by Lauren Wood
She wanted to let hope and happiness fill her heart, she really did, but she was nervous. Carrie had never really given her heart to anyone. She did have one crush when she was in high school. It had been Mr. Tetley, her psychology teacher that caught her eye. However, she was just a student, and she never followed up on any of her crush feelings.
“This isn’t a crush.” She whispered to herself. Carrie knew that she wanted more with Johnny than she could have ever imagined. But could he give her the hopes and dreams of what she had always wanted in life. Could he be a one woman man, a man who would marry her?
Carrie felt that life wasn’t fair; she didn’t know if Johnny would be able to give up all the other things he had thrown at him. He was going to be a big star; she had no doubt about it. There was already talk about some of the professional teams who were eyeing him.
She knew that more women would throw themselves at him in the professional leagues; it would be nothing like now. Did she really believe he would turn his back on all other women?
Carrie wanted too, but there was an ache in her heart at the thought. It felt as if he had already betrayed her, before they even began.
Finally, frustrated with the thoughts in her mind, she tried to close her eyes. Her mind played back the kisses from the night, and the touches. She could feel her body going into overdrive at the thought of him.
She moaned at the thought of what it would be like to have him take her. How her body cried out for him, even now. She knew it was possibly the biggest mistake she would ever make. But she hoped that tomorrow after the game that he would take her. Not just out to eat either, she grinned.
Though she really wanted to wait, she didn’t think she could resist him again. It had been hard enough tonight. If he won tomorrow, he’d be on cloud nine, and want to celebrate. She would give him her most precious gift in celebration. It might be dumb, and she might be setting herself up to be heartbroken. However, she was tired of fighting these feelings inside of her.
Carrie was ready to take a leap and let him prove to her the words he told her. If he was lying, maybe it was better to find out now, instead of later on. Dragging out the time it took her to invite him into her bed, would only make her like him more. “Who are you kidding? You love him.” She muttered to herself.
She really did wonder if it was love though, she had nothing to compare it too. He had told her she was different. Did he mean that he had more feelings for her? Was in possibly in love with her? But how, he barely even knew her.
Then she thought about it, how she could have developed such strong feelings for him as well. She didn’t know him all that well. Sure they had shared some secrets at a few of the parties, and then tonight.
So how could she even wonder what was going on in his head, when her own was so messed up. “Oh Johnny, I just wish I knew that you were serious.” She said lightly.
Carrie let her dreams take her away, and they were filled with him. It was a night of him taking her body in several ways. Again the dream seemed real, but she had no experience, so she wasn’t sure. Is this what it would really feel like? She had to wonder, once she knew she was in the dream.
Chapter 9
Johnny dressed in his uniform, it was the big game. He had dreamt about Carrie again last night. They had made love all night long in his dreams, and he had woken up feeling great. He had to admit that he was really horny, but he didn’t take up any of the offers of a quick blowjob before the game.
No he had been serious she was the only one he wanted. It had shocked him when he had told her “her lips were the only ones he wanted to kiss.” When he realized that it was much more than just a kiss, it was all of her he wanted. Well it had made for a hard discovery.
“It’s time for you to settle down there Johnny Boy.” He had muttered to himself when he had got up from bed.
The fact that he had never thought of one woman so much in his life scared him quite a bit. He had wanted to avoid any type of commitment for so long. Now here he was going headlong into one of his choosing.
“Hey Strom you ready?” Mike came up behind him in the locker room.
“Sure am, let’s win this one and go to the big game!” Johnny gave his killer smile.
“Hey save that smile for after the game, don’t get too cocky yet.” The coach came in the room.
The men settled down, and listened to their before game speech.
I could say a lot of things to you right now. I could tell you how working as a team will be the only way you can win this game. But you already know that. I saw yesterday in practice just how well-oiled this machine we have here is, and I loved it. I could tell you that this game means everything. But I would be lying to you if I did that. This game is an important one for our program, and could mean that some of you will go higher in the drafts. But everything, I would be lying to you. The truth is that there is so much more in this world than football. If for some reason you happen to lose this game, it won’t be the end of the world. Most of you will still be drafted, or you’ll simply go into other careers. I guess this kind of sounds like I’m not putting enough of a spin on this game. I’m not, you know why? Because you are young men, you will go on from here and have full lives. Many of you will only wear this uniform a few more times, and then never again will it be stretched taunt against your skin. You’ll trade it for another uniform, maybe a suit and tie, or just jeans and a shirt. What I’m saying is do your best out there. If it’s our time to win, God will look down on us and smile. If it’s not, then so be it, just go out there and do your best.
The team all cheered and headed down the tunnel to the field. Johnny thought about the coach’s speech. It had been much different from many of his other talks before the game. He had been more focused on letting everyone know that there was more to life than football. It had been the very thing that had been pulling at Johnny’s mind all day long too.
He still wanted to make football his life, but he wanted to have Carrie there beside him as well. Would she be willing to do that? He hoped so.
Once he was out on the field he looked around for her, he could feel her there. He spotted her almost immediately and waved to her.
The crowd that was sitting around her went wild. He could see her blushing red from on the field. Johnny had to chuckle at the shy smile that slide onto her face.
Chapter 10
Carrie watched the game from the bleachers. After Johnny had waved to her in the crowd, she had gotten many questions from those around her.
“Oh are you dating him?” “How do you know him?” “Can you get him to sign my shirt?” She heard them all.
Plus a few of the jealous girls had started giving her nasty looks. Carrie wondered if they had been with him before, or if they saw their chance slipping away.
She watched with pride as Johnny had an amazing game. He threw for 5 touchdowns, and ran for 2. Carrie yelled and cheered for him.
After the game he ran over to the sideline and called her down to him. He waved to her, so she made her way down. She watched as he calmly waited for her, and handled all the people around him.
“Hey good looking, how’d you like the game?” He smiled at her. He didn’t wait for her to answer, but instead pulled her closer and kissed her on the mouth. The kiss was long and passionate; she could feel her knees grow weak with each passing moment.
Carrie pulled back once he had released her. “What was that for?”
“I want everyone to know that you are my girl.” He kissed her on the cheek, “I’ll see you in about 15 minutes outside the back door.” He ran off.
When she turned to walk back up to her seat she saw the jealous girl’s eyes. They actually looked to have tears forming. Carrie couldn’t believe it, but she was sure she saw it.
Other people were cheering her on, telling her way to go, but see didn’t hear much. All she could think of were his words, “I want everyone to know that you are my girl.”
Carrie shook her head, she mu
st still be dreaming. Johnny Strom was many things, but a person who showed affection in public? That wasn’t him at all. He usually kept that to the bedroom, or so she had heard.
Sally looked at her when she was finally back by her seat. “So I guess you and Mr. Handsome have made a first step!”
“I don’t know. I’m so confused. I mean he told me he would wait for me. He just told me down there that I was his girl. Does that mean he wants to date me?” Carrie asked the confusion plain on her face.
“Yeah it sure sounds like it. I told you he looked at you differently all the time. I swear I could tell he was into you.” Sally told her.
“But really Sally, would he be happy with a plain girl like me?” Carrie asked.
“You’re not plain; I keep telling you that you are beautiful. Ask him, he’ll tell you.” Sally stated. “He’d be dumb anyway if he passed up on a girl like you.”
Carrie smiled at her friend. It was hard to imagine that Sally had once been after Johnny, but had backed off. She was a good friend, Carrie was happy to have her in her life.
“Thanks Sally, you really are a good friend.”
“Now let’s get you down there so you don’t miss your big date! I have a feeling it will be a very interesting night for you. Oh also, I won’t be home until late, just in case you need the room. Just remember to put a sock on the door knob so I don’t come busting in.” Sally told her.
Carrie turned red at the comment, but shyly said, “I will.”
She went down and was only outside waiting for Johnny for a few minutes. The door opened and he walked out, his smile grew when he spotted her. “Hey, I was wondering if you would actually come down here. I’m sorry if I embarrassed you with the kiss.”
“No I wasn’t embarrassed, it was nice.” Carrie admitted.
“So I wanted to celebrate, so how about we go to the steak house?” Johnny asked.
Carrie wanted to invite him back to her room instead. But she couldn’t voice the words, so instead she agreed to go to the steak house. There was always later!
He opened the door to his car for her and let her in. She was shocked at how chivalrous he seemed. Carrie decided she could get used to this. She really liked this side of Johnny.
Chapter 11
Carrie sat across the table from him at the steak house. Her mouth was wide open. “How in the world did you just eat all that meat?”
She had watched as Johnny had slammed down a 21 ounce steak without stopping.
“I’m hungry after the game, it’s not easy work!” He laughed.
She had been pushing her food around barely able to eat. Her mind was running as she thought of the best way to invite him over to her room. Carrie was nervous, but she had made up her mind to take the jump. To take a leap of faith based on what Sally had seen, and what Johnny had said to her.
She only hoped again, and not for the first time, that it was not a mistake. She wanted to give him the gift of her virginity, but didn’t want him to break her heart. How could she guarantee that?
“You’re awfully quiet tonight, is anything wrong?” Johnny asked.
“Well I was thinking about a few things.” She began, but wasn’t sure how to continue. “Maybe after we eat, we can go back to the sorority house.” She finally said.
Johnny looked at her, “If you are sure that’s what you want.”
Carrie was happy that her meaning had gotten across to him. This was a field where she had absolutely no experience.
“Yes.” It was all she could say. The weight of the one word answer hit her fully. She had just agreed to give him her virginity.
“I promise to be careful.” He told her across the table.
She looked up at him; she could feel her nerves throbbing. Carrie wasn’t even sure if she would be able to go through with it.
“Well let’s get the check and go. You are done eating right?” He asked, looking at her plate that still had half of the food on it.
“Yeah I’m a bit nervous, so I can’t really eat.” She admitted.
“Don’t be nervous, I swear I won’t hurt you.” He said once more as he directed her out the door. Johnny had paid the bill quickly and soon they would be on their way to her room.
Carrie hoped that his I won’t hurt you comment also included her heart. Here goes nothing, she thought.
Before she knew it they were standing at her room door. Carrie wondered what had happened in between, the ride here was a blur. She couldn’t remember anything they had talked about, though she had heard words and her own voice.
Her mind was humming, her body was a nervous wreck and she was tucking her lip between her mouth and biting on it. Carrie swore if she didn’t just get this over with she’d bit through her own lip from worry.
She closed the door behind them and Johnny looked at her. “I told you I won’t pressure you. Honestly, if you aren’t ready yet, please just wait. I can wait.” He told her.
Carrie swore he made her crazy; she wanted to throw herself at him, just because of his words. She slowly closed the distance between them.
When she was right in front of him she stopped and stood on her toes. Her mouth found his and she lightly kissed him. He pulled her to him and deepened the kiss, exploring her mouth with his tongue.
She sighed heavily as her body began that low throbbing and her lower regions moistened.
“Are you really sure?” He stopped and pulled her away, looking directly into her eyes.
“Yes I’m sure.” She barely whispered.
Chapter 12
Johnny slowly undressed Carrie. He pinched himself a couple times to make sure he wasn’t dreaming. She had invited him back to her room, and now here they were. He was actually nervous about making love to her.
To him this meant more than just a casual encounter with anyone. This was a woman he cared a lot about, hell might even love. That was if he wanted to admit to those feelings. He had yet to really say them out loud.
“You are beautiful.” He whispered to her as he kissed her neck.
“Thank you.” She said shyly.
He caressed her breasts lightly with his fingers. He wanted to take her nipples into his mouth. Johnny had been wanting to see her completely naked for so long now, or so it seemed. But now that she was in front of him, all he wanted to do was enjoy every inch of her.
He kissed his way down to her breasts and took a nipple into his mouth. She moaned loudly as he applied a bit of pressure with his teeth to her hard nub.
Johnny kissed his way down to her apex, looking at her closely shaved area. It was a region that no one else had touched, he felt honored. He hoped that he could live up to this honor; he wanted to make sure she was not only happy but satisfied.
He ran a finger slowly down her leg and back to her lower region. He could feel the moistness seeping out of her already. Johnny wanted to taste her, so he lowered his head between her legs.
He looked up at her and saw confusion in her eyes, but soon she was screaming. Her body writhed under the exploration of his finger and tongue on her pussy.
Johnny took her clit in between his teeth and he heard her squeal as her body began to shake. His face was covered by a slew of her liquid as it poured from her body.
He lapped up what he could and knew that she should be wet enough for sex. “How do you like it so far?” He asked her as he kissed her.
Her eyes were hazed over with pleasure; she smiled and said, “Oh wow.”
Johnny chuckled as he slowly pushed his member forward. He goes to her opening and tried to go as slow as he could.
Carrie was nervous still, but so much pleasure had rocked her body that she couldn’t think straight. She felt him push into her, and felt a tug of pain. But soon it vanished and was replaced by pure pleasure.
He thrust into her and she came up to match his movements. Carrie raked her fingers down his back, and Johnny moaned loudly.
“I don’t know how long I can last.” He admitted ashamed that he c
ouldn’t last longer. She was far too exciting for him. As she moved against him, he concentrated on anything but how she felt.
He felt her body climax though and he couldn’t hold back. He moaned loudly as he had what had to be the best orgasm of his life. Johnny was shocked when he still felt his hardness, so he kept thrusting into her.
She moaned loudly as her body kept hitting the high of a climax over and over again. Johnny released another load into her and finally felt that he was done.
He kissed her lightly and pulled her closer to him. “Carrie that was amazing, I love you.”
She sat quietly, wondering if she had heard it right.
Chapter 13
Carrie couldn’t believe her ears, had Johnny just said he loved her? “What did you just say?” She finally asked.
“I said that was amazing.” He said.
“No after that.” She pushed.
He laughed, “I said I love you Carrie Litim.”
She jumped up, “Are you serious? You love me? How?”
“What do you mean how? You’re amazing in so many ways. You’re so beautiful, even when you wear your glasses and hair up. I think you have to be the most magnificent woman around.” He told her.
“I can’t believe it.”
“What you don’t care about me?” He asked.
“I love you too Johnny. But you’re so experienced. You can have any woman out there, why me?” She asked.
“I just told you why you. Don’t you listen, I don’t want anyone else.”
Carrie stopped, why was she arguing with him, why couldn’t she just enjoy it.
“I hope you aren’t just saying that, and plan on breaking my heart.” She whispered finally.
He pulled her chin up. “What do I need to do to prove it to you?” He asked.
“I don’t know, I guess just time will tell. I shouldn’t be upset about it. I’m just scared Johnny. I’ve never been in a relationship before. You’re reputation doesn’t make me feel any better either. You know that these girls talk right, they say things about you. They talk about how you’ve slept with them, and then you never come back. Well I guess you do for some of them, Patty seems mighty found of you. Her eyes light up when she mentions your name.”