by Roger Taylor
As the last words left his mouth the voices began to cry out in fear and despair. Hawklan gazed around, seeking some guidance, but nothing stirred in the darkness and his inability to focus clearly on anything began to disorient him.
'Stop it,’ he roared, swinging his right arm in a wide arc, making the black sword hiss menacingly. The sound rose up, cutting through the swirling pandemonium as if it were as sharp as the edge of the sword itself.
'I can't help you if I can't see you,’ he shouted. ‘I can't help you if I don't know what's happened. You must speak to me properly.'
The noise fragmented briefly then came together as a single voice again, though it was strained and fearful.
Near complete panic, Hawklan sensed.
'Can you hear us now, Hawklan?’ said the voice. ‘To speak thus is difficult when ... has happened.’ Hawklan turned away from the noises of death and horror that filled the darkness.
'Stop it,’ he shouted again, though this time angrily. His voice boomed and echoed, and the noises stopped abruptly. ‘Tell me what has happened,’ he repeated into the silence, his voice still angry. ‘And tell me so that I can understand. Is it easier for you to face this—thing—that has happened to you on your own than it is to talk simply to a human being?'
There was a brief silence, then, ‘Follow, Hawklan. We forget the inadequacy of your language. Violence is not our way. It has...’ The voice struggled. ‘It has ... unsettled ... us.'
Hawklan was mollified by the effort in the voice. He moved cautiously towards it, still feeling disoriented by the darkness. Gavor floated down to land silently on his shoulder.
'What is this place?’ Gavor asked.
'One of the ... Halls of the Song,’ replied the voice. ‘One of the Halls of the Great Song.'
The fear was still in the voice, but it was submerged for the moment under layers of excitement—of awe and wonder.
'This is your Heartplace?’ Hawklan said, still moving towards the voice.
'No,’ said the voice. ‘But the Heartplace is near.’ A note in the voice made Hawklan pause. Anger? Distaste? Not quite either. Resentment? That was it: resentment.
'But you asked me here,’ he said defensively, though no words had reproached him.
Sounds of surprise and contrition surrounded him briefly. ‘You hear more than you know, Hawklan,’ said the voice, this time very close. ‘We are sorry for what you heard.'
Hawklan peered in the direction of the voice but still he could see nothing. ‘It pains you that a human should come near your Heartplace?’ he said. ‘Even to help you?'
'Yes,’ the voice replied simply. ‘We are sorry,’ it said again. ‘But you give us hope too. We have many things to learn. Help us, please.'
The voice moved on, and Hawklan followed it quickly, until he found himself at the foot of a broad flight of steps. They were small, as though they had been built for children, and, like the floor he was standing on, they were covered in dust.
'Up,’ said the voice ahead of him. Hawklan hesitated and frowned slightly. There were no tiny footprints in the dust to indicate the previous passing of his guide.
'Please tell me where you are and what's happened,’ he said yet again, starting up the stairs.
'We are here, Hawklan,’ said the voice, without further explanation. ‘As we neared our Heartplace, His creature attacked us and...'
It fell silent. Hawklan tightened his grip on his sword, and quickened his pace. The steps wound around a wide bend and then divided into three separate flights.
'What was this creature?’ he asked.
The question was ignored. ‘We could not defend ourselves,’ said the voice, along the central of the three flights. ‘There were killings.’ A terrible grief slipped briefly into the voice.
'Songs were ended...’ The voice faded into a long sigh and then became silent.
Hawklan found himself on a wide landing, facing several tunnels. ‘Which way?’ he said impatiently into the silence.
There was a long pause. Hawklan thought he heard distant noises rising up faintly from below, but he dismissed them.
'We cannot ask this of you,’ the voice said abruptly, very close. Startled, Hawklan spun round, expecting to see his guide standing nearby, but still there was nothing.
'What do you mean?’ he said, bewildered by this unexpected statement.
'It is our Heartplace. Its cleansing is our burden,’ said the voice, gabbling almost.
They fear to be in your debt, said the cold pan of Hawklan's mind.
His anger burst out. ‘Stop this nonsense, and answer my questions,’ he shouted. ‘What kind of a creature is it that's attacked you? And where is it?'
His angry voice rolled into the tunnels facing him and faded away without echo.
There was a long silence, then a strange high-pitched scream came from one of the tunnels. Gavor tightened his claw on Hawklan's shoulder. ‘Dear boy, I think perhaps we ought to...'
But Hawklan was not listening. He was running forward, following the dying thread of the scream. Gavor relinquished his perch and flew a little way behind him.
Then they were in an open space again.
Hawklan stopped and Gavor floated down a few paces from him.
There was a fearful, breathless silence around them, and Hawklan noted smells; vaguely familiar animal smells mingling with a retching sweetness that stirred dark shadowy memories in him.
Something nearby was watching and waiting, he knew. But what? And why? And most important of all, where?
He peered intently into the darkness, holding the torch high, and his sword horizontally in front of him.
'Look,’ Gavor whispered very softly, tapping the floor with his wooden leg.
Hawklan looked down. As far as the torch shone, he could see that the dust which overlay the floor here too had been disturbed by countless tiny feet.
Cautiously he bent down to examine the footprints.
As he leaned forward, every part of him suddenly sensed the attack rushing towards him, but before he could move, a great weight crashed onto his shoulders, knocking him to the ground and sending the torch and the sword rattling in opposite directions.
Distantly, Hawklan heard Gavor cry out in alarm and then rage, but his immediate preoccupation was with whatever had dropped on him. It was large and heavy and its snarling breath stank inches from his face. He had a fleeting glimpse of bared yellow fangs and green eyes, cruel in the now faint torchlight, as the creature recovered from its jump and launched itself at him again.
Instinctively he threw up his hands to protect himself and then rolled over desperately in the direction his sword had fallen. He was not fast enough, however. The creature landed heavily on him again, and he felt powerful, bone-crushing jaws beginning to close around his upper arm. He cried out as they tightened pitilessly and in sheer terror smashed his free hand into where he presumed the creature's head was.
The blow landed with some considerable force, and the grip on his arm slackened momentarily, but before Hawklan could react, the jaws seized him again. A deep growl underscored the creature's intent.
Hawklan twisted and turned to escape the relentless pressure, trying frantically to gain some point of leverage to use his own weight against the creature. Abruptly, as if tiring of this irritating prey, the creature shook its head from side to side violently. Hawklan felt himself almost lifted off the ground by the creature's strength, and somewhere he heard himself screaming at the pain in his arm. The darkness around him was flooded with a myriad bursting colours.
Stay conscious, some inner voice shouted through his terror.
Then a blast of air in his face returned him to the present.
He heard a familiar voice, raucous with fear and rage, and caught a glimpse of Gavor above him, wings thrashing, attacking the attacker.
The creature gave a cry of pain and released Hawklan to deal with this new assailant. With an immense beat of his wings, Gavor rose almost vertically into the
air screaming abuse. The creature leapt after him, a muscular, purposeful shadow in the darkness. Hawklan heard the loud snap of the powerful jaws closing just short of his friend's legs.
Free of the terrible grip, he rolled over and felt the creature stumble as it landed heavily on his moving legs. He recognized the sound of claws scrabbling on the floor as it tried to regain its balance.
Even chances now, the thought came to him, unexpectedly calm through his fear and pain. As he rolled over again, a tiny light, bright in the darkness, caught his eye. The sword hilt, he realized, catching the light of the distant torch.
Another roll and his hand closed around it. Then the momentum of his movement was helping him swing up on to his feet though he was crouching and unsteady and, strangely, the sword felt heavy and awkward in his hand. Something was amiss, he sensed, but there was no time to debate it; he could just make out the shape of the creature rushing towards him.
Raising the sword high, he stepped back with the intention of turning sideways to strike the creature as it passed him, but his retreating foot sank into something soft and yielding. A repellent smell filled the air, and his foot skidded from under him. As he fell, the creature hit him full in the chest, accelerating his already heavy fall.
He felt the sword slip from his hand as his arms extended reflexively to beat the ground in an attempt to spare him the worst of the impact. It clattered into the distance and for an instant he was glad to be rid of it. It was not helping him. Now, in some awful way, he was free; unrestrained.
He heard rather than felt the wind go out of him as he struck the floor with the creature on top of him, but his arms, bouncing off the hard floor, reached up automatically to protect his head from the descending jaws.
Teeth seized his sleeve but his free hand reached up and struck the creature's chest. It was an inadvertent blow and had no effect on the assault, but Hawklan pushed as strongly as he could in a desperate attempt to prevent the creature gripping his arm further. He could feel the creature's feet digging into him as it struggled for purchase, and he could feel too its enormous strength and terrible murderous intensity.
Abruptly, the creature yielded and released his sleeve. Freed, his hand jerked back towards him in reaction, hitting him in the face, while the other almost lost its contact with the creature as it twisted and lunged forward again. He managed to keep hold sufficiently, however, to slide his hand up and stop the creature's renewed rush by catching its throat. But his position was too weak for him to apply any pressure and, in any case, he knew that his one hand would make little impression on the powerful muscles he could feel under it.
The creature's breath enveloped him and he felt warm saliva dripping on his face. He sensed Gavor landing heavily on its back, but nothing now could divert it from its prey. Scrabbling to steady itself further, the creature thrust one of its feet in Hawklan's groin.
Blackness welled up inside Hawklan at this new pain, but in the far distance he felt the stirring of an ancient and frightening desperation.
No, it began to say.
But before it rose to possess him fully, there were lights around him, and voices, shouting. Then a flash of steel and a dreadful thud, followed by a piteous howl.
Hawklan felt the life under his hand quiver and begin to fade. Then the weight on top of him was gone, and the howl ended abruptly as two more heavy blows fell.
Hawklan's ears were filled with the sound of his heartbeat and his breathing as he looked up at the ring of concerned faces forming around him. Dacu, Isloman, Tirke.
'Is he all right?’ he heard one of them say distantly.
He closed his eyes and nodded. Hands reached down and pulled him up gently into a sitting position. A kerchief wiped his face.
The hands helped him to his feet and for a moment he leaned on someone shakily and breathed deeply to quieten himself. As he did so, he became aware of shimmering, triumphant sounds of elation and joy all around him.
The sounds of the Alphraan's rejoicing, however, formed a macabre backdrop to the grim features of his friends and the mosaic of pains starting to spread through his body.
'Some chase you led us, Hawklan,’ Dacu said, wiping blood and matted fur from his sword.
Hawklan nodded and rested a hand briefly on the Goraidin's shoulder. Partly still for support, partly in gratitude and apology. Then he flexed his fingers and tentatively felt his throbbing arm. His heavy tunic had protected him from the creature's rending teeth, but its molars had taken some toll. ‘It's only bruised, I think,’ he said hoarsely but with some relief. ‘Nasty, but it should be all right in a day or two.'
Dacu looked doubtful but Hawklan waved his concern aside. ‘Let's have a look at this creature of His,’ he said anxiously. It was a peculiarly frightening thought that Sumeral's creatures could be alive and seemingly thriving so long after His passing and so near to Orthlund.
The four men circled the fallen creature. Its eyes were wide and staring and its mouth was agape. The Alphraan's happiness filled the air.
Pain returned to Hawklan's face. ‘Is this the creature that killed your people?’ he asked, looking up into the darkness.
No clear answer came, but the sounds told him ... yes, yes, yes, His creature, sierwolf, sierwolf ... Then they danced away again.
Hawklan knelt down by the carcass and laid a hand on it.
'Stop it,’ he said softly but intensely. The sounds wavered. ‘Stop it,’ he shouted angrily.
The sounds faded and twisted into questions.
'This is no corrupt creation from some ancient time,’ he said softly again. ‘This is just an ordinary wolf.'
There was a brief pause, then, ‘It killed, it killed,’ said the voices defensively.
Hawklan ran his hand across the wolf. He nodded. ‘And it would have killed me too if it could,’ he said. ‘It's half starved. But it's no creature of His.'
Isloman knelt by him. ‘But it's not winter yet, why should it be starving? And even a pack of wolves won't attack a grown man unless they're threatened or desperately hungry.'
Looking at the dead animal, Hawklan felt again its terrible total commitment to its struggle. He had had to fight for his life but there had been no corruption there. Isloman was right. The wolf's action made no sense even allowing for its hunger. Animals didn't fight like that ... except ... ? He turned the animal over gently and put his hand to his head in dismay.
'It couldn't be helped, dear boy.’ Gavor's voice was subdued. ‘We didn't have any choice.'
The wolf was a female; a nursing female.
'We were both a threat and food,’ Hawklan said very quietly. ‘That's why it fought like that. It must have been a late whelper. Wandered in here and got lost.’ He wrapped his arms around himself and shuddered. ‘Its young will be in here somewhere.’ The sounds around them faded to become a single voice again. ‘It did kill,’ it said. ‘Three of us.'
Hawklan remembered his foot slithering from under him. He looked at his boot. It was smeared with blood and flesh. He grimaced. ‘Yes,’ he said. ‘But for its family, Alphraan. For its family. Not from some ancient malice.'
Tirke handed him his black sword. Hawklan thanked him and looked at it thoughtfully. The twining threads and stars in its hilt twinkled and shone in the torchlight. Ethriss's sword it might have been, but now it was his beyond a doubt. Yet it had not aided him this day?
No ancient malice. His own words returned to him. That was why the sword had left him to his own destiny, he realized. His arm started to throb.
'Then we are all the less for this meeting,’ the voice said sadly.
Hawklan nodded again. ‘Listen,’ he said. Out of the darkness came a faint scuffling and a whimper.
'They're over there,’ he said, pointing.
After a brief search, the four men found themselves looking down at two small wolf cubs cowering at the back of an alcove lined with dead vegetation and the she wolf's own fur. They were thin and obviously frightened by the torchlight, but
healthy enough and curling back their lips to reveal puppy-sharp teeth.
'We will tend them,’ said the Alphraan, the voice unexpectedly close and gentle.
Hawklan looked surprised. ‘Thank you,’ he said. Then he hesitated, awkwardly. ‘I'm sorry about your people, Alphraan. I was harsh. I judged.'
'Do not reproach yourself, Hawklan,’ said the voice. ‘We followed you freely and soon we will have our Heartplace again. But for your guidance and help, and that of your friends, we might have dwindled forever. Now we hear awakenings. No song ever truly ends.'
'There may be other creatures here,’ Hawklan said, pointing at the wolf's simple den. ‘If she got in, then others will have. And she must have found something to eat and drink down here.'
'When we regain our Heartplace, we will send to the kin we left and start to make it whole again,’ the voice said. ‘Then we will listen carefully for other creatures and learn their songs ... and make them welcome as of old. Only our ignorance and fear made us behave as we did. We are chastened. The ancient rape of this place lies deep in our lore, Hawklan. His creatures are ever alive in our songs...'
A quivering excitement suddenly disturbed the voice.
'It is found,’ it said. ‘The Heartplace is found.’ Then the darkness was filled again with the shimmering sounds of rejoicing, though this time they were free of the angry triumph that had tainted them previously.
'Come, humans,’ the voice rang out through it all, full of laughter. There was a brief tremor of doubt in the sounds but it was swept away.
Hawklan, however, noted it. ‘If this is your most precious place, we'll not intrude,’ he said. ‘We must continue on to Anderras Darion and we still have a difficult journey ahead of us. Will you travel with us again?'
'Of course, of course,’ said the voice, almost dismissively. ‘But this is truly a new beginning. Come to our Heartpl...’ The voice and the sounds suddenly faded, to be replaced by a hushed awe.
'Hawklan,’ said the voice softy. ‘They were here. His creatures. We have found them. Come.'
Hawklan looked at his companions.