by Lexi Blake
She turned from the arousing scene before her and glanced around. There was a small doctor’s office scene being played out close to her. A lovely woman was laid out on a gyno table. She had electrodes attached to some super-sensitive parts of her body and her Dom was turning up the dial to some sort of machine. Her muscles jumped.
“Jessica, what on earth are you doing in here?”
Jessica turned to find Kelly staring at her. The Domme had a frown on her face. “I’m looking for Gideon. Or Reid.”
She suddenly realized she truly shouldn’t be in here alone. Gideon was going to be mad at her for running around a sex club without a collar. For that matter, Reid had played her Dom often enough that he might tie her to a St. Andrew’s Cross and whip her ass until she couldn’t sit. Damn, the thought of that got her wet. She turned her attention back to the woman staring at her.
Kelly reminded her a bit of a school teacher with an unruly student. If said school teacher wore a scarlet PVC minidress and thigh-high boots. “I believe they went into the aftercare room.”
“Did they have a sub?” She didn’t like the idea of her men taking care of some pretty submissive thing.
Kelly shook her head. “No. I think they were looking for someplace quiet, if you know what I mean.”
It was loud. She was having a hard time hearing Kelly so if they’d wanted to talk they definitely needed a quiet place to do it. She thanked the nice lady with the whip and strode across the room. Ignoring all the delicious naughtiness going on around her, she made her way to the aftercare room. She took a deep breath and opened the door, ready to confess her feelings.
“Oh, yeah, take me all the way in,” Gideon growled.
It took her a moment to register what she was seeing. Reid was on his knees in front of Gideon. His dark head worked up and down. From Jessica’s vantage she couldn’t see his mouth, but there was zero question what he was doing. Gideon’s hands fisted in Reid’s hair, forcing him to take more.
Gideon’s handsome face was flushed as he watched his lover give him serious head. She wondered if he’d watched her like that when she had performed the act for him. She remembered how big Gideon’s cock had been. She’d struggled to take him, and when he’d reached the back of her throat, she still only had about three-quarters of him in her mouth. Reid didn’t seem to have the same problem.
They were beautiful together. Her eyes filled with tears as she watched them. It explained a whole lot. She’d always wondered why Gideon was marrying someone as obviously wrong for him as Anna. The beautiful blonde had been a distraction. Gideon wanted to be a judge. You didn’t get voted into office in Alabama if you were a gay man. It was a conservative state.
Gideon’s blond head fell back as he groaned.
“Yes.” His hips pumped up as he came.
He told Reid how good he was. She knew she should walk out, but she found herself incapable of moving. She’d wondered why Gideon suddenly decided he wanted her. Now she knew. It made sense. He needed another distraction. She would provide the perfect one. She would be obedient and easy to deal with. She’d proven she would do almost anything for him. All he had to do was screw her every now and then, and she would fall in line.
Anger flooded her system. It warred with the horrible embarrassment she felt. Reid was in on it. He’d been her rock, her closest friend in the world. He’d worked hard to convince her to give Gideon another chance.
“Oh, shit,” she heard Gideon say.
Reid’s head came up. His mouth was swollen and red. He looked stunningly decadent.
“Jessica.” Gideon sat forward trying to right his clothing. There was a panicked look in his eyes.
She shook her head. She didn’t feel panicked at all. She felt old, all of the sudden, like her body weighed more than it did, like it would drag her into the earth. They’d lied to her from the very beginning. “No, don’t worry about me. I understand completely. You know the funny thing is, I wouldn’t have cared. Oh, I would have mourned the loss of both of you to heterosexual females everywhere, but I would have stood by you. How could you lie to me? I thought we were friends.”
“We’re more than friends.” Reid’s voice had taken on a hard edge. He got to his feet. His normally perfect hair was a mess, and he looked all the hotter for it.
She shook her head as her tears began to fall. It felt like the world was falling apart. At least through all of the pain, she’d thought they were honest with her. “No, we’re not anything at all. I can see that now.”
She turned and ran. She would not let them see her cry. She fled, trying to avoid the crowds of people watching scenes. Her eyes blurred and suddenly the room seemed too hot. She couldn’t breathe. She made it to the door.
“Jessica, are you all right?”
Vaguely she registered that Erik was looking at her with something akin to pity. This was what he’d been talking about. Reid and Gideon were lovers and probably had been for a long time. All the time she had been their friend, they’d hidden it from her even though they had to know she wouldn’t care. She would have been so supportive. She wouldn’t have judged them. The only reason she could think of to hide it from her was in order to use her.
“I need some air.” Jessica rushed past him. She couldn’t stand to see the look in his eyes a second longer. She must seem pathetic to someone like him.
“Jessica!”
She ignored Reid’s shout. She found the first door that led outside and pushed through it. The cold hit her like a tidal wave. It rushed across her skin and filled her lungs. She kept running though the snow was above her ankles. Her little flats weren’t much protection against the cold snow. It didn’t matter. She might never be warm again.
A strong hand caught her elbow and pulled her around. She nearly fell, but Reid dragged her into his arms.
“Stop, Jessica,” he said, his voice softer now. “Please stop for a minute.”
She pushed against him. She wasn’t going to let him charm his way out of this. “Leave me alone. I don’t want to talk to you.”
“Too bad,” Reid said, but his voice was so sad. “I’m sorry you found out that way. We were going to tell you tomorrow night.”
Her laugh was anything but humorous. “I’m sure you were. I’m sure you were going to come straight out and ask if I would serve as Gideon’s beard.” The word was bitter on her tongue. It perfectly described the relationship they wanted with her, though.
Reid looked stunned. “No. That’s not what we want at all.”
Sure it wasn’t. “What about Anna? Are you trying to tell me Gideon had a real relationship with her?”
“No, you’re right about her.” Reid’s hands tightened on her as though he was afraid to let go. “Gideon intended to marry her strictly for career reasons. He knows that was wrong. He was trying to fit into his family. He’s not trying to do that anymore. He’s trying to make his own family with you and me. He loves us both. You didn’t see the look on his face when he realized you were watching. He was devastated. He thinks you’re going to turn from him like his family did. Please don’t do it.” Reid pulled her close. “I love you, Jessica. It’s not only Gideon I love. I want to be with you, too. I’ve loved you for years. I can’t let this fall apart now.”
“God, Reid, you’ll do anything for him, won’t you?” Jessica was stunned at how far Reid was willing to go. He was willing to sleep with her to please his lover?
Reid shook her gently. He forced her to look up into his eyes. She had to admit that he looked tortured. “I’m not doing it for him. I’m doing this for me. I’ve been plotting and planning this for three fucking years. I am not going to let some misunderstanding blow it all to hell now.”
“So you admit you befriended me because you thought I would be the perfect cover for your relationship with Gideon?”
Reid’s bitter laughter ran through the night. “You think I’m trying to cover up my relationship because I’m scared of what society will think? Society can go to he
ll. I’ll shout my relationship with Gideon from the rooftops. What I want is so much more taboo, darling. I want a threesome. I want to fuck you both, often and regularly. I want to take it from him while I’m giving it to you.”
Despite the freezing temperatures, she felt her body flush with heat. How could she believe him when he’d lied to her for years? “I don’t believe you.”
“Believe this,” Reid muttered as he ground his hips against her. She could feel his erection. “I’ve spent months dying to fuck you while I had to play the friend. I don’t want to be your friend. I want to be your lover.”
“Maybe you should have mentioned that sometime before now.” She tried to pull away because she really, really wanted to melt into him. She wanted to believe everything he said. Her heart hurt too much.
“And drag you into my world? Baby, when we first met you, Gideon was still trying to please his family.” He was practically pleading with her. She wanted to be cold as ice, but Reid had a way of melting her. “I was in the closet with him. I didn’t want you to be there, too. I have another confession to make. I’m a switch. Gideon is my Dom, but I want to be yours. I want to be your Dom so bad I dream about it at night. Do you have any idea how much I want to dominate you?”
“Don’t bother.” The sharp bark split the chilly air. She looked up and Gideon was striding toward them. He didn’t look like a man who was pining for her. He looked dangerous. He was a predator, and she was in his sights. Her first instinct was to run from the look in his gray eyes.
“Don’t. He’ll just chase you down, and it will be so much worse,” Reid murmured as he held her. He looked at Gideon. “I thought we were going to talk to her.”
“Talking won’t work,” Gideon spat out as he kicked his way through the snow. “We’ve tried it your way. It’s my turn. I’m the Dom in this relationship. I’m going to start acting like it. You wanted me to stop hiding who I am; well, get ready because you might not always like the real me.”
He reached for Jessica and only then did she see the length of rope he held. In no time flat her wrists were held together while Gideon bound her neatly in a few quick moves. Jessica fought the rope holding her, but it was tight. Gideon was an expert.
“What are you doing?” She pulled on the bindings. Gideon kept a hold of a longish length. He wound it around his fist.
“Taking what’s mine,” Gideon stated through clenched teeth. “I’m done playing, Jessica. I fucked up, and I apologized. I was willing to try the whole wooing you thing, but you didn’t obey me. You were supposed to stay in your room.”
“This is my fault?” she asked, indignation plain in her voice.
“Hell, yeah. You don’t get the way this works, baby. I’m the Dom. I give the orders. You follow the orders.” He looked savage in the moonlight. The snow amplified it and made it seem almost like day outside. “Reid might play your Dom, too, but never, ever forget that I am the head of this freaky little household. Reid minds me. Well, he is sure as hell going to start minding me. If this is going to work, the two of you need to get with the program. No more topping from the bottom. Now, you disobeyed a direct order given for your safety.”
“That was for your safety,” she shot back as she worked the rope on her hands. It still didn’t budge. She tried to pull away. She didn’t want Gideon to know how aroused she was at the thought of being dominated by the both of them. “You didn’t want me to find out about you and Reid.”
“You don’t have a collar,” Gideon explained. “It isn’t safe for you to be around a bunch of Doms without a collar on.”
“Don’t be so dramatic, Gideon. I spent time alone with Erik, and he didn’t hurt me.”
The air seemed to still as Gideon took that in. She bit her lip and wished she could take the words back.
Reid stepped in, a stern look on his face. “What did you say?”
“Nothing,” Jessica managed to whisper. If they were pretending to be outraged at the thought of her with another man, they were really good at it. Gideon looked like he was ready to kill someone. What if they were telling her the truth?
“Wrong answer,” Gideon declared and then simply turned and started to walk away. Unfortunately, he kept a firm hold on the rope binding her and it pulled her along. She stumbled forward and found herself being dragged on her ass through the snow.
“You fucking Neanderthal,” she shouted as she tried to right herself. Her heart was pounding. She was ping-ponging between righteous anger and the fragile hope that she might, just might, be able to have what she wanted. She felt swamped with emotion, and rage seemed the easiest choice.
“You’re the one who didn’t obey,” Gideon replied over his shoulder. He was pulling along with no obvious struggle. “Get her feet, Reid.”
Reid picked up her ankles, and she found herself dangling as they carried her up the steps.
She was suspended, completely dependent on their strength to hold her up. “You can’t do this. There are people in there. They’ll stop you.”
Gideon’s laugh rang through the night. “Baby, this is a BDSM conference. They’ll just enjoy the show.”
She had to concede he was probably right. In fact, someone was politely holding the door open for them. Reid stared at her as he carried her into the building.
“Think seriously about screaming,” he said. “If you really want out, use your safe word and everything stops. You know that. But, love, it won’t start again. If you pull away now, I don’t think he’ll come back.” He lowered his voice. “If you thought he was bad after Anna left with his brother, then I don’t know what he’ll be after this. He loves you. I love you. We were wrong, and we’ll make it up to you. Please think about it, Jessica. Punish us some other way.”
All she had to do was scream the word red and everything stopped. Gideon would put her down and untie her and she could go on her way.
“You’re an asshole,” she spat at him, but didn’t get anywhere close to her safe word. She couldn’t. She could be pissed off, but she couldn’t let it be over. If what they said was true, it would never be over.
“Good girl.” Reid smiled.
“Is this a scene, sir?” the man holding open the door asked.
“I’ve been hunting, Master Bryan. I seemed to have found the elusive wild submissive,” Gideon quipped. “I think I’ll keep this scene private until I’ve broken her to a saddle.”
“Broken me to a saddle?” Jessica practically screamed the question.
“Reid, I believe we’re going to need a gag,” Gideon replied calmly.
“I swear I will bite you if you gag me,” Jessica promised.
Gideon stopped, and Reid dropped her feet. Jessica tried to pull away again, but Gideon was immovable. He kneeled down and brought his face close to hers. His hands tangled in her hair and he forced her to look him straight in the eyes.
“I wouldn’t try it, sweetheart. I’m willing to forgive the language. You’ve had a shock, but you won’t like what happens if you sink those teeth into me in anything less than an erotic fashion. I’m this close to taking a whip to your sweet backside. I’ll do it publicly, and then I’ll have Reid torture you. He’ll shove a vibrator into that pussy of yours. He’ll fuck you with it right up to the point of orgasm. Then he’ll take it away, and you’ll suck me off. We’ll do it over and over again until you finally learn the lesson.”
“What lesson is that?” Her voice was shaky, her pussy pulsing at the very thought of being tortured by them.
“That you belong to us. Now tell me something, Jessica. Did he fuck you?”
Gideon’s face looked savage as he pulled her up to her knees. She went with him and found herself strangely unwilling to fight with him. She knew the answer to the question was important to him. He would be hurt if she said yes. He wouldn’t be vulnerable if he simply wanted to use her. Gideon’s heart was there in his eyes.
What if they were telling the truth? What if she could have everything she ever wanted? This wasn’t
some trick. This was her future.
She settled into the proper position and let her eyes find the floor. She’d run once because fear and insecurity had taken over. She wouldn’t do it again. Even if her heart got broken, she would know she had fought for it. “No, sir. He did not.”
“What happened? I’m not an idiot. I know he wants you.”
“He kissed me, but I stopped him.”
Suddenly Reid was at her back, his hands on her shoulders. He stroked her, always the gentler one of the two. “Why did you stop him, love?”
“Because I realized how much I loved Gideon. I realized I wasn’t turned on by the bondage. I was turned on by Gideon…and you, Reid.”
Gideon used his index finger to lift her chin up. His smile was slow and sexy. “Oh, you’re turned on by the bondage, baby. It gets you hot. You’re a filthy girl, and we wouldn’t have you any other way.” He stood quickly and in one smooth move lifted her into his arms. “It looks like we can cancel the hit on Master Erik. I won’t actually kill the man for kissing her.”
“We’ll just beat him up a little,” Reid agreed. He put a hand on her arm. His gorgeous face was suddenly open and insecure. “Jessica, I want you. I know you want Gideon, but you have to be sure. I don’t…”
Her heart ached for him. He didn’t want to be second. After being hidden all those years, she knew Reid couldn’t stand the thought that she might only want him because he came along with Gideon. Nothing could be further from the truth. “I love you, Reid, my Master. I want you so much.”
A brilliant smile split that sensual mouth of his. He kissed her while she lay in Gideon’s arms. “I want you, too, little sub. I love you so much.”
Gideon stared down at her, his face intense. His hands tightened around her body. “Please be sure about this. I couldn’t handle it if this goes away in the morning. I know I fucked up. I should have trusted that you would understand about Reid. I am asking for your forgiveness. I’m asking for your love and I intend to give you mine in return. I’m willing to give you everything I am. We both will.”