“Confusing! He is really a great man. A very caring man. He sees things differently about life than I do!” Like wanting me to fuck other men.
“He has talked to Randy about you. Kris, he is falling hard for you. He really likes you a lot.”
I look at her with a blank stare on my face. I have to process what she just said. I am not sure what to say about that.
“He can’t be falling he hasn’t known me long enough to fall for me.”
“Giovanni definitely knows what he wants. He happens to want you. That he does know!”
I start to think to myself. How can he really want me if he is asking me to do something like this?
Heather takes my hand looking me into the eye, “he feels you have been hurt for so long. He is only trying to fix what is broken in you.”
I give a laugh aloud, “broken? Ha, I’m not broken I am fucked up in the head!”
Most of the time that is how I feel, an emotional train wreck waiting to crash or to derail at any time. My mind is a nonstop rollercoaster.
Heather is frowning at me now. Giving me her disappointed look. Her face is slightly pale her lips are turn down. “You are only feeling that way because of what Hugh did to you. You have to understand he is gone now. You need to move on!”
I know she is right about that. I am just afraid to take that chance. I find it scary to move on because Hugh fucked me over!
“Kris, he already knows you have only had one sex partner. Well, I am sure you did not tell him about Dewayne! He thinks you should get more experience.”
Heather has been my friend for life, but I blush when she said that. Giovanni is talking to Heather and Randy about this. What the hell!
“Heather, does that even make sense to you? It does not make that much sense to me! No, I did not say anything about Dewayne. I don’t feel he needs to know that!”
“Yes, it does. He feels if you are with other men, you will get it out of your system. He believes you will stay faithful to him. There is nothing wrong with how he feels. If Randy and I hadn’t played around with other people in college we might be looking for a taste of someone else!”
Randy and Heather were swingers for a while. They had fun doing it but decided they like it better with just them. Hugh wanted to do that but I would not do it. It did not seem right!
“Heather, what does Randy have say about all of this? He can’t see things this way.”
She looks down to her hands. Her cheeks turning red, “Well, Randy is in total agreement with Giovanni. He thinks it would be good for you.”
Wow . . . What the hell. I stand, hug Heather, and thank her for lunch then leave.
When I get home, I clean the house trying to push all this stuff out of my head. Cleaning seems to help. I put a pot roast in the oven for dinner.
Jacob returns from his friends around six in the evening. “Smells really good in here, Kristy.”
“Thanks, Jacob. I hope you are hungry.”
He comes into the living room with me, “yes, I am starving. I didn’t eat today.”
We head to the kitchen so I can set the table. He goes to the fridge grabbing a couple of beers. I load his plate with roast, potatoes, corn on the cob. I fix a small plate of the same for me.
“This is good, Kristy.” He is stuffing the food down his throat. He takes another big bite rolling his eyes, “I’m in heaven!”
I smile, I am glad he is enjoying his dinner. When we finish up, I load up the dishwasher.
Jacob grabs the whiskey bottle, “Kristy, do you want to have a drink with me?”
Jacob seems relaxed living here. We do not see a lot of each other though. We have talked a few times and I feel comfortable with him.
“Sure.”
We take our drinks to the living room. I sit on the couch. Jacob settles for the love seat.
“Have you and Giovanni been going out long?” I smile at him. Just hearing Giovanni’s name made me feel good. Too good, I am afraid!
“No, we haven’t. It’s kind of complicated.”
He is grinning brightly at me, “not for him. The guy definitely has love in his eyes.”
I blush looking down to the ground, “Jacob, what do you want to watch?” I ask him that so we can change the subject and move on to something else.
“I don’t know whatever you would like.”
I switch through the channels. We decided to watch an episode of Sons of Anarchy. Jacob suggest we make it into a drinking game. Every time someone on the show said, "Jesus Christ," we have to take a shot. I love the show and know it would be a lot.
Yep, within the first ten minutes we are taking a shot. We look at each other laughing. In that episode, we take six shots each. I am starting to feel the effect of the alcohol. Jacob is having fun so we play another round. I am hoping we do not have to drink too much.
In this one, we did a shot every time they hug. I smile, feeling relieved thinking it will not be that many shots. Fifteen minutes in, we had to take a shot. Not bad I think. In the last five minutes of the show, we end up taking five more. I am feeling totally fucked up now!
“Thanks, Jacob, but I need to go lay down.” I am slurring my words.
“Good night, Kristy.”
I start to stagger to my room climbing into bed. I turn on the movie Coyote Ugly. Not long after there is a knock on my bedroom door.
“Come in.”
Jacob walks into the room holding two glasses of whiskey and water. Oh shit, I cannot drink anymore. He hands me a glass I take it anyway. He sits on the edge of my bed.
“What are you watching?” I sit up in bed taking a sip off my drink.
“Coyote Ugly. You want to watch it with me?” I figured he would say no, but he shrugs his shoulders. He sits next to me on the bed.
We drink and watch for a while. When the girls get up on the bar and dance he turns to me smiling, “have you ever done that before?”
“No, but it looks like fun.” I have thought about doing it, I just never tried. I was not exactly with the right person to do it. Hugh would have killed me.
We finish the movie and our drinks. Jacob gets off my bed sitting in a chair instead.
“You should try that, Kristy.”
My face goes red. It is not from alcohol it is from embarrassment.
“No thanks, I’m good.”
He smiles coaxing me on, “don’t be shy! You said you wanted to try it.”
I am feeling good so I assume why not.
I stand on my bed starting to move my hips. Yes, this really is kind of fun. My hips move faster. I am really getting into this. I lift my shirt over my eyes. I have my hips dancing like crazy, swirling round, and round. My knees buckle and I go bounce, bounce, bounce right off the bed. I land right on my ass bone. Jacob comes to the floor where I lay. My shirt is still over my head. I am sore and completely embarrassed!
“Shit Kristy, are you okay?” He is trying so hard not to laugh. I however . . . laugh my ass off. I cannot quit laughing.
“I’m fine, really Jacob.”
I fix my shirt as he is looking down on me. He reaches his hand down to help me sit in an upright position. When I am sitting, he sits next to me on the floor. He starts to laugh.
“Kristy, are you sure you are good? You hit the floor pretty hard and right on your ass.”
I continue to laugh aloud. What a dumb ass I think of myself. I am such a klutz!
I turn to answer him instead, he grabs me by my neck, and he starts to kiss me. At first, I am surprised but I kiss him back. We lean back so I was lying on the floor next to him. His hands starts to roam all over me.
I am somewhat horny yet, I know I cannot do this. I push him away, “sorry Jacob, but I can’t do this. We drank a lot and I just need to get some sleep right now.”
He gets up off the floor holding his hand down to help me up, “I’m sorry, Kristy. I couldn’t help myself.” When he walks out of my room, his face looks flushed.
I get myself into bed whe
n my phone rings. I look and see it is Giovanni, “hey baby.”
“Hey, my love. What are you doing?”
If I tell you what I am doing, you would probably be mad at me, at least I would hope so. Then again, you might be proud of me. Knowing him, probably proud!
“Nothing, just thinking of you,” I tell him.
“Are you in your bedroom?”
“Yes.” I smile wondering what his sexy ass is thinking. It does not take long to find out.
“Good, take your clothes off.”
Even over the telephone, he can make me blush. I feel embarrassed but excited at the same time. I do as he has said.
“I am lying in bed on my back thinking of you, Giovanni,” I am slurring again.
“I want you to get comfortable.”
I giggle, pulling Mr. Happy out of my drawer. This could be fun! “Giovanni, I have never had phone sex before,” those words come out in one big slur.
“Kristy, are you drunk?”
I am laughing now. I am totally hammered and ready for anything. Phone sex will definitely be new to me. I feel I have missed so much!
“Sorry Giovanni, but yes, I am.”
He chuckles at me, “don’t be sorry, baby. I want you to lay back, relax, and put your fingers into yourself.”
I do as he says getting super-hot. I start to give a loud moan.
“Good now, go deep like I do.”
I put Mr. Happy inside of me going very deep. I work him in and out. I arch my hips up to get him very deep. I am moaning loudly.
“Giovanni, I am fucking myself so hard. The way you fuck me! Deep, oh so deep. I am ramming into me so hard, so deep. Do you like that?”
I forgot about the embarrassment totally getting into what I am doing. I go harder, deeper, screaming as I cum. I am breathing so hard.
I can hear him chuckling, “good girl, I like it so much when you do that. I love to hear you! Was that just your hand or something else?”
I try to get my breathing under control, “I use Mr. Happy to finish me off.”
I am rubbing my hand between my legs wishing he were here with me.
“When I get home I am going to use him on you. I will be coming home tomorrow. I finished my business early. Besides, I miss the hell out of you. Good night, my love. I hope you sleep well.”
I enjoy listening to him call me that, "My love."
“Thanks Giovanni, sleep well.”
We hang up and I go into the bathroom to clean up. When I climb in bed I see, Hugh. He is putting me down for being loose. Go fuck yourself is what I am thinking!
CHAPTER 16
When I wake the next morning, I am hung over. I go into the living room. Jacob is gone although he has made coffee first. I pour myself a cup taking it to the patio. I stare out at the ocean, thinking about the things that I need to finish up before I leave for California. I think about what California will be like. As I sit there thinking about life my cellphone rings, “good morning, Giovanni.” I am smiling because I know I will see him today.
“Good morning, my love. Just want to let you know I am boarding the plane. I will be to you in a couple of hours.” Giovanni owns a private jet that he takes on his business trips.
“I will see you soon, Giovanni. Have a safe flight home.”
I enter my bedroom to get ready to see my baby! Once I shower, dress, makeup on, and hair done, I go back to the living room.
I am truly realizing the decision to move is becoming much harder. The more time I spend with Giovanni, the more I realize how much I like him. After a few hours, there is a knock on the door. I open it to a smiling, Giovanni. I hug him kissing him hard.
“I miss you, Giovanni.” I kiss him again meaning what I said. I did miss him! He hugs me tight kissing me all over my head, neck, lips.
“I’ve missed you too.” He walks past me to the kitchen. He pours himself some coffee. He pulls me to him turning me so my back is against the counter.
“Did you do something fun while I was gone away?”
“I went to Heather’s. Jacob and I watched a couple of episodes of Sons of Anarchy. We watched a movie. I danced for him falling off the bed. We drank too much and we were wasted. That’s about all.” I am smiling at him as I do my recap, babbling through it.
“A dance on the bed huh?”
I am laughing at myself thinking about that. I feel my cheeks heat up. “We were watching Coyote Ugly. I told Jacob it would be fun to dance like that. I gave an effort, but lost my balance falling off the bed.”
He reaches around rubbing my backside, “you will have to do that for me soon but without falling. Did you hurt yourself?”
“Yeah, someday I will! No I am fine.”
He finishes his coffee, taking my hand we walk into my bedroom. When we get inside, he closes the door removing my clothes. We kiss and end up falling onto the bed. I keep kissing him deeply.
“Kristy, I really like you being by my side. I can get use to this.”
He reaches across my chest to get Mr. Happy out of the drawer. He takes a close look at him. Giovanni is smiling at me. He sits Mr. Happy up by my pillow.
He crawls down to the end of the bed. He put my toe in his mouth sucking on it. Then he goes up further kissing me all the way. He gets to the inside of my thigh nibbling on it. He gives the inside of my right thigh a big suck. I am getting wet with just him doing that. He kisses me so softly on my thigh.
He places his hand into me while still kissing me. Umm, that feels so very good. He is making me so horny. He moves his hand around and out. He pushes hard into me with his hand. Aww yes, I like it that way.
Coming up to my breast he put one in his mouth sucking on it. His hand is sliding in deeper. Oh, how I love the way he turns me on. He removes his hand replacing it with Mr. Happy. He looks at me giving me a beautiful smile, “say hello to my, little friend,” he whispers in my ear passionately. He slides Mr. Happy in as far as he can go. He turns him on while moving him in and out. He pushes him in and turns him in a circle.
Umm!
Giovanni is watching my facial expressions! Which, tells him I am so into what he is doing. I sink into my mattress as I cum with a yell. He holds me in his arms waiting for me to regroup.
I turn to him kissing him, “your turn.”
I take his penis into my hand stroking him. I lay my head on his stomach, putting his dick into my mouth. I began to suck him off hard, taking all of him in me. He is moaning, grabbing the sheets with his fists. I continue to please him as his head falls back. He cums with a scream. I love to hear this man scream!
Entering the bathroom we both clean up, then head into the living room. We take a seat on the couch. I am feeling guilty about Jacob.
“Kristy, you look like you have something to tell me.” I put my head down not wanting to look at him, “I kissed Jacob.”
I patiently wait for his response. Would he hit me? Hugh definitely would have! When I finally look at him, he is smiling. I am so relieved!
“Is that really all you did? I thought you might have slept with him.”
I shake my head back and forth telling him no I did not sleep with him. He is so calm about what I told him.
“We started off kissing then he began to feel me up. I told him I could not do it. That is all that happened.”
Giovanni takes his hand to rub the side of my face, “Kristy, I told you I want you to do this. I am serious about that!”
We leave it alone not saying anything else. We watch TV for a while then he leaves for work. I enter into the kitchen for a whiskey, taking it outside. I have so much to think about now! I have so much on my mind. I know I want Hugh to quit haunting me. I just do not know how to make that happen. I also know I will miss Giovanni when I leave. It will all work out I tell myself.
I go back into the house to finish some business. I end up calling the cable company, electricity, water putting them into Jacob’s name. When I am done with that, he comes walking in.
“Hey
, Jacob. I just finished putting all the utilities into your name. You shouldn’t have a problem with any of that when I leave.”
He looks at me with a sad face and I know he is feeling bad about last night. I can see that written all over his face as he looks at me.
“So you are still leaving? Is Giovanni going with you? You guys seem to get a long great!”
I look at my hands, wringing them around. That is what I do when I feel uncomfortable.
“No, he isn’t coming with me and yes I am still leaving. Honestly, I can’t wait.”
“Kristy, I am really sorry about last night. That should have never happened. I was stupid to do that.”
“It’s okay Jacob, we were drinking a lot. Besides, nothing bad happened.”
He shakes his head going into his room. I take a drink to my room doing what I always do when I am alone. I think about everything. I think a lot about how I am going to miss, Heather. I think about how much my life is changing. I am not sure if that is a good or bad thing. I guess I will find that out soon enough.
I put on a pair of shorts to go for a run. Running seems to clear my head some. I run for a few miles when I return home Giovanni is there. When I get inside I hear them talking in the living room. Giovanni is telling Jacob how he feels like he knows him or maybe his dad.
“No, sadly my dad is dead,” Jacob, tells him in a soft voice.
When I walk in the door, they both turn to me. Giovanni touches Jacob shoulder, “I’m sorry I didn’t know.” Jacob nods his head.
Giovanni gets up coming over to me, “hey baby, Randy called a little while ago and he wants us to have dinner with them tonight.”
I kiss Giovanni on the lips passionately, “let me clean up first, Giovanni. I am sweaty from my run.”
I leave them to go get ready. When I return into the living room, I was going to see if Jacob wanted to go with us. Giovanni told me he had left for his friend’s house and would be back later.
When we gets to Heather’s house, we can hear them out back. “Hi guys,” I say as we round the corner.
Giovanni goes to shake Randy’s hand and Heather comes over to give me a big hug. They head into the house to get cocktails. Heather takes my hand leading me to a seat.
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