I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her back onto the bed. “Baby, you’ve been eating fluffy nuts the past month.”
“So, they’re good.”
“And also the thing you craved the last time you were pregnant.”
She huffed. “Really, Jay? That is how you knew I was pregnant?”
“That, and you’ve been exhausted. I’m talking coming home from work, sleeping two hours, eating some fluffy nuts, and then going back to bed ‘til the morning.”
She reached up and brushed her fingertips down my cheek. “So, that’s more telling. I thought I was too, but I was afraid to take a test to find out that I really wasn’t.”
“Then what made you finally take one?”
She sighed and closed her eyes. “I got sick the other morning, and I knew it wasn’t anything to do with what I ate.”
“I’m assuming I wasn’t there because otherwise I totally would have heard you calling some dinosaurs.”
She laughed and rested her forehead against mine. “You were gone. I wanted to call you but I didn’t want to bug you about something that might not be.”
“Baby, you gotta know I’m always there for you. No matter what. You know I call you when I’m gone just because I want to hear your voice.”
I did. No one knew that beside Delaney because Frankie and Remy would give me hell about it for the rest of my life. I loved Delaney with everything I had but I drew the line at things that I let be known publicly.
“I know, I just didn’t want to jinx it or anything.”
I sighed and closed my eyes. “You can’t jinx this, baby.”
“But last time, Jay. Last time...” she trailed off.
“Last time, it wasn’t meant to be. It wasn’t anything you did, Delaney. It wasn’t meant to be.”
Delaney still struggled with losing the baby. There were days I can see it weighing down on her and all I could do is let her know I was there.
“And what if this one turns out that it’s not meant to be?”
“Then we try again, Del, but I’m not thinking that way. I’m not thinking that we’re going to lose this one too.”
“But Jay.”
I held her close and pressed a kiss to the side of her head. “There is no but, Del. Your doctor has said that there isn’t a reason why we can’t get pregnant and carry full term. We’re pregnant. We’re having a baby, and there isn’t a damn thing in this world that is going to keep me from being happy.”
She sighed and let me hold her. “What if it’s twins?” she whispered. “I think I might freak if that happens.”
“That might freak me out too, but I’ll still be the happiest guy in the whole world.”
Delaney closed her eyes. “We can be happy, right, Jay? We can be happy even though we lost our first one?”
And there was the other thing I knew that was bothering her. She felt guilty she was happy about having another baby. “I’ll never forget our first baby, Del, just like I know you won’t. We both loved that little guy-.”
“Or girl,” she interrupted.
“Or girl,” I chuckled, “We both loved it, and we’ll never forget about him.”
“You’re too good to me, Jay.”
All I did was love Delaney.
I was an idiot who talked too much and was lucky enough to find a woman who loved me for me.
Delaney may think I was too good to her, but I knew at the end of the day, I was one lucky bastard to have found her.
“Love you, Del.”
“I love you, too, Jay,” she whispered. She looked up at me and smiled. “Do you think room service can make us some fluffy nuts?”
*
Frankie
“I won the AC Cola Cup.”
The waiter set my mai tai in front of me, and I smiled up at him. “Thank you.”
“Did you hear me?” Brooks asked.
I sipped my drink and stared out to the ocean. “I think I was there, Brooks.”
Brooks and I were sitting at a table on the outside patio of the restaurant. We were fifteen feet away from the ocean, and I was pretty sure we were in Heaven.
“You remember what you told me if I won the AC Cola Cup?”
Oh, I remember all right. I had been waiting for Brooks to bring this up. Butterflies floated around my stomach. “Refresh my memory.”
“You’re marrying me, Frankie. You’re mine.”
I sighed and turned my gaze back to the ocean. “I was yours before you won the cup, Brooks.”
“You were?”
I laughed and sipped my drink. “I was. Even when I sailed that wrench past your head.”
“Doubtful,” Brooks laughed. “You had every intention of putting a nice dent in my skull.”
I tipped my glass toward him. “Touché.”
“So now you better pick a date.”
I leveled my gaze at him. “Did you ask my brothers?”
Brooks crossed his arms over his chest smugly. “I sure did. Remember over Christmas when I was down in the garage with them when you were cooking with Leelee, Violet, and Scarlet?”
I did. I was pissed off I had to stay up in the kitchen and they got to go down in the garage. “You asked them then?” Brooks nodded his head. “Kurt hit you?”
Brooks grumbled under his breath. “He took a swing at me but I was able to duck before his fist connected with my nose.”
I snickered. That was totally Kurt. Even having a few kids hadn’t completely mellowed him out. “Luke probably grunted, and Mitch was the one who actually acted like an adult.”
“You know your brothers so well.”
I sighed and finished my drink. “They need to make these in bigger sizes.”
“Frankie.”
My eyes connected with Brooks. “Yes?”
“Will you marry me?”
A small smile crossed my lips. “I’m all yours, Mr. Holeshot.”
The End
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Fallen Lords MC
Book 1
Chapter 1
Karmen
I couldn’t find a box big enough to fit him in.
Well, that makes me sound like a murderer or something. Nickel, the man in question, is still very much alive, I assure you. I should probably go back a little bit and explain.
My father went to prison when I was thirteen, and I can’t remember my mother. She left before I could even have a memory of her. He always told me we were better off without her. Things were rough for us, but we always had each other. Well, I had my dad. My dad had me and beer. I can’t remember a time I didn’t smell hops on his breath.
I went to my first day of preschool and asked the teacher why her breath didn’t smell like my dad. That ended up with my dad in the principal’s office for an hour and me crying the whole way home while my dad yelled at me. That was the last time I ever mentioned my dad’s drinking to anyone. I was a fast learner and caught on quick. One mess up, and I never made the same mistake again.
The night
my dad went to prison, I was at home, like normal, while he was out at the bar three miles down the road. He regularly walked to the bar and stumbled home, but that night, there was a severe storm predicted to blow in, so he decided he would take the truck. That decision changed my life and made me see everything in a whole new light.
I was sprawled out on the living room floor, watching TV, when there was a loud pounding on the front door, and I figured it was my dad. It was normal for him to forget his keys and bang to get inside.
I opened the door to two police officers, with my grandma, Vivian, standing behind them. I only saw my grandma at Christmas. I knew the second I laid eyes on her, something was not right.
It seemed my father had decided to call it a night after drinking almost a twenty-four pack of beer and tried to drive home. In that three-mile drive to the house that had no turns or curves on it, my father had managed to hit a soccer mom in her minivan with her three children in the back. Only one child survived.
The police told me I had to go with my grandma until they figured something out. Meanwhile, she stood behind them, arms crossed over her chest, tapping her foot impatiently. After they were done, my grandma barged between the two police officers and started firing off orders about packing a bag and getting all my stuff ready to go. We weren’t going to stay in the “hell hole” anymore.
While I was packing up my things, completely in shock, I heard my grandma down the hall, bitching and moaning about having to take care of me. I knew then and there that things were never going to be the same.
After she hauled me over to her trailer—that was not much better than the “hell hole” I used to live in—I begged to see my dad. Every day, she told me, and I quote, “I couldn’t see the bastard yet.”
Two weeks after I went to live with Vivian—she hated when I called her Grandma—I finally got to see my dad. After I was searched, I was led to a room with a glass wall and partitions separating small stools that faced the window. I was told to sit on the stool furthest to the left and wait. Vivian sat in the corner, pissed off that the guards said she had to be in there with me, even though I honestly didn’t want her there.
It had taken ten minutes before my father walked through the door. He looked the same as the last time I had seen him, except for the orange jumpsuit he was wearing. He sat down on the other side of the glass and picked up the phone. He motioned his hand for me to do the same. I put the receiver to my ear and held my breath.
“Hey, baby.” He always called me baby. I couldn’t remember him ever using my real name unless he was serious, and serious didn’t often happen with my dad.
“Hi, Daddy,” I whispered.
“Everything going okay over at Vivian’s?”
I nodded but didn’t speak.
“I’m sorry, baby. I didn’t plan for this to happen.” My first thought was, what a stupid saying. Who the hell plans to drink twenty-four beers and then plow a family off the road? There’s probably a very short list of people who plan for something like that.
“It’s okay.” What else was I supposed to say?
“I think I’m going to be in here for a while.”
I nodded again, because it finally hit me. Seeing my father behind a thick glass wall in an orange jumpsuit was hammering it home, that life as I knew it was about to change. A tear I had been holding in streaked down my face and landed on the small ledge in front of me.
“Don’t cry, baby.” His eyes were on me, watching the tears I was so desperately trying to hold in finally run down my cheeks.
“I don’t know what to do, Daddy,” I wheezed out. My tears were coming fast and furious now. I was five seconds away from becoming an emotional, blubbering mess.
“You don’t need to worry. Vivian is going to take care of you. I had the police call her as soon as they could,” he said, trying to reassure me.
I was unable to talk. I tried wiping at the tears, but by the time I whisked them away, new ones were falling, taking their place.
“Karmen,” he sternly said into the phone. I glanced up and found him staring at me. “Handel’s don’t cry, Karmen. Dry your tears. Nothing can be done now but to go on and make the best of the situation we are in.”
I wiped my eyes again, willing the tears to stop. I reached into my pocket and pulled out the Kleenex Vivian had pressed into my hand as I walked to the door before. My father’s words rang in my head. He always used to say, “We need to make the best of our situation.” He would always tell me that when we would run out of money or had to find a new place to live.
“I don’t know how to go on, Daddy. Vivian doesn’t want me there,” I hiccupped into the phone.
My dad shook his head and ran his fingers through his hair. “I don’t know what to tell you, baby. We both have to do things we don’t want to right now. I wish things could be different, but they can’t.”
“I know,” I whispered. I didn’t want my dad to worry about me when he was in prison. I’d have to keep my fears to myself about living with Vivian.
“Go on, I need to talk to your grandma now.” I nodded my understanding. “I love you, Karmen. Please don’t forget that.”
“I love you too, Daddy,” I whispered. I hung up the phone and quickly dashed out of the room before I started crying in front of him again.
After my grandma spoke to him, we went home, where she started making dinner and told me to sit at the kitchen table so we could have a talk.
“We need to get a few things straight, Karmen,” she said, lighting a cigarette and blowing a puff of smoke in my direction. “Your father told me you said I didn’t like you. Is that right?” she asked, staring me down.
I nodded my head yes because there was no point in lying.
“It’s not that I don’t like you, Karmen, it’s just that I am well beyond the age of taking care of a teenager. I’m upset with your father, not you.”
“Okay.”
“I think we will get along just fine if we both just stay out of the other one's way. I know you are thirteen years old and more than capable of taking care of yourself. Lord knows you have been taking care of that sorry excuse for a father since you were old enough to talk.”
I didn’t argue with her because she was speaking the truth. I couldn’t remember when my dad and I had switched roles. I had been taking care of him since I could remember.
“All right then, that’s settled. Now, why don’t you run to your room and work on your homework or whatever,” she said, dismissing me with the wave of her hand, as she turned to the fridge.
I didn’t need to be told twice. I slammed my door behind me and leaned against it and slid down.
After I wrapped my arms around my raised knees, I rested my chin on them. I was so angry and upset at my father, but I had no one to talk to about it. I closed my eyes and banged my head on the door.
“It’s not fair,” I said to my barren bedroom.
Vivian had only given me a mattress on the floor to sleep on and a three-drawer dresser.
I had boxes sitting in the corner of things I used to have in my room, but I didn’t want to take them out of the boxes. Taking all my pictures and possessions out of the boxes made this real. As long as I lived out of those boxes, this was all just a bad dream.
I thought about how putting everything in boxes made things better and decided to start putting everything I didn’t want to feel into a box. The first thing I put in my little boxes was my anger with my father.
Opening that box in my head and placing that anger inside and then slamming the lid on top helped. I didn’t have to feel that anger anymore.
Every day, for the past twelve years, I filled my tiny little boxes. Sad because I was all alone? Put it in a box and don’t think about it. An “A” on my math test and Vivian ordering me to go to my room when I tried to tell her? Put it in a box and don’t think about it.
All through my teenage years, I had probably thousands of tiny boxes that I neatly put on a shelf and never thoug
ht about again. It even worked well into adulthood. Things always fit nicely into the boxes.
Everything except for Nickel. As much as I tried to shove his gorgeous smile in the box, I could never forget about it.
Almost a year ago, his grandmother was transferred to the nursing home I worked at as an RN. Every week, on Tuesday at nine o’clock, he would come in and visit her like clockwork.
I still remember the day he appeared in her room while I was checking her blood pressure. He waltzed in as if he owned the place, and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about him since. His grandmother was one of my favorite patients. She was sweet but had a smart-ass streak to her.
Every Tuesday, he would hold up a bakery bag and insist on me staying and having a snack with them. He would track me down if he didn’t see me in her room and ask me how my day was going.
He always had a leather vest on that had his name, Nickel, on it and a huge patch on the back that was the insignia of the Fallen Lords. All I knew about the Fallen Lords was that they were a motorcycle club, and they rode bikes everywhere they went. I was seriously oblivious to everything he was.
The only thing I wasn’t oblivious to was his gorgeous smile and dark blue eyes. Whenever he was done talking to me, he always winked and smiled as he walked away. That wink and smile drove me crazy.
That man was everything I didn’t want in my life, and that was the exact reason I needed to find a box big enough to fit him in. I needed to slam the lid down on him and never think of him again.
If only things were that easy.
**********
Dropkick My Heart
Powerhouse MA Series
Book 1
Chapter 1
Kellan
“Left, Ryan.” I shook my head and watched Ryan punch to the right. “Your other left, Ryan.” In my fifteen years of teaching martial arts, I discovered left and right was a concept that was hard learned by anyone under the age of ten, especially when they were just excited to be punching and kicking the shit out of stuff.
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