by LJ Swallow
He clenches his teeth. "I'm sure you're aware how much labels suck." He pulls at his shirt, showing his runic marks again. "I escaped, he didn't. My brother is as powerful as I am and can be forced into servitude by the person who releases him. We need to stop Verin getting hold of the box."
"If he doesn't have it already," says Cillian quietly.
"I don't believe he does. The world will know."
Cillian places a hand on his friend’s shoulder. "No. If he has the box, he can’t open it. We have time, Morgan."
"But if he can?" Morgan retorts. "What then? You don’t understand how much power this could give him and what that would mean to the human world."
"Oh, fuck." I bang my head on the table. Once. Twice. I look up at Cillian. "You promised me this wasn't an apocalypse situation."
Cillian glances around and indicates with a hand we should lower our voices. But our strange conversation mingles with the noise around and nobody pays attention. "Nobody wants to destroy the world. They just want to change it."
"Well, that sounds ominous. Hell, I need another drink." I stand.
The guys fall silent and I watch Morgan. Everything falls into place: why he’s uptight and focused. His frustration around me. "Why would someone curse me too? How am I connected?"
"That's a good question," replies Dex. "One we're trying to figure out."
My lurching stomach follows me to the bar. I have not had enough to drink to deal with this news.
Several drinks later and more discussion about looking for bones—but none about boxes and brothers—we take the short walk along the dirty city street back to base. The cobbled street opens out to where the older building sits at the top of a hill. We approach the gates and I stare at the place, shrouded in darkness.
"Secret isn’t a word I’d associate with this huge-ass building behind shiny gates," I remark.
Cillian walks beside me. "What happens inside and the people connected is secret. Doesn’t matter if the place can be seen."
"True," I reply. "A lot happens behind closed doors, I guess."
"Precisely."
"Oh, speaking of which..." I turn and start to walk backwards, watching them. "Dex. Morgan. Did Cillian explain you’re all my lovers now?"
"What?" Dex looks at Cillian. "Explain."
"I said that to Bastian to make him back off Syv."
"Weird choice of words," says Morgan with a short laugh. "Wishful thinking. Cillian?"
He digs his hands in his pockets. "Spur of the moment. Sorry, were you keeping yourself for someone special?" Cillian fights a smile.
Morgan pulls a face at Cillian as he passes him.
I stay walking backwards. "We’ve known each other, what? Two days? I think I need to know you better before I start a harem."
"Harem," Morgan calls over his shoulder. "You’re weird. Both of you."
"That’s a no, then?" I call back and laugh to myself.
Dex catches up and I’m flanked by him and Cillian as we head back to the Institute. He makes no comment on the harem joke. I get a sense that Dex isn’t the sharing type, but who knows? I side-glance him. Dex isn’t paying attention to me, instead scrutinising every face that passes by. Two guys chatting are too distracted to see us, and they almost walk into our group. Immediately, he curls a hand around my waist and guides me to one side.
I’m too surprised to react with a protest. Our intense exchange in the library was true. This strange guy wants to protect me.
15
I stand and stare out of the window across the Institute courtyard. The guys sit nearby in the room that nobody comes in but us. With my encouragement, the drinking continues and the relaxation grows. Admittedly, I’m the one drunker and more relaxed, but that’s a common state for me.
"Don’t you mix with the other Dwellers who live here?" I turn back to the guys.
Dex sits, legs stretched in front of him, still dressed in his leather jacket. He’s slumped down in his seat and hasn’t spoken much. I get he’s not the chatty type, but he switches off a lot.
Morgan sits on the low coffee table and chews his lip as he scrolls through his phone. For someone with less clue about the world he’s in than the others, Morgan seems to have taken to modern technology happily.
Cillian stands close by pouring more drinks. "I guess the place is more of a base than anything."
"A sanctuary, even." Morgan looks up from his phone.
"Then who’s Donovan? Why’s he in charge?"
"He owns the place."
"No, but what is he? A Dweller? I mean, is he like you? Elemental?"
"He’s from a human organisation who’ve worked to help Dwellers for centuries. There’s not only him and this place. There are other Kirkas Institutes around the world."
I sip my drink. "How do the Horsemen not know about him?"
"They didn’t, but they do now," says Morgan. "The Insititute’s more prominent since the portals opened, of course. Their work had died down as most supes were settled. That all changed and the organisation resurfaced."
"Ewan’s right, then. Like an outreach program? Dwellers in Need?"
Dex scowls at me. "Not really. Isn’t it better to have us integrating rather than walking around confused and, in some cases, dangerous?"
My scalp prickles. Like him.
"With our network, we can keep an eye on what’s happening. The more powerful of us help with other tasks."
"No wonder the Horsemen don’t like you." I hand my glass to Cillian. "You’re interfering."
He fills my glass. "No, they kill first and ask questions later. We assist and deal with those who can’t be rehabilitated."
"See! Outreach program."
"We have a common goal," puts in Morgan. "We want the human world safe. And the supernatural hidden."
"The Horsemen will need to work with us," puts in Cillian.
I flop down in a nearby chair and kick off my boots. "Good luck with that. They never used to trust others, and now they trust nobody but each other."
"They trust you." Dex breaks his silence, his gruff tone holding curiosity. "Why?"
"I don’t think they do. Not really. Like Col, they need me when I can help them." I focus on my drink. "I mean, I helped them save the world, so that makes me more trustworthy than some."
Morgan chuckles. "You’re really proud of that, aren’t you?"
I sit forward and meet his eyes. "Yes. I might be a thief, but I don’t harm humans. Don’t forget I grew up in a human family. This is their world."
"And now you’re no longer in that human world." Cillian sits in the chair opposite me. "Kind of in between two worlds like us."
"I’m not a Dweller."
"Probably not, but maybe." Again, Dex interrupts and I purse my lips at him.
Cillian shakes his head. "No, between demon and human worlds. Not quite fitting in. The Institute is as open to you as us."
I blow air into my cheeks. Is this why I feel an affinity and comfort around these men? I’m unused to working closely with people, but in this case, I have little choice. I wait for one of them to ask the story about my past, but there’s an unspoken understanding between everyone. If somebody wants to share, they will. Don’t pry. Right now, I don’t want to take that trip down memory lane.
"And you’re some of the powerful ones, I presume?" I gesture at Cillian. "I’ve seen your magic—close up today. What else can you do?"
His mouth tips up at one corner. "Plenty."
He snaps his fingers and small flames appear at the tips, as if he’d rubbed kindling together. Cillian flicks his wrist, palm upwards and the flames travel towards his palm. Taking his other hand, he holds his fingers up as if pouring from one hand to the next. The fire grows and spreads across his hands, to his lower arms. All the while, his face remains impassive.
"Holy crap. That’s dangerous." I keep my eyes fixed on the flames, half-fascinated and half-worried what he’ll do next.
"Yes. I am." He pats his hands
together and the flames dissipate as if he’s rubbed them away. "But you’ve seen that I am."
"The dangerous Dwellers are best controlled," puts in Dex. "Donovan knows that and it’s why he keeps us close."
Morgan glances at him. "Dude, he doesn’t know what you are."
"I bet he does," I say. "Donovan doesn’t seem the sort you can hide things from." I nod at Morgan. "Show me what you can do."
He arches a brow. "What? Here and now? In front of the guys?"
I poke him with my foot. "Very funny."
"Aren’t portals and barriers impressive enough for you?" He nods. "And saving your backside the other night."
"I want to see what you can do with time." I set my glass down. "Can you rewind?"
"Not often. Certain circumstances." He points at Dex. "Why not ask him what else he can do?"
Dex watches from beneath his fringe. "Is that a dig at my lack of magic?"
Morgan straightens. "No. I just mean Syv’s ‘twenty questions’ should be aimed at you too."
Without another word, Dex stands and leaves the room. I watch him, mouth parted. "Wow. Touchy much."
"That’s Dex. Makes moody Morgan seem sweetness and light." Cillian smirks.
"I’m not moody."
"You are a bit." I poke him with my toes again and he catches my foot. Morgan looks back in challenge as I attempt to pull my foot away. "But I understand why. The brother thing."
"Brother ‘thing’." He snorts and drops my foot.
"You’re different this evening," says Cillian. "Less snarky."
I hold up my glass. "More relaxed. Next time, we should dance."
"Dance?" Morgan’s face transforms, as if I’ve asked him to jump out of a high building.
"Or not." I stand and place my glass down. "Anyway, thanks for everything today."
"Whoa. Calm down, Syv," says Morgan with a laugh.
"What?"
"Thanking us."
I bristle. "I always thank people if they help me."
"You’re welcome," says Cillian and nods. "But keep away from the fae guy."
"The Collector?" asks Morgan.
I keep my eyes on Cillian, warning him not to say more. "No. Just some trouble catching up with me earlier. I bet you can imagine that happens sometimes."
He eyes me doubtfully. "Did something more than Cillian told us happen at the fae place?"
"I don’t know, because I’m unsure how much he told you." I flick a look back to Cillian. "And we’ll leave things at that, thanks."
"Is the trouble sorted?"
"Mostly. But we should keep away from the fae, like Cillian says." I stand and stretch. I need out of here before the conversation heads any deeper into what happened. "Sleep needed. Busy day tomorrow."
"Hopefully. If your Horsemen friends come through with some help." Morgan stands too.
He follows me from the room and we walk side by side in silence. Their rooms are close to where I sleep. An awkward tension joins the undercurrent from the physical awareness we have of each other. Alone. Walking to bedrooms. I grasp at what to say.
"Thanks for telling me about your brother."
Morgan pauses. "I didn’t want to."
"Oh. Okay. Why?"
He chews on his lip and studies my face. "Because I can’t figure you out. I don’t like sharing information with people I hardly know."
"I totally understand. But at least I know what I’m getting myself mixed up in."
Morgan steps forward. I wish I understood the look on his face, but this guy can hide his feelings as easily as I can. I’ve been told I have a ‘resting bitch face’ and I can never figure out why those people don’t say the same thing about guys with sullen looks. I did think Morgan was the perfect example, but now I understand why he walks around distracted and on edge.
Morgan’s intense eyes continue to search mine. "I didn’t think I liked you at first, but you’re funny. Confusing and snarky, but you bring something to us."
"Like a death mark—and maybe a box soon?"
He gives a wry smile. "Like that: funny. This situation is similar to when Dex arrived. He’s totally different to us, but something about him fits."
"But you don’t trust me, do you?"
Morgan doesn’t reply for a moment. "Not yet," he says eventually. "But you draw me in, and that’s what worries me."
"I’m not doing anything but being myself, Morgan." He has this wrong. I don’t draw him in—we’re intrigued by and attracted to each other because we know little and want to know more. I can see this in his puzzled expression. The way I catch him watching me sometimes. And the way he catches me watching him.
The news about his brother hurt my heart. Many people think I’m a snarky, cold-hearted thief. Those who judge don’t know me. I don’t like emotional involvement, but sometimes my empathy draws me to people. Col and his hidden loneliness. Dex and his painful past. Cillian and his desire to belong. Even Morgan, who's as clever at hiding his emotions as I am. I don’t only empathise, but I feel all this too. I want to watch how they work through this.
Learn what it takes to find happiness.
I blink the thoughts away. In my short time here, I’ve grown to like these guys and they've drawn me in. And right now, Morgan pulls me closer, as if he’s taken hold of my body and mind.
"Are you using magic on me?" I whisper.
His face sours. "What the hell? No. I wouldn’t and I’m insulted you said that."
I can’t take my eyes off him or stop thinking about the effect he has on me. I looked for an explanation, but I can’t blame these thoughts and feelings on magic. They're real.
He closes down again, hands pushed in pockets and softened expression gone. "I think it will be some time before we understand each other, Syv."
"And before we trust each other?"
"That too. But please don’t do anything to break the guys apart. The three of us—we’ve a close bond."
"And you don’t think a fourth person fits?" My stomach lurches. If one guy doesn’t want me involved, I have no chance.
"I never said that. I’m asking you not to unsettle everything, then cause problems and walk away."
Unsettle. "I’m sure I can’t have such a big effect that quickly."
He smiles. Hell, I love it when this guy smiles. And when that smile is aimed at me, I rewind to the teen Syv whose stomach flutters and body heats. The teen Syv who didn’t know what she was and hadn’t hardened against her world.
"But you have, Syv. And you know that." He steps back and breaks his steady gaze. "I hate to sound harsh, but we can’t be distracted by you too much. I’m happy to help you and don’t want to see you hurt, but I need to find my brother. We need to stop Verin. That will always come first for me, however I feel about you."
He pauses and bites his lip and the situation switches from tense to awkward.
"I mean, how I feel about you being part of us." He looks over my shoulder at a spot on the wall as he corrects himself, then back to me. "And I think if things work out, we’ll make a great team."
Team. That word again. I cross my arms. "Well, I guess I should sleep now. Can you tell Dex not to sleep outside my room again, please?"
Morgan breaks back into that smile. "You’re a strange girl."
"And you’re a strange guy."
He inclines his head to the hallway. "Yeah. Time to sleep."
I watch as he walks away, then he stops and looks back. "And that’s why I think we’re not so different, Syv. Are we?"
I don’t have a chance to reply before he disappears into a nearby room.
I walk into my empty room and stare around. How did Morgan manage to drill past the girl who was about to flirt with him and make a drunken proposition? Instead, Morgan turned our encounter into something more intimate than if I had dragged him in here.
16
The Institute is quiet the next morning. I sit in the lounge with the strongest, blackest coffee I can find, annoyed nobody is around t
o see how amazing I am for getting out of bed before noon.
Death marks do that to a girl.
In an attempt to ignore the black stain and stay distracted, I sort through my full voicemail bank. I scribble notes on jobs that sound interesting. Col left two messages, asking me to contact him. Interesting. He rarely uses his mobile phone—is he reaching out in response to my call, to solve our argument?
Still no word from Malvorn, the guy who recruited me to take the sought-after item, despite leaving him a message too. I don’t usually have issues with his jobs. Not death threats, anyway. No way will I work with Malvorn again, if this is what happens to me.
I have a couple of jobs lined up. Do I go ahead with them?
One is to locate a fancy trinket for a vampire, from an ex-lover, and another to track down a missing book for a witch. Nothing urgent. Items I've found before with no issues. Good.
Dex walks into the lounge room where I sit with my feet on the table, legs crossed. He scratches the corner of an eye and looks at me.
"What's this?"
"Just some work I'm lining up for after you save my life." I flash him a grin.
"Agree to work with us full time, Syv."
I take the pad from him. "Maybe part-time. I prefer my independence."
"Aren't you curious?" he asks.
"About what?"
"About your origins. We can help. I bet whoever your ancestors are, they come from the first time the portals opened."
My mouth dries. I’ve considered this many times and denied it. "Ignorance is bliss."
Morgan catches our conversation and interrupts. "Is it? Because I swear that this mark and people pursuing you is more than the box. The item is important, yes, but why would they try to kill you if you're just a random thief?"
"As I keep saying, 'kill Syv' is a popular pursuit." I stretch my arms above my head and crack my knuckles.
"I've watched you closely recently," says Dex. "I've uh... taken out a few people who followed you."
"Dex! That puts you squarely in the Horsemen's crosshairs." He did? Wow.
"How about 'thanks, Dex'?"
I sigh. "Thanks, Dex."