by Hyrican
"Then how do you know?"
"Have you ever kissed a girl?"
"Yeah. I've done a lot more than just kiss a girl."
"Oh."
"It was okay, but it didn't really do much for me. I've always wondered what it would be like to kiss a guy."
"I'm sure you can find somebody to kiss. My brother and his boyfriend started a GSA at school, you know. You could probably meet somebody there."
"Right. Like I'm just gonna waltz in and start kissing random guys."
"I didn't say you should kiss random guys."
"I don't even know for sure that I'm gay. Maybe I'm only, you know... What do they call it? Bi-curious?"
I rolled my eyes. "The fact that you even know that phrase means you're probably gay."
He scowled. "I'm being serious."
"Me, too. Look, what do you want me to do? Kiss you?"
"Yes."
"What?"
"It wouldn't mean anything. I just want to see what it's like."
"Ty, I'm not gay."
"Yeah, I think we covered that. I'm not asking you to let me fuck you."
I felt my cheeks heating up.
"What's a kiss going to hurt?" he insisted.
I sighed. He was right. What would a kiss really hurt? "Okay. But just a kiss."
Ty looked surprised. "Really?"
I smiled. "Sure. Why not?"
Ty suddenly seemed very unsure of himself. "Oh. Uh. How?"
I raised an eyebrow. "You've kissed before, right?"
"Yeah, but I mean—"
I leaned forward and pressed my lips against his. His were surprisingly soft — softer and fuller than most girls I'd kissed. It was a quick one, hardly more than a peck on the lips. I sat back and grinned at his stunned expression.
My grin quickly faded as his look of surprise turned into a frown. "What?"
"That's it? I didn't even have time to think."
"So now you want to make out?"
"I just want a real kiss."
"Fine." I turned my body to face him more. "But you have to make the first move this time. And you better take me out to dinner afterwards."
Ty didn't even smile at my joke. He was looking nervous again. Just when I thought he would chicken out, he slowly began to lean forward. I closed my eyes and waited for his lips. This time, I let the kiss linger. I gently pulled away when I felt his hands start to slide around my back, though.
Ty's eyes slowly opened with a glazed-over expression. He glanced down at his lap, then quickly grabbed a throw pillow and hugged it to his body.
I fought the smile that threatened to spread across my face. "So, how was it?"
"I'm gay."
I couldn't help it. I started laughing. Ty glared at me for a few seconds, then joined me.
After we'd calmed down, he glanced over at me. "Thanks."
"It was nothing."
"It was my first kiss with a guy. I wouldn't call that nothing."
"True. So how was I?"
He smirked. "I guess you were okay."
"Okay? If okay gives you a boner, I'd hate to see what really good does."
He sputtered for a few seconds before we both burst into laughter again. "I think it's time for you to go home. You ready to walk on the bum leg of yours?"
I stood up. "Ready when you are. I bet I could still out-trick you on my board."
"In your dreams, Connelly."
"Nah, I'm in your dreams, remember?"
He laughed and started for the door. "You wish."
"Do I?"
"Man, I never should've told you." He shook his head, but the smile he was trying unsuccessfully to hide belied his words.
I walked past him into the yard. "You should come over for dinner."
"Should I?"
"Yeah. I know I said you owed me dinner, but I'll take a rain check. This one's on me."
"Your dad won't mind?"
"Nah. His theory is the more the merrier. Besides, you'll get to meet some real-live gay people."
"I dunno."
"Don't worry. I won't tell them about you, although you can if you want to."
He looked thoughtful for a moment, then nodded decisively before hopping off the step. "Maybe I will." We started walking in the direction of my house. "Maybe I will."