"Impossible!" Master said.
"Sah, your soup," Ugwu said.
"Five hundred people killed. Absolute rubbish! It can't be true."
Ugwu took the dish into the kitchen and put it in the refrigerator. The smell of spices nauseated him, as did the sight of soup, of food. But Baby would wake up soon and he would have to make her dinner. He brought out a bag of potatoes from the store and sat staring at it, thinking about two days ago, when Olanna left for Kano to fetch Aunty Arize, how her plaited hair had pulled at the skin of her forehead and made it shiny-sleek.
Baby came into the kitchen. "Ugwu."
"I tetago? Are you awake?" Ugwu asked, before he hugged her. He wondered if Master had seen her walk past the living room. "Did you see baby chickens in your dream?"
Baby laughed, and her dimples sank deep in her cheeks. "Yes!"
"Did you talk to them?"
"Yes!"
"What did they say?"
Baby didn't give the usual response. She let go of his neck and squatted on the floor. "Where is Mummy Ola?"
"Mummy Ola will be back soon." Ugwu examined the blade of the knife. "Now, help me with the potato peels. Put them all in the dustbin, and when Mummy Ola comes back, we will tell her you helped with the cooking."
After Ugwu put the potatoes to boil, he gave her a bath, dusted her body over with Pears talcum powder, and brought out her pink nightdress. It was the one Olanna loved, the one she said made Baby look like a doll. But Baby said, "I want my pajamas," and Ugwu was no longer sure which it was Olanna loved anyway, the nightdress or the pajamas.
He heard a knock on the front door. Master ran out of his study. Ugwu dashed to the door and grasped the handle first and held on, so that he would be the one to open it, although he knew it couldn't be Olanna. She had her own key.
"Is it Obiozo?" Master asked, looking at one of the two men standing at the door. "Obiozo?"
When Ugwu saw the hollow-eyed men with the dirt-smeared clothes, he knew right away that he should take Baby away, shield her. He took her food into the bedroom, set it on her play table, and told her she could pretend she was eating with Jill from the Jack and Jill comic that was delivered with the Renaissance. He stood by the door that led to the corridor and peered into the living room. One of the men was speaking, while the other drank from a bottle of water, the glass ignored on the table.
"We saw a lorry driver who agreed to carry us," the man said, and Ugwu could tell right away that he was Master's kinsman; his Abba dialect was heavy, each f sounding like a v.
"What happened?" Master asked.
The man placed the bottle of water down and said quietly, "They are killing us like ants. Did you hear what I said? Ants."
"Our eyes have seen plenty, anyi afujugo anya," Obiozo said. "I saw a whole family, a father and mother and three children, lying on the road to the motor park. Just lying there."
"What about Kano? What is happening in Kano?" Master asked.
"It started in Kano," the man said.
Obiozo was speaking, saying something about vultures and bodies dumped outside the city walls, but Ugwu no longer listened. It started in Kano rang in his head. He did not want to tidy the guest room and find bedsheets and warm the soup and make fresh garri for them. He wanted them to leave right away Or, if they would not leave, he wanted them to shut their filthy mouths. He wanted the radio announcers to be silent too, but they were not. They repeated the news of the killings in Maiduguri until Ugwu wanted to throw the radio out of the window, and the next afternoon, after the men left, a solemn voice on ENBC Radio Enugu recounted eyewitness accounts from the North: teachers hacked down in Zaria, a full Catholic church in Sokoto set on fire, a pregnant woman split open in Kano. The newscaster paused. "Some of our people are coming back now. The lucky ones are coming back. The railway stations are full of our people. If you have tea and bread to spare, please take it to the stations. Help a brother in need."
Master leaped up from the sofa. "Go, Ugwu," he said. "Take tea and bread and go to the railway station."
"Yes, sah," Ugwu said. Before he made the tea, he fried some plantains for Baby's lunch. "I have put Baby's lunch in the oven, sah," he said.
He was not sure Master heard him and as he left, he worried that Baby would go hungry and Master would not know that her fried plantains were in the oven. He made himself keep worrying about it until he got to the station. Mats and dirty wrappers were spread all over the platform and people were crumpled down on them, men and women and children crying and eating bread and tending wounds. Hawkers walked around with trays on their heads. Ugwu did not want to go into that ragged bazaar but he steeled himself and walked toward a man sitting on the ground with a red-stained rag wound around his head. Flies buzzed everywhere.
"Do you want some bread?" Ugwu asked.
"Yes, my brother. Dalu. Thank you."
Ugwu did not look to see how deep the knife wound on his head was. He poured the tea and held out the bread. He would not remember this man tomorrow because he would not want to.
"Do you want some bread?" Ugwu asked another man nearby, who sat hunched. "I choro bread?"
The man turned. Ugwu recoiled and nearly dropped the flask. The man's right eye was gone, in its place a juicy-red pulp.
"It was the soldiers who saved us," the first man was saying, as if he felt he had to tell his story in exchange for the bread he was eating dipped in tea. "They told us to run to the army barracks. Those madmen were chasing us like runaway goats, but once we entered the gates of the barracks we were safe."
A rickety train pulled up, so full that some people held on to the outside of the coaches, clutching at metal bars. Ugwu watched as tired, dusty, bloody people climbed down, but he did not join those who rushed over to help. He could not bear to think that Olanna was one of those limping and defeated people, and yet he could not bear to think that she was not, that she was still behind, somewhere in the North. He watched until the train emptied out. Olanna was not there. He gave the rest of the bread to the one-eyed man, then turned and ran. He did not stop until he got to Odim Street and past the bush with the white flowers.
11
Olanna was sitting on Mohammed's veranda, drinking chilled rice milk, laughing at the delicious cold trickle down her throat, at the stickiness on her lips, when the'gateman appeared and asked to speak to Mohammed.
Mohammed left and came back moments later, holding what looked like a pamphlet. "They're rioting," he said.
"It's the students, isn't it?" Olanna asked.
"I think it's religious. You must leave right away." His eyes avoided hers.
"Mohammed, calm down."
"Sule said they are blocking the roads and searching for infidels. Come, come." He was already heading indoors. Olanna followed. He worried too much, did Mohammed. Muslim students were always demonstrating about one thing or the other, after all, and harassing people who were Western-dressed, but they always dispersed quickly enough.
Mohammed went into a room and came out with a long scarf. "Wear this, so you can blend in," he said.
Olanna placed it over her head and wound it round her neck. "I look like a proper Muslim woman," she joked.
But Mohammed barely smiled. "Let's go. I know a shortcut to the train station."
"Train station? Arize and I are not leaving until tomorrow, Mohammed," Olanna said. She almost ran to keep up with him. "I'm going back to my uncle's house in Sabon Gari."
"Olanna." Mohammed started the car; it jerked as he took off. "Sabon Gari is not safe."
"What do you mean?" She tugged at the scarf; the embroidery at the edges felt coarse and uncomfortable against her neck.
"Sule said they are well organized."
Olanna stared at him, suddenly frightened at how frightened he looked. "Mohammed?"
His voice was low. "He said Igbo bodies are lying on Airport Road."
Olanna realized, then, that this was not just another demonstration by religious students. Fear parched h
er throat. She clasped her hands together. "Please let us pick up my people first," she said. "Please."
Mohammed headed toward Sabon Gari. A bus drove past, dusty and yellow; it looked like one of those campaign buses that politicians used to tour rural areas and give out rice and cash to villagers. A man was hanging out of the door, a loudspeaker pressed to his mouth, his slow Hausa words resonating. "The Igbo must go. The infidels must go. The Igbo must go." Mohammed reached out and squeezed her hand and held on to it as they drove past a crowd of young men on the roadside, chanting, "Araba, araba!" Heslowed down and blew the horn a few times in solidarity; they waved and he picked up speed again.
In Sabon Gari, the first street was empty. Olanna saw the smoke rising like tall gray shadows before she smelled the scent of burning.
"Stay here," Mohammed said, as he stopped the car outside Uncle Mbaezi's compound. She watched him run out. The street looked strange, unfamiliar; the compound gate was broken, the metal flattened on the ground. Then she noticed Aunty Ifeka's kiosk, or what remained of it: splinters of wood, packets of groundnuts lying in the dust. She opened the car door and climbed out. She paused for a moment because of how glaringly bright and hot it was, with flames billowing from the roof, with grit and ash floating in the air, before she began to run toward the house. She stopped when she saw the bodies. Uncle Mbaezi lay facedown in an ungainly twist, legs splayed. Something creamy-white oozed through the large gash on the back of his head. Aunty Ifeka lay on the veranda. The cuts on her naked body were smaller, dotting her arms and legs like slightly parted red lips.
Olanna felt a watery queasiness in her bowels before the numbness spread over her and stopped at her feet. Mohammed was dragging her, pulling her, his grasp hurting her arm. But she could not leave without Arize. Arize was due at anytime. Arize needed to be close to a doctor.
"Arize," she said. "Arize is down the road."
The smoke was thickening around her so that she was not sure if the crowd of men drifting into the yard were real or just plumes of smoke, until she saw the shiny metal blades of their axes and machetes, the bloodstained caftans that flapped around their legs.
Mohammed pushed her into the car and then went around and got in. "Keep your face down," he said.
"We finished the whole family. It was Allah's will!" one of the men called out in Hausa. The man was familiar. It was Abdulmalik. He nudged a body on the ground with his foot and Olanna noticed, then, how many bodies were lying there, like dolls made of cloth.
"Who are you?" another asked, standing in front of the car.
Mohammed opened his door, the car still on, and spoke in rapid, coaxing Hausa. The man stood aside. Olanna turned to look closely, to see if it really was Abdulmalik.
"Don't raise your face!" Mohammed said. He narrowly missed a kuka tree; one of the large pods had fallen down and Olanna heard the crunching squash as the car ran over it. She lowered her head. It was Abdulmalik. He had nudged another body, a woman's headless body, and stepped over it, placed one leg down and then the other, although there was enough room to step to the side.
"Allah does not allow this," Mohammed said. He was shaking; his entire body was shaking. "Allah will not forgive them. Allah will not forgive the people who have made them do this. Allah will never forgive this."
They drove in a frenzied silence, past policemen in blood-splattered uniforms, past vultures perched by the roadside, past boys carrying looted radios, until he parked at the train station and shoved her onto a crowded train.
Olanna sat on the floor of the train with her knees drawn up to her chest and the warm sweaty pressure of bodies around her. Outside the train, people were strapped to the coaches and some stood on the steps holding on to the railings. She had heard muted shouts when a man fell off. The train was a mass of loosely held metal, the ride unsteady as if the rails were crossed by speed bumps, and each time it jolted, Olanna was thrown against the woman next to her, against something on the woman's lap, a big bowl, a calabash. The woman's wrapper was dotted with splotchy stains that looked like blood, but Olanna was not sure. Her eyes burned. She felt as if there were a mixture of peppers and sand inside them, pricking and burning her lids. It was agony to blink, agony to keep them closed, agony to leave them open. She wanted to rip them out. She wet her fingers with saliva and rubbed her eyes. She sometimes did that to Baby when Baby got a minor scratch. "Mummy Ola!" Baby would wail, raising the offending arm or leg, and Olanna would stick a finger in her mouth and run it over Baby's injury. But the saliva only made her burning eyes worse.
A young man in front of her screamed and placed his hands on his head. The train swerved and Olanna bumped against the calabash again; she liked the firm feel of the wood. She edged her hand forward until it was gently caressing the carved lines that crisscrossed the calabash. She closed her eyes, because they burned less that way, and kept them closed for hours, her hand against the calabash, until somebody shouted in Igbo, "Anyi agafeela! We have crossed the River Niger! We have reached home!"
A liquid-urine-was spreading on the floor of the train. Olanna felt it coldly soaking into her dress. The woman with the calabash nudged her, then motioned to some other people close by. "Bianu, come," she said. "Come and take a look."
She opened the calabash.
"Take a look," she said again.
Olanna looked into the bowl. She saw the little girl's head with the ashy-gray skin and the braided hair and rolled-back eyes and open mouth. She stared at it for a while before she looked away. Somebody screamed.
The woman closed the calabash. "Do you know," she said, "it took me so long to plait this hair? She had such thick hair."
The train had stopped with a rusty screech. Olanna got down and stood in the jostling crowd. A woman fainted. Motor boys were hitting the sides of lorries and chanting, "Owerri! Enugu! Nsukka!" She thought about the plaited hair resting in the calabash. She visualized the mother braiding it, her fingers oiling it with pomade before dividing it into sections with a wooden comb.
12
Richard was rereading Kainene's note when the plane touched down in Kano. He had only just found it while searching in his briefcase for a magazine. He wished he had known it was lying there the ten days he was in London, waiting to be read.
Is love this misguided need to have you beside me most of the time? Is love this safety I feel in our silences? Is it this belonging, this completeness?
He was smiling as he read; Kainene had never written anything like this to him before. He doubted that she had ever written him anything at all, except for the generic love, Kainene, on his birthday cards. He read over and over, lingering on each I that was so elaborately curved it looked like a sterling sign. Suddenly he didn't mind that the flight had been delayed in London and that this stop at Kano to change planes before going on to Lagos would delay him even longer. An absurd lightness draped itself around him; all things were possible, all things were manageable. He got up and helped the woman seated next to him carry her bag down. Is love this safety I feel in our silences?
"You're so kind," the woman told him in an Irish accent. The flight was full of non-Nigerians. If Kainene were here, she would certainly say something mocking-There go the marauding Europeans. He shook hands with the stewardess at the foot of the ramp and walked quickly across the tarmac; the sun was intense, a piercing white hotness that made him imagine his body fluids evaporating, drying out, and he was relieved to get inside the cool building. He stood in the customs line and reread Kainene's note. Is love this misguided need to have you beside me most of the time? He would ask her to marry him when he returned to Port Harcourt. She would first say something like, "A white man and no money to speak of. My parents will be scandalized." But she would say yes. He knew she would say yes. It was something about her lately, a mellowing, a softening from which this note had come. He was not sure if she had forgiven him for the incident with Olanna-they had never talked about it-but this note, this new openness, meant that she was ready to m
ove forward. He was smoothing the note on his palm, when a young very dark-skinned customs officer asked, "Anything to declare, sir?"
"No," Richard said, and handed over his passport. "I'm going on to Lagos."
"Okay, well done, sir! Welcome to Nigeria," the young man said. He had a large, chubby body that looked sloppy in his uniform.
"You work here?" Richard asked him.
"Yes, sir. I am in training. By December, I will be a full customs officer."
"Excellent," Richard said. "And where are you from?"
"I come from the Southeastern region, a town called Obosi."
Onitsha 's little neighbor."
"You know the place, sir?"
"I work at Nsukka University and I have traveled throughout the Eastern region. I'm writing a book about the area. And my fiancee is from Umunnachi, not too far from you." He felt a flush of achievement, at how easily fiancee had slipped out of him, a sign of future uxorious bliss. He smiled, then realized that his smile threatened to grow into a giggle and that he might be slightly delirious. It was that note.
"Your fiancee, sir?" The young man looked disapproving.
"Yes. Her name is Kainene." Richard spoke slowly, making sure to drag out the second syllable fully.
"You speak Igbo, sir?" There was a slender respect in the man's eyes now.
"Nwanne di na mba," Richard said, enigmatically, hoping that he had not mixed things up and that the proverb meant that one's brother could come from a different land.
"Eh! You speak! I na-asu Igbo!" The young man took Richard's hand in his moist one and shook it warmly and started to talk about himself. His name was Nnaemeka.
"I know Umunnachi people well, they find too much trouble," he said. "My people warned my cousin not to marry an Umunnachi man, but she did not hear. Every day they beat her until she packed her things and returned to her father's house. But not everybody in Umunnachi is bad. My mother's people are from there. Have you not heard of my mother's mother? Nwayike Nkwelle? You should write about her in your book. She was a wonderful herbalist, and she had the best cure for malaria. If she had charged people big money, I will be studying medicine overseas now But my family cannot send me overseas, and the people in Lagos are giving scholarships to the children of the people who can bribe them. It is because of Nwayike Nkwelle that I want to learn how to be a doctor. But I am not saying that this my customs work is bad. After all, we have to take exam to get the job, and many people are jealous. By the time I become a full officer, life will be better and there will be less suffering…"
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