“It covers what your hair doesn’t,” Titus says. “Don’t take it off.”
When Maria is finished fussing with it, she steps back and Titus inspects the results. “Hmm. It isn’t something you’d normally wear, but it’ll have to do. If anyone asks, the designer paid you.”
“Paid me?” I blink back at him, trying to understand.
“To advertise the line.”
“People will buy this if they see me wearing it?”
I can feel Maria watching me and I know my cluelessness has confused her, but she says nothing.
“Yes,” Titus says through clenched teeth. He jams his thumb against the button that summons the elevator and we wait in silence.
The doors ding as they open and we step inside.
***
The party is held in a metal tower that has been sculpted to look like ribbons at its apex. Twisted metal glints in the moonlight as the car rolls to a stop underneath a canvassed overhang.
When I reach for the door handle, Titus’s fingers on my wrist stop me. I hate that he is touching me but resist the urge to yank it back. There is hardness in the way he stares and my body is too tender to go against him tonight.
“You will laugh and you will drink and you will flirt. You will be her and you will not forget who you are,” he says. “Do you understand me?”
“I understand.”
He lets go of my wrist and I push the door open, in a hurry to escape this stifling car, even if it means donning my mask. I am her now.
A doorman ushers me forward with a sweep of his hand. The door slides aside automatically as I approach, and I wonder what his purpose is if not for actually opening the door. He smiles politely, his expression distant. He seems to know he is not a part of this world except as a bystander. I start to smile back and stop myself. She would not smile. Stone-faced, I sweep past him.
The lobby is crowded with arrivals and coat-checkers. People waiting for their partners crane their necks to see out into the night, searching for a specific face that has yet to arrive. I skip all of this, knowing Titus is not far behind me and not wanting to suffer through his escort. I hurry forward until my shoulder bumps another. I wince and am driven sideways half a step before I turn apologetically to the other party.
“Sorry,” I say, though I realize as I utter the word it is not what Authentic Raven would say.
“No, it’s my fault.” The speaker is a boy with dark hair and even darker eyes. His frame is slight and bony, decidedly feminine.
The contrast of his features against his creamy skin is all too familiar on this handsome stranger in a tailored suit. I know his face in an instant, though I’ve never seen it before, and it shakes me to my core. The pain in my body fades against the seizing in my chest. It can’t be …
This boy in front of me with porcelain skin and a sing-song voice—he is her. She is him. However impossible, this is Ida’s Authentic.
“Are you all right?” he asks.
Before I can answer, recognition dawns, and he blurts, “Raven, uh—Miss Rogen, apologies! I had no idea it was you.” The way his shoulders slouch inward makes him look small and afraid. Like her. That, more than anything, jolts me out of my shock.
“It’s nothing,” I assure him. “What’s your name?”
“Obadiah Whitcomb. I’m so sorry for bumping you. It won’t happen again. I swear I’ll be more careful.”
Obadiah. Ida. Does he know she exists for him? Or does the sweetness in his words reflect the pureness of heart that is inherently Ida? “It’s fine, Obadiah, really. I’m not upset.”
“You’re not?” His eyes narrow in suspicion and I can see the faint hint of black liner around them. As if it’s been washed off but only recently and not very well.
“No.” I smile at him as the tightness in my chest loosens. I am elated to have found a familiar face and I do not care what Titus will say. “You and I, we’re going to be friends.”
“We are?” He sounds less afraid, though still suspicious.
I nod. “Best friends.”
“Why? You’ve never spoken to me before.”
“Have we met before?”
“We … haven’t spoken. Different circles.”
I know it’s his way of saying Authentic Raven would never speak to this doe-eyed boy but I don’t care. I will have this one thing. “Well, consider us in the same circle now.”
He cocks his head. “I heard you had an accident. Did you sustain brain damage?”
I laugh and it’s so foreign, I let it go on longer than normal just to savor the sound. “No brain damage. Just … more appreciative of life, I guess.”
“Obadiah! I told you to get inside and mingle. You are not sitting on the sidelines for this one. Not again,” a man snaps from across the foyer. His face is pinched into a snarl that seems almost permanent.
“On my way, Dad. I was just chatting with Ms. Rogen here.” Obadiah puts emphasis on my name. His father tenses.
“Sorry, sir,” I say, turning on the charm that only exists because it’s been hardwired into my DNA. “It’s completely my fault for bumping Obadiah and then holding him up, making him talk to me.”
The man looks momentarily baffled. “Right, well, when you’re finished …” His words have lost their bite and he retreats.
Obadiah turns to me with the ghost of a smile. “Huh. Well, regardless of your reasons, having you as a friend may be useful if it shuts my dad up.”
“Your dad is Senator Whitcomb?”
“The one and only.” His head tilts sideways at my expression. “What’s wrong?”
I hesitate, unsure how much to say about what I know. This is the man Daniel and Titus spoke of, the one they are elevating to power if only he will swing the vote in their favor. The vote on banning the poor from uptown, removing the less fortunate to the outer rim of the city.
This is the man they will use as their puppet. If not, they will replace him. Until this moment, I wasn’t sure what that meant. But now, staring at this boy who is every inch his Imitation, I know.
Titus means to replace Senator Whitcomb with his Imitation. And there is only one way he would have the power to speak so confidently about a move like that. Suddenly, all of his comments, the knowledge he’s displayed of the City—it all makes perfect sense. My subconscious knew it from the first moment.
Titus is the creator.
Twig City belongs to him.
I belong to him.
A thousand thoughts pass through my mind. Of risk and uncertainty and fear. Of position and power and what he’s capable of. None of which I can let show on my face. Obadiah is waiting for me to say something. And I still have to be her for the night. I can’t be me just yet. I can’t feel all of these things. Later, I tell myself. Not now.
“I’ve heard your father has been very successful in garnering support for his campaign,” I say.
Obadiah grunts. “No thanks to me, I guess. He’s made it pretty clear I only make his life in politics harder. Hence this stuffy suit and clean-cut ’do. Not my usual style.”
I think of Ida and wonder who chose her to be this boy’s Imitation. Or why. But I do not ask.
I grimace. “Not my style, either,” I say, gesturing to my dress.
He gives me a once over. “I know. Usually, you have much more skin showing. Although wearing your hair down looks a lot nicer than its usual twists.”
I realize I’ve made another error but I don’t care. Not with Obadiah. He is too much like Ida for me to worry. I already love him, although he doesn’t understand. Or trust me. I am determined to rectify the latter. Especially now, knowing who Titus is and that there’s absolutely no escaping.
I lean in and lower my voice. “I have a confession. The head injury did something to me. I have temporary amnesia.”
“Explains why you want to be my friend.”
Senator Whitcomb appears again, not quite as vicious but intent nonetheless. I wave at him cheerily and he relaxes, but he doesn
’t move from his spot. He stares pointedly at Obadiah.
“Looks like it’s time to go inside,” Obadiah says.
“Come on. Let’s get this stupid party over with.” I hook an arm through his and let him lead me in.
We’re in the ballroom less than thirty seconds before a boy approaches us. He is tall and light haired and has a cocky smile that is a little mean when it lands on Obadiah. I tighten my grip on my new friend and stand my ground, mustering the courage and calm of the girl I’m supposed to be.
“Who is that?” I whisper to Obadiah.
“Caine Rafferty. Shameless player. Unapologetic asshole,” he whispers back.
The boy stops in front of me. “Hey, Rav, what’s new?”
He ogles the neckline of my dress in a way that makes me think he is disappointed. I feel the heat of anger creeping into my cheeks. When I don’t answer, Obadiah nudges me with his elbow.
“Mm, not much, Caine. What’s new with you?” I say, letting my voice drawl in a way that I imagine she does.
He glances at Obadiah again as he says, “Dance with me, kitten. It’s been too long.”
I bristle at the use of the nickname. It is the same thing Daniel called me and I’m not sure what that means except that Authentic Raven must prefer it—and not be shy in saying so. “Let me make the rounds and then I’ll find you.”
“You’re turning down a dance? Are you feeling all right?”
I can feel his suspicion and I know that somewhere in this room, Titus is watching. I suppress a sigh and offer him my hand, sliding it free of Obadiah’s. “I’ll find you later,” I whisper to him as Caine leads me away. I cannot hear Obadiah’s response.
The dance floor is mostly empty. Caine leads us to the very center and then wraps his arms around me and pulls my body tight against his. I react, channeling both myself and her when I smack him on the arm and yank away.
“Caine, this is not the place or time,” I say. I leave what I hope is enough sultry in my voice to balance the anger.
“Then what is?” he whispers in my ear. “Name it, kitten, I’m there.”
I scowl and step back, allowing more space between us when I re-enter his hold. I don’t answer the question and he merely laughs at my silence. Maybe it’s something he’s used to.
Obadiah watches from beside the bar. He looks worried as he sips on some dark-colored drink. I spin again and lose him in the crowd, only to find Titus watching from another angle. He is locked in conversation with a man whose back is turned to me, but his eyes aren’t on the man, they are on me.
As I scan the faces, I realize many of the guests are watching our dance. Authentic Raven is the center of attention. I have forgotten that. She hasn’t. I let her take over, knowing Titus needs a show. I swallow the bitterness in my throat and prepare to give it to him.
The next time Caine spins me, I twirl faster, tilting my head back in enjoyment, and let my dress flare out around me. I fall hard into the circle of his arms. The rough contact sends a tremor through my bruised body. To cover the pain, I pull him close and hang on tight. He takes it for the invitation it is, pulling me against him so that our bodies touch from chest to knees. We sway suggestively until the song ends.
I feel the attention, the whispers, and I know this is what it’s like to be Raven Rogen.
The next hour is filled with dancing. Every song brings a new face cutting in, another body pressing to mine. I learn through snatches of comments that most are sons of senators and politicians. They all seem very familiar with Raven Rogen. Intimate, even. I shove aside those thoughts—or any that take me out of character. For now, it is easier to be her.
I dance. I laugh. I brush against them as we sway. I openly stare with heavy lids and I am quick to give a sultry smile. It should scare me that I am capable of being this person—that I am capable of losing myself so effortlessly.
I steal glances at Titus throughout the night and when I can no longer spot him in the crowd, I disentangle myself from a protesting boy whose name I cannot remember and exit the dance floor. I slip through cracks in milling bodies until I can no longer hear the boy’s complaints behind me. Obadiah disappeared from view a few songs ago, so I wander aimlessly until I catch sight of a set of open French doors that lead onto a patio. The idea of fresh air is too enticing to pass up, even if it means getting cornered by another would-be dance partner with wandering hands.
I pass through the doorway into the crisp darkness. A few people stand about, mostly couples, taking in the view of the gardens below us. I wander as far away from them as I can, into a darkened corner where the white string-lights don’t quite reach. The thick railing is cold underneath my palms. I soak it in, letting it cool me.
I’ve grown warm from the dancing. My hair is wrapped around my neck, a necessary curtain. It feels sticky and itchy against my skin. I pull it away and wrap it around one hand, enjoying the air on my bare skin.
“You shouldn’t do that. People are watching.”
I drop my hair and twist around. “Linc.”
I have to squint to see him. He is tucked deep in a corner I didn’t realize was there. He is dressed in dark slacks and a jacket, no tie. His hair has been combed out of its gentle waves into something more deliberate. He looks handsome.
“I didn’t know you were here,” I say.
“I got switched to crowd control. Titus wanted to escort you himself.”
I think back to why Titus wanted to see me. To inspect me. To gauge my level of pain and injury and know how I’d hold up, how well I’d play my part. Between the role I’ve played tonight and the realization of my hopeless connection with Titus, tears well.
“Are you all right?” he asks.
My muscles ache, my feet are numb, and it is tempting to let the tears fall. I feel safe enough with Linc to allow it, but I know he would feel a need to avenge them even without fully understanding what they mean, and that is something I cannot allow. So, I swallow them back.
“Raven?”
The sound of a name that is not my own grates on me. Somehow, it’s worse coming from Linc’s lips than anyone else’s. I wish I could make him call me Ven. But that is a silly and impossible sort of wish.
“I’m fine,” I say. My voice trembles. He takes a step toward me and I hold a hand out to stop him. In my attempt to steady my voice, it becomes steely. “I need to get back inside. People will be looking for me.”
Even in the darkness I can sense his anger. His shoulders stiffen and he straightens out of his slouch. “Yeah, you don’t want to keep your fans waiting. You’re in high demand in there.”
His condescension makes me angry. “It’s a warmer welcome than I’m getting out here.”
“Is that what you’re after, a warm welcome? Or a warm body? It’s hard to know the difference with you.”
I feel the heat creeping up my neck and into my cheeks. I hate that he can be so hot one minute and so cold the next. “Either way, it’s not your concern, is it?”
I spin and take a step back toward the light of the party, but I can’t control the wince that creeps onto my face at my sore muscles. Now that I’ve stopped the constant spin of the dance, the full extent of my injuries has caught up with me. I feel ten times worse than I did this morning. The thought of walking back inside, being forced to dance and smile and mingle, is excruciating. As proof, I stumble.
“Raven?” Linc is by my side in an instant, his voice gentle, his hand on my elbow leading me back into the safety of the shadows.
“I need a minute,” I whisper. My head spins. I pray my body can hold it together for another hour—or however long it takes Titus to let me go home.
“You’re hurt. You shouldn’t be here.” His voice is a growl and I cannot argue.
A shadow moves in front of me. I freeze until I realize it is only Obadiah. I can see his jaw slacken in the darkness as he takes in the sight of Linc and me together in the alcove.
“Raven?” he asks uncertainly.
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p; “It’s okay, Id—Obadiah.” I almost slip and call him by his Imitation. I wonder how often I’ll do that before he notices. Before the pang in my chest will be so great I’ll give in and tell him the truth. In this moment, in my weakness, I want to desperately.
“Titus was looking for you inside,” he says, approaching slowly, eyeing Linc. “And so were Caine and Daniel.”
I cringe at that. Linc stiffens. “Obadiah, this is Linc. He’s part of my security detail. Linc, Obadiah is Senator Whitcomb’s son.”
“I know who he is,” Linc says.
Obadiah’s distrust turns to curiosity and he regards Linc more openly. His gaze lingers on where Linc’s hand still holds my elbow then travels upward to my chest. I realize a moment too late my scarf is displaced.
“Oh my gawd, what the hell happened to you?” he asks. He takes a step forward but Linc slides in front, blocking me.
“Linc, he’s my friend,” I say, but Linc doesn’t move.
I sigh and speak to Obadiah over the barrier of Linc’s shoulder. “I was attacked again. They … left a mark.”
“I’ll say.” Obadiah shakes his head. “You need a doctor. Or some really heavy pain meds.”
“I’m fine. Just a little stiff.”
Obadiah looks unconvinced. “I know a guy who can get prescription-grade Vicodin. Just let me know.”
“Thank you,” I tell him.
“Anyway, you should probably get back in there if you can. I mean, do you want me to get your dad?”
“No!” Linc and I both say, way too loudly.
Obadiah looks taken aback. “Okay,” he mutters.
“Can you give us a moment, Obadiah?” Linc asks quietly.
“Sure. I’ll … see you inside?” He is hurt. I know because of the shaky expression he wears and also because Ida would’ve been hurt by such an aside. I promise myself I will make it up to him.
“I’ll see you in there,” I say.
He turns and wanders back toward the glowing lights of the party. Linc doesn’t speak until we are alone again. “Are you going to be able to make it through tonight?”
“I don’t have a choice.”
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