Silver and Zan were right. No more lies. If he decides that he doesn’t want to change, then I’ll learn to live with that. Jay is not bad, not at all. He can be unpredictable and adventurous...just not like his other self. And that’s what makes all this situation twisted. I want the best of both worlds, but if I can’t have that, then I choose the one that I know I’ll have more fun with.
Dark Jay makes me laugh, feel good about myself and gives me a reason to want to come back. Silver Jay is the calm power, the man that will be there even in the boring days, the logic behind passion.
It would be great if these two could truly be one, but I have long given up on that notion. Jay is who he is; the same thing applies to his other self. They both have their ups and downs, and I’m here fucking them both up.
Suddenly, the bathroom door opens. I get on my feet and head there. “Jay, I...” I start saying, meaning to apologize, when I see him.
“I heard you’ve been looking for me,” Dark Jay says.
I stop in my tracks and check him from head to toes, not believing that Jay would go so far just to please me. He must really love me after all, and I chose his darker self to repay him for that.
Unfortunately, love doesn’t work like that.
“Yeah, that’s true,” I reply, trying my best not to start giggling like an infatuated teenager.
“Well, here I am honey. I’m all yours now,” he says, casting a wide grin at me.
Seeing him act like that, like a shameless child happy just to be alive and well, it makes me already feel better for choosing him over Silver Jay. He has that strange effect on me, a kind of lure that makes me want to tear his clothes apart and toss him on the bed just by seeing him.
A moment ago, I wasn’t in the mood for sex, but now, seeing him examine my body with that lustful look of his, strange thoughts invade my mind.
“I’m sure. Before that, though, there’s something we have to discuss,” I say, doing my best not to take off my clothes right now.
“Okay. Speak. What do you want? Do you want me to get down on you first or maybe you want me to use my magic fingers to stir up your libido?” he says and winks at me while smiling.
Jay and his dirty jokes. Well, he’s a work in progress after all. Maybe after some time, he won’t talk like that all the time.
“No. Not that. I have to know. What are your feelings towards me? What do you see when you’re looking at me?”
He stops smiling; I’m not used to his face being serious like that. Even when he’s slaughtering his enemies, he does it with an impish smile and devilishly, red eyes.
“I know it must have been difficult for you to choose me, the bad wolf, over my other self. I wish I could promise you that I’ll be as good as him. A gentleman, or a kind man, or fuck, everything you want me to be. But my whole existence relies upon killing, pillaging, and challenging people stronger than me. I love you, Eladia, I really do. And that won’t change. But don’t make me change to fit you better or you might end up not loving me back.”
When he stops, I’m standing there, gawping at him, fighting the impulse to applaud him. Hell, he’s right. I fell in love with him because he’s unpredictable and adventurous. He’s the only man that doesn’t need to change to make me like him. And that turns me on. It really makes me want to ride him here, on the spot.
Now I’m the one having dirty thoughts all the time. God, I have to get my act together. I was just having sex with his other self all day yesterday, and the day before that. I should have been satisfied by now.
“You’re awfully quiet. Did I pass the test little lady or not?” he says as he sits next to me.
He’s starting to caress my bare hand with his finger, touching my skin, electrifying my whole existence with his smooth aura. He moves his finger on my shoulder and then on my face. He touches my cheeks, my nose and then heads straight for my mouth. I’m breathing slowly, trying to hold back, but I can’t.
My mouth is half open; he uses his finger to invade it. I start licking it, sucking it in, playing with it. Soon, I can see him laughing, probably being ticklish or something, but I continue. I grab his hand and make him put another finger in there. I start sucking them both and he starts fucking my mouth with his hand. He does it subtly, slowly, and yet, it gets me horny in mere moments.
“I see you learned some new tricks,” he comments.
I stop licking his fingers to laugh it off.
“You know you’re a dumbass, right?”
“Yeah, yeah. I’ve been told the same thing times and times again. Now, you didn’t tell me. Did I pass the test?”
I get on my knees and look him on the face. “I don’t know. What do you think?”
I use my hands to lower the zip of his pants. He doesn’t wear anything below; he’s naked, his dick rock hard, pointing straight to my mouth.
Without hesitating, and without waiting for him to get totally naked, I put his dick in my mouth. He tastes the same but somehow feels different. Jay now pushes his cock deep into my mouth, making me choke once. It doesn’t matter, though. The only thing that does matter is seeing him mutter the word “yes” again and again, to moan behind his teeth lost in a whirl of lewdness.
We’re still fully clothed, but I can’t take this anymore. I want him to fuck me. I get on my feet and get naked in front of him, slowly taking my clothes off. He does the same, removing his pants to release his dick from his tight pants. His muscles swell when he grabs me and tosses me on the bed.
“I see you want me to get inside you,” he says, using his fingers to feel my wet pussy. Just his finger touching me would’ve been enough, but I want to feel the whole of him inside me.
“I’ve been dreaming about this so hard,” Jay says, whispering. He slowly thrusts his dick into my vagina. I can feel his fingers while he’s trying to find my hole by caressing me. “You’re so fucking hot. I want to tear you apart.”
And then he gets inside me. I’m not able to talk anymore. I’m just trying to breathe. If I say anything, I will lose control and cum. He’s moving slowly at first, trying to get used to my rhythm, but soon, he’s picking up his pace.
He’s fucking me fast and hard, using every last bit of his strength to push his dick inside. I’m in pain sometimes, but I quickly forget about it. At that time, just pushing his dick further in, I feel my whole body jolt from the tension, and I open my mouth to moan only for him to close it with his free hand. I cum many times in a row after that, but still, if he doesn’t stop, I’ll keep on coming.
“Yes...yes...please...don’t stop...” I say, moaning in the pauses between the words.
Something in my voice must have aroused him. I keep my eyes closed, but I have my hands on his ass. I push him deeper every time he thrusts, feeling his muscles tightening and then relaxing. And then, I feel him thrust slowly, more rhythmically. He’s close.
“I’m coming...” he says in a deep, hoarse voice. “I’m coming...” he says and then stays still, shooting his cum inside me.
He slowly pulls out and lies next to me. We don’t speak for a while, but we don’t have to. I’m just looking at him, his dick still hard, panting. Just watching his glistening body, it makes me horny again. I’m not sure what I’ll do with him, but I also know one thing. At this moment I know that I’ve made the right choice.
“So, I thought you and I were constantly fucking all these days. What happened? Maybe the other Jay didn’t satisfy you that much after all,” he says and winks at me.
Remember Eladia, that’s the reason you fell for him. He doesn’t mince his words. He’s just saying what’s in his mind.
“No, not at all. It’s just a different thing, having sex with you and having sex with...you.” That last part makes both of us laugh.
“Yeah, I’m sure. But...still...I have no fucking idea why you chose me over him. I thought you were more into him,” he says.
“Well, I thought the same thing, too. But Jay can be a very difficult person sometimes. You, on
the other hand, you’re easier to talk to and funnier. It’s just a matter of perspective,” I say.
Yeah, that’s exactly what it is. A matter of perspective. They’re different sides of the same coin. And I think I like this side better.
“Yeah, that sounds about right. Nevertheless, I’m gonna go get a shower. Do you care to join me?” he says and leaves the bedroom before I reply to him.
I stand still for a moment, trying to find a reason for everything that happened between us, but I can’t. I’m just madly in love with him. I close my eyes and try to find a logical explanation, but the only thing I do is feel sleepy. Still, the idea of us having a shower together puts renewed energy in my veins.
I quickly follow him in the bathroom.
Chapter Sixty-One
Jay
Time flew by since the night my buddy Jay set me free. I’m not sure who I must thank for this outcome, but right now, I’m thanking Eladia every day. She seems to like it very much, so why stop? My other self wouldn’t.
Silver Jay hasn’t said a thing since he gave control to me. I don’t think I’ll give this body back to him anytime soon, but I’ll make sure he has all the fun of the world while in there. It wasn’t an easy thing getting out of that prison, especially when you’re being kept in there by a half-assed man like the mighty Prime Officer Jasih.
Life has been kind to me the last four days. Fucking Eladia the nights, talking with the rest of the crew the days, it’s certainly fun to not sleep all day. On the other hand, walking, talking, and fucking has started taking its toll on me. I’m not sure why I feel tired all the time since I make sure to have over eight hours of sleep every day. Maybe it’s my body trying to keep up with the new changes.
We’re in orbit around Yaerus now. This means that I’m almost over with that bullshit of a mission that I have to complete to free myself of this annoying cube. We’re inside the space shuttle, trying to sneak into the planet without the Allied powers realizing what’s going on. The place is cramped up with security vehicles and Class 5 military spaceships, and honestly, I don’t care. I just want to fart really bad since we left.
I smile at myself. It’s really invigorating thinking like that. It has been over a year since the last time I was able to walk free, and I’m going to relish every moment of it.
“We’re entering into the atmosphere. Get ready for some serious turbulence,” the android says.
We all get tied in our seats for extra safety. It certainly won’t be a stroll in the park, but after so many thousands of years and civilizations passing, someone could have come up with a better way to make this fucking thing smoother.
The shuttle starts shaking uncontrollably, and I have to grab my safety belt to stay firm in my position. We go through the first part of the entry to the atmosphere successfully, but now the hard part is starting.
Suddenly, a flash of light envelops the inside of the shuttle. The turbulence has stopped, but I still feel dizzy and disoriented. I thought that this shit wasn’t hard.
The light gets stronger with every passing second until I realize that it’s not coming from outside, but instead, from inside my pocket.
Be careful. You’re getting into a vision, Silver Jay suddenly says after many days of staying silent.
I close my eyes only for a moment. I feel light like I’m floating away from my body. When I open my eyes again and see that I’m actually flying above the dark figure of a planet, I realize that Jay was right. This is a vision.
“Hello? Is anybody here?” I yell, but my voice vanishes in the echo.
At first, it seems like I’m just floating in midair but soon I realize that I’m actually moving towards the dark planet, fast. There is no trace of light anywhere. Not even the stars are strong enough to shed any of their light on me. It’s just me and the mystery planet.
That’s before a small rectangle in the distance lights up before me. I’m heading straight for that part.
It doesn’t take me long to fly there, but when I do, there is something familiar about this place. It isn’t the usual vision with the girl jumping from the building, but it’s a familiar place nonetheless.
All the buildings around me seem hazy, and the only thing that makes sense is to follow the smoke coming from behind one of the gigantic structures.
“Hello? Anyone?” I yell loud enough that my throat actually hurts.
“Of all the species in the universe, you’re the one I have to instruct. An Esuh!”
“Oh boy,” I mutter when I see a tiny, blue creature staring at me from above. He makes sure to float above me so that he’s always at a higher place. That’s what you get when you’re really short, I guess.
“You had your opportunity, Esuh. You destroyed the species before you, as we did with you. How you alone survived is beyond me, but since you’re here, this means you’re the chosen one anointed by the Cube.”
“You have a big mouth for someone that died many years ago. Also, you let yourself get extinct by tree people? Come on, I thought Nusae were mighty warriors and great scientists and whatsoever. At your prime, you were strong enough to match us. How did you let them get the better of you?”
He suddenly becomes gloomy; I must have hit a soft spot or something. That’s before he starts talking.
“We got old, Esuh. Tired. Weak! We reigned over the galaxy for many, many years. The Phadh came out of nowhere and could outlive us. We were unprepared and managed to push them back many times, but then we got news that they have found another mysterious artifact, one like this cube.
“They came up with a new technology that we couldn’t match. Maybe it was us, not hiding the fact that mysterious weapons like this cube existed, or it was our weakness to foresee our doom. Either way, here we are my old adversary. I, your old enemy, instructing you on how to destroy the world once again.”
“Bullshit. The Esuh never got tired of fighting, even when everything was falling apart around us. We didn’t even know that a thing like this fucking cube existed before you, the Nusae, brought it to the surface and still no one could match our strength. You were just weak. Even so, I’m here now so let’s get this over and done with.”
The small, blue creature flies close to me and stretches one of its hands. It barely touches my skin, and I feel my hair prickle. When the Nusae pulls back its finger, I know everything that there is to know about the cube. How the conscience of the one unlocking it must remain imprisoned inside it to carry this message to the next anointed one by the Cube; how I’m doomed to die the moment I activate this cube.
How to find the place where the cube will start the process and how the universe is full of cubes like this. This one belongs to this galaxy and this galaxy only, but there are as many cubes out there as there are galaxies. And that frightens me.
It takes me a moment to sip everything in, but when it’s is over, I have no doubts about what I have to do.
“So, the doctor was right. Everything depends on my choice after all,” I say.
“Yes. The real mystery is what will you choose now that this war isn’t yours,” the creature says and starts wandering off.
“Wait! I have more questions. How do I stop it? There’s nothing in here on how to stop it. I have to choose either to kill the humans or the Phadh?” I shout, but he’s long gone now.
There’s something strange with this planet. I feel like I’ve been here before.
It’s only after I start wandering off myself that I understand. This planet was everything that remained in the memory of that Esuh. It was his home planet before it got destroyed, and the lighted place was the active part of his memory.
Everything fades away quickly. I open my eyes, and I’m back in the shuttle.
“Is everything alright?” Eladia says to me.
I nod and close my eyes again. I feel terribly tired
Chapter Sixty-Two
Eladia
The silence inside the shuttle feels awkward. Even though we all know that Jay ha
s these strange cube-related visions, it’s difficult not to feel intimidated by the power of this mass-extinction ancient relic. When the light finally disappears, we all look at Jay, waiting for something to happen. Maybe an explanation would be good right now.
“Is everything alright?” I ask him.
“Yes...no. I don’t know. I just had a pretty strange vision,” he replies to me.
Jay seems more tired than yesterday and the day before. To be honest, he hasn’t changed into his other form for five days now, since the day I told him the truth about my feelings. Sure, we’re having the time of our lives, but it would be nice if I could see the other Jay again and explain things to him, even just for a moment.
It’s not that I didn’t like him, that’s far from true. I just liked his dangerous personality better. I know, that doesn’t say much for my personality, but I’m done chasing theories and ideal pictures of romance. Right now, it’s just hard, cold truth all the way.
Jay seems to have trouble speaking his mind. Inside the shuttle, Silver and I look at each other, trying to understand what’s going on, but it’s futile. Zan seems as lost as us; Pyro wears that hellish red mask that keeps reminding me of the night he killed my friends, the corrupt human Originators that were paid by the humans to have the Phadh species annihilated by using the Nusae Relic. And Doctor Cross...well, he’s just as gloomy as ever.
The two gray-masked brothers stayed back at the juggernaut with Alyce; they have no reason to endanger their lives for our battle. I don’t want them anywhere close to this planet, but also, if we end up surviving this thing, then we need a way out of Yaerus.
I’m not sure I like the idea of having a team with people that are so self-centered and emotionally unstable, but I’m also trained now, and I can make up for any holes in our teamwork. It’s just that I hope I’ll be enough.
“We’re five minutes away from the predefined landing spot. It’s 7:00 pm, Yaerus time. Brace yourselves for a rough landing. It’s going to be tough gentlemen,” Silver says, using a different accent today than the one she used yesterday.
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