by Lauren Wood
Tears began streaming down her face. She was right she didn’t love Jake, but clearly Rico didn’t love her either. So what could she do? She had a walk to think about it, it was at least 4 miles to get back to the office and her car. She could have called Jake and he could pick her up, but how would she explain this one to him. “Hey sorry I’m stuck here, but Rico kissed me and I kissed him back so he got upset.” She was almost positive about his reaction to the news. It wouldn’t be good at all.
She used the time as she walked to think about her feelings and what she should do about them. Jake was really sweet and she knew he cared about her, but there wasn’t anything serious between them. He had made that clear to her last night. It was more of a mutual agreement to sleep together and enjoy each other’s company for a period of time.
Once he was healed he would be out of town and on to greener pastures. Lalena was almost positive that she wouldn’t want to go with him. She couldn’t see herself outside of this town, she loved it here. Her life was good, for the most part. Though today hadn’t been a great day, she thought as she continued to walk. Overall most days of the week she was happy with her life.
“Fucking Rico, who does he think he is?” She fumed and got angry as she got closer to the office. She wouldn’t even go upstairs; she would get into her car and go home. She was already going to be so late getting home.
Lalena thought about simply telling Rico she quite, but she didn’t want too. She was sure that soon enough this person who was sending the emails would do something, and she didn’t trust anyone else to protect Rico.
Chapter 6
Rico touched his lips in the back of the car. He hadn’t met to kiss her, but he couldn’t resist the urge had been far too strong. “She’s with another man, why did you do it?” Rico swore at himself.
This was his fault this time, the forgiveness he sought out in his mind from Matt was nothing compared to what he had done today. He had knowingly kissed Lalena even though he knew she was sleeping with and involved with another man. Sure she had claimed it was nothing serious. But did Jake Newton feel that way?
Jake could very well be just like Matt, oblivious to the fact that his woman wasn’t really in love with him. He knew he had made the comments to her about what he thought Jake felt, and that she wasn’t going to be part of his future life. But he wasn’t sure about that, he had only been lashing out at her, he was hurt.
At first she had fought him, but he kept kissing her, urging her for a reaction. He was sure it would happen; he could honestly see the way she looked at him. There were thoughts that were not pure coming from her eyes when she looked Rico’s way. He knew he wasn’t crazy, and when she had kissed him back, it had taken everything to pull away from her.
He had walked away from her, even though he had wanted to go back to her. “She’s involved with another man, what the fuck Rico.” He swore once more at himself.
Once he was back in the office Sally had asked where Lalena was. “Hey where is Lalena at?” She questioned him.
“She had something else to do.” Rico answered and headed to his office. He could still feel her lips on his, and it made him even more upset.
He licked his lips and could taste her; he craved to have more from her. But he knew it wasn’t possible, what had happened today should never have taken place. The only way he could ever be with her is if she was alone.
Rico had realized today that for some reason he wanted so much more from her. He would be willing to be with only her. She had asked him what he wanted from her and he had almost told her, I want to marry you. The thought had come to his mind quickly and scared him though.
She would never believe him, he was certain. She had made it clear in the car that she felt he was not a good man. “How can you judge me when you do the same thing?” She had asked him.
He knew she was right about that, he did use woman for his own devices. But that didn’t mean he wanted to use her, because he didn’t. Rico wanted more from her, but there was no way he could have it. He wondered what Jake Newton felt for her, not for the first time since he had seen him open the door at her place last night.
Rico considered talking to the boy, but what would that accomplish? “Maybe it will let you know how long you’ll have to wait for her.” He thought, however, he shook the thought away.
“What would it look like me approaching him and asking about his feelings for her? He would surely know there was a reason for this, and most likely not a very good one.” He commented to no one. He pictured what his reaction would be if someone came up to him and asked him the question about a female he was seeing.
“Not a good idea at all. I just really have to stop, I can’t have her.” Rico admitted to himself. However, his body yearned to kiss her again, to feel her skin under his fingertips. He wanted her so badly he didn’t even hear Sally knock on the door.
“Excuse me Rico; did you forget you have that date tonight?” Sally opened his door and poked her head inside his office.
“Oh shit, yeah I did forget. Am I late?” Rico asked.
“Well you’ll be a few minutes late. She’s meeting you at Outback Steakhouse.” Sally told him.
“Wasn’t I supposed to pick her up?” He questioned.
“Yes, but with it being so late, you’ll miss your reservations if you go and pick her up first. So instead I just sent the car to get her.” Sally said.
“Thanks. Do I even have time to go home and change shirts?” He questioned and looked at his watch. “Shit no, it’s all her fault.” He said under his breath.
“Excuse me, I didn’t quite hear you.” She questioned.
“Nothing I was just thinking to myself.” Rico got up and headed out the door. “See you in the morning. If you see Lalena tonight tell her that she should be in at 9 in the morning.” Rico told Sally and left.
He wasn’t really happy that he had this date now. All he could think about was the kiss and how she had fought at first, then given in. It could have been a sweet victory was it not for Jake Newton and his part in her life.
Chapter 7
By the time she had made it back to her car she was already two hours late getting home. Jake must still be working; otherwise she was sure he would have called her. She was happy about that, she had a feeling she would sound guilty on the phone when she talked to him. “What are you going to be like in person?” She wondered aloud.
Lalena tried to reason with herself and figure out what had happened. Should she even mention it to Jake? Wouldn’t he be better off not knowing about this? It was obvious to her that the best thing to do would be to quit and go back to the force, but she couldn’t do it.
She tried to put the kiss out of her mind; she didn’t think it would happen again. The look that Rico had given her as he got back into the car had been one of almost hatred. She couldn’t understand why though, he was the one who had forced himself on her. He had continued to kiss her even when she had pushed, or rather tried to push him away from her.
Lalena would have thought that his reaction to her kissing him back would be something more. She was glad it didn’t go that way.
As she got back to her car she looked up and saw the office as black, she figured everyone would be gone by now. It was at that point she remembered that Rico had a date tonight. “He’s a fucking hypocrite. That’s what he is, a damn pot calling the kettle black. How dare he kiss me and get mad when I react and kiss him back!” Lalena was pissed off now as she thought about it.
She’d meant guys who were like that in the past; it was okay for them to do things, but not for women. It wasn’t like she had slept with a huge number of guys though. She had been completely honest with Rico when she told him only 3 people in the past. Lalena had been picky about who she slept with, she wouldn’t be with just anyone.
As she pulled in the driveway she was happy to see that Jake wasn’t home yet. She didn’t need to face him when she was home late. Her phone had died along the walk back to t
he office, so she plugged it in and turned it on. There were several messages on there from Jake and one from Sally as well. She pulled up the one from Sally first.
Hey Rico said that you should be at the office at 9 tomorrow morning. Hope you got everything done you were working on! See you at the office. Sally.
Obviously Rico hadn’t told Sally about what had happened between them in the car and why she wasn’t back at the office. Lalena shook her head, “what a creep, I hate him.” She stated.
Hey Babe, I’ll be working a bit later tonight, won’t be home until close to midnight. Hope you’re not mad!
Hey Babe, it’s me again, correction on the time, it might be until 2 in the morning. A couple of people have called off tonight. Don’t be angry, I’ll wake you up when I get home!
Hey Babe, you’re not made are you? I haven’t heard back from you yet. Just checking. You know I need the money!
She typed up a message to Jake. Hey sorry my phone died earlier in the day, just plugged it in. I’m not mad; I’ll see you later on when you get home. Have a good night.
Lalena sighed it was perfect, this way Jake wouldn’t be all in her face asking her questions about the day and how it went. She was sure it would happen every day as long as she worked with Rico. For some reason he was jealous of Rico, but she could understand why too, if he only knew what happened today.
She ran some hot water and put bubbles in the tub. She needed some unwinding time by herself. “I’m so happy that he’s working late.” She wondered if her guilt would be all over her face. “But it wasn’t my fault.” She said, but her mind answered her back immediately, but you did kiss him back.
“Fuck what do I do about this? I should really tell Jake about it, I hate to lie about anything.” She admitted.
Lalena practiced her story with the bubbles and tried to picture Jake’s reaction. “He’ll be so mad, I know it.” She fought with her ethics for a while.
“What a piece of shit, he’s upset at me because I’m with one person, yet he’s with how many women? How can he be so damn judgmental?” She said to no one.
“Who are you talking about?” Jake asked from the door of the bathroom.
“What? Oh sorry I didn’t hear you come in.” Lalena said.
“How could you the music is blasting! What were you talking about?” Jake asked again.
“Just something the mayor said today that pissed me off.” Lalena stated.
“Hmm, so why don’t you tell me about it.” Jake commented as he sat on the lid of the toilet.
“I’d rather not, you got home early?” She tried to change the subject.
“I’m just on a short break, figured I’d come home and see how your day went.” He told her.
“It was okay, nothing much.” She said.
“So what is this about him being a piece of shit? Sounds like something went on.” Jake probed.
She looked down; she really didn’t want to lie to him. “We had an argument, he said some things and I said some things back to him. I’m just angry about it.” She explained.
“You sure you’re okay, your face is flushed like your more upset than you want to admit.” Jake pushed.
“No it’s nothing I can’t handle. If it was a problem I would tell you.” She made the decision to not tell him about the kiss. There was no reason to share it with him; he would be upset for nothing.
“Alright, you know I’ll help you through anything. Are you sure that you should keep working there though?” Jake asked.
“Really Jake it’s nothing I can’t handle. It was a misunderstanding that will be fixed soon.” She stated.
He looked at her and saw her breasts perking up through the bubbles in the bath water. “So I have like an hour, maybe we could get your mind off of today by, you know what!” He smiled seductively.
Lalena smiled, though she felt more guilty for thinking about the kiss at the moment than what Jake was offering. “What do you have in mind?” She asked.
“Well I’m kind of hungry for some of that sweet pussy juice of yours.” He stated.
She laughed and screamed as he bent over and scooped her easily out of the tub. “Hey your uniform will get all wet.” She screamed.
“I have another one I can change into.” He said as he carried her to the bedroom and put her on the bed. “It looks delicious.” He said as he moved between her legs and began to lick her pussy lips.
Lalena moved to meet his mouth and tongue as he probed her cunt deeply with it. She felt him slip one of his fingers into her as he nibbled on her clit. “Oh damn.” She sighed.
He chuckled and sucked hard on her clit, drawing it into his mouth; he scraped his teeth across the tender spot. She moaned loudly as an orgasm shot through her body. He made love to her with his mouth for a few more seconds then pulled his hard dick out of his pants.
Jake thrust into her hard. He looked down at her as he was pushing into her and said, “I love fucking you Lalena.”
“It’s nice isn’t it?” She admitted.
“Would you tell me if the mayor made a pass at you?” He asked as he continued to push his hard member into her snatch.
“Is this the right time to talk about this?” She asked.
“Why not?” Jake asked.
“Because I would rather not think of Rico while your fucking me.” She admitted. It was bad enough that she had to stop the thoughts occasionally, but for Jake to bring him up on purpose.
“Okay I’ll wait.” He kissed her and pushed into her again.
The kiss didn’t feel the same as Rico’s and her mind wished it was Rico with her. Lalena knew this wasn’t fair to Jake at all.
“He kissed me today.” She blurted out.
Jake stopped immediately. He was still inside of her but not moving. “What?” He asked his face deadly serious.
“We were arguing and he kissed me today.” She repeated.
“Okay, so is this the thing you said you could handle?” He questioned.
She shook her head yes. “I can handle it, he was angry when he stopped and I don’t think he’ll do it again ever.” She admitted.
“What do you mean when it stopped? How long of a kiss was it? Did you kiss him back?” Jake had pulled out of her and was now sitting on the edge of the bed.
“Jake, I don’t know how to explain it and it not sound bad.” She tried to touch him.
“So you did kiss him back.” He said his voice full of anger.
“I didn’t mean too, it was just that he didn’t stop when I fought and I gave up.” She explained.
He was shaking his head and thinking. “I don’t know what to say to you. This is wrong. Why would you even let him kiss you in the first place? Why did you get the job? Did you have sex with him before?” Jake questioned her.
“I don’t know why I got the job. He met me at the cancer event and the next day I was hired for this job.” She stated.
“What happened at the event? Did he kiss you then too?” Jake sat looking at her waiting for her answer.
“No he didn’t kiss me, he just talked to me.” She said.
“What did he say to you? Lalena why did you not tell me all this to begin with? I mean I thought we had the start of something here. I didn’t know where it would go, but I can’t be with you if your kissing another guy.” He shook his head more, his eyes looked confused.
“I didn’t mean for it to happen. I’m sorry.” She had nothing else she could say but that.
“I have to go; I’ll call you in a few days. Think about what you want though. I won’t share you with another man, especially him.” Jake said as he zipped up his pants and grabbed some of his clothes out of the drawers.
“Jake, don’t go.” She cried out.
“No I can’t stay; if I do I’m going to say some things that are best not to say right now. I’m angry and I’m barely controlling it right now. I have to go Lalena. If you make up your mind before I call you let me know. Though I’m pretty sure I know who you’ll
pick. I can’t offer you near as much as he can right now. But honestly I never took you for the gold digging type of bitch that you seem to be right now. Or rather a slut who will just go around and kiss other men. I don’t even think I know you.” Jake said and walked out.
She sat there crying, her body shaking from the nerves. She had to tell Jake about the kiss. Every time he asked her about Rico she would think of the kiss. “What did you expect to happen?” She asked herself. “Do you think he would stay and still make love to you? How dumb can you be?” She pounded the bed in frustration.
“Think about what you want.” He had said before he left.
Lalena sat there and thought about it, did she really have a choice. Rico had left her standing on the side of the road, the disgust clearly showing in his eyes when he hopped into the car. Jake had the same look on his face when he had left her tonight.
She felt as if her life was falling apart in the matter of an afternoon. The tears continued to fall from her eyes as she thought of the two people who were a part of her life. One who she couldn’t get out of her mind, and the other who happened to now possibly be her ex-boyfriend. If they were actually dating in the first place!
Finally, she had bawled all she could and still hadn’t thought of what she wanted. Though he she would actually admit the thoughts she was having, she would know. Lalena knew that it wasn’t possible though; Rico had made it pretty clear today.
“But I’m not dating Jake now am I.” She commented. She knew it sounded lame and already could picture how Rico would react to that news. He would simply use her, because he would think she wasn’t worth the time and effort for more than just a fling.
Instead of making any decisions she fell asleep and figured in the morning hopefully things would look better.
Chapter 8
Rico looked at Sharon across the table. He would rather have Lalena here. Why does she have to be involved with that boy, he thought for the thousandth time since the night before. The bad thing was he could still taste her on his lips.