by Sophia Gray
There was silence for a moment, hanging heavily in the room like a shroud over both of their bodies. But then Arsen came in and saved her, like he always did back when they were together, rescuing her from her own mind. “It’s okay. It’s okay. I’m sorry for pushing you.” He paused, reaching forward to grab her face again, this time holding it only by the tips of his fingers. She could have moved at any time if she wanted to. But she didn’t. “I need you, too,” he whispered, right before his lips pressed against hers again, softer this time, gentle, the way fallen leaves brush up against each other during the autumn.
Maya let Arsen lean into her, pushing her head back on the arm of the couch as he straddled her, pushing their pelvises together while his mouth fell from hers down to her neck, dropping soft little kisses against the veins he found there. Her skin felt like it was aflame, burning her from the inside out, but she wanted more of it, more of his sweet touch against her flesh. Even if it hurt her, even if it tore her apart, she wanted it. More than that, she needed it, as much as she needed water or food or air.
“Bite me,” Maya grunted out through gritted teeth. She needed a little edge of pain to go along with the pleasure of his lips dragging their way across her skin. Maybe that was a bad sign. Maybe that meant she was forever broken, forever damaged, forever repeating events from her past. But it was what she was, and here, with Arsen, she no longer felt like running from it.
Arsen did as he was instructed, bringing out his teeth to slide against her flesh, at first, just teasing her with the sharpness rather than biting down. But then, right when she got comfortable, he sunk his teeth into the side of her neck, sucking hard, so hard that it was definitely going to leave a deep purple mark on her pale skin. Arsen used to love marking her up, claiming her as his with his mouth. Maya giggled now, pressing against the back of Arsen’s skull to encourage him to bite harder. “Do it. Do it to me. Give it to me, yeah,” she groaned out as he complied, pulling at her skin. “Yeah, fuck, that’s good.”
Arsen soothed the skin he’d just bitten with his tongue, mouthing at it like her skin was candy. “Mmm, taste so good,” he murmured nudging her head to one side so he could travel up her neck to the skin behind her ear, nibbling a little before biting down again.
“Nnnngh, unnh!” Maya groaned, jerking her hips around in wide circles to grind against Arsen’s crotch. “That feels good…”
“Good,” Arsen whispered right into her ear, breathing hotly against her sensitive skin before moving to suck her ear into his mouth.
“Oh, Jesus!” Maya cried out, her spine involuntarily bending at an unnatural angle as he set more nerve endings on fire with his tongue and teeth and lips. At the same time, Arsen’s hand reached under her skirt and found the hemline of her leggings, tugging at them until they fell down to her ankles. Maya kicked them off, even though the sensation of Arsen sucking on her ear had her almost entirely incoherent. “Fuck, goddammit, ugh!” She jerked her hips up, the skirt of her dress getting pushed up between their bodies so that her underwear rubbed against the front of Arsen’s jeans.
Arsen pulled back from Maya’s neck, and she was about to complain about the loss of contact when he spoke up again. “Let’s move to the bed,” Arsen whispered, dragging his teeth down from behind her ear to her collarbone.
Maya nodded, leaning up to kiss Arsen’s lips again. When they pulled apart, she tried to struggle out from underneath him in order to walk to the bedroom, but he didn’t let her, swooping her up into his arms instead. Maya laughed, and the noise was so genuine, so full-throated that it almost scared her. She wasn’t used to feeling this light, this airy. She had forgotten she could feel this way at all.
She wrapped her arms around Arsen’s neck and shoulders, feeling perfectly secure in his arms as he hurriedly walked them over to the bedroom, tossing her onto the bed so that she bounced off of the mattress. Maya giggled, kicking her bare legs in the air like she was a little kid.
Arsen growled at the sight of her naked legs and lunged forward, leaping onto her body and immediately latching his tongue and teeth at her collarbone, sucking another mark right at the base of her neck. “You’re so good, you’re so fucking good,” he murmured, pulling at her skin with his teeth until she squealed.
At this point, Maya was getting more than a little impatient. She loved what he was doing with his mouth, but she needed more of him, as soon as possible. She reached down and pushed his shirt up, revealing the hard, solid surface of his stomach. Maya raked her nails down from his smooth chest down to the hem of his jeans, tracing the line of dark hair that she always used to love touching.
“You want me, baby? You want me?” Arsen grunted into her ear before biting a little on the sensitive flesh of her lobe.
Maya groaned again, arching her spine so that her hips lifted off the bed and rocked into Arsen’s, their stomachs rubbing together as Arsen began to lightly thrust, even though he was nowhere near inside of her yet. Maya jerked her hips back and forth, rubbing her underwear-clothed cunt against the rough fabric of Arsen’s jeans. “I want you, baby,” she whispered back to him, wrapping an arm around his back for leverage as she dry-humped him. “I want you so fucking bad!”
Arsen growled again, sounding as animalistic as Maya had ever heard him. It should have scared her. It should have made her hesitate and rear back; it should have made her pull away from him. Instead, she only wanted more. She needed the pain, the pleasure, and everything else that came in between. Arsen suddenly grabbed her hands, pinning them above her head, pressing them hard into the mattress. “You’re mine,” he growled before crashing their mouths together again, pulling on her bottom lip with his teeth until Maya cried out.
“Shit, shit, fuck, God,” Maya mumbled as soon as their mouths disconnected. She couldn’t move her hands out from Arsen’s, but she didn’t want to. She felt…almost safe. Protected. Like through possessing her, he was telling the world that no one else could touch her, only him. Maya wrapped her legs around his waist, tugging him closer. “I want you to fuck me as hard as you can,” she murmured before reaching up to lightly kiss and nibble on Arsen’s lips.
“Oh, believe me, I’m gonna fuck you hard, baby,” Arsen promised into her mouth, dipping down to gnaw at her jawline, all around to her other ear. “I’m gonna fuck you till you scream.”
“Please, yes, please,” Maya practically sobbed as Arsen swirled his tongue around the tip of her ear, making her entire body flush with heat. She gripped back at Arsen’s hands, entwining their fingers together, their sweat collecting in the hot space between their palms.
At the same time, Arsen started thrusting harder, their crotches bumping together gracelessly but beautifully, the exposed areas around Maya’s underwear getting hotter and hotter with every forward motion of Arsen’s hips.
“Baby, baby, baby,” Arsen murmured, his mouth traveling back up to her lips, kissing her so deeply that she couldn’t breathe for a long moment, but she didn’t care. Arsen’s mouth was better than oxygen. It had never failed her. It had never left her during a panic attack. It had never abandoned her. I abandoned him, her inner voice reminded her, but she pushed those thoughts away for another time. Right now, she was going to enjoy herself. Right now, she was going to allow herself to be disassembled, bit by bit by bit, until she totally came apart. That’s what she wanted. That’s what she needed, as much as she had ever needed anything in her life.
Without warning, Arsen let go of one of her hands, using his freed hand to pull at the fabric of her dress, tugging it up until he pulled it over her head entirely, throwing it across the room a second later. He gripped both of Maya’s hands under one of his, much larger than Maya’s, holding them in place above her head while he ran his other hand down her exposed body, tracing the outlines of her hips.
“Still so fucking beautiful,” Arsen murmured, ducking his head down to lick a hot stripe down from her collarbone, over her chest, over her bra, down to her belly. “I thought about this every day, y
ou know? Every day while you were gone.”
Maya swallowed heavily, trying to clear the sudden knot of emotion that appeared in her throat. But when she spoke, her voice still quavered, shaking like her fingers that were inside of Arsen’s hand. “Me, too,” she admitted.
Arsen froze at that, staring up at her from his vantage point at her waist. “Really?” he whispered.
Maya nodded, unable to repeat herself right away. “I…yeah, yeah, really,” she murmured, gripping at his fingers as hard as she could.
Arsen mumbled something, then, and for the longest couple of seconds in the world, Maya couldn’t make out what he said. It was only afterwards, when he resumed dropping sweet, tickling kisses all over her stomach that she realized what he’d said. “I love you.”
Maya shut her eyes, willing herself not to cry and ruin the moment. It was touch and go for a second, but as Arsen began nibbling and biting at the lower stomach and hips, she was able to relax, the tension leaving her muscles even as her mind repeated his last three words over and over again.
Arsen moved lower, down to her underwear, licking the exposed skin around the sides of her panties, right where her inner thigh met her hips. “Smells so fucking good,” he muttered as he dragged his teeth along the top of her leg, making her squeal and squirm a little at the ticklish sensation of his mouth on her skin. “Tastes so fucking right, baby.”
“Th—thank you,” Maya murmured, arching her hips to give him greater access. Arsen took the opportunity to slip his hand under her body, grabbing at her covered ass. “God, that feels good.”
“Yeah?” Arsen asked, squeezing harder, his nails digging into her flesh. “You like that?”
Maya nodded quickly, panting hard for air as Arsen began massaging her ass harder, while his mouth returned to tracing the outline of her underwear. A second later, his teeth came out to play again, biting at the fabric of her underwear and pulling it away from her body, letting the cool air hit her bare pussy. “Jesus,” she muttered, bending her back to push her vulva up closer to Arsen’s face, wanting more of his mouth on her naked skin.
“Wanna suck you,” Arsen murmured even with the fabric of Maya’s panties still clutched between his teeth. “Wanna make you come.”
“Please, please, I need it,” Maya groaned, rotating her hips in circles to invite him to touch her more. She could feel herself grow wetter already, just from how he was talking to her, but she knew from experience that his tongue could get her so much wetter. She couldn’t wait. She needed to have it now.
There was one last thing, though. She was keenly aware of how naked she was, just in her bra and panties while Arsen was still fully clothed. That had to be remedied, immediately. “Take off your clothes,” she demanded, grinning at him as he crawled back up her body to stare into her eyes.
“Ask me nicely and I will,” Arsen whispered, softly rubbing their noses together.
Maya giggled, enjoying this playful and teasing side of Arsen. On the surface, it might have looked like Arsen had all the power, controlling what they did together, but secretly, Maya knew she held all the cards. She could get him to do anything she wanted. She didn’t mind begging, as long as she knew the man on top of her respected her. And Arsen respected her, so much that it was hard for Maya to believe that he wasn’t lying. For all of his flaws, he believed she was strong. He believed it more than Maya did, for Christ’s sake.
“Please, baby, please, take off your clothes for me, will you? I really want to see you naked,” she said in a pleading tone of voice, grinning at him mischievously all the while.
Arsen smiled back at her and leaned back on his knees to shrug his way out of his shirt before undoing the button and fly on his pants and throwing them to the floor.
“Underwear, too?” Maya asked.
Arsen shook his head before he leaned in again to kiss her lips, sucking on her tongue like it was the sweetest fruit that he’d ever tasted. They both pulled back gasping, and for a long moment, Maya didn’t even remember what they had been talking about until Arsen said, “Patience for that. We’ll get there, baby.”
He pulled back, this time taking both of his hands with them, apparently trusting that Maya would keep them where they belonged, joined together above her head. He traveled back down her body until his head floated above her crotch. “I’ve needed this for so fucking long,” he murmured, dragging his fingers along her covered cunt, so slowly that Maya’s entire body shivered.
“Please, do it. Please, please. I want it, baby. I want it so fucking bad,” Maya groaned, lifting her hips up so that her clothed pussy brushed up against Arsen’s mouth again.
He chuckled lowly and pushed her hips back down, causing Maya to whine in impatience, but then a minute later, he surprised her by sticking a hand under her back and flipping her over, pressing the front of her body into the mattress with his weight.
“I gotta take care of something really quick,” he whispered, running his hand gently down her back, causing goosebumps to perk up on her skin, ready for more powerful sensation to wash over her body.
Without warning, Arsen yanked her underwear down her legs, revealing her bare ass to the cold air. But she wasn’t chilly for long, as the next second, Arsen’s hands landed on her ass cheeks, massaging them with his unbelievably nimble fingers.
“Fuuuuck,” Maya whispered into the pillow, so softly that Arsen probably couldn’t hear it, but it didn’t matter. She knew he could read her body. Maya trusted that he remembered the signs that she was ready for him to take over.
Smack. Arsen spanked her without warning, not hard but just enough to cause a light stinging sensation. “You’re mine,” he said again. Smack. Smack. Smack. He slapped her ass three times in quick session, alternating the sides so that her entire ass burned with a deliciously warm sensation.
“God, that’s fucking good!” Maya cried out, this time definitely loud enough to reach Arsen’s ears. “Ugh, that’s so hot.”
Arsen’s hands fell away from her body, but before she could protest, there was his mouth, wet and warm and willing, closing down on her left ass cheek. “So hot,” Maya murmured again, arching her hips back so that Arsen could grad ahold of more of her flesh.
Arsen’s teeth sunk down into her soft flesh, causing her to groan out in a mixture of pleasure and pain. There was the perfect balance between the two, just enough without overwhelming her senses. Encouraged by her moans, Arsen sucked harder, obviously intending to leave another mark. In the back of her mind, some small part of Maya worried. How am I going to cover these marks up? But for right now, she didn’t care. She wanted him to claim her. She wanted him to completely wreck her body, allowing her to rise from the ashes. She had to feel dirty in order to feel clean. That was something that Chuck could never understand.
Arsen finally pulled back a minute later, dropping soft, gentle kisses on the mark he’d made. “That’s my girl. That’s my fucking girl,” he whispered, giving her ass one last light smack before flipping her back over.
“You’ve shaved,” Arsen said, gesturing to her cunt.
Maya felt herself blush, starting at her cheeks and sinking down her whole body. “Um, yeah. I thought…I mean, I figured that’s what guys want.” That’s what Chuck wants, she added silently, but she knew better than to mention him right now.
“It’s hot like this,” Arsen admitted, bringing his fingers down to play on the outside of her lips, right at the juncture of her thighs, causing Maya to gasp shakily.
“Th-thank you,” she stuttered out, jerking her hips forward to close the space between Arsen’s face and her cunt.
“But you don’t need to shave. You’re my wild woman,” Arsen said before he finally, mercifully lowered his mouth to brush up against her bare vulva.
“Oh, Jesus, oh, yes, yes, yes, please!” Maya cried out, banging her head back into the pillow as his lips teasingly skimmed over her labia while his fingers traveled down to her opening, playing around in the wetness that had leaked ou
t.
“Mmm, so wet, so ready,” Arsen whispered right onto her skin, dragging his teeth along her lips until she cried out and arched her back at an almost painful angle. “So fucking ready for me, aren’t you, baby?”
“Yes, yes, yes, I’m ready. I need it. I want it, baby. Yes,” she rambled, beginning to thrust her hips up and down, starting up a rhythm with which she humped his face.
Arsen stuck the tips of two fingers inside of her, spreading her out a little bit without going in very deeply. “So fucking tight,” he muttered before moving his mouth up to the top of her vulva, locating her clit with his lips.
“Unngh!” Maya cried out, screwing her eyes shut as the sensations of his mouth and fingers crashed over her cunt and reverberated throughout her entire body. Her legs had started shaking, trembling so hard that her thigh muscles ached, so she just lifted them onto Arsen’s shoulders, allowing them to rest on his body.
Meanwhile, his fingers dipped in a centimeter deeper inside of her, but the main attraction was his mouth, which opened and shut around her clit, sucking gently at first and then more and more strongly, his tongue swirling around the sensitive little nub in circles that got faster and faster with each rotation.