by Melissa Good
“Where ya goin’?” the cabbie yelled.
“Anywhere but here,” Dar replied, looking around quickly and spotting several reporters heading their way. “Jesus. I shoulda left that damn system down this morning.” She turned to see her father holding his ground, then she sighed. “Be right back.”
She bolted up the stairs and grabbed Andrew’s arm. “C’mon, Dad.”
“Aw.” Andrew threw a last punch, then ducked an outstretched arm and followed Dar back to the cab. They beat the reporters by a few steps and got the doors closed just in time—the cab pulling quickly away from the curb as a stumbling cameraman slammed against its bumper.
For a moment, there was silence. Then Kerry slowly released a long held breath and leaned against Dar, who wrapped her up tightly and pulled her close.
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“Hope there’s a back entrance to that there hotel,” Andrew remarked. “Haven’t seen this much hoohaa since that Pamela Lee Ander-son showed up at a damn liberty near Mexico.” He half turned and regarded his wife, who was rubbing her ear. “You all right, Cec?”
Cecilia mentally caught her breath. “I think so.” She looked at Dar, who was pressed against the cab door with Kerry huddled against her.
“You?”
Dar nodded, as her lover burrowed further into her sweater. “I’m fine.” She put a hand against Kerry’s head as she heard her take a shaky breath. “All right. Let’s just get back to the hotel and regroup, then I’ll figure out what to do.” She half expected a protest from Kerry, but the blonde woman didn’t say a word. Okay. Dar mentally sorted things out.
What Kerry had just done had derailed two possible problems that had been nig-gling at her.
One was the fact that she and Dar lived together, which had been rolled right over.
Two was the fact that the information on her father had come from within ILS, which had also been rolled right over, obscured by the blonde woman’s startling confession.
ILS’s position then was simple, that its employee’s personal lives was none of their concern. One problem out of the way.
As for Kerry bursting out of the closet with a howitzer... Well, from the company’s standpoint they were on the high ground, able to placidly say their employee’s sexuality was also none of their concern, and the equal treatment of such was assured under the corporate bylaws. Made them look damn progressive, which ILS in most cases certainly wasn’t.
Okay. So she didn’t have to worry about the company. On the other hand, she did have to worry about the desperately upset woman in her arms, who was emotionally devastated and rapidly unraveling before Dar’s eyes. With a sigh, she pulled her cell phone out and dialed a number. Alastair answered on the second ring.
“Well, hello there Dar.” Her boss’s voice was wry. “Just saw your interview. Fantastic job. I got a call from ABC and CBS right afterward, asking for in-depth stuff.”
“Alastair—”
“And, I just saw the hearings.”
Dar was silent, wondering what he’d say.
A pause. “She’s a damn brave kid.” Alastair’s voice was warm. “Give her my regards, willya?”
Dar smiled quietly. “I will.”
“Think they’ll call you up there? Just so I know the worst?” Alastair sounded peacefully resigned. “I’ve called a teleconference for tonight with the board.”
“Not if they’re smart,” Dar replied.
“All right. Keep me advised, Dar. I want to know what’s happening.”
Dar chuckled wryly. “I’ll keep the company’s nose as clean as I can, Eye of the Storm 349
Alastair.”
“Couldn’t give a damn about the company, Dar.”
She stared at the phone for a moment.
“Ah…surprised you, huh?” The CEO laughed. “That’s a first. Later, Dar.” He hung up, leaving her to close her phone bemusedly and tuck it away. Kerry finally loosened her grip and tilted her head, gazing up at her with sad eyes.
“Hey.” Dar leaned forward a little to touch her forehead against her lover’s. “Bet you could use some ice cream.” She got a very tiny tired, hurting smile back, then Kerry exhaled and put her head back down. Dar stroked the pale hair comfortingly, glancing up to see her mother watching her. For an awkward moment they stared at each other, then Ceci tightened her lips into a brief smile and turned her attention to her husband, who was scowling at the surrounding, busy streets.
They got to the hotel and the cabbie drove into the parking garage, going down a level and arriving at a lower entrance that was pretty well deserted. Gratefully, they paid him and got out, slipped inside and grabbed an elevator. “Hold on.” Andrew held a hand up. “Let’s take that one there.” He pointed. “S’got a fireman’s control.”
“We don’t have a key,” Dar remarked, her arm still around the very quiet and withdrawn Kerry.
“Pshaw.” Her father pushed her inside and waited for the others to enter, then he pulled a small gadget from his pocket and used it to jimmy the fireman’s lock as the doors closed.
The elevator made a soft, whooshing noise as it climbed the floors.
Kerry’s eyes went from face to face as they waited. “I’m sorry you all had to go through that,” she finally said. “I wish…” She fell silent.
“S’allright, kumquat,” Andrew drawled.
“What did you call her?” Ceci consciously tried to lighten the atmosphere. “Good grief, Andy. How could you compare poor Kerry to a small, bitter orange?”
The doors opened and they peeked out, then edged into the empty corridor and made their way quickly to Dar and Kerry’s room. They got inside just as they heard the elevators open and voices come their way.
Andy closed the door hastily, then held a finger to his lips.
Kerry couldn’t have cared less if the entire Mormon Tabernacle Choir was outside. She trudged over and landed on the bed, spreading her arms out and closing her eyes in weary relief.
Sweet Jesus, what have I just done?
After they’d named her a hostile witness, she’d felt sure her parents knew she’d been the one to release that information. What other reason would there be to estrange her? Surely it couldn’t just be Dar.
But no. They hadn’t known. One look at her father’s face had told her that. Utter shock. Utter betrayal. He’d thought that revealing Dar as the source of the information would have driven a wedge between them, never realizing what he’d force her to say.
No, Daddy. It wasn’t Dar. She’d have deleted the entire file, left up to her.
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Me.
Your little girl.
Kerry heard Andy and Ceci move into their own room, mentioning something about ordering room service over there, then it got quiet and the bed next to her dipped and moved, bringing a warm body to settle against her. She opened her eyes to see Dar propped up on her side, a tired look on her face. “I fucked up.” Dar lifted an eyebrow at the use of the epithet. She never said that, unless it was the worst of the worst of things and her partner knew it.
“No, you didn’t,” her lover disagreed. “They did.”
Kerry exhaled. “He didn’t know.” Her eyes went to Dar’s. “He didn’t know it was me, Dar.”
“I know.”
“Now they have a good reason to hate me.”
Dar leaned forward and took her hand. “Listen to me a minute.” Her voice was very serious. “Stop blaming yourself, Kerry. I mean it.”
Kerry looked at her.
“You’re not the one who did the wrong thing.”
“I released that information.”
“You are not the one who did the wrong thing,” Dar repeated. “You are not the one who accepted those bribes and you are not the one who let industry pay you off to look the other way while wildlife was slaughtered and you are not the one who used government funds to maintain a mistress and two illegitimate children.”
“I could have just kept quiet like eve
ryone else does,” Kerry murmured. “If I had, maybe someday I could have eventually sat down and talked to them about us.”
Dar sighed and rubbed her fingers. “Kerry, even if nothing had happened, do you really think they’d have accepted me? Accepted us?”
Kerry shook her head slightly. “I don’t know. I’ll never know.” She sighed, seeing Dar’s perplexed look. “I can’t help it, Dar. They’re my parents and I love them.” She regarded the ceiling. “How could I have done that to them?”
Dar nibbled her thumbnail, trying to figure out what to say. She was tired, her stomach was in knots, she’d had a very, very rough day, and it was only the afternoon. Sensitive discussions were never her forte at any time, and frankly, there was no good answer to Kerry’s question, was there? “Well,” she finally responded, “I can only tell you what I would have done.” She paused. “I think if I’d have gone through what you’d just gone through, with the hospital and all, I’d have been furious.” Another pause. “Hell, I was furious.”
Kerry turned her head and studied her friend’s face.
“Sometimes you do things when you’re really angry, that seem right at the time,” Dar went on. “I know I have. And then when you look back, later on, you second guess yourself and think about all the other things you could have done or said.”
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“Mmm,” Kerry agreed glumly. “Hindsight.”
“Yeah.” Dar nodded. “But the other thing I’ve realized over the years is, that there’s no point in beating yourself up over what you’ve done. It’s done.”
“Move on.” Kerry extended the thought. “Recover and deal with it.”
“Yeah.”
“So. How, exactly, do I deal with knowing I ruined my parent’s lives and am going to be on every tabloid cover in America next week?”
Dar squirmed a little closer. “First, just like you have to accept responsibility for what you did, you’ve gotta realize that they have to do the same thing.” Dar put a hand on Kerry’s shoulder. “Your father did those things, Ker. He knew if anyone found out, this could happen. He accepted the risk.”
Kerry sighed. “It hurts.”
“I know.”
But her brain was starting to work again, Kerry realized. She could feel it, the shock was fading and her mental processes were settling back down into a more normal pattern. “So what about the tabloids?” she joked faintly.
“Well, I was figuring.” Dar laid an arm over Kerry’s stomach and smiled as the blonde woman rested a hand on her shoulder. “When you and I are ancient, those things’ll make one hell of scrapbook to pull out and show people.”
Kerry’s face pulled into a real smile at the image. “My fifteen minutes of fame, you mean?”
“Something like that, yeah.” Dar returned the smile. “I’ll throw in a tape of my interview, and we got it locked down.”
Kerry moved a bit of dark hair out of Dar’s eyes. “Oh. How did that go? Is it on? Let’s turn CNN on. I want to see you.” Then she stopped.
“Hmm. Maybe not. I think I know what the lead story’s going to be.” She rubbed her temples. “You don’t have any aspirin, do you? My head’s killing me.”
“Sure.” Dar rolled off the bed, went to her briefcase, and tugged a bottle out. “Feel like eating something?”
Kerry shook her head.
Dar came back with the pills and some water and sat back down on the bed. “That can’t be helping your headache,” she commented, as the blonde woman curled onto her side and took the glass, swallowed several of the tablets, and washed them down.
“Probably not, but I think I’d lose whatever I tried to get down.”
Kerry put the glass on the bedside table and put her head down on her arm. “Maybe later.”
Dar stretched out next to her, letting her body relax against the bed’s mattress. She studied the tense back next to her and gave it a tentative scratch. Kerry’s shoulder blades moved, and Dar heard a soft grunt as she expanded the motion, making little circles with her fingertips.
I’m a big girl. Kerry closed her eyes as the touch continued. I don’t 352 Melissa Good need to be coddled like a little kid. One eye opened and peered around the empty room. “Hey, Dar?”
“Yeah?”
Kerry rolled over onto her back and turned her head. “Think we have time for a nap?”
A nap. Boy. That sounded good. Dar spread an arm out, smiling in invitation. “Sure. C’mere.” She gathered Kerry in and fitted her body around the smaller woman’s, until they were a warm tangle in the center of the bed. It was quiet for a bit and then Kerry sighed.
“Dar?”
The dark haired woman had her eyes closed and kept them that way.
“Mmm?”
“Would you have done it?”
Dar considered that seriously. “I don’t know. I can be pretty vindictive, Kerry.” She shrugged. “Maybe it would depend on whether or not I was PMSing.”
“Dar, you don’t PMS. I had to listen to an hour long discussion on that in the lunchroom last week.”
“Sure I do, Kerry.”
“No, you don’t.”
“Yes, I do. It’s just that no one can tell the difference,” the placid response came back. “Think about it. What’s typical dropping eggs behavior? It turns you into a raving, overbearing alpha bitch with a thing for chocolate.”
Kerry had to laugh. She buried her face into Dar’s shoulder and muffled her snickering.
“This differs from my normal state exactly how?”
More snickering.
Dar smiled at the popcorn ceiling, glad she’d succeeded in making Kerry laugh a little. The chuckles wound down, and a warm hand slipped under her shirt and rubbed the skin gently.
“Thanks,” Kerry murmured. “I needed that.” She exhaled and closed her eyes, hearing Dar’s jaw crack as she yawned. Everything else would just have to wait for a while.
THE SOFT BURR of her cell phone nudged Dar out of a really good dream, one that involved fudge and cherries and a very messy boat deck.
She pried an eye open and glared at the instrument, then reluctantly disengaged one arm and answered it. “Yeah?”
A breath. “Um…is that…is…Dar?”
“You had a fifty percent chance and you won. What can I do for you?” Dar closed her eye.
“Dar, it’s Angie. Can I speak to my sister, please?”
Dar jolted awake. “Sorry. I didn’t… You don’t sound like…” She gently shook Kerry. “Are you okay?”
“I’m in the hospital. Please, can I talk to her?”
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“Ker.” Dar shook harder, feeling the gathering resistance as Kerry dragged herself out of a very deep sleep. “Kerry, c’mon. It’s your sister on the phone.”
“Mmm?” Kerry sucked in a breath, and rubbed her eyes. “Wh—” She lifted her head and peered upward. “Who? Angie?”
“Yeah. Here.” Dar handed her the phone. “She said she’s in the hospital.”
“Oh.” Kerry pressed the phone to her ear. “Angie?”
“Hey.” Her sister’s voice sounded exhausted. “Listen. The baby’s coming and I’m having a really tough time.”
“My god. What’s going on? Are you okay?” Kerry pulled herself up, her pounding heart sending blood to her head in a painful wave. “Where are you?”
“I saw you on TV,” Angie replied. “I…they brought me here yesterday, Kerry. It’s been hell all night. It just hurts…and hurts. I don’t know what’s going to happen, and I wanted…I wanted to talk to you, so you…so I could tell you. I didn’t want anything to happen, and then I…”
“Angie, it’s okay,” Kerry murmured. “Don’t worry about anything.
What’s important is how you’re doing.”
There was a brief silence. “Ow.” Angie finally sighed. “I’m so tired of hurting.” A rustle of linen. “I saw you on TV, Sis.”
“You did, huh?”
“Yeah.” Angela too
k a breath. “I’m sorry I didn’t come over when Mike did yesterday.”
“It’s okay.”
“No, it’s not okay,” Angie replied. “You have to stand up and be counted sometime, Kerry.”
“Angie, don’t worry about being counted. Just worry about yourself and your baby,” Kerry told her. “Where are you? Can I come over and see you? Is Richard there?”
“No,” Angie whispered. “He’s out of town.”
“What about Brian?”
There was a long silence and then her sister sighed. “He’s chosen not to be involved.”
Kerry’s eyes closed. “Oh, Angie.”
“Yeah, well. Better this way for the kids,” Angela replied. “Maybe I’ll at least get points for a cute baby, right?”
“I’m sorry, Sis.” Arms closed around Kerry in a secure hold. “Listen, hang in there. I’m going to come over and see you.”
“Be careful,” Angie whispered.
“I will. Take it easy, Sis. I love you.”
Angie hissed in pain. “I love you, too.”
Kerry hung up and then scrubbed her face with a hand. “I feel like I’ve been run over by a bus, Dar.” She sighed. “Can we find a way over to the hospital without dragging half the DC press corps with us?”
Dar kissed her head. “We’ll find a way.” She looked up as the room’s phone rang and then answered it. “Yes?”
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“I’m sorry, ma’am, but this is the hotel operator, and I have a Mr.
James Herkins who is very insistent on wanting to talk to Ms. Stuart.”
“It’s the prosecutor.” Dar held her hand over the receiver. “You want to talk to him?”
“Now he wants to talk to me?” Kerry answered with a touch of sarcasm. “Not really but I guess I’d better.” She took the phone. “Thank you.
Put him through. Sorry if this is being such a pain for you.”
“Oh.” The operator seemed surprised. “Well, thanks for saying that.
Most people don’t.” She clicked off and then a male voice came through.
“Ms. Stuart?”
“Yes,” Kerry answered.
“I’d like to set up a meeting. We need to talk.”
“Now that I have something to say that you want to hear?” Kerry shot back, getting a mildly raised eyebrow from her listening partner.