by Amity Cross
I listened and watched, determining your character when you were not in my presence. Outside of my influence, you were quiet, thoughtful, and spoke plainly. You helped wherever you could without complaint, you offered others sound advice, yet I discerned an air of worry in you. You were involved in the workings of Thornfield, yet you were apart from it. I saw you turn from frivolity to wander the halls deep in thought.
I wondered if you thought of me and if you would seek me out, but you did not. You kept to yourself, attempting to hide your depression, and snuck away to the library time and time again. You had little hope in you, and it worried me, though when I presented myself to you, Jane, you fought me to the point I was completely intoxicated.
If you think I never saw who you were, Jane, you are mistaken. A name is nothing compared to who a human being is at their core. You showed me your true face time and time again. My most grievous mistake was not trusting you with mine.
I want for nothing more than to marry you and live in this world by your side. I had a wife before, that is true, but she has not been so for many years. It is you I wish to give myself to. You and no other.
You…you unearthly creature. I am lost at scribing words of endearment, and I cannot aptly explain what I see when I lay my eyes upon you. I am much better at showing you my affection, but you are gone. I long to touch your soft skin, kiss your fiery lips, and tangle with your sharp tongue. I ache without you in my arms. Without your love to guide me, I am nothing more than a shell—empty and soulless.
You are my match in every way. You master me like no other, and I cannot let you go so easily.
I know I have hurt you gravely, Jane, and for that, I am deeply sorry. I understand why you ran, and I will give you the time you desire but know this. I will come for you. I cannot let you go, my love, my light, my salvation.
I will come.
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Yours forever,
Edward Rochester.
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