“We’ll see, “he said and quickly changed the subject. “Where is your husband? Do I know him?”
“I don’t think so. He s from Pittsburgh. A surgeon. He’s got an emergency operation at Governor‘s Hospital. I’m hoping he‘ll get here before the party’s over.”
“From the look of things, this brawl will still be going on next Tuesday.”
“Look, we’re all going to the French Casino on 50th and catch the midnight show of the Folies-Bergêre,” she said. “Why don’t you come with us? It’s supposed to be very risqué.”
“Not when you’ve seen the real thing.”
“That’s very snobbish.”
“I didn’t mean it to be, “he said casually. “I just meant the French version is a lot bawdier.”
“Well, come with us anyhow.”
“Marilyn.
“Or how about Sunday brunch? We’re all going out to the Merry Go Round. It’s on the Island, Atlantic Beach. Has a revolving bar, hobby horses, these fluffy, crazy-looking jungle animals. It’s right on the ocean with an outside dance floor She did a little shimmy.
“Marilyn.
“Or how about coming up to the Westport theater to see Ruth Gordon in The Country Wife? She’s supposed to be quite the screwball in it, you know. We ‘re planning. .
“Marilyn!”
She stopped suddenly. “Yes?” she said innocently.
“The lady’s married.”
“She dying inside, Francis,” she answered seriously.
“I can ‘t do he started to say and caught himself I can’t do anything about it. It’s not my problem. Familiar phrases from the past. Embarrassing phrases he had sworn never to use again.
‘It’s obviously a bad time for both of us,” is all he said.
“Will you think about it?”
The ultimate out—think about it. One could take forever thinking about it.
“Sure. I’ll think about it.”
“Good. C ‘mon, dance with me.”
“I don’t know how to do that newfangled stuff”
“It’s called jitterbugging and it c easy.” She led him out on the enormous dance floor, shimmering in her spangled dress.
Later he had stood near the bridge of the big ship, looking down at the party. He saw Vanessa come aboard, watched her move majestically through the crowd. She was in a short, black cocktail dress, startling in its simplicity, with a clutch of diamonds at her throat. He realized as he watched her how much time had changed her—from a lively sprite to royalty. She moved with sublime grace, an exquisite creature who exuded stately nonchalance as f she were in some superior caste created for her alone. Confident, imperious, sublime, there was also about her a hint of wanton naïveté. Easily the most interesting and imposing person at the party, Keegan thought. And probably the most dangerous. What a pair she and Marilyn must make. He didn’t even notice old Turkey Thorn-
Then suddenly she turned as if by some primal instinct and looked straight up at him. They stared at each other for a full minute while the crowd seemed to part and move around her. Her expression changed very subtly, became more intense, then someone rushed up to her and there were giddy greetings and hugs and squeals of delight. He left the party.
I’ll think about it, he had said. That was three years ago.
………anyway, Marilyn talks too much,” Vanessa was saying.
“She talked like a best friend talks. She was concerned about you.”
“I know, I didn’t mean that. Fact is, she talked me into coming over here. I didn’t have the courage to do it on my own.”
“Courage?” he asked quizzically.
She turned her face away from him. Her voice was almost a whisper. “Oh, God, Kee, don’t you know why I really came?”
She still did not face him.
“I came because I threw my husband out a year ago. I came because I’m twenty-four years old and I’m lonely and because I’ve been thinking about you for five years and I’ve wanted to sleep with you for all five of them. I’ve never stopped wanting to sleep with you. And if that makes me a hussy or
“Hey, hold on,” Keegan said softly. Then he chuckled. “What the hell, you always did get right to the point.”
“Just hold me, will you, Frankie Kee?” she said. “Or let me hold you.”
“Hell, I’m no good to you,” he said, and it had the tone of a warning.
She shook her head and turned her back to him, looking out toward the river.
“I don’t know why I said that anyway,” she said. “What I really want is someone to hold me while I fall asleep, share my tears with me, hurt when I hurt, laugh when I laugh. I want someone to believe in me, not laugh at my fantasies.” She looked back over her shoulder at him. “Is that so very much to ask of somebody, Kee?”
“No, it’s a modest request.”
“Don’t you want that?”
“I did.”
“And you lost all that?”
“I stopped caring.”
“Why?”
“When I lost her . . - hell, I don’t know. . . maybe it was never quite as good as I remember it.”
He stopped and sorted through his darkest thoughts, questioning his memory, as he had done many times in the past, always with the same conclusion.
“No,” he went on, “that’s not true. It was, it was a very fine time in my life. It just didn’t last very long. Maybe we all have just so much happiness doled out to us and we used ours up and now we’re paying for it, except the price she’s paying is. . . much
· . . too high.”
“I don’t believe that. I don’t believe God’s that cruel. I haven’t given up yet.”
“You mean with old Turkey?”
“The hell with old Turkey,” she snapped. “I got over him a long time ago.”
“Where’s he now?”
“He has a place in the Dakota, that big gloomy building on the West Side.”
“1 know the place.”
“1 guess that’s where he entertains his show girls,” she said bitterly. “I hear he likes two or three at a time.”
“Are you divorced yet?”
“Twenty-four more days. I mark each one off on my calendar.” She stopped to catch her breath. Tears crept into the corners of her eyes and she tried to blink them away. “I tried so hard, Kee. I tried to be a good wife and make him happy. It was never enough. Lyle never gets enough of anything. His appetite for everything is insatiable. Thank God we don’t have children.”
“That little freak,” Keegan said harshly. “He never had anything going for him. He was a cheat in school—and a liar. He used to lie all the time.”
“Oh, he’s very good at that.”
Keegan tried to soften the dark tone of the conversation. “Hell, he wasn’t any good at it at all, he just lied so much people got tired of calling him down.”
And she laughed and nodded. “Yes! You’re right! That’s exactly what people do.”
“What was it about old Turkey . . . ?“
“Oh God, I don’t even know anymore. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and wonder the same thing. And then I think . . . maybe it’s me, maybe I didn’t deserve any better . .
“Stop that.”
“No, I do..
“Stop it! Don’t lay off all the misery on yourself. There are lots of Thorntons in the world . . . they use up everything they can get their hands on and never give anything back.”
She stared at him with moist eyes. “There’s another thing about it. Sometimes I think. . . we had three years together and I think, there ought to be some happy memories. I ought to feel something for him. But I don’t.”
“I have a partner named Nayles out on the West Coast. When we were in the war together, he used to say, ‘Pal, we come in buckass naked and we go out buckass naked and everything in between is gravy.’ Maybe that’s the right attitude. Maybe we ought to make the best of whatever comes to us.”
“You’re not doing t
hat.”
She looked up at him and her stare seemed to come from a very private place deep within her; a warm, longing, loving look that pierced Keegan’s armor like a lance.
“Oh, Kee, what’s happening to the world? What’s happening to all of us?”
His anger was like a coiled snake he had kept trapped inside him and suddenly it burst free. It was not a shrill outburst but his fists were clenched and he spoke in a voice that was low and full of rage.
“What’s happening is that we’re living in a world full of people who want us to think the way they do and act the way they do and believe the way they do and if we don’t, if we don’t conform, they destroy us. And you know the irony? They’re always in the minority. We ignore them until we wake up one morning and there isn’t any Times on the newsstand and our favorite books are gone from the library and they beat up our best friends and drag them off to prison because their hair’s the wrong color or their noses don’t measure down to their standards. Then it’s too late.”
“You really think that could happen here?”
He nodded emphatically. “There was a moment, Vannie, when I literally had to run for my life. I mean I literally had to run for it. I don’t know which was worse, the fear or the humiliation, but I think I have a better idea of what freedom is all about now.”
“Is that what happened to her in Germany?”
“That’s what happened to Germany. She got caught in the sweeper. So you don’t need to shed any tears for me, save them for her. She’s locked away for life in a cesspool run by psychopaths.”
“Oh my God. .
She reached up and ran her fingertips lightly down his cheek. Then she wrapped her arms around his waist and held him very tightly and after several moments he reached out, too, and put his arms around her and they stood on the balcony for a long time clutching each other, like two drowning people, each trying desperately to save the other.
They fell into a warm friendship that was shakily platonic. But she did not impose on that part of him. She was happy to be around him, coming to his place, fixing dinner, occasionally dropping by and listening to him and Ned discussing the news of the day. When they went out for dinner they went to offbeat places, usually late at night to avoid old friends. Only Marilyn shared their secret, sometimes spending the evening with them when her husband was tied up at the hospital. Keegan juggled his emotions between past and present. Until suddenly a voice from the past changed everything.
New Year’s Eve, 1939, three A.M.
Keegan was returning from Vanessa’s apartment. He was fumbling for his keys when a voice, thickly European, whispered from the shadows beside the entrance.
“Mr. Keegan?”
Keegan stopped, squinted suspiciously into the darkness. The man moved partly into the light. In silhouette he was an inch or so shorter than Keegan but ten pounds heavier, all of it in his muscled shoulders, chest and arms, which strained the sleeves of his black cloth coat. The bottom of his face was obscured by a thick black beard and he was wearing a black seaman’s cap, pulled low on his forehead.
“Depends on who’s asking,” Keegan said cautiously.
The man moved into the light.
It was Werner Gebhart. Avrum Wolffson’s chief lieutenant in the Black Lily.
“Perhaps you remember me?” he whispered from the shadows. “We met in Berlin.”
Keegan was astounded to see the young German. “My God, Gebhart, of course I remember you,” he said, motioning him into the open. “Come in, come in.”
Gebhart moved quickly. They shook hands as Keegan led him through the private entrance and down the hallway to his private elevator. Gebhart looked frightened, his eyes frantically checking the street as they entered the hallway.
“Is something wrong?” Keegan asked.
“Yes,” Gebhart answered. “I am an illegal.”
“Not here you’re not,” Keegan said with a reassuring smile.
“Mazel t ov ,” Gebhart said, and there was relief in his voice.
When the elevator doors closed, Gebhart relaxed. Keegan remembered him as being an innocent, slender man-boy, youthfully arrogant and suspicious. He had put on twenty hard pounds and his face was ridged by hard times. He had tortured eyes, half pleading, half angry, the kind that had seen too much suffering, had lost too many friends and had seen the kinds of things that rob the young of their innocence. His black beard was already streaked with gray. How old was he, Keegan wondered? Mid-twenties at best. Looking at the toll the Nazis and Black Lily had taken on Gebhart in four years, Keegan wondered what the years had done to Avrum Wolffson.
“Avrum?” Keegan asked.
“Alive.”
“And well?”
Gebhart nodded. “He has become too hard. It shows.”
“And what of your other friend . . . ?“
“Joachim Weber?” Gebhart answered. “Joachim was murdered by the Nazis.
Keegan’s shoulders sagged. My God, he thought, the madness never ends. “I’m sorry, Werner,” he said.
Gebhart simply nodded.
“When did you get here?” Keegan asked.
“About ten o’clock.”
“You’ve been waiting here for five hours?”
“Yes.”
“How long have you been in the country?”
“Since ten o’clock. I came on a steamer from Portugal.”
“Good! You must stay here. It’s perfectly safe and all my people have closed lips.”
Gebhart held up his hand. “Please, ire, that part of it is taken care of. I have a place. Someone who has worked with us for years. On Fifth Avenue. I understand there is a park across the street.”
Keegan smiled. “Central Park. Pretty fancy digs up there, Werner.”
“So I have heard.”
“You haven’t been there yet?”
Gebhart shook his head. “I came here first. It was Avrum’s wish that I see you first.”
“God, it’s good to see you again,” Keegan said finally. “I haven’t heard from Avrum for all these years. I thought. . . hell, I thought everything.”
“It is dangerous even to send out letters. But I have a present from him. And a message for you. He said to tell you it is the one you owe him.”
Keegan laughed. “He has a helluva memory. The last thing I said to him, That’s one I owe you. It was a joke.”
“Avrum doesn’t joke.”
Keegan thought for a moment before he nodded. “I had forgotten.”
He was avoiding the big question, almost afraid to ask. The elevator reached the penthouse and he led Gebhart into the kitchen. “I have a cook,” he said, “but she won’t be here until seven. I’m sure we can scrounge up something. How about a steak and some eggs?”
“Such a lot of trouble.”
“Peel off the coat and grab a chair. It’s no trouble at all. I can scramble a mean egg and burn a steak.”
Keegan opened two bottles of German pilsner and put one in front of Gebhart. Gebhart reached into his duffel bag and took out a package. He laid it on the table and slid it in front of Keegan.
“From Avrum.”
Keegan picked it up. It was flat, about the thickness, size and shape of a sheet of typewriter paper and bound with twine. He held it in both hands for a moment as if it were emitting some kind of psychic energy.
“All right, how about Jenny?” Keegan finally asked as he reached into a drawer, took out a pair of scissors and cut the string.
“It’s ... probably . . . in the letter,” Gebhart answered haltingly.
Keegan stared at him but Gebhart averted his look, stared down at the beer bottle, took a long swig of beer.
“Werner?”
His visitor stared slowly back up into his eyes.
“Is she dead, Werner?”
The moment seemed to poise in the air before Gebhart finally said
“Yes”
and stared away again.
Keegan said nothing. In his heart, he had
known she was gone. He felt no tears, no numbing pain of reality. He felt only outrage and the galvanic anger which had consumed him for almost five years. He looked down at the table, nodded very slowly. There was very little expression on his face. He remembered what Beerbohm had said once about getting even. But how? There was no way to really get even. Get even with whom? That was part of the frustration, there was no one to fight, no one to take on.
“I am sorry,” Gebhart whispered.
Keegan sat down and held the unopened package tightly between his two hands, then he put it back down on the table.
“Excuse me a minute,” he said in a voice that was just above a whisper. He walked over to the sink and, holding cupped hands under the tap, splashed his face with cold water. He sat back down at the table, his hands splayed out on either side of the package, staring at it.
“I’m sorry for you, too, Gebhart.”
“Why, Ire?”
“Because you were in love with her too. It was obvious—the way you talked about her, the way you looked when you spoke her name, your concern. Your obvious dislike of me. You did love her, didn’t you, Werner?”
The German did not answer for a full minute. The lines in his face seemed to grow harder. Then he shrugged and smiled for the first time.
“Ire, I fell in love with Jenny the first time I saw her,” Gebhart said softly. “I was fourteen and she was seventeen. Her family moved to the house next door. Avrum and I became best friends but she always loved me as sister to brother, so that is what she was, my good friend. My good, good friend. But I do understand how you must feel, Ire. To hope for so long
“I gave up hope a long time ago,” Keegan said. “But I kept hanging on to a fantasy.”
He went to the stove, cracked two eggs on the griddle and threw the steak on beside them. He put bread in the oven to make toast. When it was all ready, he put the food on a plate and set it in front of his visitor.
“Coffee? Milk? Anything else?”
“This is quite grand,” Gebhart said. “The food on the ship was . . less than desirable.”
“So,” Keegan said, sitting across from him. “Can you tell me what happened?”
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