by Blake Bailey
“there is no other word”: Arthur Slattery, “Adirondacks Personalities,” unpaginated clipping (source unknown) dated July 29, 1963, Rauner.
“Yes, I knew Charles was gay”: Author int. Gloria Ayvazian, Feb. 27, 2010.
“I asked Ruth Norman”: CJ to Fred and Gloria Ayvazian, Aug. 4, 1964, Rauner.
“I came home to a blacker”: CJ, “In Remembrance of Him,” unpublished ms., Rauner.
“I felt now as though”: A Place in the Country, promotional film for Will Rogers Hospital (1965), courtesy of the Will Rogers Institute.
“drawing pains”: CJ to KWJ, April 8, 1964, JFC.
“We refuse to let illness”: CJ to Bob Whitehead, Dec. 5, 1964, Rauner.
“I could even say, with all”: CJ to Brandt and Markel, June 22, 1964, Rauner.
“Yes, I am the star”: CJ to DS, Jan. 27, 1965, JFC.
“one of the best institutional films”: “Will Rogers Short: ‘A Place in the Country,’ ” unidentified clipping, JFC.
“more than hanging on the ropes”: RBJ to Brandt, March 1, 1963, Rauner.
“[wasn’t] worth telling”: CJ to KWJ, Oct. 1, 1962, JFC.
“On the walls around him”: CJ, “The Loving Offenders,” McCall’s, July 1963, 139.
“I have always marveled”: CJ to Manon Tingue, July 4, 1964, Rauner.
“I’m going to get out of debt”: CJ to SJP, May 30, 1963, JFC.
“a pure poem of despair”: CJ to Brandt and Markel, June 22, 1964, Rauner.
“Treat my new baby kindlily”: CJ to Tingue, July 4, 1964, Rauner.
“What remains now is just a story”: CJ to KWJ, July 31, 1964, JFC.
“one of the largest [funerals]: CJ, “The Lady Julia,” McCall’s, April 1965, 166.
“Manon is under the impression”: Anonymous internal Brandt & Brandt memo to Frieda Lubelle and “DB” (Carl “Denny” Brandt?), Aug. 24, 1964, Rauner.
Chapter Nineteen • HOMAGE TO MOTHER RUSSIA
“You are the greatest pride”: CJ to SJP, Feb. 6, 1959, JFC.
“Work harder!” she’d admonish: Author int. SJP, Jan. 25, 2009.
“We did indeed … Sarah’s marks”: CJ to “Miss Babbott,” March 14, 1960, JFC.
“They got along much better”: Author int. Mikey Gilbert, April 22, 2009.
“because of some emotional deficiency”: CJ to SJP, Oct. 21, 1963, JFC.
“a subject he should know”: CJ to SJP (c. early July 1964), JFC.
calling him “Alexander the Great”: CJ to Alexander Piper, March 22, 1965, JFC.
“Kate must hurt someone”: CJ to SJP, Oct. 4, 1958, JFC.
“You went to Sarah’s!”: Quoted in RBJ to SJP, June 1, 1960, JFC.
“And what about some mail sometime?”: CJ to KWJ, Oct. 15, 1962, JFC.
“We must go see the Courbets”: CJ to KWJ, Oct. 5, 1962, JFC.
“you are liker Elizabeth”: CJ to KWJ, June 30, 1964, JFC.
“Be apprised that I have signed up”: CJ to KWJ, May 7, 1963, JFC.
“talk and talk forever”: CJ to Maurice Friedman, Aug. 5, 1964, Rauner.
“that ratrace of meeting the train”: RBJ to SJP, Feb. 5, 1959, JFC.
“the dreadful secret came out”: CJ to Friedman, Aug. 5, 1964, Rauner.
“Even most of his neighbors”: Doris E. Brown, “Rutgers Unveils Noted ‘Lost’ Writer,” The Star-Ledger, Oct. 4, 1964, 14.
“Me a political speaker!”: CJ to KWJ, Oct. 5, 1964, JFC.
“they’ve got us old-timers beat”: CJ to SJP (c. early July 1964), JFC.
“The notion of making money”: Quoted in CJ to SJP, Sept. 2, 1964, JFC.
“I want it to be very American”: CJ to SJP, Jan. 27, 1965, JFC.
“In place of the valorous general”: DS-Paper, 103.
he felt “sick at heart”—a “fraud”: CJ, “The Sleeping Brain, unpublished ms. Rauner.”
“Everybody looked at him”: Author int. Stephen Jones, May 18, 2009.
“Things got a bit sticky”: E-mail from John Weston to author, March 25, 2009.
“You have split infinitives”: Olive Schneider to CJ, Sept. 6, 1965, Rauner.
“inscribed with praise and gratitude”: RBJ to KWJ, Sept. 3, 1965, JFC.
“If anybody got … Breadloaf”: CJ to Margaret Cousins, Sept. 16, 1965, Ransom.
“concentration, originality, and form”: CJ to KWJ, Sept. 15, 1965, JFC.
“You wanted it then”: CJ to RBJ, Sept. 23, 1965, Rauner.
“As for my morale and spirits”: CJ to Cousins, Sept. 16, 1965, Ransom.
Chapter Twenty • A SECOND-HAND LIFE
“charming odd water-color”: CJ to KWJ, Sept. 15, 1965, JFC.
“neat as a pin”: John Barkham, “Among Books and Authors,” typescript perhaps intended for Bergen Record, c. July 1967, Rauner.
“making the scene like a grandmother”: Richard R. Lingeman, “Where Home Is Where It Is,” New York Times Book Review, Dec. 24, 1967, 153.
“living on a shoestring”: CJ to Margaret Cousins, Sept. 16, 1965, Ransom.
“CHARLES JACKSON: DO NOT DISTURB”: Alex Lindsay, “Charles Jackson’s Long, Lost Weekend: A Personal Memoir,” unpublished ms., courtesy of Rae Lindsay.
“Lissen,” the man replied: CJ, “The Chelsea Hotel,” Holiday, Feb. 1968, 109.
cry out “Hello, Charlie!”: Joe O’Sullivan, “And Like That …, ” typescript written for UPI, perhaps unpublished, dated July 1, 1967, Rauner.
“Funny, when you go out of town”: CJ to RBJ, Dec. 4, 1965, Rauner.
“a derisive denial”: Lindsay, “Charles Jackson’s Long, Lost Weekend.”
Homosexuality “deserves fairness”: Quoted in Charles Kaiser, The Gay Metropolis: 1940—1996 (Boston and New York: Houghton Mifflin Co., 1997), 168–69.
Weston was “on pins and needles”: Author int. John Weston, March 25, 2009.
provocative “crotch-grabbing”: Author int. Stephen Jones, May 18, 2009.
he’d found the book “coy”: Ned Rorem to Alex Gildzen, Dec. 27, 1973, KSU.
“Neither a strikingly original”: CJ, “Into Another Intensity,” New York Times Book Review, Jan. 30, 1966, 17.
a lot of bitchy, “hissing” humor: Author int. Stan Herman, April 11, 2009.
“I’d say that there bees some quare”: Peter Arthurs, With Brendan Behan (New York: St. Martin’s Press, 1981), 24.
“the pleasures of love”: Quoted in CJ to Al Wintrup, Dec. 27, 1966, Rauner.
“It’s hard to believe”: Carl Brandt Jr. to Robert Brown, Oct. 18, 1965, Rauner.
“to play hooky”: CJ to RBJ, Dec. 4, 1965, Rauner.
“very kind and solicitous”: Author int. Alice Schwedock Small, Oct. 27, 2009.
“a long dialogue scene”: CJ to RBJ, Jan. 7, 1966, Rauner.
“the most beautiful thing”: SHL, 60.
“I got the impression he’d failed”: Author int. Robert Markel, Sept. 9, 2008.
“unwittingly … stepped up”: CJ, “The Sleeping Brain,” unpublished ms., Rauner.
pounced with a “friendly ‘alert’ ”: Margaret Nicholson to Brandt, Aug. 31, 1966, Rauner.
“the rhapsodic Bob Markel”: CJ to Brandt, Oct. 23, 1966, Rauner.
“Jackson has regained”: John Barkham, “Among Books and Authors.”
“It’s so moving”: FSJ to SJP, Sept. 22, 1966, JFC.
the author’s “Awful Daring”: F. W. Dupee to CJ, July 7, 1967, Rauner.
“Diana will follow”: Lionel Trilling to CJ, Oct. 24, 1967, Rauner.
“could have a good deal of fun”: Brandt to H. N. Swanson, Feb. 10, 1967, Rauner.
“Having spent seven years”: Brandt to Patricia Neal, March 13, 1967, Rauner.
“a logical choice” to play Winifred: Quoted in Brandt to Swanson, April 13, 1967, Rauner.
“a piece on Writer’s Block”: Brandt to Swanson, April 13, 1967, Rauner.
“Are we really that tormented?”: CJ, “We Were Led to Hope for More,” New York Times Book Review, Dec. 12, 1965
, 4.
Reviews of A Second-Hand Life: Webster Schott, in New York Times Book Review, Aug. 13, 1967, 14; Thomas Lask, in New York Times, Aug. 14, 1967, 29; “Body Worship,” Newsweek, Aug. 14, 1967, 88; John Barkham, in Bergen Evening Record, Aug. 19, 1967, 9; “Briefly Noted,” The New Yorker, Aug. 26, 1967, 98.
“Charlie’s morale is damn near”: Brandt to Swanson, Aug. 14, 1967, Rauner.
“Nobody can be ‘wronger’ ”: CJ to Stanley Rinehart, Sept. 17, 1943, Rauner.
“agents of your inspired nostalgia”: Dupee to CJ, July 7, 1967, Rauner.
“give free rein to”: Georges-Michel Sarotte, Like a Brother, Like a Lover: Male Homosexuality in the American Novel and Theater from Herman Melville to James Baldwin (Garden City, NY: Anchor Press/Doubleday, 1978), 109.
“One winter afternoon he called me”: DS-Show, 91.
Chapter Twenty-One • SAILING OUT TO DIE
“Charlie had picked him up”: DS-Show, 92.
“taken a companion”: Author int. Robert Markel, Aug. 20, 2008.
“Charles was a very difficult”: Alex Lindsay, “Charles Jackson’s Long, Lost Weekend: A Personal Memoir,” unpublished ms., courtesy of Rae Lindsay.
“I’ve never seen a closet case”: E-mail from Brock Brower to author, April 20, 2009.
“I just feel Papa needs the money”: RBJ to SJP, May 24, 1966, JFC.
“attending those appalling double-feature”: CJ to RBJ, Jan. 7, 1966, Rauner.
“please show this to Sarah”: CJ to Alexander Piper, March 22, 1965, Rauner.
“The only thing of importance”: Joe O’Sullivan, “And Like That …, ” typescript written for UPI, perhaps unpublished, dated July 1, 1967, Rauner.
“Well I guess I really am getting old”: CJ to SJP (c. early July 1964), JFC.
his “most necessary book”: CJ to SJP, Aug. 2, 1964, JFC.
“You speak of his problems”: CJ to KWJ, June 26, 1964, JFC.
“Isn’t he cute?”: Author int. KWJ, March 14, 2010.
“look[ed] much younger”: “Trade Winds,” Saturday Review, Sept. 2, 1967, 7.
remaining lung was “about gone”: RBJ to Shirley Hood, July 1, 1969, Rauner.
“I always keep a few beers”: Alex Lindsay, “Charles Jackson’s Long, Lost Weekend.”
“We never called Carole”: E-mail from Rae Lindsay to author, Sept. 7, 2009.
“The phrase is both madly unrealistic”: CJ, “The Chelsea Hotel,” Holiday, Feb. 1968, 104.
Charlie had a “wonderful time”: CJ to RBJ, June 6, 1968, Rauner.
“Charlie arrived looking shockingly old”: DS-Show, 92.
“I have always felt”: CJ to KWJ, June 26, 1964, JFC.
“depressed, at certain times”: “Identification of Body,” St. Vincent Hospital records.
“He used to play teeter-totter Tessie”: Doreen Carvajal, “A Publisher’s Trademark: Low Advances and High Prestige,” New York Times, Sept. 23, 1996.
“This had happened so often”: Reminiscences of Roger W. Straus, Jr., Jan. 11, 1978, on page 362 of CUCOHC.
Epilogue • HOME FOR GOOD
“Died. Charles Jackson, 65”: “Milestones,” Time, Sept. 27, 1968.
“warm and straight”: “Charles Jackson, Author of ‘Lost Weekend,’ Dies,” New York Times, Sept. 22, 1968, 88.
“one of the nicest and gentlest”: Mel Heimer, “My New York” (syndicated column), October 21, 1968.
“a child misunderstood”: “Author Charles Jackson dies,” Geneva Times, Sept. 23, 1968, unpaginated clipping, Newark (N.Y.) Public Library.
“There was nothing I could do”: Max Wylie, “Charles Reginald Jackson,” Serif 10, no. 3 (1973), 31.
“dusty red plush”: DS-Show, 75.
“Oh my heavens! I forgot Charlie!”: E-mail from SJP to author, Feb. 6, 2010.
“Well, Charlie’s dead”: Author int. Gilbert Burgess, March 2, 2010.
“have a talk about Stanley”: Carl Brandt, Jr., to RBJ, Oct, 11, 1968, Rauner.
“I can say with some certainty”: Brandt to George F. Coleman, Oct. 1, 1968, JFC.
“Charlie’s work was too good”: RBJ to RS, June 15, 1970, Rauner.
“No-one would have re-read”: RBJ to Alex Gildzen, May 5, 1973, KSU.
“a miracle, handed down to Mr. Jackson”: David Madden and Peggy Bach, eds., Rediscoveries II (New York: Carroll & Graf Publishers, 1988), 131.
“Marvelous and horrifying”: Kingley Amis’s blurb appears on a 1998 reprint of LW published by Black Spring Press (London).
“a sensitive novel”: Herbert Kupferberg, “What’s Up This Week: Now, About That List of the ‘100 Best Novels of the 20th Century’ …, ” Parade, Oct. 11, 1998, 18.
“Although … less shocking”: Jack Kisling, “The Bookbag,” Denver Post, Sept. 28, 1986.
“A brother, Herbert, survives”: “Frederick S. Jackson,” New York Times, June 21, 1971, 32.
“Charlie’s papers in shape”: RBJ to Brandt, March 19, 1973, Rauner.
“Vain creature that I am”: CJ to Leonora Schinasi, Feb. 28, 1945, Rauner.
“What he was really saying”: RBJ to SJP, Feb. 22, 1971, JFC.
“I take my duties rather seriously”: Reminiscences of Roger W. Straus, Jr., Jan. 11, 1978, on page 362 of CUCOHC.
“whether you could tell if you were”: Author int. KWJ, March 14, 2010.
Index
Aannestad, Elling, 7.1, 7.2, 10.1, 11.1
“Absolution” (Fitzgerald)
Across the River and into the Trees (Hemingway), 13.1, 14.1
Adams, Franklin P.
“Afternoon with Boris, An” (Jackson), 3.1, 16.1, 20.1, epl.1
Agee, James
Age of Innocence, The (Wharton)
Aida (opera)
Alba, Duchess of
alcoholics, alcoholism
alleged hopelessness of
comedy and, pro.1, 8.1
as “disease of emotional immaturity,”
as haunted by sense of inferiority
homosexuality and, 1.1, 7.1
“nuisance-value” of
Peabody’s definition of
as self-important
Alcoholics Anonymous, pro.1, pro.2, 5.1, 5.2, 5.3, 6.1, 7.1, 7.2, 7.3, 8.1, 8.2, 9.1, 10.1, 10.2, 11.1, 14.1, 15.1, 15.2, 16.1, 16.2, 16.3, 16.4, 16.5, 16.6, 17.1, 17.2, 17.3, 18.1, 20.1, 21.1, epl.1, epl.2
CRJ’s talks at, 6.1, 7.1, 8.1, 9.1, 11.1, 14.1, 15.1, 15.2, 16.1, 17.1, 17.2, 17.3
Lenox Hill chapter of, 16.1, 16.2, 16.3, 17.1, 19.1
Alcoholics Anonymous (Wilson)
Aldrich Family, The (TV show)
Alice in Wonderland (Carroll)
“Allergy” (Jackson)
Allied Liquor Industries, 8.1, 10.1
All Quiet on the Western Front (film), 10.1, 12.1
All the King’s Men (film)
Ambassadors, The (James)
Ambrose, Warren
American Journal of Nursing
American Medical Association, 8.1, 17.1n
American People, The: A Study in National Character (Gorer)
American Tragedy, An (Dreiser)
Amory, Richard
Amussen, Ted, 9.1, 9.2, 10.1, 10.2, 10.3, 11.1, 13.1
Anderson, Dick, 16.1, 16.2
Anderson, Sherwood, 1.1, 2.1, 2.2, 13.1, 14.1n
“Andrea del Sarto” (Browning), vii
Anna Christie (O’Neill), 3.1, 17.1
Anna Karenina (Tolstoy), 19.1, 19.2
Anthonisen, Niels, 14.1, 15.1, 15.2, 15.3, 16.1, 16.2
anti-Semitism, 7.1, 9.1, 11.1
Apartment in Athens (Wescott)
Apology, The (Plato)
Apple of the Eye, The (Wescott)
Apple Ridge Farm
Arcadia, N.Y., 1.1, 1.2, 1.3, 2.1, 2.2, 2.3, 2.4, 3.1, 3.2, 6.1, 6.2, 13.1, 14.1, 15.1, 16.1
Arlen, Michael
Arndt, Walter, 19.1, 19.2n
Arnold, Matthew
Arthurs, Peter
Art Students League, 3.1, 3.2, 3.3, col2.
1, 16.1
Atlantic, 11.1, 14.1
Austen, Jane
Austin, Darrell, 9.1, 14.1
Author Meets the Critic, The (TV program)
Ayvazian, Fred, 18.1, 18.2, 18.3, 19.1
Ayvazian, Gloria
Babbitt (Lewis)
Babbott, Miss
“Babylon Revisited” (Fitzgerald)
Backward Glance, A (Wharton)
Bacon, Eleanor, epl.6n
Bacon, Reggie
Baldwin, Faith
Ballantine Books, 16.1, 16.2
Ball of Fire (film)
“Band Concert, A” (Jackson)
Bard, Stanley, 20.1, 20.2
“Bard in a Tent, The” (Jackson)
Barnes, Howard
Barnett, Lincoln, pro.1, 7.1, 11.1, 12.1
Barr, Stanley, 8.1, 10.1
Barth, John
Barthelme, Donald
Baumgarten, Bernice, 3.1, 5.1, 7.1, 9.1, 9.2, 9.3, 10.1, 10.2, 12.1, 12.2, 12.3, 12.4, 13.1, 13.2, 13.3, 13.4, 13.5, 14.1, 14.2, 14.3, 14.4, 15.1, 15.2, 15.3, 16.1, 16.2, 18.1
Baxley, Barbara
“Beast in the Jungle, The” (James), pro.1, 3.1
Beatles, 21.1n, 21.2, 21.3
Beautiful and Damned, The (Fitzgerald), 2.1n
“Beautiful and Slammed, The” (Jackson)
Becker, John, 5.1, 5.2, 5.3, 5.4
Beethoven, Ludwig van, 1.1, 2.1, 5.1, 8.1, 21.1
Begley, Ed
Behan, Brendan
Bell, Book and Candle
Bellevue Hospital, 5.1, 6.1, 7.1, 7.2n, 10.1, 10.2, 17.1, 17.2, 21.1
Bellow, Saul
Benchley, Robert, pro.1, 8.1, 9.1
Benét, Stephen Vincent
Ben-Hur (film)
“Benighted Savage, The” (Jackson)
Benjamin, Asher
Benson, Sally, 8.1, 9.1, 9.2, 9.3, 12.1, 14.1
Berg, Dick
Bergler, Edmund
Bermuda
Besch, Joe
Best Short Stories (O’Brien)
Beverage Times
Bible
Bischoff, Ilse, 16.1, 16.2, 16.3
Bishop, Jim
Bishop’s Wife, The (Nathan), 8.1n, 10.1
Bizet, Georges
Black Arrow, The (Stevenson)
Bloomer, Harrison
Bloomer, Kate
Bloomer, Robert Anson Sherman, 1.1, 1.2, 7.1, 11.1, 13.1
Bloomer, Tom