by Janet Woods
Rosemary forced a smile to her face. How dare this common little man be so personal?
‘Get off with you then, Florrie. Don’t be long, else Joseph will wonder where you are.’
‘Let him wonder. He’s gone off to look at a house for sale, so he’ll be ages, I expect. Mr Richard left him one thousand pounds in his will,’ she said, sounding self-important. ‘That will set us up nicely.’
They went into the café a little way up the road and Rosemary ordered tea and cakes.
‘So, Livia is having a baby, is she? Such a shame when she’s lost her husband.’
Florence selected a lemon curd tart. ‘She knew he was dying when she married him. As for the baby . . .’ She looked around her and lowered her voice. ‘I reckon she’s further gone than she’s letting on . . . but we’ll see.’
‘Never.’
‘It was a quick wedding with a special license . . . though if you ask me, Richard Sangster didn’t look as though he could find the energy to father a child, poor bugger.’
With a bit of prodding, Florence told Rosemary all she wanted to hear. That most of it was supposition didn’t bother her.
‘I don’t suppose you’d put that in writing, would you?’
‘In writing?’ Florence looked dubious. ‘I can’t read and write very well. It would take me a month of Sundays. Besides, I gave a statement to that lawyer fellow.’
Rosemary seized on that. ‘He needs another one. Look . . . I’ll write it for you and read it back to you. Then you can sign it. You do know how to sign your name, don’t you?’
‘Course I do . . . the doctor taught me. And talking of doctors, we thought it was young Doctor Elliot Livia were after. He looked ever so disappointed when he came home and found she’d married the captain. And at Richard’s party the pair of them stood behind the potted plant. Very close they were, and whispering together . . . like lovers.’
Like most gossips, Florence didn’t know when to stop.
‘It was observant of you to see that, Florence dear. Why don’t you eat that last cake while I’m doing this? Oh, by the way, I’ll pay you five pounds for your trouble.’
Florence’s eyes began to gleam as Rosemary took out a notebook and pen and began to write.
Sixteen
Chad arrived home from school flushed with the success of his second term of exams. A pity he didn’t have Richard to share it with, Livia thought. It fell on herself and Doctor Elliot to lavish praise on him after he proudly showed off his report.
Denton telephoned to congratulate him one evening, and they had a short, mostly one-sided conversation, with Chad chattering about school, cricket teams and other manly pursuits. Their parents would have been proud of him . . . but then, Chad couldn’t remember a time when he had parents, and now the male influence of Richard had gone it looked as though Denton would be the one to bear the brunt of his youthful exuberance.
‘When are you coming home, Doctor Denton?’ Chad said at last, and his glance turned her way. ‘Yes, Livia is here. Did you want to speak to her?’
Indeed she was there, hovering by the telephone and impatient to hear his voice.
He sounded far away, and rather remote when he said, ‘Livia, how are you keeping?’
‘Apart from feeling rather fat, I’m well. You?’
A low chuckle reached her ear. ‘Well, but rushed off my feet . . . in fact, I’ve only got a few minutes before I’m due to go to the theatre.’
‘I won’t keep you then. Thank you for remembering Chad. I appreciate it, and I know he does.’
‘I’m proud of him and the progress he’s making, and I’m sure Richard would have been. Chad is certainly proving his worth in our sponsorship of him. I’m surprised to hear that you moved back into the cottage, though. I thought you and Richard wanted the baby to be born in Foxglove House.’
So he hadn’t heard about the challenge to Richard’s will. She didn’t want to burden him with her troubles. ‘Richard wanted it more than I did. He said the Sinclair heir should be born there. Personally, I like living in Nutting Cottage, and so do the children. It feels more like home to us.’
‘Whereas Richard always regarded Foxglove House as his home.’
‘Yes . . . he did, and he was used to having space around him, and servants. Coming up from the ranks of those servants, I didn’t feel all that comfortable being elevated to mistress.’
‘You wouldn’t have known it.’ There was a short pause, then he lowered his voice and said, ‘Honestly now . . . are you looking after yourself, my love.’
‘I’m doing my best to get used to being . . . alone.’
‘I wish I could be there for you.’
There was a woman’s voice in the background. It sounded like Bernice. ‘What are you doing, Denton? Do hurry up.’
‘I’m talking to Mrs Sangster and her brother.’
‘Oh that’s too bad of you when we’re already late, darling. Give Livia my best wishes, and don’t let her keep you too long, else we’ll be late for curtain up and the opening act.’
Livia had assumed he’d meant the hospital theatre. She felt sick at heart, even though she knew she had no right to be, ‘I have to take Bertie for a walk while it’s still light. I hope you enjoy the play, Denton.’
‘Don’t go, my sweet, it’s so lovely to talk to you and a few minutes more won’t make any difference.’
They would. They would lull her into thinking he’d be as forgiving and generous about the baby’s parentage as Richard had been. Even if she could lie well enough to fool Denton, and even if the birth of her child fell within a credible range, she didn’t want to deceive him. He’d never forgive her if he found out, and once this baby was born it wouldn’t take him long to realize that all was not as she’d have him believe. And she wouldn’t have Richard to defend the lie.
‘I must go Denton . . . and so must you. Will you hang the receiver up first, or shall I?’
‘I will.’
There was silence and she whispered into it, ‘Denton, are you still there?’
He laughed. ‘I’m always here for you my pheasant-feathered friend. I just wanted to listen to you breathe. Now I am going to hang up.’
A giggle escaped from her just before a definite click told her he’d gone.
Bernice sighed as Denton hung up. ‘It was unforgivable to keep the Harrisons waiting.’
He pulled on his gloves. ‘Don’t be silly, Bernie. Some things take precedence.’
‘Especially good-looking young widows called Livia Sangster. Good grief, where’s your sense of decency? Her husband is barely cold in his grave, and she’s expecting a baby at any minute.’
‘Hardly. The child is two months away.’
Bernice snorted. ‘Earlier, I’d say. She was showing signs at the end of June.’
‘I didn’t notice.’
‘You’re a man, you wouldn’t have.’
‘My father said the baby is due around the end of November or early December. Livia has only been married since March,’ he pointed out. ‘She’s had a rough time of it lately. Richard was my best friend. He’d expect me to take care of her.’
Bernice snorted. ‘But not in the way you want to take care of her.’
He sighed. ‘Are you going to be disagreeable all evening?’
‘What do you expect? A woman likes her escort to pay her attention, not spend the evening wearing his heart on his sleeve for another woman.’
He didn’t bother to deny it. ‘Yes, I suppose she does. May I point out that we only exchanged a few words on the telephone.’
‘Oh, don’t sound so stuffy. You and I have an understanding, and I’ll hold you to that.’
‘An understanding?’
‘Why else would we be going out together for all this time? My parents want to know when I’m getting married, or at least engaged.’
He supposed he might have given her the impression that they had an understanding, and he’d certainly taken advantage of what she’d freely made available.
But she’d known her way about a man, and hadn’t been an innocent. He couldn’t remember indicating that they might marry. He’d never even met her parents. He’d started going out with her when he’d learned that Richard and Livia had married.
He thought about that now, remembering his shock at hearing the news of the marriage, and the sense of betrayal he’d experienced. That had quickly become anger. He hadn’t expected his best friend to steal Livia from under his nose.
The marriage had happened fast. Too fast. Not even the staff had known a wedding was going to take place until it happened. The event was out of place with Richard’s character, because he’d always loved being the centre of attention. At first Denton had wondered if Richard’s money had attracted Livia, but he’d dismissed that as an unworthy thought. Seeing them together, there was no doubt in his mind that Richard and Livia had adored each other.
She’d provided Richard with an heir for the Sinclair legacy. That had surprised him. He remembered Richard’s injuries. The chance of his friend fathering a child had been very slim, yet he had managed it!
Worse had been the conviction that Livia had cared for him, then the discovery that she didn’t. His eyes narrowed. Damn it, she did care for him. He knew it.
Bernice slid an arm through his and kissed his cheek. ‘You’re gathering wool, darling. Come on, slow coach. I’m sorry I was cross. We needn’t go to the theatre if you don’t want to.’ Her voice was placating, but the impatience not very far from the surface.
‘Of course I want to go.’ The alternative was to spend the evening in Bernice’s exclusive company, which wasn’t very appealing when she was in a fractious mood.
The same could not be said for Livia. He’d crawl a hundred miles to spend an evening in solitude with her, whatever her mood. But it was much too soon to make an approach. She wouldn’t be over Richard’s death yet, and had the birth of her baby to adjust to.
He’d need to straighten Bernice out about their relationship, and conceded that she had a right to know where she stood. But she didn’t have the right to take marriage for granted. It was something he didn’t want to think about now. He wanted to relive in his mind the short conversation he’d had with Livia.
‘Denton, are you still there?’ she’d said, as cautious as a mouse emerging from its hole. And she’d given a delightful giggle when he’d answered. He smiled.
Bernice broke into his thoughts like an abrasive shriek of chalk on a blackboard. ‘Well, are we damned well going or not? Really, Denton, you’re so annoying at times. You’re standing there like a wooden donkey nailed to the floor.’
Ah . . . love. The fool it made of a man, he thought.
When he patted her hand and he-hawed in reply, Bernice laughed, like he knew she would. ‘Come on, let’s go. We still have time to get there before curtain up, if we hurry.’
Chad went back to school and autumn came with its riot of glorious colours and flying leaves. The climate was mild and Livia mostly sat in the sitting room, looking out over the garden and making clothes for the baby.
Her layette had grown, and it seemed impossible that a child could be so small as to fit into the miniature garments.
Mrs Anstruther looked in on her every other day, and Matthew Bugg did the same on alternate days.
While the world turned its efforts towards winter production, Matthew Bugg did wonderful things in the garden. The shoots of winter vegetables began to spear through the earth, while the boughs of apple, pear and plum trees were weighed down. The fruit was taken away and reappeared as bottled preserves. They filled the pantry shelves in orderly coloured rows, wearing labels and frilly hats. If she ran out of money she and Esmé would still be able to eat.
Livia’s stomach ballooned and she became lethargic. She missed her clinic appointment and Dr Elliot came to check on her.
‘I forgot about it.’
He checked her over and listened to the baby’s heartbeat through a cold metal horn placed on her stomach. ‘The baby’s head has engaged and it could put in an appearance at any time over the next six weeks. I’ll tell the midwife to expect the baby sooner rather than later. It’s not a big baby, so you shouldn’t have any trouble giving birth.’
She didn’t bother looking for an excuse, just said, ‘Thank you, Doctor Elliot. Whatever you think is best.’
‘Have you got everything ready for the birthing?’
She smiled at him. ‘Yes . . . the midwife gave me a list.’
He took her hands in his. ‘You’ve been through a great deal lately, Livia. Are you able to cope, do you think?’
Tears pricked her eyes. ‘I feel sad, I think. It’s as if the world has revolved too fast and my happiness has spun off into the sky like Fairy Floss.’
‘It sounds as though you need some company.’
‘I have Esmé. And Mrs Anstruther visits me every other day.’
‘Esmé is a dear girl, and Mrs Anstruther is a very nice woman. The child will bring some joy back into your life, I promise.’
She doubted it, and felt guilty at being so negative. ‘Would you like some tea?’
‘I haven’t time for one. A cool drink would be welcomed.’
‘I have some lemon barley water in the larder. Mrs Anstruther made it. Richard used to like lemon barley. He told me it would be good for the baby if I drank a glass a day.’
‘He was right. You mustn’t dwell on Richard, m’dear. It won’t bring him back.’
‘I know, and I mustn’t bother you with my troubles either, you’re busy enough as it is.’ She managed a strained smile as they went into the kitchen together. ‘Have you heard from Denton lately?’
‘Yesterday. He sent his best wishes, and hopes to get down for a weekend before too long. I imagine he’ll bring Bernice with him. She seems to have become a permanent fixture in his life. We’ve never known him to attach himself to one woman for such a long time. Helen thinks they might be engaged by Christmas.’
Livia’s heart turned to ice at such a prospect.
The birth date grew nearer, and the baby filled her with roundness, so she waddled rather than walked.
The last of the golden harvest had all been gathered in and the fields were as stubbled as an old man’s chin. Then the stubble was tilled into brown ridges of earth, and early morning spread them with frost.
At the beginning of October her heart warmed again when Bertie did his usual dance at the front door and she opened it to find Beamish on the doorstep. Connie Starling was with him. She carried a suitcase.
Beamish had a box in his arms, and shuffled from one foot to the other. ‘We . . . that is, Connie and I don’t feel right leaving you here to cope all by yourself. We reckoned you might need somebody to look after you until you’re over the birth, and Connie said it was going to be her.’
The cook was wearing a hat with a bluebird nesting on it. ‘Just say if you want us to go away,’ she said.
Livia began to weep; she couldn’t help it.
Connie took charge. ‘There, that’s what I thought. I said so to Florence. She’ll be moping all by herself, and her with no husband to turn to. Put that in the kitchen and go and fetch the other box of groceries, Beamish, while I mop up her tears.
‘There, there,’ Connie said, taking her in a hug. ‘Don’t you worry about anything. I’ll look after you.’
Esmé was pleased to see the cook and gave her a hug, too. ‘You can sleep in Chad’s room for now if you like,’ she offered.
‘Just for the time being. You never know what you’ll find lurking in boys’ rooms, and he’ll need it when he comes home. I thought I’d sort the junk room out. It’s about time somebody did. You can help me if you like. The village usually has a bonfire on Guy Fawkes Night. If we put everything not worth saving out it will be picked up.’
Much to Livia’s relief, Connie soon had them organized, and her company kept her mind from her own predicament.
The infant decided to help her in her quest to deceive, by convenientl
y arriving two weeks late.
She and Connie had spent the morning picking the last of the blackberries from the bramble bush at the end of the garden. They were to make some jam to help see them through winter.
‘Now you watch where you step. I don’t want you to fall on your belly in the middle of the bramble patch, else I’ll never get you up,’ Connie had warned.
October had brought sudden flurries of chilly breath with it, which set the multicoloured leaves swirling into the sky. Spotted red toadstools grew amongst the damp mosses in the roots of trees, and the hawthorn was hung with flaming berries.
The babe had been quiet inside her for the past few days. The delay had taken it well past its proper birth date, which had been two weeks earlier. Livia had a niggling worry that it might not be alive. She telephoned the midwife.
‘Quite normal,’ the midwife said cheerfully. ‘It’s just having a rest. Usually it means that the birth is imminent . . . but you still have a while to go before it’s due, don’t you? Don’t worry, Mrs Sangster, it’s just being lazy . . . though the doctor thinks it’s going to be an early birth.’
Connie made the jam and the cottage was filled with the smell of boiling blackberries.
Backache niggled at Livia all the next day, and she was glad to get to bed. She fell asleep immediately.
Pain woke her. It gathered force in her back and surged strongly into her stomach. She groaned.
A few minutes later, Connie appeared at her door. ‘Started, has it?’
Livia nodded.
‘I’ll go and ring the midwife, then I’ll dress and we’ll get both you and the bed ready. First babies take ages . . . or so I’ve been told.’
Esmé appeared, her hair tousled. ‘Why are all the lights on?’
‘The baby’s coming,’ Livia told her.
‘At two o’clock in the morning?’ Esmé groaned, but the sleep in her eyes had been replaced by excitement at the news. ‘Can I help? I won’t be able to sleep.’
‘You can make sure the dog and cat are kept out of the way, if you would, Es. I don’t want anyone tripping over them.’ She swung her legs out of bed and cautiously stood, cradling the bulk of the baby with her hands. Odd to think that in a few short hours this troublesome little creature would be born, and she’d be a mother.