t notice how he garnered her attention.

  He caught Henry and with a joyous laugh lifted him over his head. Henry guffawed with delight and Olivia smiled. She’d grown up in and married into a very staid household. She’d never questioned the quiet, the reserve, the constant proper behavior. Only now was she beginning to realize that laughter was as intoxicating as brandy.

  She also realized she had an opportunity here to learn more about Jack without bombarding him with questions that he’d astutely avoid answering.

  “I know this is entirely inappropriate, since I’m in mourning and shouldn’t be issuing invitations”—she glanced, embarrassed, at Catherine—“but would you and Claybourne care to dine with us tonight?”

  “As I’m in mourning as well, it would be entirely inappropriate for me to accept.”

  “Of course. I’m so—”

  With a twinkle in her blue eyes, Catherine reached across and took her hand. “I would be absolutely delighted. To be quite honest, I find all our rules regarding mourning to be rubbish.”

  Olivia released a short burst of laughter. It seemed Claybourne had been as bad an influence on Catherine as Jack was on Olivia.

  “I have an even more inappropriate notion. As we’re all friends, and the
dinner will be small and private, let’s dispense with the mourning attire, shall we?” Catherine asked.

  “Are you certain?”

  “Who will know except us? And quite honestly, I’m so dreadfully tired of black.”

  Olivia smiled. “All right then.”

  Jack could hardly believe that Olivia had invited Luke and Catherine to dine with them.

  “It’s not as though I sent a gilded invitation,” she said petulantly when he’d given her a questioning stare.

  It seemed the little duchess wasn’t opposed to dispensing with proper etiquette as long as it was her idea. Now that she was fully recovered, he’d work to convince her it was her notion to come to his bed. He was looking forward to the challenge, although his patience had been sorely tested as he waited for her to regain her strength. He should be considered for sainthood, considering the forbearance he’d shown.

  “So what are you drinking?” Jack asked Luke.

  He and Catherine had only just arrived. They’d returned home to prepare for the evening. Jack felt rather underdressed next to Luke in his dinner attire. He had never invested in formal evening clothes because he wasn’t invited to balls or dinners, which suited him just fine. He was a curiosity, but one preferred from a distance.

  Catherine wore an emerald green gown. Olivia was likely to go into a conniption when she walked in and saw Catherine out of her mourning clothes. He smiled at the thought of at last not being the only one on the receiving end of Livy’s scathing rebukes.

  “Whatever you’re having,” Luke said. “I know you serve only the finest.”

  Jack glanced at Catherine. “Countess?”

  “None, thank you.”

  Luke reached for her hand and brought it to his mouth, placing a kiss on her fingers. The man looked so ridiculously besotted. Jack would never let a woman have a hold on him like that.

  “Not everything is agreeable to her these days,” Luke said.

  Jack poured port into two goblets. “You might have Graves take a look at her, make certain she’s not coming down with whatever Olivia had. Nasty stuff, that.”

  “Have you not told him?” Catherine asked.

  “I knew you didn’t want people to know, not yet, anyway.”

  “What? What have I missed here?” Jack asked.

  “She’s with child,” Luke said, and Jack was surprised the buttons didn’t pop off Luke’s waistcoat.

  “How can you know already? You’ve only just married…ah.” That explained the quiet, hasty marriage taking place before she was out of mourning. He raised his glass. “My congratulations to you both.”

  “What are we celebrating?”

  Jack turned toward Olivia and froze.

  Gliding into the room, smiling shyly, she wore a violet gown, and just as he’d predicted, she looked ravishing. Her throat, shoulders, and the barest hint of her bosom were revealed. Her hair was pinned up in an elaborate style with ringlets bouncing on one side.

  As though suddenly uncomfortable, she averted her gaze from his. “Don’t look so shocked. Catherine and I thought for an evening amongst friends, there was no harm in our putting aside our mourning clothes.”

  “No”—Jack cleared his throat to make it so he didn’t sound as though he were strangling—“no harm in it at all. You look lovely.” The words were grossly inadequate. He didn’t possess Luke’s societal charms. The women Jack associated with didn’t need fancy words, but dear God, Olivia deserved them. Every one that his feeble brain could dredge up.

  She blushed becomingly. “Thank you. I remembered you’d asked me about violet. Anyway, it appears we’re celebrating.”

  “Yes.” Jack handed her his goblet and poured himself another one. He tipped his head toward Luke. “You do the honors.”

  Luke smiled with satisfaction. “Catherine is carrying my daughter.”

  “Your heir,” Catherine corrected him.

  “Whichever, I’m immensely pleased.”

  “Oh, how wonderful,” Olivia said, and Jack could see the true joy in her eyes. Had she felt that delight when she’d discovered she was with child? If he married her off, would she be ecstatic when she learned she carried her new husband’s child? Why did he suddenly want to smash something?

  “I’m amazed you already know,” Olivia continued.

  “Dr. Graves confirmed it,” Catherine said, and she was now the one to blush.

  “Is he your physician as well?” Olivia asked. “He’s wonderful. He saw to me when I was ill.”

  “I’m surprised he had time, now that he serves at the queen’s pleasure,” Luke said.

  Olivia’s eyes widened. “He’s physician to the queen?”

  “One of several.” Jack poured himself more port. “According to Graves she’s a hypochondriac.”

  “You mustn’t speak of her that way.” Olivia’s voice held chastisement.

  She’d forever be correcting his manners. For some reason, it truly bothered him tonight. Could she not accept him, imperfections and all?

  “Not to worry. When next I have an audience with the queen, I won’t mention it.” Jack sounded surly, even to himself, but he was acutely aware that these three would be welcomed into Buckingham Palace, while he would not.

  An awkward silence descended. He didn’t want to ruin this dinner for Olivia, but he also wished Luke and Catherine would leave so he could have Olivia to himself.

  “So, Luke, what do you think of Henry? He’s quite the dodger, isn’t he?” Jack asked, in order to get things going again.

  “Indeed. I was very impressed. I didn’t think I’d ever see anyone as skilled as you.”

  “I intend to teach him to have nimble fingers next.”

  “He’s not going to become a pickpocket,” Olivia said sternly.

  “I wouldn’t dream of that. But nimble fingers have other uses.”

  Before anything else could be said, Brittles walked in and announced, “Dinner is served.”

  As Jack offered his arm to Olivia, he leaned near and whispered, “With any luck, I may demonstrate those nimble uses before the night is done.”

  She gasped and Jack chuckled. “Don’t look so shocked, Livy. Sooner or later you must pay the devil his due, and I’m of a mind to collect sooner.”

  It seemed her reprieve had come to an end. Olivia was surprised to discover she wasn’t nearly as disappointed as she probably should have been.

  The appreciation that had lit Jack’s eyes when she walked into the library had flattered her no end. He’d given the impression he desperately wanted to cross the room, take her in his arms, and bestow upon her a kiss that was likely to lead her into his bedroom.

  Even now, Jack rarely took his eyes off her. He was being an abominable host, ignoring their guests, not bothering to even attempt to carry on any sort of conversation. Having his undivided attention was thrilling, although she was concerned that she might not be able to hold him at bay when their guests left. More fearful was the realization that she wasn’t certain she wanted to hold him at bay.

  While no one seemed uncomfortable with the absence of discourse—in truth, Claybourne and Catherine seemed amused by it—Olivia was well aware that a good hostess didn’t let silence reign.

  “I met Frannie recently. She seemed lovely.” Jack gave her a dark grin and she wished she hadn’t traveled down this path.

  “I like her as well,” Catherine said, as though aware of the sudden tension. “She’s built an orphanage, and hopes soon to open the doors.”

  “She’s just waiting for the furniture,” Claybourne added. “I suspect you’ll lose all your boys then, Jack.”

  Olivia was aware of shock rippling through her. Had Frannie been his lover once? Did he have bastard children? She swallowed hard to force back the lump of unease that had formed in her throat. “What boys are those?”

  Jack scowled at Claybourne as though he’d revealed some dark secret. “Just boys.”

  “Your sons?” Had she truly asked? The voice didn’
t sound like hers.

  He gave her a wry smile. “No, I take great pains not to populate London any further. They’re street urchins, orphans.”

  “You keep orphans at your establishment?” She didn’t know whether to applaud him for his benevolence or be appalled that he’d allow children into those environs.

  “I don’t keep them, as though they’re possessions. They earn their place. As you may recall, I strongly believe that a person must earn the roof over his head or the food in his belly. So I take them in and give them a job. It prevents them from being recruited by mobsters and ending up in gaol. It’s nothing, really. I have chores that need doing and they’re capable of doing them.”

  He spoke as though burdened by the need to explain, but she was grateful he had, because it helped her to see him yet again in another light. He was a continual kaleidoscope. And his actions weren’t nothing. It was far more trouble than she went to for orphaned children. She felt quite humbled. She also thought his care of other boys helped to explain his rapport with Henry, had perhaps prepared him for his role as guardian.

  “Is that where you got the clothes?” she asked.

  He lifted his glass to toast her. “Indeed.”

  Olivia realized she was leaving her guests out of the conversation. What an atrocious hostess she’d become. “Jack brought some clothes for Henry to play in.”

  “You, as well,” he said, seemingly very pleased with himself. He looked at his guests. “We went to the Great Exhibition, with Livy and Henry dressed as boys.”

  “Really?” Catherine didn’t look at all appalled. “What was it like to wear trousers in public?”

  “Quite…liberating, actually.”

  “I daresay, I think we wear far too many layers of clothes.”

  “I agree,” both men said at once.

  Olivia and Catherine giggled like young girls.

  “You know,” Claybourne said, lifting his wineglass and studying its dark red contents, “it’s possible Lovingdon chose you to be guardian because of the protection you give the lads who work for you.”