He looked at Nell standing there, pale and mysterious as the moonlight began to fade once more.
‘Have you still got my letter? ’
She put her hand on her breast pocket.
‘Of course I have.’
They re-entered the house, for which no key was ever deemed necessary. It might be just as well, for none was available.
Stephen realized at once that what they were doing was moving into the house pretty finally; not, as he had so recently proposed, preparing to move out of it in a short time. It was clear that once Nell truly and finally entered one’s life, one had simply to accept the consequences. Stephen could perceive well enough that Nell was at every point moved by forces in comparison with which he was moved by inauthentic fads. Acquiescence was the only possibility. The admixture in Nell of ignorance and wisdom, sometimes even surface sophistication, was continuously fascinating. In any case, she had left familiar surroundings and completely changed her way of life for him. He must do the same for her without end; and he wished it.
The moonlight was now insufficient to show the state of the walls or the curiously assorted furnishings or the few personal traps he had omitted to bear to London. Stephen had worn gloves to drive and had not removed them to lug. He wore them still.
None the less, when he said, ‘Shall we have a light now? ’ he spoke with some reluctance.
“Now,’ said Nell. ‘We’re at home now.’
He fired up some of the rough cressets he had managed to lay hands on when he had borrowed the sottish Jarrold’s Land-Rover.
Nell threw herself against him. She kissed him again and again.
As she did so, Stephen resolved to look at nothing more. To look was not necessarily to see. He even thought he apprehended a new vein of truth in what Nell had said on that second day, still only a very short time ago, about her father.
Nell went upstairs and changed into the dress he had bought her. She had done it without a hint, and he took for granted that she had done it entirely to give pleasure. In aspect, she was no longer a part of nature, merging into it, an oread. Not surprisingly, the dress did not fit very well, but on Nell it looked like a peplos. She was a sybil. Stephen was scarcely surprised. There was no need for him to see anything other than Nell’s white and black robe, intuitively selected, prophetically insisted upon; quite divine, as ordinary normal girls used to say.
When he dashed off his gloves in order to caress her, he regarded only her eyes and her raiment; but later there was eating to be done, and it is difficult, in very primitive lighting, to eat without at moments noticing one’s hands. These particular hands seemed at such moments to be decorated with horrid subfusc smears, quite new. Under the circumstances, they might well have come from inside Stephen’s driving gloves; warm perhaps, but, like most modern products, of no precise or very wholesome origin. If ineradicable, the marks were appalling; not to be examined for a single second.
When Nell took off her new dress, Stephen saw at once (how else but at once?) that her own small single mark had vanished. She was as totally honied as harvest home, and as luscious, and as rich.
Stephen resolved that in the morning, if there was one, he would throw away all the souvenirs of Elizabeth he had brought with him. They could be scattered on the moor as ashes in a memorial garden, but better far. The eyes that were watching from behind the marks on the walls and ceilings and utensils glinted back at him, one and all. The formless left hands were his to shake.
***
In the nature of things, love was nonpareil that night; and there was music too. Nell’s inner being, when one knew her, when one really knew her, was as matchless as her unsullied body. Goodness is the most powerful aphrodisiac there is, though few have the opportunity of learning. Stephen had learned long before from the example of Elizabeth, and now he was learning again.
Time finally lost all power.
The music became endlessly more intimate.
‘God!’ cried Stephen suddenly. ‘That’s Schumann!’ He had all but leapt in the air. Ridiculously.
‘Where? ’ asked Nell. Stephen realized that he was virtually sitting on her. He dragged himself up and was standing on the floor.
‘That music. It’s Schumann.’
‘I hear no music.’
‘I don’t suppose you do.’
Stephen spoke drily and unkindly, as he too often did, but he knew that everything was dissolving.
For example, he could see on the dark wall the large portrait of Elizabeth by a pupil of Philip de Laszlo which had hung in their conjugal bedroom. The simulacrum was faint and ghostly, like the music, but he could see it clearly enough for present purposes, dimly self-illuminated.
He had taken that picture down with his own hands, years and years ago; and the reason had been, as he now instantly recalled, that the light paintwork had speedily become blotched and suffused. They had naturally supposed it to be something wrong with the pigments, and had spoken between themselves of vegetable dyes and the superiorities of Giotto and Mantegna. Stephen had hidden the festering canvas in the communal basement storeroom, and had forgotten about it immediately. Now he could see it perfectly well, not over the bed, but in front of it, as always.
‘Come back,’ said Nell. ‘Come back to me.’
The music, which once, beyond doubt, had been the music of love, was dying away. In its place, was a persistent snuffling sound, as if the house from outside, or the room from inside, was being cased by a wolf.
‘What’s that noise? That noise of an animal? ’
‘Come back to me,’ said Nell. ‘Come back, Stephen.’ Perhaps she was quite consciously dramatizing a trifle.
He had gone to the window, but of course could see nothing save the misleading huge shapes of the flapping birds.
He went back to the bed and stretched out both his hands to Nell. He was very cold.
Though there was almost no light, Nell grasped his two hands and drew him down to her.
‘You see and hear so many things, Stephen,’ she said.
As she spoke, he had, for moments, a vision of a different kind.
Very lucidly, he saw Nell and himself living together, but, as it might be, in idealized form, vaguely, intensely. He knew that it was an ideal of which she was wonderfully capable, perhaps because she was still so young. All that was required of him was some kind of trust.
Held by her strong hands and arms, he leaned over her and faltered.
‘But whatever animal is that? ’ he demanded.
She released his hands and curled up like a child in distress. She had begun to sob.
‘Oh, Nell,’ he cried. He fell on her and tried to reach her. Her muscles were as iron, and he made no impression at all.
In any case, he could not stop attending to the snuffling, if that was the proper word for it. He thought it was louder now. The noise seemed quite to fill the small, low, dark, remote room; to leave no space for renewed love, however desperate the need, however urgent the case.
Suddenly, Stephen knew. A moment of insight had come to him, an instinctual happening.
He divined that outside or inside the little house was Nell’s father.
It was one reason why Nell was twisted in misery and terror. Her father had his own ways of getting to the truth of things. She had said so.
Stephen sat down on the bed and put his hand on her shoulder. Though he was shivering dreadfully, he had become almost calm. The process of illumination was suggesting to him the simple truth that, for Nell too, the past must be ever present. And for her it was, in common terms, the terms after which he himself was so continuously half-aspiring, a past most absurdly recent. How could he tell what experiences were hers, parallel to, but never meeting, his own?
It would be no good even making the obvious suggestion that they should dwell far away. She could never willingly leave the moor, even if it should prove the death of her; no more than he had been able all those years to leave the flat, the job, the life,
all of which he had hated, and been kept alive in only by Elizabeth.
‘What’s the best thing to do, Nell?’ Stephen inquired of her. ‘Tell me and we’ll do it exactly. Tell me. I think I’m going to dress while you do so. And then perhaps you’d better dress too.’
After all, he began to think, there was little that Nell had ever said about her father or her sister which many girls might not have said when having in mind to break away. He would not have wanted a girl who had no independent judgement of her own family.
The processes of insight and illumination were serving him well, and the phantom portrait seemed to have dissipated completely. The snuffling and snorting continued. It was menacing and unfamiliar, but conceivably it was caused merely by a common or uncommon but essentially manageable creature of the moors. Stephen wished he had brought his revolver (another official issue), even though he had no experience in discharging it. He could not think how he had omitted it. Then he recollected the horrible furred-up flat, and shuddered anew, within his warm clothes.
For the first time it occurred to him that poor Elizabeth might be trying, from wherever she was, to warn him. Who could tell that Harriet had not made a miraculous recovery (she was, after all, in touch with many different faiths); and was not now ready once more to accept him for a spell into the life at the rectory?
Nell was being very silent.
Stephen went back to the bed.
‘Nell.’
He saw that she was not in the bed at all, but standing by the door.
‘Nell.’
‘Hush,’ she said. ‘We must hide.’
‘Where do we do that? ’
‘I shall show you. He could see that she was back in her shirt and trousers; a part of the natural scene once more. Her white dress glinted on the boards of the floor.
To Stephen her proposal seemed anomalous. If it really was her father outside, he could penetrate everywhere, and according to her own statement. If it was a lesser adversary, combat might be better than concealment.
Nell and Stephen went downstairs in the ever more noisy darkness, and Nell, seemingly without effort, lifted a stone slab in the kitchen floor. Stephen could not quite make out how she had done it. Even to find the right slab, under those conditions, was a feat.
‘All the houses have a place like this,’ Nell explained.
‘Why?’ inquired Stephen. Surely Nell’s father was an exceptional phenomenon? Certainly the supposed motion of him was akin to no other motion Stephen had ever heard.
‘To keep their treasure,’ said Nell.
‘You are my treasure,’ said Stephen.
‘You are mine,’ responded Nell.
There were even a few hewn steps, or so they felt to him. Duly it was more a coffer than a room, Stephen apprehended; but in no time Nell had the stone roof down on them, almost with a flick of the elbow, weighty though the roof must have been.
Now the darkness was total; something distinctly different from the merely conventional darkness above. All the same, Stephen of all people could not be unaware that the stone sides and stone floor and stone ceiling of the apartment were lined with moss and lichen. No doubt he had developed sixth and seventh senses in that arena, but the odour could well have sufficed of itself.
‘How do we breathe? ’
‘There is a sort of pipe. That’s where the danger lies.’
‘You mean it might have become blocked up?’
‘No.’
He did not care next to suggest that it might now be blocked deliberately. He had already made too many tactless suggestions of that kind.
She saved him the trouble of suggesting anything. She spoke in the lowest possible voice.
‘He might come through.’
It was the first time she had admitted, even by implication, who it was: outside or inside - or both. Stephen fully realized that. It was difficult for him not to give way to the shakes once more, but he clung to the vague possibilities he had tried to sort out upstairs.
‘I should hardly think so,’ he said. ‘But how long do you suggest we wait? ’
‘It will be better when it’s day. He has to eat so often.’
It would be utterly impossible for Stephen to inquire any further; not at the moment. He might succeed in finding his way to the bottom of it all later. He was already beginning to feel cramped, and the smell of the fungi and the algae were metaphorically choking him and the moss realistically tickling him; but he put his arm round Nell in the blackness, and could even feel his letter safe against her soft breast.
She snuggled back at him; as far as circumstances permitted. He had only a vague idea of how big or small their retreat really was.
Nell spoke again in that same lowest possible voice. She could communicate, even in the most pitchy of blackness, while hardly making a sound.
‘He’s directly above us. He’s poised.’
Stephen mustered up from his school days a grotesque recollection of some opera: the final scene. The Carl Rosa had done it: that one scene only; after the film in a cinema near Marble Arch. Elizabeth had thought the basic operatic convention too far-fetched to be taken seriously; except perhaps for Mozart, who could always be taken seriously.
‘I love you,’ said Stephen. No doubt the chap in the opera had said something to the like effect, but had taken more time over it.
Time: that was always the decisive factor. But time had been mastered at last.
‘I love you,’ said Nell, snuggling ever closer; manifesting her feeling in every way she could.
***
Curiously enough, it was at the verge of the small, lustrous pool that Stephen’s body was ultimately found.
A poor old man, apparently resistent to full employment and even to the full security that goes with it, found the corpse, though, after all those days or weeks, the creatures and forces of the air and of the moor had done their worst to it, or their best. There was no ordinary skin anywhere. Many people in these busy times would not even have reported the find.
There were still, however, folk who believed, or at least had been told that the pool was bottomless; and even at the inquest a theory was developed that Stephen had been wandering about on the moor and had died of sudden shock upon realizing at what brink he stood. The coroner, who was a doctor of medicine, soon disposed of that hypothesis.
None the less, the actual verdict had to be open; which satisfied nobody. In these times, people expect clear answers; whether right or wrong.
Harewood, almost his pristine self by then, inquired into the possibility of a memorial service in London, which he was perfectly prepared to come up and conduct. After all, Stephen was an OBE already, and could reasonably hope for more.
The view taken was that Stephen had been missing for so long, so entirely out of the official eye, that the proper moment for the idea was regrettably, but irreversibly, past.
The funeral took place, therefore, in Harewood’s own church, where the father and the grandfather of both the deceased and the officiant had shepherded so long with their own quiet distinction. People saw that no other solution had ever really been thinkable.
Doreen had by now duly become indispensible to the rector; in the mysterious absence of Stephen, to whom the rector had specifically allotted that function. At the funeral, she was the only person in full black. Not even the solitary young man from the Ministry emulated her there. It had not been thought appropriate to place Stephen’s OBE on the coffin, but during the service the rector noticed a scrap of lichen thereon which was different entirely, he thought, from any of the species on the walls, rafters, and floors of the church. Performing his office, Harewood could not at once put a name to the specimen. The stuff that already lined the open grave was even more peculiar; and Harewood was more than a little relieved when the whole affair was finally over, the last tributes paid, and he free to stumble back to Doreen’s marmite toast, and lilac peignoir. The newest number of the Journal had come in only just before, but Harewood
did not so much as open it that evening.
As Stephen’s will had been rendered ineffective by Elizabeth’s decease, Harewood, as next of kin, had to play a part, whether he felt competent or not, in winding everything up. Fortunately, Doreen had been taking typing lessons, and had bought a second-hand machine with her own money.
The flat was found to be in the most shocking state, almost indescribable. It was as if there had been no visitors for years; which, as Harewood at once pointed out, had almost certainly been more or less the case, since the onset of Elizabeth’s malady, an epoch ago.
A single, very unusual book about Harewood’s own speciality was found. It had been published in a limited edition: a minute one, and at a price so high that Harewood himself had not been among the subscribers.
‘Poor fellow!’ said Harewood. ‘I never knew that he was really interested. One can make such mistakes.’
The valuable book had of course to be disposed of for the benefit of the estate.
Stephen’s car was so far gone that it could be sold only for scrap; but, in the event, it never was sold at all, because no one could be bothered to drag it away. If one knows where to look, one can see the bits of it still.
Marriage
Helen Black and Ellen Brown: just a simple coincidence, and representative of the very best that life offers most of us by way of comedy and diversion. A dozen harmless accidents of that kind and one could spend a year of one's life laughing and wondering, and ever and anon recur to the topic in the years still to come.
Laming Gatestead met Helen Black in the gallery of the theater. The only thing that mattered much about the play or the production was that Yvonne Arnaud was in it, which resulted in Helen adoring the play, whereas Laming merely liked it. However, the topic gave them something to talk about. This was welcome, because it was only in the second intermission that Laming had plucked up courage (or whatever the relevant quality was) to speak at all.
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