I washed my hair with Lucien’s shampoo and then washed my body. I smoothed my hand over my stomach that sheltered our child.
Determined not to cry again, I turned the shower off and climbed out. I took as long as I could to dry and, finding Lucien’s robe behind the door, I quickly put it on and wrapped the towel around my hair.
I walked out of the bathroom and realized I hadn’t brought any clothes with me. I looked at the bed and found a pair of leggings and a t-shirt which I presumed Pippa had brought me.
I dressed quickly and walked out into the lounge area to find Pippa sitting at the table by the window eating breakfast.
“Do you feel better?” she asked.
I tried not to cry again. “A bit.” I walked over to the table and took a seat opposite her.
“I wasn’t sure what you like to eat, so I ordered a few things.” She stood up. “Let me pour you a coffee.” My stomach rebelled.
“I think I’ll stick to the orange juice, but thank you.”
She looked at me funny and took her seat again while I slowly sipped the juice. My stomach growled, which made Pippa laugh.
“What would you like to eat, Lily?”
“I’ll just have the fruit for now, please.”
She passed me a bowl with strawberries, melon, grapes and orange slices in it, which managed to slide down my throat rather well considering the huge lump stuck there.
“Lily,” she said in a questioning voice, “Michael can be an idiot at times. I don’t know what’s happened between the two of you, but I want you to know that in his thirty-six years, he’s never been in love before, until now. He was hurt badly with what Viv did to him. Has he talked about her?”
I nodded.
“She was a wicked woman who he married thinking with his dick instead of his head and heart.”
I laughed, stunned that she would say ‘dick’.
“Viv never touched his heart and no one else has. I’m guessing it’s something Michael’s done that made you run to Lucien, but please be patient with him while he works everything out.”
“I’m pregnant,” I blurted out.
She was stunned. “You are?”
“Yes, the doctor thinks I conceived about three weeks ago.” The tears started rolling down my face again. “I told Michael and within seconds he was ordering me out of his house. Why would he do that? I think Lucien knows, but he said he had to talk to Michael first. Do you know why?”
Pippa had tears on her face. “Are you sure that’s how far along you are?”
I looked at her funny. First Lucien asked me this question, and now their mother. Why? I was starting to get pissed.
“Yes, I’m sure, or rather the doctor was sure after giving me a sonogram.” I stood up and started pacing. “David had a vasectomy four years ago, plus I haven’t slept with him since I met Michael. The only person I’ve slept with is Michael. Now why did both you and Lucien ask me that question? Please tell me, Pippa.”
She shook her head. “You need to talk to Michael.”
Then it hit me. I knew why. “He thinks he can’t have children. I’m right, aren’t I?”
Pippa just nodded.
“Why though? Why would he think that? And surly me telling him that I’m pregnant would have made him jump for joy rather than kick me….”
I didn’t finish as a thought struck me. Did he think I’d been unfaithful to him?
I felt the color drain out of me as I sat back down rather abruptly. I felt sick to my stomach. How the hell could he think that?
Pippa just looked at me with an odd expression on her face. “He thinks I’ve been unfaithful to him, doesn’t he?”
“Maybe,” she whispered.
“How could he think that? I love him. I’ve only ever slept with two men in my life, David and then Michael.”
I stood up and stormed to the bedroom to find my purse. If Michael thought I’d been unfaithful to him, he was going to get a piece of my mind. I started to cry heavily and lay on the bed with my face buried into a pillow.
“Lily,” Pippa whispered. I felt her climb on the bed with me and then she pulled me into her arms.
“How could he think that? I’ve never looked at another guy until Michael came along,” I sniffled, “he’s all I want. I never gave David my heart, but I gave it to Michael. I can’t believe….”
I couldn’t talk anymore because of my tears.
Chapter 60
~~ MICHAEL ~~
On the way to the hotel, I prayed for the first time in a long time, that Lily would accept my apology and explanation. I was the world’s biggest idiot for acting the way I had. Yes, I’d been burned in the past, but I knew Lily and I knew she wouldn’t do anything like I’d first imagined.
When she’d blurted out that she was pregnant, it had been such a shock, I couldn’t even think straight. I’d reacted thinking the worst possible thing and then it took Lucien asking questions last night for my head to get screwed on right.
I had the engagement ring in my pocket and was prepared to beg if I had to. All I knew was that losing her wasn’t an option.
Lucien kept looking at me through the corner of his eye. It started to give me a complex. I knew I didn’t look my best. Unable to sleep last night, I’d sat in the ‘cave’ with the television on, watching what, I couldn’t tell you, and thought about Lily. I’d thought back over the past twenty-five days and how fulfilled my life had been.
“Michael, I think you should have shaved before leaving this morning,” Lucien stated.
“All I want to do is be with Lily. If I’d shaved it would have taken even longer to leave…. I need to see her. Hold her. Tell her what a bloody idiot I am and hope to god she forgives me, because I really don’t know what I’ll do if she refuses. Shit, you don’t think she’ll refuse to listen to me, accept my apology, do you?”
Lucien parked the car then turned to look at me. “I don’t think she’ll give up on you, but if she plays tough after what you said to her, then all I can say is that you deserve it. Come on, let’s go.”
We both climbed out of the car and made our way into the hotel. We got a few stares in the lobby, but I didn’t care. Lucien shoved me into the elevator and that’s when I caught sight of myself.
“Fuck.” I ran my hands through my hair and tried to straighten it a bit. There was no hope for my shirt, which was very badly wrinkled. The jeans weren’t too bad. You could always rely on denim.
Outside the room I was terrified. Whatever I said inside that room would make or break my relationship with Lily, if I hadn’t already done so.
I raised my hand to knock, when Lucien used his key card to open the door. “I told mom I’d let myself in when I got back. She might be in the bedroom with Lily.”
He pushed the door open, but there was no Lily in the room. Lucien pointed to a door to the left of the room. “The bedroom’s through there.” I stood there, not able to move. Lucien sighed. “Michael, mom probably knows I’m back. Get in there and talk to Lily.”
With a shove from my brother, I walked to the bedroom door and knocked before I could turn tail.
The door opened slightly and my mom stepped out.
“She cried herself to sleep. What’s really going on, Michael?” She took my face between her hands and kissed my cheek before hugging me really tight. Then she let me go and just stared at me. “I don’t believe there’s been anyone else since she met you. She’s too heartbroken.”
I wiped a stray tear away. “There hasn’t been. I know that and I should have known that when she told me about the baby. I just heard the word pregnant and didn’t think. I love her mom, so damn much.” Christ, I was so close to breaking down. Could I be anymore pathetic?
Mom opened the bedroom door for me and in I walked, stopping to watch Lily sleep on the bed. She was beautiful, but I could see the dark circles under her eyes that I’d caused. All I wanted to do was climb onto the bed with her and hold her so I could tell her how much I loved her,
how sorry I was.
“Michael?”
“Yeah,” I croaked, “it’s me, love.” She sat up on the bed and looked sexy as hell. I sat on the side of the bed near her.
She moved closer to me.
“God, Lily. I don’t know where to start.” I caressed her face as she melted into my palm. She turned her face and kissed my palm. That kiss filled my heart with hope. Perhaps all wasn’t lost. I sure as hell hoped it wasn’t. “Will you just listen to what I have to say before you ask anything?”
She sat back on the bed and nodded.
“Oh, boy.” I moved closer to her and took her hands into mine, then she met my eyes. “Before I do, I need you to know that I love you with all my heart.” Her tears started to leak out from her eyes. I couldn’t hold mine back anymore. “To hell with this.”
I stood up, climbed onto the bed and wrapped her in my arms. We melted against each other while she sobbed her heart out. I lay down on the bed and pulled her back into my arms.
“I’m so sorry, Lily. You have no idea how sorry I am. I was a bastard to you. I spoke first instead of using my brain. I need to tell you why,” I said. She looked up to me and probably noticed my face was covered with tears.
“I know why,” she whispered.
“You do?”
“I worked it out and I can’t believe you presumed that I’d been with someone else while I’ve been with you. That’s what I can’t get over. Please make me understand.”
I tucked her head beneath my chin and held her tight, fighting back my own tears.
“Viv wanted to have a baby. We tried for a while and nothing happened, so she arranged to have these tests done. A few days later I discovered she’d been having an affair. Not just one, but a few. I didn’t sleep with her from then on. When we got the results, she told me that I was the problem. I was an idiot and believed her. So all this time, I thought I would never be able to have a….”
I couldn’t finish. She held me tight and lifted her face to me then kissed my tears away.
“Lily, I’ll spend the rest of my life making it up to you, but please forgive me for how I reacted before. When you first said you were pregnant, all I could think about was that it wasn’t mine. I was hurt, so I lashed out at you. It took Lucien talking to me, for me to realize just how much of a bastard I was and to open my eyes to what Viv did.”
She kissed my eyes. She kissed my nose. She kissed my lips. “You hurt me Michael. I thought my heart was breaking, but I love you and knowing what you thought, explains why you reacted the way you did. You where upset, I can understand that, but how could you think I would be with someone else, when I have you? You’re all that I want and need.”
“Yeah, I thought that. I guess my hang up goes deep. My appointment yesterday wasn’t a meeting, it was at a jewelers. I planned on asking you to marry me last night, until I screwed everything up.”
“You were?” She was stunned. “Do you still want to ask me?” She smiled at me then my grin started to spread.
I climbed off the bed then knelt on one knee. She moved to sit in front of me. “Lily, I’m the biggest idiot going, but no one will ever love you as much as I do. I promise to never be such a jerk again and to never stop loving you and our children. You and our family will always come first. Will you marry me?”
She cried. “I love you, Michael, so much. Yes, I’ll marry you.” She threw her arms around my neck and the momentum sent us both tumbling to the floor.
Chapter 61
~~ LILY ~~
I was lying on the floor in Michael’s arms and I never wanted to leave them. I understood why he’d reacted the way he did. It still hurt, but not as much and I loved him too much to let it stay between us. I just held on to him.
We laughed and I looked into his eyes and became serious. “Michael, I love you. You’re the only one that I want. I can understand your hang-up because of what Viv did to you, but I can’t live with you mistrusting me because of her.”
“Lily, last night when I thought I’d really lost you and I realized just what I’d done, it hit me that I do trust you, and I don’t need to keep remembering what Viv did, because I now have the chance for new memories and I want them, with you.”
“You’ve turned me to mush,” I said then sealed my mouth to Michael’s. He opened his mouth and sucked my tongue into his. I wrapped my arms around his neck and held on. He really was my world.
His hands were on my t-shirt. He pulled it over my head. “Michael, we can’t. Not here.”
“Lucien has taken Mom out for breakfast.” He grinned.
I quickly stood and removed my leggings then climbed onto the bed.
“Fuck.” Michael jumped up from the floor, threw his clothes off and crawled onto the huge bed behind me. I was on all fours with my legs spread so he could see straight between my thighs.
He held my legs apart and licked between, then shoved his tongue into my sex. I moaned.
“Your pussy is soaked.” He put his mouth back on me. “Your clit is swollen.” He sucked it into his mouth. “Put your face on the bed and keep your ass in the air.” I did as I was told. He spread my legs wider and used his finger. He rubbed between my pussy lips and spread my juices up between my buttocks.
I couldn’t stay still and writhed under the onslaught of his fingers and mouth. My breasts rubbed against the bed while Michael had his mouth between my thighs. I felt like I was in sensory overload.
I cried out as I came hard with Michael’s tongue inside me and his fingers rubbing my clit. He wasn’t letting up and I could feel myself heading towards another climax when he moved from behind me and rolled me onto my back.
We were both breathing heavily. My pussy was so wet and Michael’s cock was huge and leaking like crazy with his arousal.
“I want you to taste yourself on me.” He slammed his mouth down to mine in the most erotic kiss of my life, which went on and on, while he rubbed his penis against my hip.
He pulled away and grabbed the belt from the robe I’d left on the chair by the side of the bed earlier. He looked at me and grinned. “Your turn.” He kissed me then took my right wrist and tied it to the headboard followed by my left.
I was all tied up when he sat back and admired his handy work. “You’re beautiful.” He moved in and started with a quick kiss to my lips, then moved to lick my neck and nibbled on my ear, which sent tingles all the way to my core.
As my breathing sped up, he moved down my body and caressed one of my breasts gently with his hand and played with my nipple. He took my other breast into his mouth and massaged my nipple with his tongue.
“You taste good,” he told me. I moaned and tried to touch him. “Behave. I’m going to love you good.”
He started licking down my stomach to my pubic bone while he caressed my sides, my hips, my thighs with his hands. I felt like I was about to internally combust.
“Your pussy is so sweet. It’s always wet and pulsing.”
“Only for you,” I ended up shouting when he put his mouth straight between my legs and kissed me as though he was kissing my mouth.
He quickly moved back up my body and nudged my legs open wider with his knees and slid straight inside my sex. We both groaned.
He moved his legs to the outside of mine, pushing mine closer together. It made my sex even tighter. I was going to come without him moving.
“I love you, Lily. So much.” He kissed me and slowly moved his hips. He pulled his penis out to the tip then slowly entered me again. I threw my head back and arched my back. He groaned. “Fuck, that felt good. Do it again.”
I arched from the bed, which tightened my sex even more. I watched Michael through hooded eyes. He was gritting his teeth. His eyes rolled in pleasure.
He clamped his mouth to my breast and sucked my nipple into his mouth then used his tongue to rub it against the roof of his mouth.
We both breathed heavily. “I can’t stop.”
“Don’t,” I replied.
Mi
chael started thrusting in and out of me. I felt his penis swell, then my orgasm hit. I screamed and came hard while Michael cursed above me and covered the walls of my sex with his thick cream. Oh god, thinking about his penis shooting his load inside me set me off again.
“Please,” I said. I wasn’t sure what I was asking for, but my second orgasm was going on and on and wouldn’t stop.
“Jesus Lily, I’ve never come so fuckin’ hard before. My cock’s still shooting.” He groaned and with one slight thrust, collapsed on me.
I could still feel him twitching inside me. Michael slid free, untied me, then rolled on to his side, taking me with him.
“I love you and I hope you know how much. I’m going to spend the rest of my life telling you, so you better get used to it now.”
I smiled against his naked chest. “I do know. I love you too and you better never doubt it again, because if you do there will be no makeup sex. In fact, there will be no sex for six months. So if you do screw up again, I expect a vibrator as a ‘sorry’ present.”
He roared with laughter, which was what I intended.
Chapter 62
~~ MICHAEL ~~
I’d woken up with Lily in my arms and had no intention of moving. She was still hurt over the fact that I’d thought she’d been with someone else because of her pregnancy. I was basically an idiot, one who was willing to spend the rest of his life begging for forgiveness as long as it meant she stayed with me.
After I’d made love to her in Lucien’s hotel room, or rather bed, which made me cringe when I’d realized that, we’d dressed and Lucien had driven us back to our home. I’d spent the rest of the day yesterday making sure Lily was well looked after.
Lucien had promised to explain to mother what had been going on and the conclusion we’d come to about Viv lying to me. Why I’d accepted what she’d told me all those years ago without following it up, I really couldn’t say. All I knew was that for the past seven years I thought I’d never be able to father a child, but I had. With Lily.
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