by Lisa Lace
I watch his expression grow blissful, loving the way he tilts his head back in pleasure, his dark hair brushing against his shoulders when he does.
Tom stops me before he comes, holding his hand out to help me up, encircling my waist with his arm, and pulling me close into a warm, loving kiss, which holds more than just raw lust.
I lift up my arms, and Tom pulls my sweater over my head. He reaches around behind me and unclasps my bra. It falls to the floor, exposing my breasts, heaving with each heavy breath.
My body tingles in anticipation. I tease his cock with my hand, enjoying the feel of him against my palm, hard and throbbing.
He urges me toward the bed and pushes me down, so I’m lying on my back. He peels away my pants and hooks his thumb in my panties, pulling them down too.
Naked in front of him, I feel liberated. Every shred of tension and fear melts away. Every mental block vanishes. I keep my arms above my head, one leg lifting up the sheets.
Tom pushes my knee outward and bows his head between my legs. His tongue seeks out my clit. I sigh with pleasure as he presses his tongue against me, licking me with soft strokes until my sighs turn into stifled cries. I’m so wet. I lean forward and guide Tom’s face back to mine, kissing him deeply.
I close my hand around his cock, guiding him toward my pussy. My eyes catch his. Fuck me.
A spark of desire alights in his eyes. He thrusts into me. My body cries out with pleasure. Tom pounds into me, each stroke deeper, more urgent. I keep my hands in his hair, pulling him down for one kiss after another. His lips move from my mouth to my throat, to my breasts. He gently bites at a nipple.
My body is on fire. I’ve never felt so satisfied in my life as when Tom is kissing me, his cock deep inside me, his eyes saying things I still haven’t heard from his lips.
I place my hands on the small of his back, grinding against him, keeping our bodies close as he thrusts. He’s deep inside me, each stroke an explosion.
My swollen clit throbs with each stroke of Tom’s cock. As he pounds into me faster, the sensation grows. I throw my head back on the pillows and swallow my cry of pleasure as I come with an orgasm so intense my back arches and my toes curl.
Tom moans at the sound of my climax and thrusts harder. Moments later, he comes, too. He lowers himself onto me, his hot body resting against mine. He turns his face toward me, locking me in another kiss. My body is tingling all over.
Tom rolls away and lays at my side. He opens up an arm, inviting me to curl up against him. I press my body against him, resting my head on his chest. I can hear his heart beating quickly. He kisses my forehead. “You never cease to amaze me, Zoe. That was incredible.”
“I’ve wanted you for such a long time.”
“Why tonight?”
“I couldn’t resist anymore. I know I’m supposed to put the kids first, but it’s too hard to be this close to you and pretend I feel nothing.”
Tom pulls me closer. I can feel him smiling. “Don’t worry. I’ll head back to the sofa soon, so the kids don’t suspect a thing.”
I turn and look up at him. I shake my head, catching his eyes. “Don’t.”
“You want me to stay?”
“Yes.”
He smiles and settles back down into the pillow, resting his cheek against the top of my head. “Then I’ll stay.”
Lying in bed with Tom beside me, I feel complete. As immature and irresponsible as Tom can be, I recognize the man I fell in love with online in him, and I’m starting to see so much more. For all the mistakes he’s made, I’ve never known a man try harder to do the right thing.
Tom
Hanging up the phone, relief rushes through me. I close my eyes and let the good news sink in for a moment before heading to the kitchen where Zoe and the kids are having breakfast.
Megan is awake and sitting at the table. I think she’s trying to show how sorry she is after the drama of last night. I’m glad she’s here and safe. She looks up at me when I enter and offers me a small, grateful smile. “Morning.”
I smile. “Morning. How’d you sleep?”
Megan nods. “Well.”
“I’m glad. Even better, I have some good news for everyone. I just got off the phone with the hospital, and your mom is awake and doing well.”
I watch Megan squeeze her eyes shut in relief and let out a long breath. I can see the guilt in her expression.
I go over to her and give her shoulder a comforting squeeze. “Your mom will be glad you’re here to see her.”
She smiles. It’s good to know that I’ve done the right thing for once. Megan is here and safe, and I was the one to bring her home. You were here when Laura needed you. It feels good.
The kids are both dressed for school. Megan is dressed unusually conservatively in a thick sweater and jeans. Her hair is down and hasn’t been straightened. She’s not even wearing makeup. When she stands to pick up her bag, her whole body is slumped, like the weight of the world is on her.
When Jack goes upstairs to brush his teeth, I take Megan aside. “Are you alright?”
She forces a smile. “I’m fine.”
Megan doesn’t look fine. Her eyes are surrounded by dark circles. Her lips are pale. She looks like she’s on the verge of tears. All the stress and hardship of the last few weeks has caught up with her, and after being let down so badly by Justin, I can tell she’s in a vulnerable place.
“Look, you’ve had a rough couple of days. Why don’t you stay home today?”
Zoe overhears and joins in the conversation. “That sounds like a good idea. You don’t look well.”
Megan looks from me to Zoe. She still looks like she’s about to cry. “Really?”
“I think you need a little time to let the last few weeks sink in. Stay home. I’ll take the day off, too. Me, you and your uncle can just veg out all day on the sofa, watch some bad movies, eat some junk—what do you say?”
“That sounds good. Thanks, guys.”
Zoe smiles and nods toward the stairs. “Go get changed into your comfiest PJs. I’ll take Jack to school. I’ll tell him you’re coming later.”
Megan goes upstairs to dump her school stuff in her room and get changed into something more comfortable, while I take Jack to school.
After he’s been dropped off, Zoe, Megan and I do just as we planned. We pull out a big blanket, draw the drapes, and shut ourselves off from the world.
Megan sits in the middle, with Zoe and me on either side.
I put on a film, but I don’t watch much of it. My eyes keep traveling over to the girls: Megan, my niece, who I barely knew until now; and Zoe, the woman who’s held my hand through something I’d never have been able to handle alone.
I love them both. I love my sister, and I love Jack.
My heart swells as I watch them sitting there. Zoe has a content little smile on her face, her arm around Megan’s shoulders. I know she has work to do, but as always, she’s putting Megan first. There’s no panic in her expression, though. She’s simply enjoying her moment with Megan. I could learn something from her.
When I see Laura, my heart warms. She’s awake and laughing with one of the nurses. She looks better. In fact, she’s out of traction, still lying flat, but with her head slightly propped up on two pillows.
Megan and Jack rush ahead to hug her.
Laura grins. “Hello, my loves. What do you look so worried for? Mom’s still here.”
I step forward, and squeeze her hand, offering her an affectionate smile. “You’re determined to milk this visit for all it’s worth, aren’t you?”
She laughs. “Hi, Tom. I’m sorry for scaring you all again.”
“You promised you weren’t going to do that anymore.”
“I’m just keeping you on your toes.” I lean forward to kiss her on her cheek. She smiles.
“You’re out of the cage.”
She grins. “I am. The doctor says I still need to take it easy, but we’re starting on the physiotherapy now, so I shou
ld soon be back to my old self.”
“I’m glad. You’ve been missed.”
“I’m doing great,” Laura insists. “What about you guys?”
“We’re all good, Laura. Megan took the day off with her Aunt Zoe and me today.”
Jack screws up his face in betrayal. “I thought you said she was coming later!”
“She wasn’t feeling well, kiddo.”
Laura scans my face, searching my expression for truth. She lifts her hand slightly toward Megan. Megan steps forward and takes it, her eyes glistening with tears.
Laura fixes her with a hard stare. “How are you doing, sweetheart?”
She bursts into tears and leans over Laura, sobbing into her chest. Laura lifts her arms as high as she can to comfort her. I can see her pained expression over Megan’s shoulder. She looks guilty.
“I want you to come home, Mom.”
“We’re almost there, sweetheart. Come on, now, don’t cry. Isn’t Tom taking good care of you?”
Megan lifts her face and looks back over her shoulder at me, her eyes still wet with tears. She smiles, sits back, and wipes her eyes with her sleeves. “He’s been great. I miss you, though.”
Zoe
It’s the week before Christmas. The last two months have flown by. It seems like only yesterday that Halloween was on our doorstep, and now we’re into the holidays. To think it was October when Tom first arrived, and now we’re halfway through December.
I’m taking Megan to the mall to do some Christmas shopping. She’s been doing a lot better since she came back. We haven’t spoken much about it. She and Tom have kept the whole thing under wraps, and I’ve decided not to interfere. It’s good to see the two of them growing closer, developing trust.
The mall is packed to the rafters with Christmas shoppers. But even though it’s chaos, I kind of like it. The mall is decked out in Christmas decorations, with fiberglass reindeer, bright lights, and baubles hanging from the ceiling. Up on the second floor, you can look out over the balcony and see Santa’s grotto down below, a line-up of excited kids. Every shop has a Christmas song playing. It feels festive. All the drama and tragedy of the last couple of months is like a distant memory.
“We’ve made it to Christmas!” I say brightly. “I don’t know about you, but I’m looking forward to a nice family Christmas.”
I say the words, and then realize that I’m not really family. I’m once again hit with the cruel reminder that I’ve only been borrowing Laura’s life. Soon you’ll be back to your lonely apartment.
Megan smiles. “Me, too. It’s been a tough few months. I’m looking forward to Mom coming home.”
The doctors predict that Laura will be able to come home just before New Year’s. It is wonderful news. Now we’re all counting down the days to when she’s home, and trying to enjoy the holidays the best we can while she’s still in the hospital.
“Got any gift ideas?” I ask.
“I was thinking I’d get Mom some audiobooks. I know she’s bored to death in that place, and her favorite author has a new release.”
“That’s a great idea. She’ll appreciate that. What about your uncle?”
Megan smiles. “I’ve thought about that.”
I wonder what she has in mind. I don’t have the first idea what to buy Tom. What do you get the man who has everything?
“What are you thinking?”
“I’m going to get him one of those calendars that you can print with your own pictures.” She pulls out a USB from her coat pocket and shows it to me. “I’m going to get one printed with pictures of me, Mom and Jack, so Uncle Tom doesn’t forget us when he goes back to New York.” She shrugs. “I know it’s stupid and sentimental, but I’m going to miss him when he’s gone. Maybe he’ll even miss us, too.”
Inside, my heart is breaking. The reality that Tom is going to leave after the holidays is starting to sink in, and I’m not prepared. I smile. “I know he will.”
We pass a café. I can smell the freshly ground coffee and sweet treats inside. I nod toward the door. “Want a hot chocolate?”
“Sure.”
Inside is crammed with dozens of shoppers. The counter is surrounded by customers waiting for their drink orders to be filled. I look up at the board behind the counter. The menu is full of Christmas specialties with festive twists—gingerbread lattes, candy cane hot chocolates, mulled wine herbal tea.
“Ooh, this looks good.” I grin. “I’m going to have a gingerbread latte and one of those little peppermint macaroons. What about you?”
“Hot chocolate, please.”
“Macaroon?”
“Can I have one of those candy cane brownies?”
“Of course!”
I order us both a drink and sweet treat, and we wrestle our way upstairs and manage to find a table for two against the back wall. It’s sweltering inside the coffee shop, the heat of all those shoppers and their coffees filling the room. It’s hard to move among all the bags on the floor and coats slung over the backs of seats, but we manage to get seated at last.
“Wow, it’s busy in here,” Megan says.
I grin. “Christmas.”
“What are you going to get Mom and Tom?”
“I’m getting your mom this cushion with robins on it. She loves robins, and I thought she’d need propping up for a while when she gets out of the hospital.”
“She’ll like that. What about Uncle Tom?”
I frown. “I have no idea.”
“You should make some big romantic gesture.”
I raise my eyebrows. I always forget how astute Megan is. She’s known about Tom and me from day one. She’s missing nothing now.
Megan smiles, stirring her hot chocolate with a long, thin spoon and licking excess whipped cream off her fingers, then nods. “Like giving him the key to your apartment in a little box or a promise ring. Something like that. Something to show him that it’s not going to end after Christmas. I mean…it’s not going to end after Christmas, is it?”
I smile. “What would your mom say if she knew I was gossiping with you about your uncle and me?”
“She’d pour a glass of wine and join in.”
I laugh. Megan’s right—Laura’s been behind the idea of Tom and me from the beginning. “I’m not sure what’s going to happen between us when the holidays are over. Your uncle has business in New York, and my life’s here.”
Megan looks down at the table for a moment, then back at me. “You could go to New York with him.”
“I don’t think I’m cut out for the Big Apple.”
“You’d really let it come to an end?”
“I’m not saying that, sweetie. I’m just preparing myself for the possibility that sometimes these things don’t work out. Your uncle’s a very busy man. Once he’s back in the city, I know that work will take over. Think about how long it took him to come visit you guys! Tom has always put work first.”
“But he’s different now.”
I smile. Megan’s tugging at my heartstrings, but I know I have to be real with myself. Tom is going to leave when the holidays are over, and he might not come back. “Well, let’s hope I’m wrong. I’d love to carry things on with Tom.”
“You love him, don’t you?”
I laugh, my skin flushing red. “Megan! I shouldn’t be talking about this with you.”
Megan lifts her chin defiantly. “I’m fifteen, Aunt Zoe, and I’m not blind. Mom and I talk about you two all the time. It’s hardly a state secret. I won’t pass anything on to him. Come on, Aunt Zoe, you can talk to me.”
My eyes prickle with tears, and I blink them back. I don’t want Megan to see me cry and realize how much I adore her uncle. I swallow.
“I care about him a lot. I enjoy his company. But with what happened with your mom and everything, it’s been a strange situation. People always feel close in tough situations. It’s easy to feel close when we’re living under one roof and spending lots of time together. It won’t be the same long-dis
tance.”
“Sometimes it works out,” Megan insists. She casts me a hopeful smile. “Don’t forget that he’s Thomas Vermont. He can make things happen.”
“A weekly private jet to my front door?”
Megan laughs. “Why not?”
I change the subject. “Enough about Tom and me. What about you and Justin? You guys still haven’t made up?”
Megan’s face darkens, and she looks down at her drink. She gives a tight little shrug and clears her throat. “No. We’re not speaking. And we won’t. Ever.”
I still don’t know what happened the night that Megan went missing, or how Justin was involved. All I know is that whatever happened that night caused a rift between them that has been irreparable. I’m sad for Megan, and how much the break-up has hurt her. But I’m also secretly a little relieved. Since she’s broken up with Justin, Megan has spent more time at home and grown closer to us; some of that attitude has melted.
“I’m sorry, sweetheart.”
Megan lifts her chin and smiles fiercely. “Don’t be. He was a jerk. I’m better off without him.”
“Good for you, Meg. Give it time. You’ll find someone special. You’re still young.”
But my heart is left aching. The thought of Tom leaving is unbearable, and every time it’s entered my mind, I’ve pushed it back down.
I’ve gotten used to having Tom in my life. I’m used to waking up to the smell of pancakes and finding him downstairs, wearing a towel over his shoulder and a grin. I’ve grown used to jumping in his car after a long day at work, to exchanging knowing glances over dinner. To teasing each other over silly little things and talking about the kids.
Life with Tom feels real; it feels like mine. The truth is, it’s not really my life, and our time together is coming to an end.
I drink the last syrupy mouthful of my coffee and force a grin. “Come on, Meg. Let’s go to that game store. I’m going to get Jack something new for his DS.”
Megan finishes her drink, and we leave. Even watching her walking around the shops makes my heart break a little. For just a short while, I was more than their mom’s friend on the sidelines. I’m going to miss those kids.