“Thank you, Jordan. I appreciate what you just said. And I think you’re right about needing to settle the whole Malcolm mess first too. I feel like I’m going to look over my shoulder and find him standing right behind me about to do something again. I know that’s impossible because you’ve made sure I’m safe. I like that by the way, knowing that you’ll protect me if I need you to. And I like the thought that we’ll take care of each other if we end up together. But I’m also overwhelmed at how fast all this is happening.”
“Then we’ll slow down,” he stated. “From now on, the direction we take is up to you. I’m game for whatever you decide. I don’t want to lose you by being impatient. I’m not going anywhere. Take all the time you need. All I ask is that you let me spend some of it with you.”
“Oh, don’t worry I intend to spend a lot of time with you.” She inched nearer. “As far as making decisions goes, yes, I will take it slowly. And about arguing? I think a good argument now and then is essential. I should probably warn you that I can be very stubborn. I might even yell sometimes. Promise you won’t walk away if I do?” He did. “Good. As for the rest, we’ll see how it goes.” She had gotten very close. “Do you know what I want right now?”
“Why don’t you tell me?” Jordan fought not to touch her.
“Well Jordan, you’ve been talking to me in that sexy tone of yours. I’m tingling all over but I can’t help wondering if listening to you now is making the memory of what we did earlier seem better than it actually was. So, if you don’t object,” she slid her hands up his chest, “I’d like both of us to take off our clothes and find out.”
“All right Kiley, in the interest of satisfying your curiosity.” He pulled his shirt over his head as he kicked off his shoes. “And because I’m positive we’re even better together than you remember.” He slid off his jeans, briefs and socks in one motion, “Hey, you’re not naked.”
Kiley was laughing so hard she had to hold on to keep her balance. “You are too cute.” She raised her arms so he could pull off her sweater. Soon, she was naked too.
“My God, woman, do you have any idea how much I want you?” he asked while his gaze devoured her.
“Yes, I think I do.” She blatantly glanced at his fully erect shaft.
“But it’s more than physical, more than just sex.”
“I know, Jordan. I feel it too. I love your body.” She trailed a fingertip down his chest. “You look so strong, so powerful, so capable. But this morning you were so loving with me.”
“That’s because you make me feel loving. I should have been gentler with you, taken more time. I meant to.”
“It was perfect just the way it was.” The way he was stared had Kiley feeling extremely desirable. “We’ll get to slow and gentle eventually. As you said, there’s plenty of time. I intend to do this often. I thought you should know that.” Jordan took a deep breath but before he could respond, she said, “Do you know I can practically feel it everywhere you look at me? How can I be so excited, so ready for you when you haven’t touched me yet?”
“The same way I am.”
“Oh yeah,” she giggled.
“You’re beautiful, Kiley. I could look at you forever.”
“Oh really?” She smiled seductively. “Just look, not touch?” She backed away and slowly turned all the way around. “You make me feel like doing things I’ve never imagined even wanting to.”
“Like what?” Jordan was fascinated.
“Well, like last night. The thought of touching myself in front of someone…of actually wanting to do it again.” Kiley lifted her breasts to him, caressing herself, squeezing her nipples before she slid her palms down her sides, over her hips, finally settling on her thighs. “Did you like last night, Jordan?” She inched her hands between her legs.
“You know I did.”
Jordan groaned when she slid her fingers along her slit, dipping one in inside only to remove it quickly and put it in her mouth. “Hmm, I liked that better on your tongue.”
“Kiley.” Jordan reached for her but she took another step backward.
“Hold on, Jordan. I’m getting an idea here.” She smiled again. “I liked tasting you too. I’m wondering what we’d taste like together. Would you be too sensitive for me to lick right after you come?”
She was killing him. “Immediately after, yes but if you let me rest inside you for a minute I could probably take it.”
“Good. I wonder why I want to do these things with you?”
“Because you know I love you.”
“Could be. Or maybe I trust you and know I can do anything without needing to be afraid of you hurting me.”
“You’re right about that. You may drive me absolutely wild but I’ll never hurt you no matter how savage you make me feel.”
“I never had a conversation with an erect, naked man before. I think this turns me on.”
“Do you have frequent conversations with naked, limp men?”
“No,” she giggled.
“That’s because no man could ever be limp with you naked.”
“Do I really make you feel wild, Jordan?” She was walking around the table.
“Hell yes, Kiley!”
“Savage?”
“Absolutely.”
“Do you want me right now?”
“You know I do.”
“Do you want to be inside me, filling me, feeling me clenching around you?”
“Kiley,” he growled.
“Would you push all the way in and then slide almost out? Would you pump into me over and over, harder and faster until I screamed from the pleasure you gave me?”
“Oh my God.”
“When you feel me come, would you lose control and come too? Deep inside me?”
“Hell yes.”
“I’m so wet, Jordan. Just thinking about it makes me so hot, so ready for you. I never felt so sexual or so desirable. I can see that you’re barely able to stand there and not take me. You want to be in me so much, don’t you?”
“Damn it, Kiley. Stop pushing me!”
“Why? Can I push you too far? What happens if I do? Will you ravish me? Toss me on the floor and do what we both want?”
“Stop, Kiley. Please.”
“No, Jordan. You make me wild too. I’ve never felt like this before. I want to try everything with you. Everything from tender lovemaking to lusty, out-of-control sex.” She rolled her nipples between her fingers again. “Will you be uncontrolled for me now, Jordan?”
“Don’t do this, Kiley. Once we start, we’ll have to ride it out.”
“Ooh, ride it out. That’s it! I’ve never done this either.” She moved in front of him and turned to lie facedown across the table. “Ride me, Jordan,” she urged, resting on her forearms, peeking over her shoulder.
Jordan couldn’t breathe. Kiley was bent over in front of him. He could see the moisture on her lower lips. She hadn’t been exaggerating when she said she was ready. When she slid back slightly, opening herself more fully to him, looking at him with raw desire on her face, saying his name with her voice full of need, Jordan gave in. Though he wanted to resist and show Kiley how sweet they could be together, she seemed determined to bring out the beast in him.
“Jordan, please. I want you. No, I need you. I have to have you.” She wiggled her ass at him. “You’ll feel so good, so hard, I know it.”
“God, Kiley,” he growled as he rubbed the tip of his cock through her slit, coating it with her juices. Leaving his shaft lying against her, he squeezed her cheeks with his hands before running them up her back to her shoulders. From there, he grazed them along her sides, stroking the edges of her breasts before returning to her cheeks.
“Jordan,” she panted his name, pressing back against him.
With a savage groan, he guided his engorged cock to her opening.
“Yes!” Kiley cried. “More! I need all of you.”
Jordan plunged in fully, feeling Kiley shudder. He put one hand on her shoulder
, forcing her harder to his body and grasped her breast with the other. Over and over, he repeated the actions she had described, pumping in completely before pulling back only to fill her again.
Kiley was moaning, urging him on. “Yes, oh Jordan, yes,” she cried as he pushed faster. Thrusting back to meet him, Kiley arched her back, pressing her breast into his hand. She was unable to breathe as her orgasm began. Soon she was screaming just like she said she would be when taunting him.
When Jordan felt her muscles constricting tightly around him, he couldn’t hold back any longer. A few more deeply penetrating strokes was all it took for him to join her. As he fought not to collapse, Jordan struggled to slow his ragged breathing. Even though most of his weight wasn’t on her, Kiley was still pinned to the table beneath him.
“Oh wow,” Kiley finally said. “That was amazing.”
“Told you we were better than you remembered,” he teased, nuzzling her neck.
“I’ve never behaved so wantonly before.”
“You won’t hear me complaining. Nope, no need for you to be inhibited with me, ever.” He began to pull out.
“Wait,” Kiley stopped him. “Has it been long enough?”
“Long enough?” Jordan wasn’t thinking clearly yet.
“Long enough for me to taste you. Remember? You said I could.”
“You were serious?”
“Is it too weird?”
“Not if it makes you happy. You’re very adventurous, aren’t you?”
“Actually, no. I never even considered most of this before you. I really don’t have much experience.”
“Then I’m honored. And flattered. And thoroughly enjoying every second of it. You want to experiment, fine by me. I do draw the line at causing you physical harm. You can push all you want but I will never hurt you.”
“Jordan, I may be daring and curious with you but I’m still not interested in pain.” She turned to face him after he stood. Kiley couldn’t help but stare at his cock, still wet from their pleasure.
Jordan noticed. “Go for it, sweet. I’m at your disposal. But you realize that you have to indulge me too?”
“That’s fair.” She pushed him into a chair and knelt between his thighs. Gingerly, Kiley took him into her mouth, sucking gently. When he didn’t object, she ran her tongue over his length.
“Well? What do you think?” he asked, thinking how spectacular she was.
“Interesting, definitely not something that I’d avoid in the future.”
“Really?” She nodded as he surprised her by lifting her from the floor. “Maybe I should see for myself.” Jordan parted her thighs, scooted his chair closer and slid her to the edge of the table. “Lay back, love.” She did, with him between her thighs. “Definitely not to be avoided,” Jordan seconded after sampling their combined flavor. He couldn’t resist claiming her clit and soon his tongue was stroking it, circling it, flicking it.
“Jordan,” Kiley gasped his name when he reached out to find her breasts.
“Hmm,” he hummed with her still in his mouth.
“I’m on the table.”
He replaced his mouth with his hand to continue stimulating her while he spoke. “So? We were on the table a minute ago too.” She moaned when his fingers filled her. “Turnabout is fair play, woman. You push a guy like you did, you gotta expect side effects. My cock might not be completely hard yet but I’m certainly not finished with you. You are so hot, so sexy. You turn me on and I’m going to keep you ready until I am again.”
“I don’t believe this.” Kiley’s toes curled against him when his mouth coaxed her to new heights of pleasure.
This time, Jordan kept his fingers buried inside. He was watching her face and knew when she calmed enough to realize he was moving them ever so slightly again. Once she had, he increased the pressure, still only touching her with his fingers.
“What are you doing to me?” She sounded awed as her hips began to shift.
“Making you want me.”
“I do! Are you ready for more yet?”
He was hard but since she wasn’t able to see that, he replied, “Soon,” wanting to continue watching her.
“I don’t understand how you do this.”
“Do what?”
“Make me feel like this.” She trembled. “Oh my God, each time is more…better…Jordan!” Kiley gasped his name when he made her come again.
“You do like this, don’t you, sweet?” Jordan asked softly.
“Yes.”
“Good. I love watching you come. You’re gorgeous, Kiley. You make all those hot, little noises like you’re really enjoying it.”
“I am. Because of you. I never felt like this before.”
“Me either.” He tugged until she was sitting in front of him. “I can’t seem to get enough of you. Even though we only started this today it feels like I’ve known your body forever. I knew we’d be incredible. Somehow though, I suspect we’ll be even better with more time together.”
“Me too.” Kiley leaned toward him and kissed him. “Part of me can’t believe I’m really here with you. I keep expecting to wake up and discover that this is just a dream.”
“I’ve been dreaming about you too. This is better.” He kissed her back. “I love you, Kiley. Forever.”
“I’m scared, Jordan,” she said truthfully. “I have feelings for you too but…”
“Sh. Don’t say anything until you’re ready. There’s no need. You’re here and that’s what matters most.” Jordan framed her face and kissed her tenderly. “Come make love with me, Kiley.”
She nodded, accepting his hand and letting him lead her upstairs. In his bed, Jordan continued to shower her with kisses until Kiley was clinging to him. When he finally entered her, Kiley could see everything he was feeling on his face. She hadn’t questioned his declarations of love before but now that she could almost feel the emotions flowing from him, she was overwhelmed. Slowly, his body coaxed hers to share a new sense of pleasure. It held a sweetness that hadn’t been there before. And the entire time Jordan never stopped kissing her.
Kiley felt her heart expanding within her chest. Jordan’s actions were filling it with a love so strong and sure that it was too much for her. When her passion exploded it was even more intense and meaningful than the other times. Feeling his warmth filling her, Kiley’s emotions shattered.
Jordan rolled to his side and gathered her in his arms, holding her while she cried. “What’s wrong, love?” he asked when her tears slowed.
“Nothing. Everything. That was too much, Jordan. I can’t take it.”
“Sh, it’s all right.”
“But I could feel what’s in your heart. It’s overwhelming.”
“It doesn’t have to be. There’s no need to cry. Just let me love you. I’m not asking for anything in return.”
“But…”
“Sh, no buts. As I said, you’re here and that’s enough. I won’t ask for more.”
“You’re too good, Jordan.”
“No, I’m still just me. Let me hold you. Take comfort from me even though I upset you.”
“It’s not that I’m upset. It’s just…you’re… I mean… I-I don’t know how to say this so it makes sense.”
“Then don’t try. Add this to the things you need to think about.”
Kiley snuggled into his arms and relaxed. Was that how it would always be between them if she could let it? For now, she decided that she couldn’t permit Jordan to be that tender again. There was simply too much emotion. She’d have to make sure there was an element of playfulness involved at all times.
“What are you thinking?” Jordan asked.
“Honestly, I think I can’t handle you being like that again. Or at least not for now.” She met his eyes. “Will you help me? If you won’t, I think I need to go.”
“You’re that afraid of me?”
“Yes.”
Jordan was silent for a long time. “All right, Kiley. I’ll be less serious when we make
love.”
“It’s wrong of me to ask that. It’s not fair.”
“I told you earlier that I’d let you set the pace for us. If that includes this, then it does. For the rest of the weekend, we’ll have fun. We’ll talk and get to know each other. If you have doubts, then we won’t pursue our physical relationship.”
“Wait. This is starting to be you making all the compromises and I take and take without giving. All I’m saying is that I can’t handle so much tenderness. We’ll just have to stick to lusty sex for now. Even if you’re willing to go back to a platonic relationship, I’m not. I still have lots of experimenting to do. And then I want to start all over again. I think, by the time we get back around to loving and tender, I’ll probably be ready for it.”
“Thank goodness,” Jordan sighed. “I was a bit unsure how strong I’d really be if you said I couldn’t touch you anymore.” He kissed her forehead. “Let’s get cleaned up and have dinner early. We can compare notes on Shane and Alyssa and figure out if Brett’s right about them.”
“You’re not going to touch me in the shower this time either, are you?”
“Nope, not this time.”
“That’s cruel, Jordan.”
“Haven’t you ever heard of anticipation? Besides if I touch you so soon, even in the shower, I’m not sure I’ll be able to keep my word.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be. Think of what I have to look forward to.” They were about to step into the shower when Jordan remembered Artie’s gift. “Hop in. Artie sent you a present. I’ll be right back.”
He put the bag on the counter while they showered. “What is it?”
“I didn’t quite see it. All I know is that it’s small and green. I thought that maybe you should check it out first. Why don’t I wait for you downstairs?”
Chapter Eighteen
“How can you take a day off like this?” Kiley wondered. “What if something happens?”
“I have an intern who works with me. If anything had needed immediate attention, I would have heard from him.”
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