"Do you believe someone like me can find redemption?" he asked.
"Yes."
Her words caused his armor to shatter. Could it be true?
"Have you found peace with Wesley? With your marriage?"
She nodded. "He left me a long time ago. In spirit, anyway."
"Wesley didn't value what he had. I will."
"I know."
In that moment Marcus knew exactly what he wanted for his future. Rebecca. He wanted the whole package—Ella and Colton too. The thought made his heart leap.
"Come with me," he said, tugging on her hand. "I have something to show you."
"What?"
"You'll see." He went to the closet and took out her jacket. "It's a little cool outside."
"We're going for a walk?"
Arizona let out a bark.
"Uh-oh," he said, grinning. "You said the magic word."
He leashed Arizona and they headed outside.
"This way," he said. "Last house on the left."
She gave a nervous laugh. "Sounds ominous."
They strolled arm in arm until they got to the end of the road.
"What's down there?" she asked, eyeing the woods.
"A ravine with a creek. It's quite pretty in the daylight. Not too safe at night though. Teens hang out there, smoking, doing drugs—unless I kick them out. I've been trying to clean up the riffraff."
"Does that tempt you—the drugs?"
"Some days."
She watched him with great intensity. "You're a very honest man, Marcus."
"I'm getting there."
"So what's this surprise you're talking about?"
He pointed to the Victorian house with the lush gardens. "What do you think?"
"It's beautiful. Very well kept. Charming." She faced him, still looking unsure. "Do you know the owner?"
"I did. Mrs. Landry died a few weeks ago. The house is for sale. What comes to mind when you look at it?"
She smiled. "That's easy. It's close to the highway, but near a ravine. It would make a perfect bed and breakfast."
"That's what I was thinking."
He stared into her eyes, caught up in the churning emotions he saw there. Happiness. Excitement. Doubt.
"I don't know, Marcus…"
"I do." He grabbed her hands and kissed them. "For the first time in a long time, I know exactly what I want."
They stood in silence, too afraid to speak. Too scared they'd ruin the moment―and all the possibilities.
"Don't you think we're rushing things?" she asked.
"Do you?"
"Strangely…no." She lifted her face and he kissed her.
"I saw Jane and Ryan a few nights ago," he said. "In my dreams."
She hugged him tight. "Was it terrible?"
"No. They came to say good-bye. She said they're both at peace now and want the same for me."
"Marcus?" Rebecca said in a hesitant voice. "There's something I haven't told you. About Jane."
"What?"
"Right before Tracey Whitaker visited my hospital room, I heard a woman's voice. She was comforting me, telling me to stay calm. That same voice visited me when Walter came to my house and tried to kill me."
"You think it was Jane?" he said.
"Who else could it be? You said you keep seeing her, so why would it be so weird if I heard her?"
He didn't know what to say.
They strolled back to his house in quiet reflection. Instead of going inside, he led her around to the backyard. "Wait here. I'll be right back."
Inside, he retrieved the wooden box from its hiding place. Then he headed outside, where he opened the box and showed her its contents. The drugs, the needle. His shame, his guilt. The latter two poured from the box, invisible yet potent.
"It's time for me to let go of this," he said.
He set the box in the fire pit. Removing a lighter from his pocket, he lit the kindling beneath the box and they stood a few feet away, watching it smolder, sizzle and burn.
"I spent a long time hiding from the truth," he said. "I was good at that. Hiding things. Submerging myself in guilt."
Rebecca took his hand. "You never have to hide from me."
He kissed her again, pondering the complexity of fate. In his search to find Rebecca and her children, she had found him. And now the world opened to him with all its infinite possibilities.
~ * ~
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And now here's an excerpt from Cheryl's international bestselling thriller, CHILDREN OF THE FOG…
prologue
May 14th, 2007
She was ready to die.
She sat at the kitchen table, a half empty bottle of Philip's precious red wine in one hand, a loaded gun in the other. Staring at the foreign chunk of metal, she willed it to vanish. But it didn't.
Sadie checked the gun and noted the single bullet.
"One's all you need."
If she did it right.
She placed the gun on the table and glanced at a pewter-framed photograph that hung off-kilter above the mantle of the fireplace. It was illuminated by a vanilla-scented candle, one of many that threw flickering shadows over the rough wood walls of the log cabin.
Sam's sweet face stared back at her, smiling.
Alive.
From where she sat, she could see the small chip in his right front tooth, the result of an impatient father raising the training wheels too early. But there was no point in blaming Philip—not when they'd both lost so much.
Not when it's all my fault.
Her gaze swept over the mantle. There were three objects on it besides the candle. Two envelopes, one addressed to Leah and one to Philip, and the portfolio case that contained the illustrations and manuscript on disc for Sam's book.
She had finished it, just like she had promised.
"And promises can't be broken. Right, Sam?"
A single tear burned a path down her cheek.
Sam was gone.
What reason do I have for living now?
She gulped back the last pungent mouthful of Cabernet and dropped the empty bottle. It rolled under the chair, unbroken, rocking on the hardwood floor. Then all was silent, except the antique grandfather clock in the far corner. Its ticking reminded her of the clown's shoe. The one with the tack in it.
Tick, tick, tick…
The clock belched out an ominous gong.
It was almost midnight.
Almost time.
She drew an infinity symbol in the dust on the table.
∞
"Sadie and Sam. For all eternity."
Gong…
She swallowed hard as tears flooded her eyes. "I'm sorry I couldn't save you, baby. I tried to. God, I tried. Forgive me, Sam." Her words ended in a gut-wrenching moan.
Something scraped the window beside her.
She pressed her face to the frosted glass, then jerked back with a gasp. "Go away!"
They stood motionless—six children that drifted from the swirling miasma of night air, haunting her nights and every waking moment. Surrounded by the moonlit fog, they began to chant. "One fine day, in the middle of the night…"
"You're not real," she whispered.
"Two dead boys got up to fight."
A small, pale hand splayed against the exterior of the window. Below it, droplets of condensation slid like tears down the glass.
She reached out, matching her hand to the child's. Shivering, she pulled away. "You don't exist."
The clock continued its morbid countdown.
As the alcohol and drug potpourri kicked in, the room began to spin and her stomach heaved. She inhaled deeply. She
couldn't afford to get sick. Sam was waiting for her.
Tears spilled down her cheeks. "I'm ready."
Gong…
Without hesitation, she raised the gun to her temple.
"Don't!" the children shrieked.
She pressed the gun against her flesh. The tip of the barrel was cold. Like her hands, her feet...her heart.
A sob erupted from the back of her throat.
The clock let out a final gong. Then it was deathly silent.
It was midnight.
Her eyes found Sam's face again.
"Happy Mother's Day, Sadie."
She took a steadying breath, pushed the gun hard against her skin and clamped her eyes shut.
"Mommy's coming, Sam."
She squeezed the trigger.
1
March 30th, 2007
Sadie O'Connell let out a snicker as she stared at the price tag on the toy in her hand. "What did they stuff this with, laundered money?" She tossed the bunny back into the bin and turned to the tall, leggy woman beside her. "What are you getting Sam for his birthday?"
Her best friend gave her a cocky grin. "What should I get him? Your kid's got everything already."
"Don't even go there, my friend."
But Leah was right. Sadie and Philip spoiled Sam silly. Why shouldn't they? They had waited a long time for a baby. Or at least, she had. After two miscarriages, Sam's birth had been nothing short of a miracle. A miracle that deserved to be spoiled.
Leah groaned loudly. "Christ, it's a goddamn zoo in here."
Toyz & Twirlz in West Edmonton Mall was crawling with overzealous customers. The first major sale of the spring season always brought people out in droves. Frazzled parents swarmed the toy store, swatting their wayward brood occasionally—the way you'd swat a pesky yellowjacket at a barbecue. One distressed father hunted the aisles for his son, who had apparently taken off on him as soon as his back was turned. In every aisle, parents shouted at their kids, threatening, cajoling, pleading and then predictably giving in.
"So who let the animals out?" Sadie said, surveying the store.
The screeching wheels of shopping carts and the constant whining of overtired toddlers were giving her a headache. She wished to God she'd stayed home.
"Excuse me."
A plump woman with frizzy, over-bleached hair gave Sadie an apologetic look. She navigated past them, pushing a stroller occupied by a miniature screaming alien. A few feet away, she stopped, bent down and wiped something that looked like curdled rice pudding from the corner of the child's mouth.
Sadie turned to Leah. "Thank God Sam's past that stage."
At five years old—soon to be six—her son was the apple of her eye. In fact, he was the whole darned tree. A lanky imp of a boy with tousled black hair, sapphire-blue eyes and perfect bow lips, Sam was the spitting image of his mother and the exact opposite of his father in temperament. While Sam was sweet natured, gentle and loving, Philip was impatient and distant. So distant that he rarely said I love you anymore.
She stared at her wedding ring. What happened to us?
But she knew what had happened. Philip's status as a trial lawyer had grown, more money had poured in and fame had gone to his head. He had changed. The man she had fallen in love with, the dreamer, had gone. In his place was someone she barely knew, a stranger who had decided too late that he didn't want kids.
Or a wife.
"How about this?" Leah said, nudging her.
Sadie stared at the yellow dump truck. "Fill it with a stuffed bat and Sam will think it's awesome."
Her son's fascination with bats was almost comical. The television was always tuned in to the Discovery Channel while her son searched endlessly for any show on the furry animals.
"What did Phil the Pill get him?" Leah asked dryly.
"A new Leap Frog module."
"I still can't believe the things that kid can do."
Sadie grinned. "Me neither."
Sam's mind was a sponge. He absorbed information so fast that he only had to be shown once. His powers of observation were so keen that he had learned how to unlock the door just by watching Sadie do it, so Philip had to add an extra deadbolt at the top. By the time Sam was three, he had figured out the remote control and the DVD player. Sadie still had problems turning on the TV.
Sam…my sweet, wonderful, little genius.
"Maybe I'll get him a movie," Leah said. "How about Batman Begins?"
"He's turning six, not sixteen."
"Well, what do I know? I don't have kids."
At thirty-four, Leah Winters was an attractive, willowy brunette with wild multi-colored streaks, thick-lashed hazel eyes, a flirty smile and a penchant for younger men. While Sadie's pale face had a scattering of tiny freckles across the bridge of her nose and cheekbones, Leah's complexion was tanned and clear.
She'd been Sadie's best friend for eight years—soul sistahs. Ever since the day she had emailed Sadie out of the blue to ask questions about writing and publishing. They'd met at Book Ends, a popular Edmonton bookstore, for what Leah had expected would be a quick coffee. Their connection was so strong and so immediate that they talked for almost five hours. They still joked about it, about how Leah had thought Sadie was some hotshot writer who wouldn't give her the time of day. Yet Sadie had given her more. She'd given Leah a piece of her heart.
A rugged, handsome Colin Farrell look-alike passed them in the aisle, and Leah stared after him, eyes glittering.
"I'll take one of those," she said with a soft growl. "To go."
"You won't find Mr. Right in a toy store," Sadie said dryly. "They're usually all taken. And somehow I don't think you're gonna find him at Karma either."
Klub Karma was a popular nightclub on Whyte Avenue. It boasted the best ladies' night in Edmonton, complete with steroid-muscled male strippers. Leah was a regular.
"And why not?"
Sadie rolled her eyes. "Because Karma is packed with sweaty, young puppies who are only interested in one thing."
Leah gave her a blank look.
"Getting laid," Sadie added. "Honestly, I don't know what you see in that place."
"What, are you daft?" Leah arched her brow and grinned devilishly. "I'm chalking it up to my civil duty. Someone's gotta show these young guys how it's done."
"Someone should show Philip," Sadie muttered.
"Why—can't he get it up?"
"Jesus, Leah!"
"Well? Fess up."
"Later maybe. When we stop for coffee."
Leah glanced at her watch. "We going to our usual place?"
"Of course. Do you think Victor would forgive us if we went to any other coffee shop?"
Leah chuckled. "No. He'd start skimping on the whipped cream if we turned traitor. So what are you getting Sam?"
"I'll know it when I see it. I'm waiting for a sign."
"You're always such a sucker for this fate thing."
Sadie shrugged. "Sometimes you have to have faith that things will work out."
They continued down the aisle, both searching for something for the sweetest boy they knew. When Sadie spotted the one thing she was sure Sam would love, she let out a hoot and gave Leah an I-told-you-so look.
"This bike is perfect. Since his birthday is actually on Monday, I'll give it to him then. He'll get enough things from his friends at his party on Sunday anyway."
Little did she know that Sam wouldn't see his bike.
He wouldn't be around to get it.
"Haven't seen you two all week," Victor Guan said. "Another day and I would've called nine-one-one."
"It's been a busy week," Sadie replied, plopping her purse on the counter. "How's business, Victor?"
"Picking up again with this cold snap."
The young Chinese man owned the Cuppa Cappuccino a few blocks from Sadie's house. The coffee shop had a gas fireplace, a relaxed ambiance and often featured local musicians like Jessy Green and Alexia Melnychuk. Not only did Victor serve the best homemade soup
s and feta Caesar salad, the mocha lattés were absolutely sinful.
Leah made a beeline for the washroom. "You know what I want."
Sadie ordered a Chai and a mocha.
"You see that fog this morning?" Victor asked.
"Yeah, I drove Sam to school in it. I could barely see the car in front of me."
She shivered and Victor gave her a concerned look.
"Cat walk over your grave or something?" he asked.
"No, I'm just tired of winter."
She grabbed a newspaper from the rack and headed for the upper level. The sofa by the fireplace was unoccupied, so she sat down and tossed the newspaper on the table.
The headline on the front page made her gasp.
The Fog Strikes Again!
Her breath felt constricted. "Oh God. Not another one."
A photograph of a blond-haired, blue-eyed girl sitting on concrete steps dominated the front page. Eight-year-old Cortnie Bornyk, from the north side of Edmonton, was missing. According to the newspaper, the girl had disappeared in the middle of the night. No sign of forced entry and no evidence as to who had taken her, but investigators were sure it was the same man who had taken the others.
Sadie opened the newspaper to page three, where the story continued. She empathized with the girl's father, a single dad who had left Ontario to find construction work in Edmonton. Matthew Bornyk had moved here to make a better life. Not a bad decision, considering that the housing market was booming. But now he was pleading for the safe return of his daughter.
"Here you go," Victor said, setting two mugs on the table.
"Thanks," she said, without looking up.
Her eyes were glued to the smaller photo of Bornyk and his daughter. The man had a smile plastered across his face, while his daughter was frozen in a silly pose, tongue hanging out the side of her mouth.
Daddy's little girl, Sadie thought sadly.
Leah flopped into an armchair beside her. "Who's the hunk?"
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