by Brenda Novak
But she’d never had to encounter him with a love interest. He hadn’t had a single steady girlfriend since they broke up, not one she’d known about. And she’d certainly never dreamed he was sleeping with Eve!
When her cheeks flushed hot, she hoped Eve wouldn’t notice—but Eve seemed equally embarrassed. “It’s no problem. I...I didn’t see your car outside or I wouldn’t have let myself in. I figured Ted was in the shower.”
Eve’s hands kept messing with her hair, tucking it behind her ears or smoothing it down—more evidence of her self-consciousness. “My car’s not here. I—I rode over with Ted last night.”
Sophia nodded. The towel in her hands made what she was doing obvious, but she still felt compelled to explain her presence outside his bedroom door. “I only came up here because I saw the water on the floor and was trying to—to dry it before someone could slip.” She picked up the bikini and handed both pieces to Eve. “I’ll get breakfast and make enough for two.” She headed down the stairs but paused on the landing. “Should I set places in the dining room or would you like me to bring the food up on a tray?”
“I wasn’t planning to stay,” Eve said. “I need to get home so I can dress and go over to the B and B.”
Sophia willed her pulse to slow, but that seemed futile. “Are you sure? Because I could whip up some eggs really fast.”
“Ted’s getting in the shower. That’ll take a few minutes, so...I’ll go to work and eat there. Maybe the three of us can have a meal together another time.” She smiled as if that was a possibility but Sophia knew it wasn’t.
“Absolutely. Do you need a ride?”
Eve dangled a set of keys. “Ted’s letting me take his car.”
“I see.”
“Your costume’s folded on a chair in the game room, by the way. Thanks for lending it to me. Last night was a lot of fun.”
Sophia didn’t doubt it. How many times had she imagined herself back in Ted’s bed? Those fantasies, and a great deal of alcohol, had pulled her through thirteen years of being married to the wrong person.
A flash of pain warned Sophia that she was digging too deeply at her cuticles, but the pain didn’t outweigh the relief it somehow gave her. Even the knowledge that she was making her hands ugly didn’t stop her. “I’m glad I could help. You—you’ve been so good to me.”
Sophia heard movement in the room behind Eve. Afraid that Ted would appear wearing nothing but a satisfied grin and a pair of boxers, she made a concerted effort to get away. She didn’t want to see him kiss Eve goodbye. Nor did she want him to see her standing at the bottom of the stairs, gaping up at them in envy. “I’ll go and start the coffee.”
Once she reached the privacy of the kitchen, she sank into a chair and rested her head in her hands. What did you expect? That he’d choose you?
Of course he wouldn’t. Why would he? Besides, she liked Eve and wanted her to be happy.
“I’ll see you later.”
She jumped as Eve, still dressed in Ted’s clothes since she was returning the Halloween costume, ducked her head into the room. “Have a—a good day,” Sophia managed to stutter.
Eve paused. “Everything’s going okay for you here?”
“Oh, yes. Great.” Pasting yet another smile on her face, she prayed Eve wouldn’t realize that she hadn’t started the coffee. She hadn’t done a damn thing except try to regain her equilibrium.
“I’m glad to hear it.” With a wave, she was gone. But it wasn’t long before Ted came down, showered and wearing a T-shirt with a darker pair of jeans than he’d had on yesterday. He hadn’t shaved, but that made him look better instead of worse. Fortunately, by the time he appeared she had coffee brewing and was scrambling some eggs.
“Morning,” he said.
She didn’t look up. “Morning.”
“You okay?”
At first, she assumed he’d read what she was feeling. But then she saw that her thumb was bleeding and grabbed a paper towel to wipe the blood. “Fine.”
He came closer. “Did you cut yourself or...”
She hid her hands behind her back. “No.”
Two lines formed between his eyes. “I thought I saw blood.”
“It’s nothing. I’ll get a Band-Aid.”
When he sat down at the kitchen table, she cursed silently. He was going to stay until she’d cooked breakfast. She hadn’t done so well when he’d been watching her type, so she tried to pay particular attention to what she was doing now.
“Eve told me what happened to Lexi yesterday,” he said. “I’m sorry about that.”
She kept her eyes on her skillet because she couldn’t bear to look at him quite yet. “Thanks. Um...you can get to work if you want. I’ll bring this up when it’s ready.”
“I’ll go in a second.” His chair squeaked against the floor, but he didn’t get up, even though she’d just given him the perfect opportunity to flee the kitchen. “Will you be able to get the details?”
“Excuse me?” She forced herself to glance at him.
“I’m talking about the fight—what happened to Alexa.”
She returned her attention to the food. “There’s nothing I can do about that, even if I learn the details.”
“You can go to the school, talk to the principal.”
“Lex begged me not to. She said that would only make the kids treat her worse.”
“So is she at home today or...”
“She couldn’t miss math. Her—her grades are...not what they should be. We’re both afraid she’ll end up having to repeat seventh grade if we’re not careful, and we don’t want that.”
“Of course not.”
Thankfully, the eggs were done and she could scoop them onto a plate. “Would you like some toast?”
“Please.”
She put two slices in the toaster and poured him a cup of coffee, which she carried to the table before bringing over his eggs. She didn’t bother with cream or sugar. She knew he liked his coffee black. “I could cut up some fruit, too, if you like.”
He caught her hand as she let go of his plate and frowned when he saw the damage to her fingers. “What are you doing to yourself? Doesn’t that hurt?”
“Not really,” she lied, pulling away so she could hide her hands again.
“They look sore.”
“They’re fine. I’ll take care of it tonight.”
“Why don’t you take care of it now? There’re some Band-Aids in my bathroom.”
She gestured as if she’d do anything to get him to stop pressing her. “Okay. I—I’ll bring you a new box tomorrow.”
“I’m not worried about the price of a box of Band-Aids.”
His toast popped up and she hurried over to butter it. She planned to put the rest of his breakfast on his plate and get out of there until he finished eating, but he spoke before she could clear the door.
“Did he abuse you, Sophia?”
She knew about the rumors that’d gone through town, knew he was talking about Skip. The tone of his voice, itself a request for her to level with him, tempted her to admit the truth at last. She’d had to lie for so long. But she didn’t want word of what she’d suffered to get back to Lex.
Besides, she was pitiable enough in her current situation. “No.”
“How do you explain the bruises?”
She couldn’t meet his eyes. Every time she did, she pictured him with Eve. “I guess I’m just clumsy.”
* * *
Ted was back at his desk, but he wasn’t doing any more writing than yesterday. He kept thinking about last night and the fact that he’d slept with Eve. He’d known what he was doing. He’d made a conscious decision to take Eve to bed. So why did he feel so crappy today?
He listened to the sound of the vacuum as Sophia cleaned the house. She was working hard and fast, reminding him of the white tornado he’d once seen on a commercial. He couldn’t even convince her to stop and have lunch.
And her hands. Shit, she was destroying them.
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He thought about how she’d responded when he’d asked if Skip had abused her. Her mouth said no, but her eyes—
His phone rang. For a change, he was hoping it’d be his mother. He wanted to tell her that he was dating Eve, wanted to hear her excitement now that he finally had a serious love interest—one she and everyone else could be happy about. He thought that might erase the doubts nagging at him, help him believe he’d made the right choice.
But it wasn’t Rayma. It was his new girlfriend.
“Hey.” When he answered, he infused his voice with more excitement than he felt. “How are you today?”
“Fine. You?”
“Great. Why wouldn’t I be great?” He rolled his eyes. He was acting odd, and even he could tell.
“You’re not freaked out?” She sounded hesitant, eager to be reassured.
He kneaded his forehead. “Of course not.”
“That’s a relief. Because last night was—” she laughed “—last night blew my mind. And it’s going to blow everyone else’s when they find out we’re together now. But I’ll just say this—if I’d known you were that good in bed, I would’ve jumped your bones a long time ago.”
She wasn’t bad herself. And it was nice of her to stroke his ego. So why did he feel like crawling under his desk? “It was...amazing,” he said weakly.
“We could have another amazing night.”
He felt himself cringe. “When?”
“You could come over for dinner.”
Tonight? No. He didn’t want to see her again so soon. He needed time to regroup. But he wasn’t about to admit it. He’d made himself a promise that he’d see this through no matter what. “I have to work late but...after?”
“Fine. We’ll have dessert.”
“Okay.”
“Eight-thirty work for you?”
“Yeah. But you have my car.”
“I’ll pick you up.”
“Perfect.”
“Um...”
He clenched his jaw when she didn’t say goodbye. Please, God, don’t let her say she loves me. Anything but that. “What is it?”
“When are we going to tell the others?”
His chest tightened until he could scarcely breathe. It felt as if someone was smothering him. He got to his feet. Relax...you’re not engaged yet. “Let’s give it a couple of weeks. We should adjust to the change in our relationship before we ask them to, don’t you think?”
“Good point.”
“See you tonight?”
“One more thing.”
He shifted the phone to his other ear.
“Are you sure you don’t regret it?”
“Do you?” he asked.
“Not at all!”
“Me, neither.”
“In fact, I hope I’m pregnant.”
He was glad he wasn’t eating anything, because he would’ve choked. “Why would you say that? We used a condom. Is there some reason you—”
“No. I just...I want a baby.”
“I’m definitely not ready, Eve,” he said.
She chuckled. “I know. I’m probably scaring you to death.”
She was certainly doing that. “Promise me you won’t talk about babies for a while.”
“All right,” she said. “But it’s not as if you didn’t know.”
True. She’d brought it up more than once in the past couple of years; she’d been afraid she wouldn’t get the opportunity to have a family.
“Is Sophia okay?” she asked.
He hated that just the mention of Sophia’s name made him tense up. “She’s fine. Why wouldn’t she be?”
“I was so embarrassed when she showed up this morning and I was still there. She was embarrassed, too. I could tell. She could hardly look at me. Did she say anything to you about it?”
He walked over to the glass walls of his office and gazed down into his house, to where Sophia was vacuuming the living room a level below. Completely unaware that she was being watched, she stopped long enough to wipe sweat from her face, then went back to work as energetically as before. It was as though she’d gone into fast-forward this morning and gotten stuck there. “No. Nothing. She knows it’s none of her business.” She didn’t care, anyway. Why would she? She’d been sleeping with someone else for fourteen years.
“Sometimes, at Black Gold, I’d see a nostalgic expression on her face when she looked at you and—”
“Stop. You were imagining things.”
“You didn’t see her when I came out of your bedroom this morning. She seemed so...stricken.”
“A lot of people will be shocked when they find out about us.” Shocked and stricken weren’t exactly the same thing, but he purposely glossed over that.
“True.”
Suddenly, Sophia turned and glanced up—and when she realized he was there, watching her, she grabbed the vacuum and hurried out of sight.
“Everything will be fine,” he said. “We’ll just...take it slow.” Was he saying that to allay her fears—or his own?
“Okay,” she said.
He quickly changed the subject. “Want me to bring something tonight?”
“Condoms would be nice,” she said and hung up.
He stared at his phone. “God, what have I done?” he mumbled and knocked his head against the glass.
16
Sophia kept her earphones jammed in her ears, her iPod on high and her hands busy. She didn’t want to worry about anything—not what her little girl might be facing at school, whether her car would be repossessed today or why she felt so sick every time she thought of Ted with Eve. She just wanted to zone out to the music while she worked, fill the hours with so much industry that they passed with lightning speed. Then she could go home and be with Alexa and reassure herself that her daughter was safe. Her car would be in more jeopardy at home—it could disappear anytime it was located where a repo company could easily find it—but maybe getting away from Ted would enable her to gain some perspective on his unexpected relationship with Eve. She knew better than to hope she could ever get him back. But she’d been so happy to think she’d finally found a friend in Eve. Although Eve had been wonderful to her the past week, Sophia could never be close to someone who was sleeping with Ted. She’d feel too guilty about her own thoughts and feelings.
She spent the morning vacuuming, dusting and cleaning closets. Ted kept his house picked up and somewhat organized but, like most men, he didn’t do much deep cleaning. She felt she was making some real headway with that, but she had to break away to fix lunch.
Once she was back in the kitchen, she decided to serve him a grilled panini sandwich with sliced fruit on the side.
It didn’t take her long to prepare it. She tried to deliver his lunch and leave without his noticing so she could return to her music and her war on dirt. But he stopped her just as she was about to shut the door and said he wanted to go over some clerical work he needed her to do.
“Sure. I’ll give it my best,” she said and transferred his meal tray to the coffee table so she could sit down.
He took half his sandwich and came over. “You know how to boot up a computer, right?”
She gave him a look that said she wasn’t an idiot and turned on the laptop. He ate as it went through its paces but he didn’t say anything. He grabbed the rest of his sandwich while she searched for the Excel document he asked her to locate.
“This is delicious,” he said.
She didn’t look up. “Glad you’re enjoying it. You should tell me when you like one meal more than another so I can make a list of your favorites.”
“So far, the salad and sandwich have been perfect. Maybe you could try some sort of pasta tomorrow.”
“I can do that.”
She managed to open the document he wanted, but she’d never worked in Excel, didn’t know the first thing about it, so the nerves she’d experienced during her typing test began to reassert themselves.
“This won’t be as hard as it looks.�
� His voice was encouraging; he could tell she was a bit overwhelmed.
He brought over a thick stack of paper slips and explained that these were from people who’d signed up to be on his mailing list at the state fair and various other events. He wanted her to add them to an Excel spreadsheet so he could send out a newsletter.
“I’m just inputting names and email addresses?” she asked.
“That’s it. Data entry. Be careful not to type the name or email address incorrectly, though.”
She didn’t think that would be a problem, as long as she could read the handwriting. She’d double-check each one. “What column should I put the names in?”
“I’m about to show you.” He helped her format the page. She could smell his cologne, even feel the warmth of his body as he bent over her and used the mouse to demonstrate how to title the columns and widen them when necessary.
Fortunately, he was right. It took only a few clicks to get her going. Then the work was tedious and repetitive but easy.
As soon as she was sure she had the hang of it, she put a rubber band around the slips and started to close down the computer.
He’d gone back to his own desk by then, but turned when he heard the squeak of her chair. “What are you doing?” he asked.
“I haven’t finished cleaning up from lunch. I thought I’d go do that and wrap up a few other things. But don’t worry. I’ll take this home with me so you’ll be able to send out your newsletter tomorrow.”
“There’s no need to work at home if you have time here. The cleaning’s not going anywhere.”
She felt she should at least put her sandwich in the fridge until she could eat it, but figured it would be okay for a while. With a nod, she opened the computer again and went back to work.
More than an hour passed with Ted sitting about eight feet away from her. She’d glance up every once in a while, thinking about how handsome he was and how different her life would’ve been if he’d been Alexa’s father—and then she’d catch herself. There was no guarantee they would’ve had a child or even gotten married. And she couldn’t change the decisions she’d made. She had to live with the results, especially now that he was seeing Eve. Eve seemed to be everything a man could want. Why would he walk away from her?