‘I did ask how she thought the Eskimos survived. “They must all starve to death,” I said, “trying to eat reindeer meat without teeth.” But she paid me no heed.’
I laughed with her but I couldn’t help feeling that the shield was going up again; that despite what she had said in the bathing machine she was dreading what I might have to tell her.
The wind was blowing so strongly now we had to hold on to our bonnets with both hands. The sea was the colour of slate and the sun sent spears of light through the gathering clouds, turning the air a menacing yellow.
‘It’s going to rain!’ As the wind whipped my words away I felt the first stinging darts upon my face. I glanced back the way we had come but the houses were a distant blur of colours. I looked the other way and spotted a clutch of upturned fishing boats. I pointed and began to run.
I could see a blue-painted hull sticking up at a different angle from the rest. It was propped up on two wooden crates, leaving a small gap for us to scramble under. The shingle beneath it was warm and dry. We crouched for a moment, panting like wet dogs. Then Jane said: ‘We really are alone now, aren’t we?’
‘No one can hear us, at any rate,’ I replied, echoing the nervous lightness of her voice, ‘and no one can see us, either.’
‘I can hardly see you in this gloom,’ she whispered. ‘What are you thinking?’
It was a long moment before I answered. The wind blew blackened fragments of seaweed into our shelter and the rain beat hard over our heads. ‘I am thinking of what you want me to say and how loathe I am to tell it,’ I said. ‘I am thinking of your face as it was two nights ago and how I should feel if I caused that look to return…’ I waited but she did not speak. I could not see her eyes, for they were cast in the deepest shadow. ‘Do you really want me to go on?’
‘Yes, I do.’ I felt her fingers on my arm. ‘Daylight makes me a coward, you see. Yesterday, in that dark little cocoon above the water, I felt safe. I could allow myself to think of it. And I feel safe here, like a snail coiled up in its shell. Do you think me strange?’
‘No,’ I said, ‘not strange. Just afraid, as anyone would be.’
‘But I must know the truth. Please, tell me what you have seen.’
‘Well, if you are sure…’ I pulled my knees up tight to my chest. ‘Before I begin, I must say this: I have seen or heard nothing that would stand up in a court of law as irrefutable proof of wrongdoing. I do not doubt that my testimony would be demolished by any lawyer worth his salt.’
She listened without interruption while I related it all, beginning with the scene on the stairs, then describing the fishing trip and Henry’s account of the incident with the buck in Chilham Park.
‘I think you underestimate your evidence.’ Her voice was unnervingly calm. ‘It was a gloved hand you saw round Henry’s waist? You are sure of that?’
‘Yes,’ I said. ‘I went over and over it in my mind that night: my eyes might be weak but I am certain they did not deceive me.’
‘And the fishing trip: that was around the time of Elizabeth’s birthday, wasn’t it?’
‘It was,’ I answered, wondering what direction her thoughts were taking.
‘What about the walk to Chilham? Do you remember the date upon which that took place?’ Now I guessed where she was going: I didn’t want her to make the connection I had made – but how could I withhold the truth when she had expressly asked for it?
‘It was some time in February, I think.’ This attempt at being vague did me no good.
‘Do you mean this year or last?’ she said.
‘Last year,’ I replied.
‘Early or late in the month?’
‘Around the middle, I think.’
‘Louisa.’ The name rang out like a shot in our wooden cell. My ribs and stomach contracted. I held my breath, wary of what I had unleashed. ‘I wonder how many of the others?’ She said it softly, as if she was holding a conversation with herself. ‘It could be as many as six out of the nine.’
Although I could not see her face I felt her eyes boring into me, as if the answer to this terrible conundrum could be found inside my head. The boat creaked as the wind changed direction. The rain hammered louder still on its barnacled hull. This was worse, far worse than I had imagined.
‘I never could understand why Miss Pearson jilted him; I thought she was jealous of Eliza. But now…’ she tailed off with a faint hiss.
I opened my mouth. My tongue was as dry as the shingle beneath me. ‘What are you saying?’
‘I think that this has been going on for years.’ She scooped up a handful of shingle. Broken shells came trickling through her fingers. ‘I didn’t tell you, did I, that Henry was engaged to someone else before he married Eliza? She was an admiral’s daughter. We had seen her miniature and she looked very beautiful. But when I met her I saw that the artist had taken a great many liberties in its execution.’ She twisted her knees round to the other side. I could see a little more of her face now. Her eyes were darting over the planks of the boat, as if a scene was painted upon them. ‘Henry was with the militia and we hadn’t seen much of him for a while. But that summer he was granted leave. He said he wanted the family to meet his new fiancée and of course, we were all dying of curiosity.
‘Cass and I were going to stay with Edward and Elizabeth. It was before they had Godmersham – they lived at a place called Rowling – and we thought we could call on Miss Pearson on the way. Edward came to Steventon to collect us but while he was there Henry sent him a letter. It said that we would find him at Rowling when we arrived. We naturally assumed that he had taken Miss Pearson to stay, so that we should not have to go via London to meet her. But he had not.’
‘He was there alone? With your sister-in-law?’
‘Well, when we arrived, other members of her family were dining at the house. I don’t know how long they had been there. Henry seemed as attentive to these relatives as he was to Elizabeth. But on the second day of our visit he took to his bed. He said he felt too unwell to go shooting with Edward and the other men. Elizabeth would often leave us all sewing while she went to see how he did, which was no more than any hostess would do and I thought nothing of it. After a week Henry went off to Great Yarmouth to see the army doctor and we went to London to meet Miss Pearson. Then, two months later, we heard that she had broken the engagement off.’
‘You think she knew? How could she have found it out?’
‘I don’t know. What I do know is that nine months after our visit young Henry was born.’
Henry. If she was right about this it was an audacity that beggared belief.
Jane must have known what I was thinking, for she said: ‘Of course, Elizabeth has a brother of the same name, so no one thought anything of it.’
‘But can it really be true?’
She dropped her head and gave a deep sigh. ‘You said that nothing you had seen amounted to proof of wrongdoing: that is exactly what I told myself. As I said to you, Henry has always been a horrible flirt; he can’t seem to help it. And I convinced myself that it was only flirting; that it didn’t mean anything.’
‘What makes you so certain that you were wrong? The verses in the card case?’
‘If I am honest, I knew before that,’ she replied. ‘I saw something the same night that you did, on the way back from Canterbury.’
‘What did you see?’
‘It was just a look, nothing more. He was helping her into the carriage and I was standing nearby, saying goodnight to some friends of Edward’s. I turned round and saw them both in profile. There was a lamp directly overhead. I could see their faces quite clearly. There was such ardour in their eyes: it was a look that only lovers would give.’
‘But do you really believe that he is capable of…’ I quailed at putting it into words. She had conjured up a terrible spectre: a man for whom adultery was a way of life; a man who had betrayed his own brother while making free with his hospitality; a man who was founding a dynasty of b
astards with his own sister-in-law.
‘I have watched him,’ she whispered, ‘since I was no older than Fanny is now. And while I love him best of all my brothers, I have to own that he has always overstepped the boundaries. It is as if he breathes different air from the rest of us and sees the world in different colours.’ She closed her eyes and shook her head. ‘I am beginning to believe that he is capable of almost anything.’
Chapter Eleven
Jane’s ability to live in the moment, to snap out of the blackest of moods in the blink of an eye, was never more apparent than on that bleak September morning. She stuck her hand out from under the boat and announced that the rain had turned to drizzle. Then she stretched out her legs, rubbed them up and down and said:
‘Do you like lobster?’
‘I have only had it pickled’ I said, ‘and I could hardly distinguish it from crab.’
‘Oh, you have not lived until you have tasted fresh lobster! We had some last year at Lyme and the fisherman who caught them told us the very best way they should be cooked: you tie them to the spit alive, baste them with water and salt, till they look very red then baste them with butter and more salt. Then you put out little dishes of oyster sauce and melted butter, crack open the shells and dip the meat in.’
‘That sounds rather cruel,’ I said, ‘Like burning heretics at the stake.’
‘I thought so, too, but the fisherman said that shellfish feel no pain. I asked him in what language they had conveyed this intelligence to him, and for an answer he pinched one on its claw. “There!” he said. “Do you hear him complain?” I’m afraid to say that I allowed my palate to get the better of my brain that day and now the mere memory of the taste deadens all reason. So, come on!’ She rolled sideways and squeezed out between the wooden crates. I followed, and emerged with a twig of seaweed sticking out of my bonnet.
She said that we could buy lobster at the other end of the beach but the heavens opened within minutes of leaving the safety of the boat. We raced up the steps to the road and dived under the striped awning of a butcher’s shop. We were still far from the promenade with its grand tearooms but we discovered that there was a place above the butcher’s where cakes and hot drinks could be bought. Cold and wet as we were we decided this was too tempting a prospect to resist.
The wallpaper was flecked with mildew and the windows were so steamed that we couldn’t see the sea. However, the smell of gingerbread and plum cake made up for the dismal surroundings. The girl who served us commented on the rain having driven all the trade away and indeed, we were the only customers she had. When she had gone I took a bite of cake. Jane picked off a corner of hers but did not put it in her mouth. Her eyes were moving restlessly around the room. She picked up her teacup then put it down again.
‘Do you think Fanny knows?’
My mouth was full of cake, which prevented an immediate reply. I was glad of it, for it gave me a few seconds to choose my words. ‘I’m sure that she does not,’ I said, watching her face, ‘but sometimes she says things that make me wonder what she’s thinking: it’s as if she’s feeling around in the dark, trying to make sense of her surroundings.’
‘I’ve thought that, too,’ she said. ‘What sort of things has she said to you?’
‘Oh, nothing of any real consequence.’ I told her about the entries in the diary and the comments she had made about Henry’s clothes on the day of the ball. ‘She’s not a child any more, Jane: she’s beginning to notice things. She loves her uncle and she loves her papa; she loves her mother above everyone and wishes to be like her in every way. I think that it perplexes her.’
‘And the older she becomes the more she will understand.’ Jane raised her cup to her lips and stared into it before drinking. ‘She reminds me so much of myself, you know. I can remember exactly how I felt, watching Henry and Eliza that first Christmas at Steventon. It was like stealing sweetmeats: I knew I was in on something wrong but I found it absolutely compelling. Sometimes I would be in a room where they were rehearsing a scene from a play. The directions would require him to strike some pose or place his hand upon his heart and she would come behind him, wrapping her arms around him as she corrected his posture or clasping her hand over his to emphasise the move. I would watch his face, see the flash of desire in his eyes and the colour rising from his neck to his cheeks. I saw the power she had over him and the thrill it gave her to enslave him…’ she trailed off with a small, hopeless shake of her head.
‘Do you think that Henry and she were…’ I glanced at the steamed-up window. ‘You said he was only fifteen…and she was still married to the Comte…’
‘I don’t know.’ She gave a small sigh and sipped her tea. ‘Eliza has always been wild. She never allows anything or anybody to control her. Her cardinal rule is that a woman may do as she pleases as long as she is discreet. She told me this herself when I was sixteen years old.’
I thought of the woman who had received me in the gilded salon; of her undimmed beauty and her apparent disinterest in the comings and goings of her husband. Yes, I could easily imagine this woman seducing a handsome boy. Had she made Henry into the kind of man he now was? Had he learned from her example?
‘There’s something I don’t understand,’ I said. ‘If, as you say you now believe, Henry fell in love with your sister-in-law before he married your cousin, why did he marry her? Why would he marry anyone?’
‘For her money, of course.’ Jane put down her cup and looked directly at me. ‘He wanted the means to go into business and she offered it. It wasn’t only that, I admit: there always was passion between them. But it wasn’t the incandescent passion of that earlier time.’
‘So why did she agree to it? Surely not just for the sake of providing a father for her son?’
She shook her head. ‘She could have managed without Henry: she had Madame Bigeon, who was absolutely devoted to the boy. The fact is that she, too, was in need of money. When Henry came to see her to tell her about his broken engagement to Miss Pearson she’d been trying to get at the ten thousand pounds her godfather had put in trust for her. But there was an obstacle in her way.’
‘What obstacle?’
‘My father, to put it bluntly. He was one of two trustees Warren Hastings had appointed to manage the fund. When Eliza wrote to ask for it to be made over to her, she got a letter back saying that it couldn’t be done.’ She broke off a piece of plum cake and popped it in her mouth. ‘He pointed out that there was no absolute proof that her husband had met his death at the guillotine; that it had only been reported by the despots who ruled France at the time. “What if her husband should turn up one day and demand the money himself?” my father wanted to know. “We would be bound by law to pay it out again and where would that leave us?”’
‘Yes, I see,’ I said. ‘So what did Eliza do?’
‘She went to see my father and told him she only wanted the money for Henry’s sake. She said that they wished to marry and she wanted to set him up in business. Of course, it worked like a charm. My father forgot his objections and once he had signed the paper, the other trustee fell in line. Within a fortnight the money was hers. She and Henry were married a few weeks later by special license.’
‘And Henry told you all this?’ I was torn between admiration for the boldness of this scheme and distaste for the cool, calculated bargaining it had required.
‘No he did not,’ she said. ‘My father told me. I was at home when Eliza came to see him. I was the only one there because Mama and Cass were visiting James and Mary. Eliza was so unlike her usual self that I knew something was up. When she’d gone I wheedled it out of him. He made me swear not to say a word until the marriage had taken place.
‘Why not?’
‘Because my mother didn’t approve. She knew Eliza could never give Henry a child and she thought it a sad thing; a waste, she called it.’
‘Knew?’ I said, reaching for my tea, which was by now lukewarm. ‘How?’
Jane hesi
tated a moment before replying in a whisper: ‘Eliza had a miscarriage. It happened just after her mother died, when her husband came over from France for the funeral. He took her to Bath for a holiday which, according to her, was a disaster because they hardly knew one another after all that time. Then he had to return very suddenly because his lands were under threat. She found out she was pregnant but within three months she lost the child. She was staying with us at Steventon when it happened. The doctor said she must never try to have another because the consequences would probably be fatal.’
‘Oh!’ The implications of this were horribly clear. Henry had entered into the bargain in the full knowledge that no children could result from his union with Eliza. The world of marriage was a foreign country to me, but the scanty knowledge I possessed was enough to grasp the fact that Eliza’s condition was unlikely to bring about conjugal felicity. ‘How long after the…’ I broke off, trying to find a polite way to put it. ‘That business with Miss Pearson,’ I said, ‘how long afterward did the marriage take place?’
‘I know what you are thinking.’ She closed her eyes with a small shudder. ‘Elizabeth gave birth to little Henry in May 1797: Eliza came to see my father in the middle of August that year.’
So if Jane’s suspicions were correct, Henry had already known that he was a father when Eliza came up with her proposal. ‘Much easier, then, for Henry to agree to it…’ I said. The creaking of the treads on the staircase prevented any further speculation. The girl who had served us appeared round the door, wanting to know if we required more tea. When we said that we did not, she gave us a look that said: Well, hurry up and go, then. She stood in a corner after that, folding napkins and sorting cutlery with an accompaniment of loud sighs, which soon brought about the desired result.
We stepped outside into weak, watery sunlight. The quest for a lobster was resumed and before long we found a fisherman who sold them. I tried not to look at the squirming creatures in the weed-strewn crate as Jane stood bartering over the price. I heard the snap of rubber as the bargain was made. Wrapped in newspaper, the lobster continued to wriggle all the way back to the house. Jane talked to it from time to time. She urged it to stop struggling and enjoy the last few minutes of its life in peaceful repose; when it refused she peeled back the newspaper, held the creature out before her and began to recite Gray’s Elegy. By the end of the second verse it had entered a state of relative torpor. ‘There,’ she whispered, tucking it back under her arm, ‘I knew it would work: I use it on my mother when she’s irksome – it always sends her to sleep.’
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