by Brian Aldiss
He uttered her name.
Insil nodded as if her suspicions were confirmed and said, ‘They claimed that you were being difficult and refusing to recognise people. What a habit this lying is! And you, Luterin, how unpleasant to be recalled from the dead to mingle with the same mendacious crowd – older, greedier … more frightened. How do I appear to you, Luterin?’
In truth, he found her voice harsh and her mouth grim. He was surprised by the amount of jewellery she wore, in her ears, on her arms, on her fingers.
What most impressed him were her eyes. They had changed. The pupils seemed enormous – a sign of her attention, he believed. He could not see the whites in her eyes and thought, admiringly. Those irises show the depth of Insil’s soul.
But he said tenderly, ‘Two profiles in search of a face?’
‘I’d forgotten that. Existence in Kharnabhar has grown narrower over the years – dirtier, grimmer, more artificial. As might be expected. Everything narrows. Souls included.’ She rubbed her hands together in a gesture he did not recall.
‘You still survive, Insil. You are more beautiful than I remembered.’ He forced the insincerity from him; conscious of pressures on him to be a social being again. While it remained difficult to enter into a conversation, he was aware of old reflexes awakening – including his habit of being polite to women.
‘Don’t lie to me, Luterin. The Wheel is supposed to turn men into saints, isn’t it? Notice I refrain from asking you about that experience.’
‘And you never married, Sil?’
Her glare intensified. She lowered her voice to say with venom, ‘Of course I am married, you fool! The Esikananzis beat their slaves better than their spinsters. What woman could survive in this heap without selling herself off to the highest bidder?’
She stamped her foot. ‘We had our discussion of that glorious topic when you were one of the candidates.’
The dialogue was running too fast for him. ‘Selling yourself off, Sil! What do you intend to mean?’
‘You put yourself completely out of the running when you stuck your knife into that pa you so revered … Not that I blame you, seeing that he killed the man who took away my cherished virginity – your brother Favin.’
Her words, delivered with a false brightness as she smiled at those around them, opened up an ancient wound in Luterin. As so often during his incarceration in the Wheel, he thought of the waterfall and his brother’s death. Always there remained the question of why Favin, a promising young army officer, should have made the fatal jump; the words of his father’s gossie on that subject had never satisfied him. Always he had shied away from a possible answer.
Not caring who was looking on among the pale-lipped crowd, he grasped Insil’s arm. ‘What are you saying about Favin? It’s known that he committed suicide.’
She pulled away angrily, saying, ‘For Azoiaxic’s sake, do not touch me. My husband is here, and watching. There can be nothing between us now, Luterin. Go away! It hurts to look at you.’
He stared about, his gaze darting over the crowd. Halfway across the chamber, a pair of eyes set in a long face regarded him in open hostility.
He dropped his glass. ‘Oh, Beholder … not Asperamanka, that opportunist!’ The red liquid soaked into the white carpet.
As she waved to Asperamanka, she said, ‘We’re a good match, the Master and I. He wanted to marry into a proud family. I wanted to survive. We make each other equally happy.’ When Asperamanka turned with a sign back to his colleagues, she said in venomous tones, ‘All these leather-clad men going off with their animals into the forests … why do they so love each other’s stink? Close under the trees, doing secret things, blood brothers. Your father, my father, Asperamanka … Favin was not like that.’
‘I’m glad if you loved him. Can’t we escape from these others and talk?’
She deflected his offer of consolation. ‘What misery that brief happiness inherited … Favin was not one to ride into the caspiarns with his heavy males. He rode there with me.’
‘You say my father killed him. Are you drunk?’ There was something like madness in her manner. To be with her, to enter into these ancient agonies – it was as if time stopped. It was as if a fusty old drawer was being unlocked; its banal contents had become hallowed by their secret nature.
Insil scarcely bothered to shake her head. ‘Favin had everything to live for … me, for instance.’
‘Not so loud!’
‘Favin!’ she shouted, so that heads turned in her direction. She began to pace through the crowd, and Luterin followed. ‘Favin discovered that your father’s “hunts” were really journeys to Askitosh and that he was the Oligarch. Favin was all integrity. He challenged your father. Your father shot him down and threw him over the cliff by the waterfall.’
They were interrupted by officious women acting hostess, and separated. Luterin accepted another glass of yadahl, but had to set it down, so violently was his hand shaking. In a moment, he found his chance to speak to Insil again, breaking in on an ecclesiastic who was addressing her.
‘Insil – this terrible knowledge! How did you discover about my father and Favin? Were you there? Are you lying?’
‘Of course not. I found out later – when you were in your fit of prostration – by my customary method, eavesdropping. My father knew everything. He was glad – because Favin’s death punished me … I could not believe I had heard aright. When he was telling my mother she was laughing. I doubted my senses. Unlike you, however, I did not fall into a year-long swoon.’
‘And I suspected nothing … I was fatally innocent.’
She gave him one of her supercilious looks. Her irises appeared larger than ever.
‘And you still are fatally innocent. Oh, I can tell …’
‘Insil, resist the temptation to make everyone your enemy!’
But her look hardened and she burst out again. ‘You were never any help to me. My belief is that children always know intuitively the real natures of their parents, rather than the dissembled ones which they show the world. You knew your father’s nature intuitively, and feigned dead to avoid his vengeance. But I am the truly dead.’
Asperamanka was approaching. ‘Meet me in the corridor in five minutes,’ she said hastily, as she turned, smiling and gaily raising a hand.
Luterin moved away. He leaned against a waft, struggling with his feelings. ‘Oh, Beholder …’ he groaned.
‘I expect you find the crowds overpowering after your solitude,’ someone who passed by said pleasantly.
His whole inner life was undergoing revolution. Things had not been, he had not been, as he had pretended to himself. Even his gallantry on the field of battle – had that not been powered by ancient angers released, rather than by courage? Were all battles releases from frustration, rather than deeds of deliberate violence? He saw he knew nothing. Nothing. He had clung to innocence, fearing knowledge.
Now he remembered that he had experienced the actual moment when his brother died. He and Favin had been close. He had felt the psychic shock of Favin’s death one evening: yet his father had announced the death as occurring on the following day. That tiny discrepancy had lodged in his young consciousness, poisoning it. Eventually – he could foresee – joy could come that he was delivered from that poison. But delivery was not yet.
His limbs trembled.
In the turmoil of his thoughts, he had almost forgotten Insil. He feared for her in her strange mood. Now he hurried towards the corridor she had indicated – reluctant though he was to hear more from her.
His way was barred by bedizened dignitaries, who spoke to him and to each other roundly of the solemnity of this occasion, and of how much more appalling conditions would be henceforth. As they talked, they devoured little meat-filled pastries in the shape of birds. It occurred to Luterin that he neither knew nor cared about the ceremony in which he had become involved.
Their conversation paused as all eyes focused on the other side of the chamber.
Ebstok Esikananzi and Asperamanka were leaving by a spiral stair which wound to an upper gallery.
Luterin took the opportunity to slip into the corridor. Insil joined him in a minute, her narrow body leaning forward in the haste of her walk. She held her skirt up from the floor in one pale hand, her jewellery glittering like frost.
‘I must be brief,’ she said, without introduction. ‘They watch me continually, except when they are in drink, or holding their ridiculous ceremonies – as now. Who cares if the world is plunged into darkness? Listen, when we are free to leave here, you must proceed to the fish seller in the village. It stands at the far end of Sanctity Street. Understand? Tell no one. “Chastity’s for women, secrecy’s for men,” as they say. Be secret.’
‘What then, Insil?’ Again he was asking her questions.
‘My dear father and my dear husband plan to kick you out. They will not kill you, as I understand – that might look bad for them, and that much they owe you for your timely disposal of the Oligarch. Simply evade them after the ceremony and go down Sanctity Street.’
He stared impatiently into her hypnotic eyes.
‘And this secret meeting – what is it about?’
‘I am playing the role of messenger, Luterin. You still remember the name of Toress Lahl, I suppose?’
XVII
Sunset
Trockern and Ermine were asleep. Shoyshal had gone somewhere. The geonaut they preceded had come to a halt, and stood gently breathing out its little white hexagonal offspring.
SartoriIrvrash woke and stretched, yawning as he did so. He sat up on his bunk and scratched his white head. It was his habit to sleep for the second half of the day, waking at midnight, thinking through the dark hours, when his spirit could commune with the travelling Earth, and teaching from dawn onwards. He was Trockern’s teacher. He had named himself after a dangerous old sage who once lived on Helliconia, whose gossie he had met empathically.
After a while, he heaved himself up and went outside. He stood for a long while looking at the stars, enjoying the feel of the night. Then he padded back into the room and roused Trockern.
‘I’m asleep,’ Trockern said.
‘I could hardly waken you if you weren’t.’
‘Zzzz.’
‘You stole something of mine, Trockern. You stole my explanation of why things went awry on Earth, in order to impress your ladies.’
‘As you see, I impressed fifty percent of them.’ Trockern indicated the peacefully sleeping Ermine, whose lips were pursed as if she was awaiting the chance to kiss someone in her midsummer dream.
‘Unfortunately you got my argument wrong. That possessiveness which was once such a feature of mankind was not a product of fear, as you claimed – although I believe you called it “perpetual unease”. It was a product of innate aggressiveness. The old races did not fear enough: otherwise they would never have built the weapons they knew would destroy them. Aggression was at the root of it all.’
‘Isn’t aggression born of fear?’
‘Don’t get sophisticated before you can walk. If you take Helliconia as an example, you can see how every generation ritualises its aggression and its killing. The earlier terrestrial generations you were talking about did not seek to possess only territory and one another, as you were claiming.’
‘In truth, SartoriIrvrash, you cannot have slept well this afternoon.’
‘In truth I sleep, as I wake in truth.’ He put an arm about the younger man’s shoulders. ‘The argument can be taken to greater heights. Those ancient people sought to possess the Earth also, to enslave it under concrete. Nor did their ambitions die there. Their politicians strove to make space their dominion; while the ordinary people created fantasies wherein they invaded the galaxy and ruled the universe. That was aggression, not fear.’
‘You could be right.’
‘Don’t abandon your point of view so easily. If I could be right I could be wrong. We ought to know the truth about our forebears who, wicked though they were, have given us our chance on the scene.’
Trockern climbed from his bunk. Ermine sighed and turned over, still sleeping.
‘It’s warm – let’s take a stroll outside,’ said SartoriIrvrash.
As they went out into the night, with the star field above them, Trockern said, ‘Do you think we improve ourselves, master, by rethinking?’
‘We shall always be as we are, biologically speaking, but we can improve our social infrastructures, with any luck. I mean by that the sort of work our extitutions are working on now – a revolutionary new integration of the major theorems of physical science with the sciences of mankind, society, and existence. Of course, our main function as biological beings is as part of the biosphere, and we are most useful in that role if we remain unaltered; only if the biosphere in some way altered again could our role change.’
‘But the biosphere is altering all the time. Summer is different from winter, even here so close to the tropics.’
SartoriIrvrash was looking towards the horizon, and said, rather absently, ‘Summer and winter are functions of a stable biosphere, of Gaia breathing in and out in her stride. Humanity has to operate within the limits of her function. To the aggressive, that always seemed a pessimistic point of view; yet it is not even visionary, merely commonsensical. It fails to be common sense only if you have been indoctrinated all your life to believe, first, that mankind is the centre of things, the Lords of Creation, and, second, that we can improve our lot at the expense of something else.
‘Such an outlook brings misery, as we see on our poor sister planet out there. We have only to step down from the arrogance of believing that the world or the future is somehow “ours” and immediately, life for everyone is enhanced.’
Trockern said, ‘I suppose each of us has to find that out for ourself.’ He found it delightful to be humble after sunset.
With sudden exasperation, SartoriIrvrash said, ‘Yes, unfortunately that’s so. We have to learn by bitter experience, not blithe example. And that’s ridiculous. Don’t imagine that I think the state of affairs is perfect. Gaia is an absolute ninny to let us loose in the first place. At least on Helliconia the Original Beholder planted phagors to keep mankind in check!’ He laughed and Trockern joined in.
‘I know you think me wanton,’ the latter said, ‘but isn’t Gaia herself a wanton, spawning so riotously in all directions?’
His senior shot him a foxy look. ‘Everything else must bring forth in abundance, so that everything else can eat it. It’s not the best of arrangements, perhaps – cooked up and cobbled together on the spur of the moment from a chemical broth. That doesn’t mean to say we can’t imitate Gaia and adopt, like her, our own homeostasis.’
The moon in its last quarter shone overhead. SartoriIrvrash pointed to the red star burning low by the horizon.
‘See Antares? Just north of it is the constellation Ophiuchus, the Serpent Bearer. In Ophiuchus is a large dark dust cloud about seven hundred light-years away, concealing a cluster of young stars. Among them lies Freyr. It would be one of the twelve brightest stars in the sky, were it not for the dust cloud. And that’s where the phagors are.’
The two men contemplated the distance without speaking. Then Trockern said, ‘Have you ever thought, master, how phagors vaguely resemble the demons and devils which used to haunt the imagination of Christians?’
‘That had not occurred to me. I have always thought of an even older allusion, the minotaur of ancient Greek myth, a creature stuck between human and animal, lost in the labyrinths of its own lusts.’
‘Presumably you think that the Helliconian humans should allow the phagors to coexist, to maintain the biospheric balance?’
‘“Presumably …” We presume so much.’ A long silence followed. Then SartoriIrvrash said, reluctantly, ‘With the deepest respect to Gaia and her Serpent-Bearing sister out there, they are old biddies at times. Mankind learnt aggression in their wombs. I mean, to use another ancient analogy,
humans and phagors are rather Cain and Abel, aren’t they? One or other of them has to go …’
*
Trumpets sounded above the heads of the gathering. Their voices were muted and sweet, and in no way reminiscent of those work trumpets buried far below their feet – except to Luterin Shokerandit.
The dignitaries in the great chamber swallowed their last bird-shaped pastries and put on reverential faces. Luterin moved among them feeling cumbersome among so many ectomorphic shapes. He lost sight of Insil.
The Keeper and the Master, Insil’s father and husband, were returning down the spiral stair. They had assumed silken robes of carmine and blue over their ordinary clothes, and put on odd-shaped hats. Their faces were as if cast from an alloy of lead and flesh.
Side by side, they paraded to the curtained windows. There they turned and bowed to the assembly. The assembly fell silent, the musicians tiptoed away over creaking boards.
Keeper Esikananzi spoke first.
‘You all know of the reasons why Bambekk Monastery was built, many centuries ago. It was built to service the Wheel – and of course you know why the Architects built the Wheel. We stand on the site of the greatest act of faith ever achieved / to be by mankind. But perhaps you will / permissive allow me to remind you why this particular position was chosen by our illustrious ancestors, in what some people regard as a remote part of the Sibornalese continent.
‘Let me draw your attention to the iron band running under your feet which divides this dome in half. That band marks the line of latitude on which this edifice is built. We are here fifty-five degrees north of the equator, and standing upon that actual line. As you scarcely need reminding, fifty-five degrees north is the line of the Polar Circle.’
At this point, he gestured to a servant. The curtains concealing the windows were drawn apart.
A view over the town was revealed, looking south. The visibility was good enough for everything to be seen clearly, including the far horizon, bare except for a thin line of denniss trees.