by Nora Roberts
Deanna lifted a brow, wondering how Angela would feel if she knew Finn had used the same phrase just a few hours earlier. “No need.”
“I know that you’re involved with Marshall at the moment, but Finn can be very persuasive.” She tapped out her cigarette, leaning closer. Girl to girl. “I know how news travels at the studio, so there’s no need to pretend you don’t know about what was between Finn and me before he went to London. I’m afraid since I broke things off, he might try to salve his ego and strike back at me, by making a play for someone I care about. I wouldn’t want to see you hurt.”
“I won’t be.” Uncomfortable, Deanna shifted back. “Angela, I really am running thin on time. If this is what you wanted to talk to me about—”
“No, no. Just making small talk. And here we go.” She beamed as their drinks were served. “Now we have the proper tools for a toast.” She lifted her glass, waited until Deanna had lifted hers. “To New York.” The flutes clinked joyfully together.
“New York?”
“All my life I’ve been working toward it.” After a hasty sip, Angela set her glass down. Excitement was shimmering around her in restless waves. Nothing, not even champagne could compete with it. “Now it’s reality. What I’m telling you now is in the strictest confidence. Understood?”
“Of course.”
“I had an offer from Starmedia, Deanna, an incredible offer.” Her voice bubbled like the wine. “I’ll be leaving Chicago and CBC in August, when my contract’s up. The show will be moving to New York, with the addition of four prime-time specials a year.” Her eyes were like blue glass, her fingers running up and down the flute like excited birds searching for a place to land.
“That’s wonderful. But I thought you’d already agreed to renew with CBC and the Delacort syndicate.”
“Verbally.” She shrugged it off. “Starmedia is a much more imaginative syndicate. Delacort’s been taking me for granted. I’m going where I’m most appreciated—and most rewarded. I’ll be forming my own production company. And we won’t just produce Angela’s. We’ll do specials, TV movies, documentaries. I’m going to have access to the best in the business.” She paused, always a showman. “That’s why I want you to come with me as my executive producer.”
“You want me?” Deanna shook her head as if to clear jumbled thoughts. “I’m not a producer. And Lew—”
“Lew.” Angela dismissed her longtime associate with a toss of her head. “I want someone young, fresh, imaginative. No, when I make this move, I won’t be taking Lew with me. The job’s yours, Deanna. All you have to do is take it.”
Deanna took a long, slow sip of champagne. She’d been expecting the offer of head researcher, and because ambition pointed elsewhere, she was prepared to decline. But this, this was out of nowhere. And it was far more tempting.
“I’m flattered,” she began. Flabbergasted, she corrected. “I don’t know what to say.”
“Then I’ll cue you. Say yes.”
With a quick laugh, Deanna sat back and studied the woman across from her. Eager, impulsive and, yes, ruthless. Not bad qualities all in all. There was also talent and brains and those edgy nerves Angela thought no one noticed. It was the combination that had pushed her to the top, and was keeping her there.
A top spot on the top show in the market, Deanna calculated. “I wish I could jump at it, Angela. But I need to think this through.”
“What is there to think about?” The wine was fizzing in Angela’s head. Deanna was just quick enough to save a flute from upending when Angela reached carelessly across the table. “You don’t get offers like this every day in this business, Deanna. Take what there is when you can. Do you know the kind of money I’m talking about? The prestige, the power?”
“I have some idea.”
“A quarter of a million a year, to start. And all the benefits.”
It took Deanna a moment to close her mouth. “No,” she said slowly. “Apparently I didn’t have any idea.”
“Your own office, your own staff, a car and driver at your disposal. Opportunities to travel, to socialize with the cream.”
“Why?”
Pleased, Angela sat back. “Because I can trust you. Because I can depend on you, and because I see something of myself when I look at you.”
A quick chill danced up Deanna’s spine. “It’s a very big step.”
“Small ones are a waste of time.”
“That may be, but I need to think this through. I don’t know if I’m suited.”
“I think you’re suited.” Angela’s impatience was simmering again. “Why would you doubt it?”
“Angela, one of the reasons I imagine you’re offering me this job is because I’m a good detail person. Because I’m thorough and obsessively organized. I wouldn’t be any of those things if I didn’t take the time to sort this out.”
With a nod, Angela took out another cigarette. “You’re right. I shouldn’t be pushing, but I want you with me on this. How much time do you need?”
“A couple of days. Can I let you know by the end of the week?”
“All right.” She flicked on her lighter and studied the flame briefly. “I’ll just say one more thing. You don’t belong behind a desk on some local noon show reading the news. You were made for bigger things, Deanna. I saw it in you right from the beginning.”
“I hope you’re right.” Deanna let out a long breath. “I really do.”
The little gallery off Michigan Avenue was crammed with people. Hardly larger than the average suburban garage, the showroom was brightly lit to suit the bold, splashy paintings arranged nearly frame to frame along the walls. The moment Deanna stepped inside, she was glad she’d followed the impulse to stop in. Not only did it take her mind off Angela’s stunning offer that afternoon, but it allowed her to follow up firsthand on her own interview.
The air was ripe with sounds and scents. Cheap champagne and clashing voices. And color, she mused. The blacks and grays of the crowd were a stark contrast to the vibrancy of the paintings. She regretted she hadn’t wrangled a camera crew to do a brief update.
“Quite an event,” Marshall murmured in her ear.
Deanna turned, smiled. “We won’t stay long. I know this isn’t exactly your style.”
He glanced around at the frantic colors slashed over canvas. “Not exactly.”
“Wild stuff.” Fran edged her way through, her husband Richard’s hand firmly gripped in hers. “Your spot this afternoon had some impact.”
“I don’t know about that.”
“Well, it didn’t hurt.” Tilting her head up, Fran sniffed the air. “I smell food.”
“It’s gotten so she can smell a hot dog boiling from three blocks away.” Richard shifted in to drape an arm around Fran. He had a pretty, boyish face that smiled easily. His pale blond hair was conservatively cut, but the tiny hole in his left earlobe had once sported a variety of earrings.
“It’s heightened sensory awareness,” Fran claimed. “And mine tells me there are pigs-in-a-blanket at three o’clock. Catch you later.” She dragged Richard away.
“Hungry?” Bumped from behind, Deanna moved comfortably into Marshall’s protective arm.
“Not really.” Using the advantage of height, he scouted the area and led her away from the heart of the crowd. “You’re being a good sport about this.”
“Coming here? It’s interesting.”
She laughed and kissed him again. “A very good sport. I’d just like to make a quick pass through, and congratulate Myra.” Deanna looked around. “If I can find her.”
“Take your time. Why don’t I see if I can find us some canapés.”
“Thanks.”
Deanna threaded her way through the crowd. She enjoyed the press of bodies, the undertones of excitement, the snippets of overheard conversations. She’d made it halfway around the room when a bold painting stopped her. Sinuous lines and bold splashes against a textured background of midnight blue, it turned the canvas into an
explosion of emotion and energy. Fascinated, Deanna moved closer. The label beneath the sleek ebony frame read AWAKENINGS. Perfect, Deanna thought. Absolutely perfect.
The colors were alive and seemed to be fighting their way free of the canvas, away from the night. Even as she studied the work, she felt her pleasure turn to desire, and desire to determination. With a little juggling of her budget . . .
“Like it?”
She felt jolted into awareness. But she didn’t bother to turn around to face Finn.
“Yes, very much. Do you spend much time in galleries?”
“Now and then.” He stepped up beside her, amused at the way she stared at the painting. Every thought in her head was reflected in her eyes. “Actually, your spot this afternoon convinced me to drop in.”
“Really?” She looked at him then. He was dressed much as he’d been when he’d crossed the runway. His expensive leather jacket unsnapped, his jeans comfortably worn, boots well broken in.
“Yes, really. And I owe you one, Kansas.”
“Why is that?”
“This.” He nodded toward the painting. “I just bought it.”
“You—” She looked from him to the painting and back again. Her teeth locked together. “I see.”
“It really caught me.” He dropped a hand on her shoulder and faced the painting. If he continued to look at her, Finn knew he’d break out in a grin. It was all there in her eyes—the disappointment, the desire, the irritation. “And the price was right. I think they’re going to find out very soon that they’re underselling her.”
It was hers, damn it. She’d already imagined it hanging above her desk at home. She couldn’t believe he’d snapped it out from under her. “Why this one?”
“Because it was perfect for me.” With the lightest of pressure on her shoulder, he turned her to face him. “I knew the moment I saw it. And when I see something I want . . .” He trailed a finger up the side of her throat, feather light, while his eyes stayed on hers. “I do what I can to have it.”
Her pulse jumped like a rabbit, surprising her, annoying her. They were standing toe to toe now, their eyes and mouths lined up. And too close, just an inch too close, so that she could see herself reflected in the dreamy blue of his eyes.
“Sometimes what we want is unavailable.”
“Sometimes.” He smiled, and she forgot the crowd pressing them together, the coveted painting at her back, the voice in her head telling her to back away. “A good reporter has to know when to move fast and when to be patient. Don’t you think?”
“Yes.” But she was having a hard time thinking at all. It was his eyes, she realized, the way they focused as if there were nothing and no one else. And she knew, somehow, that he would continue to look at her just that way, even if the ground suddenly fell away beneath her.
“Want me to be patient, Deanna?” His finger roamed over her jawline, lingered.
“I—” The air backed up in her lungs. And for a moment, one startled moment, she felt herself swaying toward him.
“Oh, I see you found refreshments already,” Marshall said.
She saw the wry amusement on Finn’s face. “Yes, Marshall.” Her voice was unsteady. Fighting to level it, she gripped his arm as though he were a rock in the stormy sea. “I ran into Finn. I don’t think you’ve met. Dr. Marshall Pike, Finn Riley.”
“Of course. I know your work.” Marshall offered a hand. “Welcome back to Chicago.”
“Thanks. You’re a psychologist, right?”
“Yes. I specialize in domestic counseling.”
“Interesting work. The statistics seem to point to the end of the traditional family, yet the overall trend, if you look at advertising, entertainment, seems to be making a move back to just that.”
Deanna looked for a barb, but found nothing but genuine interest as Finn drew Marshall into a discussion on American family culture. It was the reporter in him, she imagined, that made it possible for him to talk to anyone at any time on any subject. At the moment, she was grateful.
It comforted her to have her hand tucked into Marshall’s, to feel that she could be, if she chose, part of a couple. She preferred, overwhelmingly, Marshall’s gentle romancing to Finn’s direct assault on the nervous system. If she had to compare the two men, which she assured herself she certainly didn’t, she would have given Marshall top points for courtesy, respect and stability.
She smiled up at him even as her eyes were drawn back to the dramatic and passionate painting.
When Fran and Richard joined them, Deanna made introductions. A few minutes of small talk, and they said their goodbyes. Deanna tried to pretend she didn’t feel Finn’s eyes on her as they nudged their way to the door.
“Be still my heart,” Fran muttered in Deanna’s ear. “He’s even sexier in person than he is on the tube.”
“You think so?”
“Honey, if I was unmarried and unpregnant, I’d do a lot more than think.” Fran shot one last look over her shoulder. “Yum-yum.”
Chuckling, Deanna gave her a light shove out the door. “Get a hold of yourself, Myers.”
“Fantasies are harmless, Dee, I keep telling you. And if he’d been looking at me the way he was looking at you, I’d have been a puddle of hormones at his feet.”
Deanna combated the jitters in her stomach with a brisk gulp of spring air. “I don’t melt that easily.”
Not melting easily, Deanna thought later, was part of the problem. When Marshall pulled his car to the curb in front of her building, she knew that he would walk her up. And when he walked her up, he would expect to be invited inside. And then . . .
She simply wasn’t ready for the “and then.”
The flaw was in her, undoubtedly. She could easily blame her hesitation toward intimacy on the past. And it would be true enough. She didn’t want to admit another part of her hesitation was attributable to Finn.
“You don’t need to walk me up.”
He lifted a hand to toy with her hair. “It’s early yet.”
“I know. But I have an early call in the morning. I appreciate your going by the gallery with me.”
“I enjoyed it. More than I anticipated.”
“Good.” Smiling, she touched her lips to his. When he deepened the kiss, drawing her in, she yielded. There was warmth there, passion just restrained. A quiet moan of pleasure sounded in her throat as he changed the angle of the kiss. The thud of his heart raced against hers.
“Deanna.” He took his mouth on a slow journey of her face. “I want to be with you.”
“I know.” She turned her lips to his again. Almost, she thought dreamily. She was almost sure. “I need a little more time, Marshall. I’m sorry.”
“You know how I feel about you?” He cupped her face in his hand, studying her. “But I understand, it has to be right. Why don’t we get away for a few days?”
“Away?”
“From Chicago. We could take a weekend.” He tipped her face back and kissed the side of her mouth. “Cancún, St. Thomas, Maui. Wherever you like.” And the other side. “Just the two of us. It would let us see how we are together, away from work, all the pressures.”
“I’d like that.” Her eyes drifted closed. “I’d like to think about that.”
“Then think about it.” There was a look of dark triumph in his eyes. “Check your schedule, and leave the rest to me.”
Chapter Seven
Deanna hadn’t expected the pricks of disloyalty. Television was, after all, a business. And part of the business was to get ahead, to make the best deal. But while the May sweeps consumed the CBC Building, with nightly ratings discussed and analyzed by everyone from top brass to the maintenance crews, she felt like a traitor.
Next year’s budgets were being forecasted off the sweeps, and the forecasts were being made on faulty assumptions.
She knew Angela’s would be gone before the start of the fall season. And with the deal Angela had made, she would compete with CBC’s daytime lineup as wel
l as with prime-time specials.
The more celebratory the mood in the newsroom, the more guilt jabbed at Deanna’s conscience.
“Got a problem, Kansas?”
Deanna glanced up as Finn made himself comfortable on the corner of her desk. “Why do you ask?”
“You’ve been staring at that screen for the past five minutes. I’m used to seeing you move.”
“I’m thinking.”
“That doesn’t usually stop you.” Leaning forward, he rubbed his thumb between her eyebrows. “Tension.”
In defense, she shifted back in her chair to break the contact. “We’re in the middle of the May sweeps. Who isn’t tense?”
“Midday’s holding its own.”
“It’s doing better than that,” she snapped back. Pride and loyalty welled together. “We’ve got a twenty-eight-percent share. We’re up three full ratings points since the last sweeps.”
“That’s better. I’d rather see you fired up than unhappy.”
“I wasn’t unhappy,” she said between her teeth. “I was thinking.”
“Whatever.” He rose then, and hauled up the garment bag he’d set on the floor.
“Where are you going?”
“New York.” In an easy, practiced move, Finn slung the bag over his shoulder. “I’m putting in a few days as substitute host on Wake Up Call. Kirk Brooks’s allergies are acting up.”
Deanna arched a brow. She knew that CBC’s Wake Up Call was performing poorly, lagging well behind Good Morning America and Today. “You mean the ratings are acting up.”
Finn shrugged and took one of the candy-coated almonds from the bowl on her desk. “That’s the bottom line. The brass figures the viewers will think somebody who’s been through a few firefights and earthquakes is glamorous.” Disgust crossed his face as he swallowed. “So, I’ll get up early for a few days and wear a tie.”