“I know you want to say yes,” he muttered. “Why do you keep saying no?”
“I don’t think I’m ready for us to take that step yet,” I argued.
“Nothing even has to happen tonight,” he rasped out. “I swear to god I’m not pressuring you for sex. I just don’t want our night to end like this. It isn’t enough. I want—no, I need—more time with you.
“Soon,” I promised.
Luka grunted with frustration before replying. “Very soon?”
“Yes,” I agreed, reaching up to give him one last kiss before stepping away to go into the dorm.
Chapter 6
Luka
Each date with Aubrey sent me closer and closer to the edge. When I first asked her out, I hadn’t expected that I’d find myself a month later with the biggest case of blue balls in the history of man. I couldn’t help but think that it was my penance for judging her because of her dating history. It didn’t matter how often I jacked off, any time I got near her, my dick would get as hard as steel.
Jason thought it was hilarious that, even though I hadn’t been able to talk her into coming back to the apartment with me yet, I’d kept it spotless ever since our first date in the hope that she’d eventually say yes. Apparently, my misfortune was a good thing for him because he didn’t have to lift a finger around the place—I was taking care of everything. But I didn’t give a fuck what he said because sometime soon she was going to say yes and I’d be prepared. Plus, I thought as I emptied the garbage, cleaning blew off some extra steam for me.
I heard the elevator ping as I carried the trash out to the garbage shoot. I glanced up out of habit, and there she was. She hadn’t called or texted. She’d just said no to coming back here earlier tonight, but I didn’t care.. All that mattered was that Aubrey was here.
I grabbed her arm, dropped the bag into the shoot, and pulled her into my apartment, through the living room and to my bedroom.
“Aubrey,” I groaned before gathering her into my arms. “Thank fuck you’re here.”
“But Luka,” she said quietly before I started to kiss her with all the hunger I was feeling.
Her lips were so soft underneath mine and her body felt amazing as I ran my hands over her clothes. I licked at the seam of her mouth, waiting for her to open so I could get a better taste. Her lips parted and my tongue swept inside, tangling with hers as I pulled her even closer to me.
I gripped the back of her head, her hair tangled in one fist, as I ate hungrily at her mouth. I wanted to devour her and make her mine. Now.
“I want you so much,” I murmured against her lips, grabbing her ass so I could hold her in place as I ground my hips against hers. “You finally came to me. Tell me I can have you tonight.”
“Oh, Luka,” she sighed before she pushed against my chest. “You’re making this so hard.”
“It’s only fair because you make me so hard,” I reminded her, suggestively rubbing against her again.
She laughed softly before shaking her head at me. “That’s not why I’m here.”
“Doesn’t matter as long as you’re here,” I said before leaning down to kiss her again.
“Luka, you aren’t listening to me,” she said a little more harshly. “I didn’t come here for you.”
What the fuck had she just said? I pushed her backwards until she was sitting on my bed, right where I wanted her.
“If you aren’t here for me, then who the hell are you here to see?” I growled as I towered over her.
“Lexi,” she answered.
“And you weren’t even going to stop and knock on my door?” I asked, relieved to know that she wasn’t here to see some other guy.
She looked at me oddly, and I realized that some of the hurt I’d felt at her words had crept into my tone. Only moments before, I had felt thrilled at the thought that she’d finally come to me, and now I felt guilty for having thought that maybe she was here for some guy. I was even a little bit jealous that she was here for her best friend instead of me.
“I guess if you put it that way, it sounds kind of bad, but I didn’t realized you guys were actually neighbors. I mean, I figured you all lived in the same building because I’d seen you before and Lexi mentioned running into you and Jason in the hallway when we were talking tonight. But not that you guys all lived so close that you shared a wall. Now that I think about it, I’m kind of surprised I’ve only bumped into you once since I’ve been to their place several times already.”
“You know how crazy my schedule is,” I reminded her.
“Yet you still make time for me,” she pointed out.
“Yeah, but you’re special like that,” I murmured, looking down at her and liking that she was on my bed even if she was still fully dressed. “So we’ve got a problem.”
Aubrey raised her eyebrows at me. “A problem?”
“You said you didn’t come here to see me, but now that I have you where I want you, I don’t want to let you go,” I admitted.
She beamed up at me at my words. “Maybe I don’t want you to let me go.”
“What about Lexi?” I asked. Aubrey pulled out her phone and sent a quick text. “No worries there. I just let her know I wasn’t coming over after all.”
“And she won’t mind?” I asked, not wanting to come between her and her best friend.
“Since I was on my way over to talk about you, I’m pretty sure she’ll cut me some slack,” she said softly.
I sat down next to her on the bed and pulled her hand into mine. “You wanted to talk to her about me?”
A blush swept across Aubrey’s cheeks. “Yeah. That’s what best friends do when they’re confused about a guy. We gossip about you.”
“Were you at least going to say good things about me?” I teased.
Aubrey leaned her head against my shoulder, fitting perfectly, like she was made to be there. “Very good things.”
“Can I help with the confused part?” I asked.
She sighed deeply before answering. “This thing between us? It matters to me. A lot.”
I pulled her up into my lap and wrapped my arms around her. “It matters to me too.”
“I’ve had boyfriends before,” she tried to explain, but I didn’t like that reminder very much, and she must have felt me stiffen beneath her. “We both have pasts, Luka. They are what they are, and they’ve made us the people we are today.”
“True,” I gritted out.
“I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’ve never felt before for anyone else what I’m feeling now with you. And it scares me because you matter to me so much and we haven’t even been seeing each other for very long,” she admitted.
“Is that why you’re hesitant about having sex with me?” I asked and then felt like an ass for bringing it up right now, but it had been bothering me for a while. I couldn’t understand how she had been able to say no to this crazy chemistry between us.
“It’s part of it,” she whispered.
“And the other part?” I asked, turning her head so I could see her eyes. Aubrey looked up at me with scared eyes before she shook her head. “Not ready to talk about it yet?” I asked softly, swiping my thumb across her lips.
“Not yet,” she whispered back.
“Promise to tell me later?” I pushed.
She smiled at me, a look of relief crossing her beautiful face. “Yes, I promise.”
“Well then it sounds like we only have one more problem to tackle tonight,” I said teasingly.
“And what would that problem be?” she asked.
“What you’re going to wear to bed because I’m not letting you leave,” I murmured.
“Not letting me, huh?”
“Yup. Now that I have you here, you’re staying the night.” She laughed softly. “Am I?”
I stood up and tossed her onto the bed before I went over to my dresser and pulled out a T-shirt. “You sure are, and this will solve the problem of what to wear, so I guess the only thing left to do now is ge
t ready for bed.”
I slept better than I’d ever had before having Aubrey in bed with me. We hadn’t even had sex yet and I was quickly becoming addicted to her. I had never been a huge cuddler, but I didn’t like her moving away from me at all, so I kept her close to me. We slept wrapped up in each other all night. Her head resting on my shoulder. My fingers playing with her hair. Our legs twined together.
I woke up first and tried to will my morning wood down, but it was impossible with Aubrey curled up in my arms. I wanted nothing more than to roll over and sink into her softness, but I knew she wasn’t ready for that. I didn’t like that she was keeping something from me, but I needed to be patient. It wasn’t just that she was keeping her body from me either. There had been something in her eyes last night that worried me. A problem there that I wanted to fix, but I couldn’t do that if she wasn’t talking to me about it. I guessed that my entire relationship with Aubrey was going to be a lesson in patience. I just hoped I was up to the challenge.
Aubrey started to stretch slightly next to me as she began to wake up. The feel of her body next to mine just made me harder, so I dropped a kiss onto the top of her head and rolled out of bed.
“Mmmm, good morning,” I heard her say huskily behind me before she yawned.
I turned back to look at her cuddled into my bed. “Good morning. You still tired?”
“Yeah. Sleepy,” she sighed.
I flashed her a huge grin as I realized that she wasn’t a morning person. She was too damn adorable with her guard down like this. “Go back to sleep. I’m just going to hop into the shower.”
Aubrey rolled over onto my pillow and curled up against it before closing her eyes again. And just like that, she was back asleep. I look forward to many more mornings like this in my future.
I turned the shower on much cooler than I normally did in the mornings, but I still left the door cracked open so the mirrors wouldn’t fog up so much. It always drove me crazy. I took my shower faster than usual since I didn’t shave on game nights. Hockey players are more superstitious than most, and it was a habit I couldn’t break after winning a tournament in high school where none of us had shaved.
I couldn’t hear any noise from the bedroom, so I figured Aubrey was still sleeping and I could use the extra time to relieve some of the pressure her nearness had caused. My boner still hadn’t gone down in the cool shower.
With the water beating down on my back, I reached down and stroked my shaft. I needed to get off and now, so I squeezed tight as I moved my hand up and down and shut my eyes. Without seeing anything, I could easily imagine that it was Aubrey’s hand on my cock instead of my own. That she was on her knees before me with her blond hair hanging wet against her back, her blue eyes glued to my body as she watched me getting more and more excited.
I felt my balls tightening against my body as I pictured Aubrey’s smaller hand tightening against my cock as she jerked me off. Her pretty, red nails lightly scraping against my skin, driving me even more crazy. Her gasp as I started to come and sprayed against her bared breasts and chin. My name moaned out as she wiped my come into her skin before she reached up to put a finger in her mouth.
Fuck, my imagination ran wild while I climaxed in the shower. The image was so vivid that it was practically real. And then my eyes popped open when I realized that I really had heard her gasp and moan my name. My eyes locked with hers through the shower door as I came even harder at the knowledge that she’d been watching me. That she was getting turned on from watching me jack off in the shower. I came so fucking hard and she hadn’t even touched me.
“Aubrey,” I groaned. “Holy shit.”
She stood there in my T-shirt and her panties as I rinsed off and turned the shower off. Her eyes ran up and down my body as I grabbed a towel and dried myself. She hadn’t said a single word and was breathing heavily.
I wrapped the towel around my waist, stepped closer, and kept going until Aubrey put a hand up to stop me.
“Luka,” she whimpered as her head dropped onto my naked chest and she trembled against me.
“You can’t look at me like that if you don’t want me to fuck you right here, right now,” I warned her as I felt my cock begin to harden again.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered. “I didn’t even think before I came into the bathroom. I was still in my usual morning fog, and the door was cracked open. Then there you were. Naked. In the shower. Stroking yourself. I just couldn’t look away. Ohmigod, Luka. I’m so sorry for invading your privacy this way.”
“Aubrey, you absolutely do not need to apologize. I was thinking about you,” I admitted, wanting to ease her embarrassment. “Imagining you were in the shower with me. Just the thought of you was fucking hot, but then seeing you stand there… It was unfuckingbelievably hot.”
She chuckled a little, relaxing slightly. “I don’t think unfuckingbelievably is a word.”
“I might have made it up,” I teased. “But only because there wasn’t a word that existed already that could possibly explain how incredibly sexy you are standing here in nothing but my shirt and your panties.”
“Then it goes double for you. Naked in the shower. Or just standing here in your towel,” she said softly as she peeked up at me beneath her eyelashes.
“If you’re going to steal my new word, then I might have to take my shirt back,” I half-joked.
“Well, we can’t have that, can we?” she quipped back, shoving away from me and pushing me gently from the room before closing the door.
I stood there, dumbfounded by what had just happened for a moment. If just having her eyes on me could make me come like that, I could only imagine how amazing we were going to be in bed together once she was ready to take that step. Knowing what I did now, I just hoped I could show her enough patience so that she felt safe with me.
I got dressed so that she’d feel more comfortable when she was done in the bathroom. I laid the clothes she’d worn last night on the bed along with a new shirt of mine in case she wanted it and then headed into the kitchen. Jason was already up and making breakfast.
“Dude, you’re up later than usual,” he said as I grabbed a cup of coffee. “Big night?”
“Don’t be a douchebag this morning,” I warned him, glancing back at my room.
“What the fuck? I didn’t even say anything bad,” Jason complained.
“Aubrey’s here. Just don’t be a dick,” I explained quietly.
“Fuck, man,” he whispered. “You finally closed the deal?”
I grabbed him by the collar of his shirt and pulled him towards me. “Don’t fucking talk about her like she’s just a piece of ass. She’s not like the chicks you bring back here to bang.”
“I didn’t say she was,” he said in his defense. “And I’m going to guess by how easy it is to piss you off this morning that you still didn’t get in there.”
I punched him in the stomach before pushing him away. “I warned you not to say shit like that about my girlfriend.”
“Your girlfriend?” I heard Aubrey say quietly behind me.
I swiveled around to see her standing at the edge of the kitchen, dressed in her jeans and the shirt I’d laid out for her. Her feet were bare, her red-polished toes peeking out from the hem of her jeans.
“That’s what I said,” I muttered, a little embarrassed that she caught me arguing with Jason about her and worried that she might have heard what he had been saying.
“We haven’t had that talk yet,” she pointed out.
I stormed over to Aubrey and pulled her against my chest. “Do you want to date any other guys?” I growled, pissed off at the possibility that she might say yes.
She shook her head swiftly in response. “Not at all.”
The shocked look on her face made me feel a little better since it reassured me that she wasn’t even thinking about the possibility.
“Would you be okay with me seeing any other girls?”
The shock quickly faded as her face paled. �
��No. Absolutely not!”
“Good, because I’m not interested in anyone else but you,” I told her.
“You better not be,” she argued, still looking a little sick at the idea.
“Do you want to be my girlfriend?” I asked.
“Yes,” she whispered. “Definitely yes.”
“Well then, there you go. We’ve had the talk now,” I said smugly before I started kissing her.
“I think I’ll eat this in my room,” Jason mumbled as he grabbed his breakfast and left us alone.
By the time we came back up for air, the plates he’d left out for us were starting to get cold so I put them in the microwave for a minute. Although he acted like an ass sometimes, Jason really was a good guy and a great friend.
I got Aubrey settled at the counter and poured her a cup of coffee. I added some milk since we didn’t have the creamer she liked and a little sugar before putting it in front of her. After grabbing the plates, I set them down and sat next to her. She stared down at her coffee and looked back up at me with a weird expression on her face.
“What?” I asked.
“You know how I like my coffee,” she said.
“Yeah. I know lots of things about you,” I admitted. “We’ve been spending a lot of time together.”
“I think you’re going to make a very good boyfriend,” she replied.
“Why? Because I know how you like your coffee? I know how Jason takes his too, but I am definitely not his boyfriend.”
“I’ve just never had a guy fix my coffee exactly the way I like it before,” she said. “It’s nice.”
“Does that mean I earned bonus points?”
She giggled at my question. “Sure. We could put it that way.”
“Good. Then I’d like to use them now. Stay here with me today until I have to head over to the rink and then come to the game tonight. I promise to be on my best behavior,” I requested, wanting more of her time. I wanted to keep her all to myself. It might make me a greedy bastard, but I just didn’t care.
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