He turned the car around and headed to the Circle K. He bought a ticket, letting the machine pick the numbers, and read over his choices as he walked back out to the car. He was about to open the door when he saw, near the mailbox by the curb, the mailman. The postal carrier was kneeling on the ground, the door to the mailbox open, key and chain hanging from the lock, and was taking out the deposited mail. Only he wasn't simply emptying the bin the way Doug had seen Ronda do; he was carefully examining each envelope, sorting through them.
Some he placed carefully in a plastic tray beside him. Others he shoved unthinkingly into a brown paper sack.
There was something odd about that, Doug thought. From the careful way he handled the one group of envelopes and the casually rough way in which he dealt with the others, it seemed as though he was planning to hide some of those envelopes from Howard, as though he had plans for them other than delivery.
The mailman looked up and stared directly at him.
Doug glanced away, pretending as though he had been scanning the street and his gaze had accidentally landed for a second on the mailman as he'd looked around. But in the brief moment that their eyes locked, he had the unmistakable feeling that the mailman had known he was watching and that that was precisely why he had looked up at that moment.
You're being stupid, Doug told himself. The man had glanced in his direction. That was all. It was a perfectly ordinary occurrence, a simple random event. There was nothing strange or sinister about it. But when he looked again at the mailman, he saw that the man was still staring at him and that there was a disdainful half-smile on the pale thin lips.
Doug quickly opened the car door and got inside, feeling vulnerable, exposed, and slightly guilty, as if he had been caught watching someone undress.
He wasn't sure why the mailman's gaze made him feel that way, but he didn't want to stay here and analyze it. He started the car and backed up. The only exit from the Circle K lot was right next to the mailbox, and he hurriedly sped across the asphalt, hoping to pull immediately onto the road. No such luck. The highway was filled with cars and campers coming down from the lake, and he was forced to sit there and wait for an opening. He concentrated on the traffic, looking only to the left, but he could see out of the corner of his eye that the mailman was staring at him, still and unmoving. Then the line of traffic ended and he swung out onto the road. He could not resist the impulse and glanced out the passenger window as he drove by.
The mailman, smiling, waved at him.
4
Billy was on the porch when the mailman came by. There was no warning as there had been with Mr. Ronda, no loud motor or squealing brakes. There was only the quiet purr of a new engine and the soft dry crunch of tires stopping on dirt. Billy put down his BB gun and glanced over at the new mailman, curious, but the windows of the red car were tinted, the interior dark, and all he could see was a thin white hand and the sleeve of a blue uniform reaching out from the driver's window to put a stack of letters in the mailbox. There was something about the sight that bothered him, that didn't sit right. In the darkness of the car he thought he could see a shock of red hair over a pale indistinct face. The mailman did not look friendly like Mr. Ronda. He looked somehow . . . inhuman.
Billy felt a slight chill pass through him, a distinctly physical sensation, though the temperature was already well into the eighties. The white hand waved to him -- once, curtly -- then the car was off, sailing smoothly and silently down the road.
He knew he should go out and get the mail, but for some reason he was afraid to. The mailbox and the road suddenly looked awfully far away from the safety of the house and the porch. What if, for some reason, the mailman decided to turn around and come back? His dad was in the bathroom at the back of the house and his mom was over at the Nelsons'. He would be stuck out there by himself, on his own.
Knock it off, he told himself. He was just being stupid. He was eleven now, almost twelve, practically a teenager, and he was afraid to get the mail.
Jesus, how pitiful could a person get? It wasn't even night. It was morning, broad daylight. He shook his head. What awuss !
Nevertheless, he was scared, and for all of his self-chastisement he had to force himself to walk down the porch steps and up the gravel driveway.
He walked slowly past the pine tree in which they'd hung the bird-feeders, past the Bronco, over the culvert, and was at the edge of the road when he heard the car's quiet engine. His heart pounding, he looked down the road to see the mailman's car backing up quickly toward him. He stood rooted to the spot, wanting to run back onto the porch but knowing how foolish he would appear.
The car pulled to a stop next to him. Now Billy could see clearly the black interior of the new car.
And the white face of the mailman.
In his chest, Billy's already racing heart shifted into overdrive. The mailman's face was not ugly, not scary in any conventional way, but his skin seemed too pale, the features on his face too ordinary. His hair, by contrast, was so garishly red as to appear artificial, and this juxtaposition seemed to Billy somehow frightening.
"I forgot to deliver a letter," the mailman said. His voice was low and even, smoothly professional, like the voice of a game-show host or news commentator. He handed Billy an envelope.
"Thanks," Billy forced himself to say. His own voice sounded high and babyish.
The mailman smiled at him, a slow, sly insinuating smile that made Billy's blood run cold. He swallowed hard, turning and walking back up the driveway toward the porch, concentrating on keeping his feet moving at an even pace, not wanting the mailman to sense his fear. He kept waiting to hear the car shift into gear behind him, to hear the wheels on the gravel as the mailman pulled away, but there was only silence. He stared straight ahead at the windows of the house, but he saw in his mind the creepy smile of the mailman, and it made him feel dirty and slimy, as though he needed to take a bath.
He was suddenly aware that he was wearing shorts, that the mailman could see the backs of his legs.
He reached the porch and walked directly to the door, pulling it open and walking inside. Only now did he turn to peek through the screen door at the mailman. But the car was not at the foot of the drive, and there was not even a cloud of dust where it had been.
"What're you looking at there, sport?"
He jumped at the sound of his father's voice. "Nothing," he said immediately, but he could tell from the look on his father's face that he wasn't going to buy that story.
"What's the matter? You seem a little jumpy."
"Nothing's wrong," Billy repeated. "I just went out to get the mail." He handed over the envelopes he'd been holding.
The expression on his father's face changed from puzzlement to what looked like . . . understanding?
But at that moment there was the sound of tires crunching gravel outside.
They both looked out the window.Hobie Beecham's dented white pickup had just pulled into the driveway, andHobie himself was hopping out of the cab.
"Okay," Doug said, nodding at Billy. He put the envelopes down on the table and pushed open the screen, walking out onto the porch.
Hobiewas striding across the driveway with his patented redneck swagger.
He clomped loudly up the porch steps, adjusting the baseball cap on his head. "I was gonna come by yesterday," he told Doug, "but I was on crotch watch." He grinned, taking off his mirrored sunglasses and putting them in the pocket of his Parks and Recreation T-shirt. "It's a tough job, but somebody's got to do it."Hobie taught auto shop and driver'sed at the high school, but during the summer he volunteered to work twenty hours a week as a lifeguard at the public pool. He was a fair swimmer but certainly no trained lifeguard, and Trish had often wondered aloud why they'd accepted him at all, since it was well known that he spent more time ogling the mothers from behind his sunglasses than he did supervising their kids. She was prejudiced against him, but she had a point, Doug thought.Hobie was big, loud, andunredeemably sexist
. Proudly sexist.
Billy, in the doorway, laughed, already feeling better. He liked Mr.
Beecham.
"You didn't hear that," Doug told him.
Hobieshook his head, chuckling. "They'restartin ' 'emyoung these days."
Billy picked up his BB gun and went to the opposite end of the porch, aiming at the aluminum can he had placed on a tree stump in the green belt, the incident with the mailman already beginning to fade into memory.
Doug andHobie walked inside, andHobie took off his baseball cap. He sat down, uninvited, in the nearest chair, wiping the sweat from his forehead. "Got anything cold to drink in here?"
Doug walked into the kitchen and opened the refrigerator. "We have some sun tea, some Coke, some water --"
"Anything more manly?"
"We're out of beer. Besides, it's not even eleven yet."
The other teacher sighed. "Coke, then."
Doug popped open Coke cans forHobie and for himself and carried the drinks into the living room, handing one to his friend. "So what brings you out this way?"
"The board meeting next Tuesday."
Doug groaned. "Board meeting? We just got out." He sat down on the couch.
"Besides, I thought the meeting wasn't until the end of July."
"Well, the bastards moved it up. They figured if they held it while most of the teachers are on vacation, they'd be able to slip the budget through with no opposition. Hell, the only reason I found out is because one of the janitors told me. I saw him at the pool."
"But they have to post the date and time."
Hobieshrugged. "I'm sure they did." His voice took on a sarcastic note.
"You know them. They would never do anything illegal." He snorted. "They probably buried it in the classified ads of the paper last week so noone'd see it." Doug shook his head. "I'm sick of school. I don't even want to think about it until the end of August."
"I just thought you might want to know. If I remember correctly, you were going to petition them for more funds?"
Doug sighed melodramatically.
"For new books?"
He nodded, drinking his Coke. "Yeah," he admitted. "I'm tired of teaching _To Sir, With Love_." He leaned back, his head against the wall. "Some asshole got it into his head a few years ago that teaching popular novels instead of classics would interest kids in reading. So they bought a twenty-year-old novel the kids hadn't even heard of, bought a videotape of the movie, and told me to teach it. It doesn't interest them in reading; all it does is bore them to tears. _The Scarlet Letter_ would bore them to tears too, but at least they'd learn from it."
Hobiechuckled. "Ikinda liked Lulu, though. She had nice knockers."
"Very funny. It's just that the board and the parents are always harping about how our test scores compare to the rest of the state. Well, other schools are reading _Heart of Darkness_ and _Huckleberry Finn_. Our kids are at a disadvantage. I just want them to be able to compete."
"I learned to read from comic books,"Hobie said.
Doug sat up straight. "I have nothing against that theory. Of course kids will want to read if they are given interesting reading material. And there is a lot of popular fiction that is worthwhile. I just think that if we're going to operate on that assumption, we should have better material to work with." He shook his head. "Shit."
On the porch Billy giggled.
"Stop spying," Doug called out. "Nixon Junior!"
Hobiegrinned. "Sounds like you're going to the meeting."
Doug sighed. "Yeah, I'm going to the meeting."
"Good. We can present a united front."
"A united front?"
"I need a new spray gun for my advanced auto."
"And you want me to back you?"
Hobielooked hurt. "We're brother teachers."
"Okay, but you know how tight the board is. If it comes down to a draw, I'll toss you to the wolves."
"It's a deal."Hobie held up his Coke can. "Cheers."
Walking up the road from the Nelsons', Tritia sawHobie's truck in the driveway before she had reached the mailbox. She considered turning around and going back, returning after he had gone, but she heard his loud voice carrying on the warm slight breeze and could tell that he was just leaving. She walked across the dirt and turned into the drive.
"Trish,"Hobie called out. He laughed loudly and rushed forward, grabbing her around the waist, hugging her. "How's itgoin '?"
Tritia put on a strained smile. She didn't likeHobie Beecham, although she tried to get along with him for Doug's sake. She honestly could not understand what her husband saw in the man. He was lewd, crude, and a step above beefwit. She tensed as the hug continued, finally pushing him away. The last time he'd greeted her, he'd taken the opportunity to squeeze her ass, though when she'd told Doug about it he said it was probably an accident. It was no accident, she knew, and she'd told him his friend had better keep his hands to himself or he would find himself with one testicle less.
Billy thoughtHobie was great, however, and each time after he came over, the boy walked around the house affecting a swagger, trying to put a southwestern twang in his voice. She wished there was some way to get Billy to emulate and admire some of their more cultured and intellectual friends, but he was at the age when that sort of simplistic macho posturing seemed extremely appealing, and there was no way to effectively dissuade him without pushing him intoHobie's corner completely.
Tritia looked the big man over. "We missed you at the funeral," she said pointedly.
"Yeah, well, I didn't go. I mean, itwoulda been kind of hypocritical. I
didn't even know the guy. He dumped off my mail, I saw him every once in a while, but we certainly weren't friends."
"A lot of people were there."
He shrugged. "I wasn't. Sue me." He smiled. "Making friends has never been one of my major goals in life."
"I noticed," Tritia said coolly.
Hobieturned to Doug. "Speaking of Ronda, have you seen the new mailman?"
"Yes," he said noncommittally.
"I saw him this morning by the post office. Creepy guy. I don't like him."
Someone else had noticed too! Doug forced himself to remain calm. "Did you talk to him?"
"Don't want to. His job is to deliver the mail, not be my buddy. I don't talk to the meter-reader or the paperboy or the telephone man either. No offense, but that was something I never liked about Ronda. He was always stopping to chat with everyone --"
"Ronda was a good man," Doug said simply.
"And don't you dare say anything bad about him," Tritia ordered. She nailed him with dark stern eyes.
Hobiewas about to say something else but apparently thought the better of it and shut his mouth. He gave Doug a condescending smile of male camaraderie, a smile that all but said that his wife was being a typical foolish female. Tritia was right, Doug thought. Sometimes his friend was an insensitive asshole.
Tritia walked up the porch steps and slammed the door behind her.
"Anyway,"Hobie said, "I don't like the new guy."
"I don't either."
"Weird sucker. He's so pale. And that red hair. Shit, I wouldn't be surprised if it was dyed. He is kind offaggoty -looking."
"Well, I don't know about that . . ." Doug said, his voice trailing off.
He wasn't sure what he thought, he realized. He had no concrete beliefs about the mailman, only an unfounded dislike, a strong sense of unease sharpened by impressions gleaned from a few random meetings. He was not usually given to such impulsive, instinctive judgments, and he was a little surprised at himself.
Ordinarily, he prided himself on giving everyone the benefit of the doubt, on believing only the best about a person until shown otherwise. His negative opinion of the mailman, however, had been born fully formed; he had experienced an instant dislike of the man without knowing a single fact about him.
_Dislike and fear._
And fear, he admitted. He was, on some level, for some reason he could
not quite understand, afraid of the mailman. And that too had been instant.
Hobiepulled open the door of the pickup and hopped onto the ripped seat.
He dug into the right front pocket of his Levi's and pulled out his key ring.
"Well, Igotta be going. You're coming with me to the meeting, though, right?"
"You got it."
"All right. We'll kick some butt." He slammed the door, grinning, and started the engine. "I'm onpoon patrol tomorrow and Friday, but I'll give you a call before Monday."
"Okay," Doug said. "Have fun."
"I will,"Hobie said, pulling his mirrored shades from his T-shirt pocket, putting them on. "You bet I will." He backed up quickly and swung about on the road, turning the truck toward town. He waved once, a short swipe of his hand above the cab of the pickup, and then was gone.
Doug walked back up the steps.
"Kick some butt," Billy said, putting down his BB gun.
"Don't you repeat that," Tritia called from inside.
"You heard your mother," Doug said. He tried to make his voice sound tough, but he couldn't help smiling. He pushed open the screen door and walked into the house, picking up the mail from the top of the table where he'd put it down. He glanced at the envelopes in his hand.
Again there were no bills.
5
The next day Doug received a letter from Ford informing him that, due to the outcome of a lawsuit the company recently lost to a consumer-rights organization, the warranty on their Bronco's power train had been extended for another year. There was also a two-dollar rebate check from Polaroid and a letter to Billy from Tritia 's mother, with a five-dollar bill in it.
The Mailman Page 4