“De nada.”
“You still talking with that Chita Crystal,” said Ike. Walter looked up to see the old man sitting at his regular table. Grandson Johnson had dropped him off at the curb. It wasn’t a question Ike asked, even though it may have sounded like one. And Ike pronounced her last name like it was just another piece of glass. His grandson Johnson—called Sonny by just about everyone who knew him—helped Ike make the short walk from Sonny’s jeep to the table in Billy’s that was as much the old man’s home as the house he slept in. When Ike was settled in, Sonny kissed him on the top of his bald head, smiled and saluted in Walter’s direction, then took off. “Nice boy,” Ike said. “Real nice boy.”
“You are correct, old man. On both counts. Sonny’s a good boy, and that was the woman herself on the phone.”
“Too bad you ain’t thirty years younger.”
“Thirty years? How old do you think she is? She’s in her forties, Ike.”
“Forties, huh? Well then, it’s too bad I ain’t thirty years younger.” With that pronouncement, he pulled a baseball cap out of the small bag he always carried. This one was a wrinkled, yellow hat, one Walter did not remember seeing before. On the front was a faded logo, a multicolored cartoon drawing Walter quickly recognized as a depiction of the Jackson Five—the Jackson Five when Michael was still Michael.
“Nice hat,” he said.
“1984, Jacksonville, Florida. Victory Tour,” said Ike, adjusting the hat to keep the morning sun out of his eyes.
“Florida? Who’s victory?” asked Billy bursting into the bar from his kitchen, through the swinging door next to the large fan a few feet from where Walter sat on the second to last barstool. Billy carried a large bowl of hard-boiled eggs in one hand and a cup of coffee in the other. The eggs were for customers. The coffee was his. “What about it?” he asked.
“1984,” Ike said. “A good year. A good year, maybe not the best, but a good one. No, not the best.”
“So,” said Billy. “What was the best?”
“1937,” said Ike, without hesitation, lighting up another cigarette with a long wooden match, giving up a little cough, not much of one this time, more like clearing your throat when you’ve swallowed the wrong way than anything serious. “That was the year I noticed Sissy,” he said. “Really noticed her, you know. Of course, we knew each other since we was kids, but 1937—that’s when I first looked at her, saw how beautiful she was. She’d come into a room, a room like this one—of course we didn’t go to no bars or restaurants back then when we were in our teens still—but she’d walk in, wherever it was, and the whole place would light up. It was like the sun broke through the clouds after a hard rain. Like the sky opened up. You know what I’m saying? All bright and clean and good. Sixteen years old. 1937.” He said it one more time. “1937.”
“Well,” Billy spoke up. “I think the best year is this one—right now. You’re damned right that’s what I think. Right now.”
“Here’s to you, Billy,” said Ike. “It’s a lucky man who thinks right now is his best time.” He dragged on his cigarette and it appeared he made no effort to blow the smoke anywhere. It just sort of slithered out of his mouth and nose. As if moved by an unseen hand, the smoke was carried on the wind in the direction where Billy stood behind the bar. It floated to him in big, slow, hazy blue ripples.
“Don’t blow that shit in here!” Billy yelled. Then he looked down the bar to Walter. “Walter. Stop eating. Put down that paper and tell us what year was your best year. Come on.” Ike looked at Walter too. Both he and Billy waited.
“Next year,” Walter said, without putting down either his fork or his newspaper.
“Bullshit!” cried Billy.
“That’s what you hope,” said Ike. “That’s what we all hope. But that don’t count for the purposes of this conversation. We’re talking about a year gone by, and we ain’t quitting till you say one.”
“I can’t . . .”
“Come on, Walter!” demanded Billy.
“You got to have one,” said Ike, although from the sound of Walter’s voice he certainly sensed there might be no response from his friend. Not on this one.
Walter said, “I can’t do it. I can’t.”
“Leave the man alone,” Helen ordered. She had been standing there all along, unnoticed. “Let him be.”
Billy grumbled and Ike may have said something too, under his breath, but whatever it was Walter couldn’t make it out.
“I’m writing it up. I don’t give a shit,” Billy proclaimed. He looked to Ike for approval or encouragement or something. The old man, his upper body now completely covered in smoke that drifted with the changing breeze in a new direction, off into the square, nodded affirmatively. That was all Billy needed. He grabbed the chunk of blue chalk next to the register and scribbled on the blackboard: 1937/Right Now/None.
“None,” he scoffed.
“I vote for ‘Right Now,’” said Helen, giving Billy a pat on his ass as she made her way back to the kitchen, singing, “It’s a man’s world . . .”
Sadie Fagan had told him. It took awhile to connect the dots, but now he knew. She told him. Walter had always worked deliberately, not in haste, but fast enough to suit him. He liked to get all the information he could, then it was his preference to return to St. John, sit out on his deck and follow the shafts of sunlight streaking down between the clouds blowing in over St. Thomas, watching as sun and sea danced together. His gaze followed the sailboats plying the narrow channels between the empty, off-shore islands. Alone on his deck, in a wicker chair at the covered table, usually with a cold drink in his hands, he would fit the pieces of the puzzle together. The solution, the picture to be laid out before his eyes, would tell him where to go next. It always had.
Sadie said it. “He’ll come right here. Home.” Walter had asked her, straight out, after she’d been talking about her nephew for a half-hour or more. “Where would he go,” he asked, “if he was really in trouble?” Home is what she told him, without hesitation. Walter knew what she had told him was important. He had only to figure out why. For Harry Levine, home was out of the question.
While eating breakfast the following day, Walter found himself asking—where was it that Harry Levine could go to get closest to Roswell, Georgia? The closest, without actually going home? And then he remembered. Sadie Fagan had told him. In her detailed, often charming history of her family’s life in the suburbs of Atlanta, she mentioned that Roswell, Georgia, had, like so many small towns and cities in America, adopted a sister city in Europe. Since Walter never took notes, he had nothing to refresh his memory. But he didn’t need any help. He remembered the name, partly because that’s what he did—he remembered things—but mostly because it was unique, interesting, quite literally unforgettable—Bergen op Zoom. He wasn’t sure what it meant, and made a mental note to look into it. Bergen op Zoom was another piece of information. Perhaps it fit. Perhaps it didn’t. He checked it out as he did everything else he judged might be important. For this, he called his old friend, Aat van de Steen, in Amsterdam. Aat and Walter went back a long way—to Vientiane, 1971. To the Yao.
Vientiane was not a party town. That was Walter’s first impression. It was nothing like Saigon. The capital city of Laos, unlike the capital of Vietnam, was not filled with tens of thousands of twenty-year-old Americans—thirsty, horny, heavily armed and scared shitless. Walter’s Saigon was a city electric in its madness, a plastic conceit of glitzy bright lights and sparkling colors, gold and blue, yellow and blood red. Saigon was all about sex, drugs, rock ’n’ roll and death. Violence was the universal language. People got killed there every day. Many American soldiers came to Saigon, moved out to fight in the steamy jungles filled with thatched-roof huts, grouped together in tiny villages, and they never came back. New meat arrived. Saigon carried on. Vientiane, however, was quiet, reserved, an ancient city, a place where people were comfortable with intermittent water and power and almost no telephones at all. Traffic cons
isted of an occasional car or bus. People walked and never seemed to be in a hurry. It was a city of dark colors, all greens and maroons, purple and black. While all roads in Vietnam led to Saigon, there were no roads in Laos.
Vientiane lay along the Mekong River in a valley of sweet-smelling flowers, cooling rains and warm breezes, blessed for centuries with solitude and isolation. Free and peaceful Thailand, once the hated warrior kingdom of Siam, was on the far bank of the river. Nearly two centuries ago, a Siamese army crossed the river and turned Vientiane to rubble. The city was burned to the ground. Laotians were slow to forgive and forget. They still viewed Thailand with suspicion. In the twentieth century, Vientiane received plenty of foreigners. They were almost all French, mostly middle-aged, most of them fluent in Lao and one or more of the various other languages spoken in that exotic part of Southeast Asia. A far cry from the Americans in Vietnam. They were unwelcome visitors, crude, cruel temporary conquerors. The French lived in Indochina. If they were not quite the equal of the British, born and raised in India in the nineteenth century—never having set foot on English soil—they were close enough. Many of the Indochinese French, especially after a few glasses of wine from the home country, fancied themselves more Asian than European. After all, they owned Laos—or thought they did. Walter liked Vientiane from the moment he arrived there in the spring of 1971.
The airport at Vientiane was not the worst Walter had ever seen but it was near the top of any such list. The tower, such as it was, identified his Southern Air flight as one coming in from Burma. Actually, it had been a quick and easy trip from Saigon. He left at 06:30 and was in his hotel in Vientiane in time for breakfast. His passport and other papers said he was Fred Russo, an American engineer from Chicago. Quite an irony, he thought. Freddy Russo.
His mission in Laos was simple. Weren’t they all? This time he was to find a Dutchman named Aat van de Steen. They didn’t tell him why. Just find him, they said, and bring back any message the Dutchman wished to transmit—whatever the hell that meant. Van de Steen could be found, they told Walter, with the Yao. The problem, of course, was no one had any idea where the Yao were. “They’re in Laos,” the Colonel said. “Somewhere in fucking Laos.” Walter had three days to prepare. The Colonel said, “We’ll put you in wherever you want. Just tell us where.” On the second day Walter told him. “Get me into Vientiane,” he said.
There were inhabitants in Laos as early as the fourth century, or so Walter had read. The modern history of the small nation began somewhere between 1349 and 1353, depending on who you believed, when the Emperor Fa Ngum founded the landlocked kingdom he called Lang Xang—Land of a Million Elephants. Walter could not wait to see them—the elephants. The Yao had come to Laos some time later, drifting south, migrating from China, desperately looking for some place to live safely. They eventually found their happiness in the Laotian highlands. They settled in and were still there more than half a millennium later. They brought with them a peaceful culture of literacy, scholarship, agriculture and religious intellect. It was a way of life they protected and nourished in their new land. They spoke an almost unknown language, Mian, but the material Walter read about them said they also spoke Lao, Khum and Hmong Njua, the three most common languages of Laos. They were an educated people. Walter hoped some of them also spoke English. When they first arrived, the Yao were few in number. As the centuries passed, they showed no evident desire to expand the size of their tribe. In fact, they did their best to prevent growth. They felt there was safety in numbers—small numbers—and they taught their children accordingly. Among the peoples of Laos—the Lao Loum, Lao Theung and the Yao—the Yao were the tiniest minority.
Walter figured that’s why nobody at Headquarters Company had any idea where they might be. It was clear to him, even in the limited time he had to prepare for this mission, that the ancient Yao had been right. For a mountain people, the fewer of them there were, the more effective was their defense. Their Chinese persecutors did not follow them to Laos. New enemies found them elusive and soon turned to other pursuits, easier prey. The Yao stayed to themselves. Farmers mostly, they were a proud and stable people, firmly rooted in the central highlands for six centuries. Unfortunately for their would-be handlers in the CIA and the U.S. Army, they were damn hard to find.
By 1970, the Central Intelligence Agency had more than thirty case officers actively engaged in Laos. Back in Washington the joke was they had an unlimited budget and had already overspent it. The central tenet of the American CIA was that everybody had a price—no exceptions. Anyone could be bought, even an ancient people like the Yao. Somewhere within that tribe someone in authority would be tempted by the assorted pleasures available in and from the most modern, most powerful civilization on Earth, the United States of America. They were sure this was so because it was true everywhere else in the world. The CIA circled the globe carrying bags of money. The list of their collaborators seemed endless. Had they any doubt at all about the Yao, they had only to look at their success with the Hmong, Laos’ largest ethnic tribal group. To the folks at Langley, the Hmong appeared every bit as backward as the Yao and far more numerous. Their economy centered around opium, and while the Hmong were more sellers and refiners than growers, their fortunes rose and fell with the poppy. To enlist the Hmong in the American battle with North Vietnam, part of the epic struggle to defeat worldwide communist expansion, the CIA was happy to set up shop in the heroin trade. Since the poppy was the cash crop of the Yao, they were certain this tribe of savages would be just as eager for American help as the Hmong had been. If only they could find them. That’s where the Dutchman came in.
Aat van de Steen was an up-and-coming gunrunner. He’d made a few deals in Eastern Europe. According to CIA information, van de Steen had sold weapons to rebels in Georgia and Estonia, and had, as well, provided the Soviets with artillery pieces they dearly sought, artillery made in the United States. Although he was a kid, a youngster still in his twenties, the Dutchman had shown a high degree of skill and a big set of balls. More than once his name was mentioned in important circles in tones of respect. “Jesus Christ,” one Agency Deputy Director had remarked in disbelief. “This kid sold stuff to the Chechens and the Russians at the same time and lived to tell about it?”
At twenty-three, Aat van de Steen got his first contract in Laos. The deal came to him in Indonesia but had really been brokered in Washington. His job was to get to the Yao, determine their needs and capabilities with respect to weapons and report his findings to his Indonesian client. On his end, he would serve as sole supplier for those weapons. His contacts in Indonesia made it plain they had no strong interest in haggling over price. Whatever the Yao could effectively use, van de Steen would see they got it. The cost would be paid, in U.S. dollars, in advance, in Amsterdam. Aat van de Steen was a smart kid. He must have known the money was coming from the CIA. So what. He’d worked before under circumstances where his real client remained masked. And the CIA could not have cared less. Discretion was never a big concern with them. Within the agency was the world’s biggest denial apparatus. A strapping colossus, it came complete with the world’s biggest budget. With all that money, there was nothing they could not effectively deny. Thus, they felt little or no fear of disclosure.
Van de Steen made his way to Laos, traveled inland to the central highlands in search of the Yao and hadn’t been heard from since. The Indonesians were getting jumpy. The CIA waited and wasn’t happy about it. Some back in Langley wrote the young Dutchman off. Dead, they figured. Killed by the Yao, the Hmong, the snakes—who the hell knows what. More than a month had passed. Then they heard, from one of the Hmong commanders in the area, that a white man fitting van de Steen’s description had been seen in the company of some Yao tribesmen. News of the sighting was only days old. None of the CIA people in country had ever seen or talked to the Yao. Sure, they were in the mountains, but who had any idea where? No one in Vientiane or Washington. No one from the CIA would go looking. “This ain�
�t Viva Zapata,” one of them said. Someone had heard about a man called The Locator, an Army sergeant in Saigon, and what they heard about him was quite amazing. The word went out. Hours later Walter Sherman was summoned. Three days after that he was enjoying a nap after breakfast in an elegant, old hotel in the middle of Vientiane.
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Aat would do anything he could to help his friend, no matter what, no questions asked. A dozen years after Vientiane, Walter had located Aat’s brother who panicked and ran from an unpaid gambling debt. It hadn’t occurred to Jan van de Steen that his brother’s reputation alone protected him from any real harm. Three weeks after he fled Holland, Walter found him in Canada, returned him to his brother’s care and into the arms of his grateful wife and children. Walter refused to take a fee, even expenses. “We’re friends,” was all he said to Aat. And now Walter asked the Dutchman for a favor—check out Bergen op Zoom to see if Harry Levine was there. Walter gave his friend no details, no reason, no explanation. These things were not required. Van de Steen said he would call back when he knew something. When he did, less than an hour later, he laughed. Harry Levine had indeed gone to Bergen op Zoom and—this is what Aat van de Steen found so funny—he registered at a hotel under his own name. Walter thanked him and said, “Aat, I’ll call you when I get there.”
“Ik zal je meenemen naar Yab Yum dan krjg je de beurt van je leven!” said the Dutchman. “How wonderful it will be, my friend.” Walter looked at the phone in his hand and chuckled. He understood nothing van de Steen said, but he had heard of the Yab Yum, the most elegant and expensive of Holland’s brothels.
Late that same afternoon, Walter left Billy’s, rode the ferry over to the Rock and flew from St. Thomas to New York, where he boarded a Lufthansa flight to Amsterdam, with a stop at Frankfurt. He slept most of the way across the Atlantic. He liked Lufthansa’s Business Class. He’d flown it before. They let you sleep unless you specifically asked to be awakened. Unlike so many other carriers, that practically insisted you partake of each and every service offered with your $12,000 round trip, the Germans were content to let you spend five-hundred bucks an hour to sleep. In his younger days, there had been a time when Walter was a terrified flyer. Back then, he couldn’t help it. He always considered the serious possibility of a fiery crash, ending, naturally, in his own death. Before he met Gloria, such thoughts afflicted him whenever he boarded a commercial flight. In his opinion every plane he got on could quite easily go down. One time, he flew from Detroit to Chicago on an airplane that also had onboard the entire Detroit Pistons basketball team. It was a short flight, not much more than a half-hour in the air, and the weather was perfect. But for the whole way he pictured the headlines in the next day’s Chicago Tribune: Detroit Pistons Die in Plane Crash. Buried deep in the story, he saw the sentence: Among the dead was an unidentified man. It was strange, he thought, he never once worried about flying in an open helicopter in Vietnam, with bullets and rockets whizzing by all around him. But once he headed into the Friendly Skies, the worst-case scenario came immediately to mind. As time went by, he lost that fear. Once, he even helped Gloria to fly comfortably, and she was as scared a flyer as ever bought a ticket. Now, only the tiniest remnant of his fear of flying remained.
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