“Yeah no I mean yeah you were good. It was good.”
“Call me when you get home, Tim. I mean if you want to.”
At the party, two guys Tim recognizes but doesn’t know by name are talking music. The one with the beard is saying to the one in the fedora that the proof of Will Oldham being the new Bob Dylan is in the way he adapts his own songs for live performance.
“Listen to Summer in the Southeast and compare that version of ‘I Send My Love to You’ to the one on Days in the Wake. Then go listen to the Blood on the Tracks ‘Shelter from the Storm’ and compare it to the live version on Hard Rain.”
“Yeah, and what am I supposed to be seeing when I do that?”
“When you see it you won’t need me to tell you.”
“You know,” Tim cuts in, “who Dylan says is the best interpreter of his songs?”
Fedora: “Who?”
Tim: “No guesses?”
Beard: “Hendrix?”
Tim: “Jerry Garcia.”
One of them: “You’re fucking joking.”
The other one: “And it’s not funny.”
Tim, smiling—it’s the stone truth—plucks a beer from the cooler planted next to the register, then he wanders out back.
Surprise, surprise.
“Oh so what?” Jana says to him. “I was bored.”
“Hey, nobody said anything,” Tim says. “Have you been here long?”
Now they’re getting to know each other, and isn’t this nice? No spark, exactly. This isn’t going to be like one of those things where the one girl breaks your heart and then you meet this other one and realize it was all meant to be: good things to those who wait, etc. Actually, Jana’s kind of a bitch. He’s telling her about Summer of Love and she’s practically doubled over laughing at him.
“I think I’ll head in for another drink,” Tim says, hoping she takes his implied meaning, which is, I am so done talking to you. But then for some reason he says, “Want me to grab you one?” and she says “Yeah, that’d be great, thanks.” First he’s thinking, Jesus what did I say that for? But then he starts thinking how if she took him up on the offer she maybe isn’t having such a bad time with him, and if she’s not having a bad time maybe he isn’t either.
Jana actually isn’t thinking about Tim one way or the other. All she wanted was another beer and another cigarette, and you can’t smoke inside, so. But fuck it, this party sucks anyway. She crushes out her smoke, goes in, sees him talking to somebody over by the booze, doesn’t bother to say good-bye. She goes out the front door and turns north on Avenue A. About half a block up from Harry Smith she runs into Riot, who is curled up like a child, bawling, in front of some new boutique store. The chain gate is down—it’s closed for the night—but you can make out what’s in the window. He smells sour. Shitty malt liquor, she bets, not that there’s another kind.
Riot: “fuhuhuhuck.”
Jana: “Hey, man, are you okay?” He says nothing, points straight up at the window. It’s the cover of Stations of the Crass silk-screened onto the front of a black pre-stressed designer tee shirt. Nothing so gauche as an advertised price but Jana figures, what—$120? She thinks of herself in middle school, standing in line at the Hot Topic at the mall in a suburb outside Philly, buying a red shirt emblazoned with Che’s face. They commodified her emotions, sold her own rebellion back to her before she even knew it for what it was. Is that better or worse than the post-ironic self-aware sellout-sophisticate garb on display here? Fuck it, it’s all one big Disneyland, and this is a fallen world. No place to hide your faith for safekeeping.
Or maybe the lesson is that faith is a perishable good, cannot be saved for later, is nothing if it is not action in the world. That sounds like a protest sign, or a long-winded bumper sticker.
But is it true?
“Come on,” she says to Riot. “Buck up, and let’s go scrounging.”
After Tim realizes Jana’s gone he pounds the beer that was hers. He means to pound the second one too, but gives himself the hiccups with the first one and has to stand there and wait it out. Then he joins some conversation already in progress. A guy with a compass rose tattoo on his right hand is saying, “That’s actually one of my favorite things about tattoos—that they make the body seem less sacred. The body isn’t sacred. People should see things for what they are.”
Some drunk asshole calls the room to order and makes a toast Tim wishes he’d thought to make, then a bottle of Jack gets passed around and Tim has a big swig of that and then he feels sort of sick so he goes back outside—to the front this time—to have a smoke and calm his stomach. Jana and Riot walk past, carrying a metal post like stop signs are mounted on. “We found it in a Dumpster on Second,” she says to Tim as they pass by. Avenue or street? he wonders. Not that it matters. How long ago did he hang up with Natalie? Either half as long or twice as long as it feels like, so figure an hour. He lurches across the street, almost gets nailed by a cab in the process, doesn’t even turn when he hears the rebuke of the horn. He walks through Tompkins Square Park, sits down on Natalie’s stoop, digs his phone out of his pocket and calls. The door of the building is painted metal, cold against his forehead when he leans.
Just when he thinks she’s not going to answer.
Natalie: “Oh, hey.”
“Hey, are you still awake? I’m home.”
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
I wish to extend my gratitude to the editors of the magazines, journals, Web sites, and anthologies in which several of these stories were first published and/or reprinted.
The following people have been and are my teachers, editors, first-readers, confidants, employers, family members, and friends. I hope you all know how grateful I am for the vital roles you play in my life, to say nothing of the life of this book.
THANK YOU: Danielle Benveniste, Blake Butler, Dennis Cooper, Elliott David, Mark Doten, David Gates, Fran Gordon, Bill Hayward, Gordon Lish, Peter Masiak, Amy McDaniel, Charles McNair, Amanda Peters, Robert Polito, Jeremy Schmall, Michael Signorelli, Eva Talmadge, Maggie Tuttle; my parents, and my sister, Melanie; the Taylor, Starkman, and Goldner families.
About the Author
Justin Taylor’s fiction and nonfiction have been widely published in journals, magazines, and Web sites, including The Believer, The Nation, The New York Tyrant, the Brooklyn Rail, Flaunt, and NPR. A coeditor of The Agriculture Reader and a contributor to HTMLGIANT, Taylor lives in Brooklyn and is at work on his first novel.
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Copyright
“Ode (to Joseph LeSueur) on the Arrow That Flieth by Day” and “Poem Read at Joan Mithchell’s” from The Collected Poems of Frank O’Hara by Frank O’Hara, edited by Donald Allen, copyright © 1971 by Maureen Granville-Smith, Administratrix of the Estate of Frank O’Hara, copyright renewed 1999 by Maureen O’Hara Granville-Smith. Used by Permission of Alfred A. Knopf, a division of Random House, Inc.
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