by Lauren Wood
She opened the door and everything stopped. The world actually stopped for a moment when I saw those beautiful blue eyes looking back at me. “Grey?”
She was surprised to see me and I was happy to see her. “Cameron. It has been a while.”
“What are you doing here Grey?”
It took me a minute to answer because I still wasn’t sure, but the changes that I had thought I had seen before were real. She was beautiful, but now that she had her coat off, I could see that she was thicker than I remembered and her tits were larger. It took my mind a minute to realize what all of those things meant. When her hand went to her stomach protectively, I knew. She was pregnant.
My heart dropped and questions started to roll around in my head. Whose baby was it? I didn’t know much about pregnancy and babies, but it looked like she was a bit along. Did that mean that it was mine?
“You’re pregnant?!” I hadn’t meant for tat to be the first thing out of my mouth, but the revelation was a surprising one.
She looked away and asked me again what I was doing there. “I came to see you. You are pregnant.”
Now it was a statement and she was not answering me. Why wasn’t she answering me?
“Yes, I am.”
“Is it mine?”
Cameron looked down and shook her head that it was. This was not the conversation that I played in my head when I played this scenario in my mind the whole trip here. It was not at all what I had expected, but somehow it felt right. It felt like the right thing to happen. I had waited a long time for her, but now I didn’t have to. She was going to be mine one way or another. She was carrying my child.
“Why didn’t you tell me Cameron? Don’t you think that it is something that I should know about?”
“I was going to. I tried to call you or Leo really because I don’t have your number, but I got scared and backed out. I didn’t know what to say and I don’t want you thinking that this was because I want your money. I know that you are rich, I looked you up. I just wanted to tell you, but I just couldn’t. I am sure you have had lots of women tell you the same thing. I know what kind of man you are Grey. I thought I was making it easier on both of us. I didn’t want to see your face when you denied it all and tried to get out of it.”
She was upset and I didn’t like to see her like this. “Why don’t you let me in Cameron? We have so much more to talk about then I thought we did.”
Cameron didn’t move from in front of the door and I looked at her with a question in my eyes. “I don’t want to talk about it and get my hopes up Grey. You don’t owe me anything.”
“You are carrying my child Cameron. This isn’t something that we can just ignore. You get that right?”
Cameron bit her lip and looked away like it was too hard to look me in my eyes. I knew that it was a lot, all coming down so quickly, but there was nothing else that I could do. I wasn’t leaving, not then and certainly not now. Now I wanted to know everything and I wasn’t leaving until I got all of the answers that I sought.
“Let me in Cameron. We have a lot to talk about.”
My eyes kept going to her stomach and my own tightened with the idea that I wasn’t going to get to see her anymore. I know how she was and I know that she didn’t want to do this alone. I didn’t want to give up the right and chance to be a father. It wasn’t something that I had ever really thought about that much, never conceived to want, but a lot had changed since I met Cameron and this seemed to just be something else.
She finally moved back when I made it clear that I wasn’t going anywhere. I knew now that I wasn’t going to be able to stop how she felt at the minute, but I was sure in time she would see that we could be together, we could be a family.
“You look really good Cameron. It feels like I haven’t seen you in forever.”
She smiled and waved me off. “I don’t feel like I look good. I feel huge and the last thing I worry about is the reflection in the mirror. Most of the time I am just tired anymore.”
She didn’t have any makeup on and I could tell by looking at her that she was in fact tired. I didn’t blame her of course and she still looked amazing. It must be a lot to take on. It made me realize that I knew so little about her, the woman that was carrying my child. It felt like we were going to have to start all over because it wouldn’t be long until we were together.
Before she could say anything else, I did what I had wanted to do for so long. I pulled her to me and hugged her. I wanted to feel her body against mine, even if hers was trembling. There was no reason to pretend anymore. There was really no reason for me to hold back all of the emotions that I had for her. I loved her and now I didn’t have to hold it in. I could be straightforward, which was always the best way for me to handle things.
“God, I have missed you Cameron. I have been looking for you for a long time. Ever since your old boss came to me with that tape, I have been trying to find you, but you just disappeared. You are very good at that.”
Cameron finally pulled out of my arms and looked at me a little queer. “Why have you been looking for me?”
She really didn’t see, did she?
“Because I am in love with you Cameron. I think I have been since I met you at that rest area. Ever since then, I haven’t been able to get you out of my mind. Then we had those moments at your work and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you ever since.”
Chapter 16
Cameron
I wanted to believe him. I really did. It was even more perfect what he was saying, then what I had heard in my mind when I played it out. It was all just too perfect and for a second I leaned in towards him. My body was at odds with my mind again and all I wanted to do was kiss him and feel him against me. Grey had always done this to me, making me feel more than I was supposed to. But I knew him. I knew him too well and I still remembered how everyone reacted to me when I stayed there with him. It was all just so normal for him to have strange women staying around.
I tried to think of why he was here now and why he was saying the things that he was saying. It wasn’t for my benefit, was it? Maybe I was just the one that got away and his ego wouldn’t stand for it. I really didn’t know, but I felt like I had to guard myself and my heart from him.
I took a step back before his lips could capture mine and Grey followed me into the apartment, shutting the door behind him.
“Where are you going Cameron?”
“I don’t know Grey. This is a lot to take in. I mean, I haven’t seen you in months and I couldn’t even get the courage up to talk to you on the phone and now you are here. I don’t know what this is or what I am supposed to do. It just…”
I didn’t have the words for it. I thought that I would tell him and he would blow me off. I never imagined that he would come looking for me. I never thought that he would tell me that he loved me. Did I love him? I certainly felt something, something strong that took over everything in my mind half of the time, but it also scared the hell out of me. I knew that Grey could hurt me because I cared too much. It was hard to imagine what it would be like with him.
“I just know how you are Grey. I remember when we first met and you let me stay with you for that night. Everyone that works for you didn’t bat an eye about some strange woman being in your apartment. You even had a whole drawer full of new toothbrushes. Who were they for?”
He was still walking towards me and he stopped. “You are right. I used to be that kind of man. I didn’t care about anyone and I had a lot of flings. But you changed all of that Cameron. I have missed you so much and I want to be a better man for you.”
“You don’t even know me.”
He disagreed and told me that he knew enough to fall in love with me. “Hell I even think you made Leo fall for you. Now you are carrying my child Cameron. How else could this turn out, but with us together as a family?”
I had imagined it a lot different. I imagined taking care of our son by myself, had for a while. My brain didn’t want
to process everything and Grey being so close was really hard to deal with. I didn’t know what it was that he wanted, not really. Why was he really here now and what did that mean for me?
“I don’t know Grey. I need time to think.”
Grey shook his head and took his jacket off, moving towards me. I was already halfway into the apartment and I didn’t have much more room to move away from him. My body didn’t want to move away from him. I was just as drawn to the man as I had been before. He had some kind of spell over me and the hormones running through me made it clear that that part of me hadn’t changed. I still wanted him, so badly. I was afraid if he touched me, it would all be over.
As he advanced, my back was up against the side table and there was nowhere else to go. I was stuck.
“Do you really need time to think Cameron? I have had too much time to think and I have missed you. I don’t want to think anymore. I just want to feel.”
He stopped right in front of me and so helps me I wanted to reach out to him. He was so close, the man that I dreamed about every single night. He was on my mind all of the time and after I called Leo, it had just gotten worse.
“Don’t you want me Cameron, like I want you?”
There was no real answer except yes. I did want him, badly and my trembling body was giving it away. How easy would it be to feel him against me? How easy would it be to just reach out and touch him?
“You know that I want you Grey.”
That seemed to be the answer that he was looking for as he moved towards me once more. It was only a step, a few feet that separated us and then his hands were on my face, pulling me to his waiting lips. I whimpered as our lips touched and sighed when I felt the heat between us. It was just like last time and I wanted more, so much more.
There was a sound of submission that came from between my lips as I opened them to his demanding tongue. Grey had a way of making everything so much more and now I wanted him right now. It was like when I was at work and he had just shown up. It was like he knew my body, better than I knew it myself.
“I have missed these lips Cameron. Surely you have to see that we are meant to be together. It was fate that led us to each other.”
His words were blurry as my mind was still on his kiss. I wanted more. I didn’t want to talk, no matter how sweet his words were. I wanted him inside of me, touching me as he had before. When I told him as much, he lifted me up as if I was made of glass and set me on the edge of the table.
“No skirt this time Cameron.”
Instead he pulled my pants down and moved his hand to my panties. I whimpered out his name and whined with the touch. I hadn’t been touched in so long that my body was immediately on fire and I was already ready for him to move inside of me. I told him as much and I felt a finger slip inside of me as he pulled the soaked panties back.
“I never had time to take you slowly Cameron. It is always rushed with you.”
I didn’t care and I told him that I wanted him inside of me right now. The finger that was twisting and pumping inside of my wet flesh wasn’t enough. I needed all of him. Right now.
“Please Grey!”
He growled at me and I knew then that he wanted me as badly as I wanted him. It was just like the last time and his hand struggled to free himself. I had to have him and I moved down to help him get free of his zipper and the pants that were in our way.
“You push me so much Cameron. You make me crazy.”
I didn’t care how crazy he felt. When his hands were on me, I was mad as well. It wasn’t enough that we were so close. Close wasn’t enough. Only Grey inside of me was going to be enough and when his pants fell to the floor, I wrapped my legs around his waist. It was all that I wanted and I heard my own sounds of pleasure when his hot skin touched mine. It was all I needed and then it was all too much as he surged inside of me suddenly. My eyes closed to the pleasure and for a time, I was speechless. My arms wrapped around his neck and Grey pulled me in for a kiss.
“Fuck, you are perfect Cameron. You have to know that.”
I knew that when we were together like this, perfection was exactly how it felt. I knew then that this was never going to end any other way then the way it was going right now. I couldn’t stop the surge of feelings that came out of me, or the pleasure derived from his touch. It was impossible and it wasn’t something that I ever wanted to end.
He took me slowly, sliding in and out at a mind-numbing pace. It wasn’t enough and it was as if I was on the edge of reason and just one more touch was all that I needed to lose myself completely. I clung to him, whispering in his ear for more. I wanted him deeper and I wanted him faster, but for now I was only able to deal with the heaviness inside of me and the tension that was released from his touch.
My insides convulsed around him and I heard his own groan of pleasure through gritted teeth as he pushed in deeper, unfazed by my pleas. It wasn’t enough. I don’t think it was ever going to be enough.
He was going to lose it, Grey told me so and I squeezed harder, hoping that I could push him over the edge and finally have a moment to catch my breath.
“I can’t hold back anymore Cameron. You just feel too good and I don’t want to.”
“Then don’t. I like the feel of your cum inside of me. It is so hot and fills me up just the right way.”
I grimaced at the sudden surge of pleasure as he started to plow into me at a breakneck speed. It was more than I could handle as the second wave of pleasure washed over me, overwhelming my senses like a tsunami over an island. Everything left of me was devastated and I tried my best to hold in the cry of pleasure, his name repeated on my lips over and over again.
“Yes Grey, God yes!”
It was more than I could imagine and it cemented all the memories that I had of him. I had started to think that everything that I remembered was but a dream. I had myself convinced that it was all in my head because nothing could feel that perfect. Nothing could possible feel as good as I remembered. But it did. Grey felt even better than he did in my dreams and I couldn’t hold back any longer.
Another sweet flush of bliss ran through me as I held him as tightly as I possibly could. It was more than I was ready for and I felt emotions bubble up that I had tried so hard to push back. It was a moment that I would never forget for the rest of my life.
Finally I felt his own pleasure bleeding through; filling up every bit of me that was left for him. It was all too much and my head went back. “Grey!”
He said my name like it was the most precious sound in the world and told me that he had waited so long for me. I had waited for him just as long and through all of the emptiness that I had felt with him gone. Now I felt nothing but fullness. I was finally complete and it was Grey the whole time that I needed.
My arms wrapped even tighter and I moved my lips to his. It silenced us both as his tongue danced in my mouth. It really was perfect in that moment and I tried my best to hold it together. It wasn’t supposed to be this way. I wasn’t supposed to fall for him again, but my body, my heart, my soul was his for the taking and it terrified me to no end to give him that sort of power.
Chapter 17
Grey
Six months later
I still couldn’t believe that she was mine. After everything we had gone through, I knew now that it was fate that brought Cameron to me. I also finally realized how lost I was before I met her. I had thought that my life was perfect, but now I knew that it just wasn’t the case. I finally had happiness and it was never in the arms of as many women as I could get my hands on.
Before Cameron, it was just a steady stream of women, in and out of my life with nothing of real substance. I knew now that I would have been happier, I was happier with just her. All I needed was the love of one woman to satisfy me. Now my body was happy, as well as my soul.
She was bathing our son, the other missing piece to my life. Cameron wasn’t looking at me; I doubted that she even knew I was there. Instead she was singing to Charlie
in her sweet voice. Living with Cameron had taught me so much about her. She sung when she was happy and when she was sad. I knew that it was happiness that brought it out in her today. Ever since she had Charlie, she always had a smile on her face. I was almost jealous of the love that she showered on him. It was so pure, almost like how she looked at me.
“Why are you watching me Grey? Do you want to take over?”
“I doubt you would let me.”
“Probably not. I am done anyways. He always gets tired after his bath so I am going to get him dressed and put him down for a nap.”
“How long will we have?”
She looked over at me and smiled. “I know that look.”
“What look?”
“The look that tells me that you want me.”
I tried to deny it, but there was really no point. I wanted her badly and the more I watched her hips sway, I knew that it was only a matter of time. I had waited weeks now and finally it was time.
“Can you blame me?”
“Kind of. Things change. I have changed.”
“Nothing has changed in my eyes, but that I love you more than I ever thought possible.”
She was worried about the physical changed that had occurred, but they had done nothing to dampen my need for her. She was just as gorgeous now as she ever was to me. In a way, she was even more beautiful, now that we had been together for so long and her body had given me the happiness that I had always dreamed of. I wanted back inside of her and I wasn’t afraid to show it.
“You are also a blind fool Grey.”
I watched Cameron pick up Charlie and wrap him in a towel, holding him against her chest with such care.
“No, I may be a fool, but I am certainly not blind. I can see you now as I did then. You are just as pretty to me and I wish you could see yourself as I do.”