It was a picture of the Lord Jesus sitting in a field of flowers, and the children of the world were standing around him, looking up into his face. On the grass at his feet sat a black boy, and on his knee was an Indian child. His arms were around a little girl in a blue dress, and the children of China and the South Seas were nestling up to him.
It was about a week after the operation when Dani and Annette first talked properly about that picture. The lights were on, and most of the children were asleep, but Annette still sat beside Dani. She had stayed late the past few nights because he was so restless without her.
Now he lay with his arms flung around his head on his pillow. His eyes were very bright. He was very, very tired and wanted badly to go to sleep, but the pain in his leg kept him awake. So he rolled his head around to look at the picture with the writing underneath.
“What does it say, ’Nette?” asked Dani suddenly.
“It says, ‘Let the little children come to me,’” replied Annette, who was looking tired, too.
“I know that story,” went on Dani, in a tired little voice; “Grandmother told it to me. Are those the children in the Bible?”
“No,” said Annette, “they’re not the children from the Bible story, Dani. They are other children from all over the world—India and Africa, and I think the little girl in the blue dress is probably from Switzerland.”
“Why?” asked Dani.
“I suppose to show that all children can come to Jesus, and not just the ones in the Bible.”
“How?” asked Dani.
“I don’t know quite how to explain. You just say you want to come, Dani, and then you’re there. I suppose Jesus sort of picks you up in His arms, like the children in the Bible, even though you can’t see Him.”
“Oh,” said Dani, “I see. Annette, my leg hurts so badly. I wish I could go to sleep.”
He began to cry fretfully and throw his arms about. Annette shook up the pillows and gave him a drink, and he sank back with a tired sigh.
“Sing to me,” he commanded, and Annette sang very softly because she was shy of the nurse hearing.
As she sang, Dani closed his eyes.
In the few seconds before he fell asleep, Dani thought he saw the picture again, but instead of the Indian child sitting on Jesus’s lap, he recognized himself, with his bear crutches lying in the grass at his feet.
“It’s me,” said Dani to himself, and he fell fast asleep, full of joy.
While Dani lay sleeping, Monsieur Givet came and lifted one of the weights off his leg, and his fever left him. When he woke up he thought he must somehow have gotten into a new world, and he lay quite still thinking about it for a long time. He felt cool and comfortable, and his leg had stopped hurting. The big glass doors of the ward had been flung open, and through them Dani could see, for the first time, sparkling blue water, misty blue mountains on the other side of the lake, and blue sky.
“I’m going to get well,” said Dani to himself.
The door opened, and Annette clattered up the ward, warm and rosy from the wind. She usually popped across after breakfast just to see how he was.
“Isn’t it a lovely day, Dani?” she cried. “Look at the lake and the mountains on the other side, and the little ships.”
Dani turned his face seriously toward her.
“Annette, where are my bear crutches?”
“Here, Dani, behind your locker. Why?”
“Well, you know that poor little boy in the corner? He might like them. Give them to him.”
“Why, Dani? You like them so much yourself.”
“I know. But I shan’t want them ever anymore. I’m going to get better and run about in ordinary boots.”
And he was quite right. He never did want them anymore. He became perfectly well.
26
A New Start
Just as the weeks passed in the valley, so the weeks passed in the mountains. The snow began to melt, and the little streams became torrents, and the first crocuses pushed up in the fields along the river. The cattle and goats shut up in the stables began to stamp restlessly and cry for freedom. Spring was coming to the mountains.
Grandmother was busy with the spring cleaning and Papa was busy with the new calves. This was a good thing, for when they were busy they did not miss the children quite so badly. Grandmother, who was really much too old and blind to be spring cleaning, would often sit down suddenly and imagine she heard the hop and clatter of one boot and one crutch climbing the steps, and the cheerful sound of a little boy singing out of tune. How they missed the children!
Lucien missed them, too. He lived farther up the mountain than any other child, and he never walked home alone without wishing Annette was walking beside him. But he was not lonely or unhappy at school any longer. He had proved to them that he was sorry for what he had done by his brave journey across the mountain, and they had accepted him back as one of themselves.
And Lucien himself was different. Ever since that night when he had asked Jesus to come into his heart, he had known that there must be a difference. The old bad temper and laziness and unhappiness could not stay for long in a heart that was open to the love of Jesus. Gradually Lucien began to find that, as long as he kept close to Jesus by praying and reading his Bible every day, the love was stronger than the bad temper and the laziness, and that he was growing into a nicer sort of boy.
Often when school was over he would go across to Grandmother’s chalet and help with the spring cleaning. They were great friends now. Indeed, Grandmother would hardly have known what to do without him, for he chopped her wood and did her shopping and brought letters up from the village. This he liked best of all, for they were usually from Annette, and Grandmother always got him to read them aloud to her. There was sometimes a picture from Dani, too. Grandmother kept them all safely in the front of her Bible and often spread them out on the table to look at them. By the end of February she had quite a collection, called “Me in Bed,” “Me Chasing Goats,” “Me Having Medicine,” “Me and Nurse,” “Me and Annette,” “Me and Snowball-Kitten.” Grandmother thought they were all lovely, of course.
Another sadness came into Lucien’s life. His friend, the old wood carver, was going to leave the mountain to go and live down by the lake with his son, Monsieur Givet, and his family. It had all been arranged that afternoon when they first recognized each other.
He was to leave at the beginning of March, and the day before he went Lucien climbed up through the forest to help him pack. He had given away the goat, the cat, and the hens, and sold nearly all his little figures. But he was not selling the house. He was just shutting it up to wait till he came back.
“I shall often come back, Lucien,” he explained. “I couldn’t leave the mountain for long. I’ll stop down there for a while, but then I shall hear the mountains calling me, and back I’ll come for a bit of a holiday.”
He looked thoughtfully across the valley, then glanced around the bare shelves of the hut.
“I’m taking a few of my figures for the children,” he remarked. “They may like them. One, Lucien, I kept for you. I came across it when I was sorting through them the other night. It’s one I thought I couldn’t part with, but I’d like you to have it if you’d like it.”
Lucien looked up eagerly. “I’d love to have one, Monsieur,” he replied. “It will remind me of you, and besides, I might be able to copy it.”
The old man went to the cupboard and took out the gift he had laid aside for Lucien. He put it in the boy’s hands and watched him closely as he examined it.
It looked simple enough at first sight. It was a wooden cross made of two pieces of rough wood, but the crossbeam was fixed to the post by beautifully carved ropes, twisted in knots. Lucien’s fingers touched the perfect carving gently, and he lifted shining eyes to his old master.
“It’s beautiful,” he cried. “I can’t think how you carved those ropes without breaking the wood.” Then he added rather shyly, “It’s the cross w
here Jesus was crucified, isn’t it?”
“Yes,” replied the old man simply. “I carved it the night my master died—the night he spoke to me about the love and mercy of God—and the night I believed I could be forgiven. Once you and I had a talk about loving. The cross is the place where we see love made perfect.”
Lucien looked up again quickly.
“Perfect love,” he repeated. “That’s what it says in Grandmother’s verse. It keeps coming. It’s what Annette and I talked about the night before she went away.”
“Yes,” agreed the old man. “You’ll often hear it. Perfect love. It means love that goes on doing until there isn’t any more to be done, and that goes on suffering until it can’t suffer any more. That’s why, when Jesus hung on the cross, He said, ‘It is finished.’ There wasn’t one sin left that couldn’t be forgiven, not one sinner who couldn’t be saved, because He had died. He had loved perfectly.”
The old man seemed to have forgotten Lucien and to be talking to himself. But Lucien was listening all the same. He said good-bye to his old friend and promised to come up early next morning and carry his pack to the station on the way to school. Then he ran home. He was in a hurry because he wanted to write to Annette so that the old man could take a letter with him next morning. But the first thing to do was to hang his little cross carefully above his bed. Then he ran out to the kitchen to find a pen and paper.
The kitchen was in rather a mess. His mother was over with the cows and had not had time to wash the pans or empty the bucket. Lucien usually helped her, but tonight he was in a hurry. If he slipped back into his bedroom he could write without being disturbed, and she would clear the mess and not know he had come in.
He hurried off and curled himself up on the floor by his bed. He was just starting to write when he happened to glance up and caught sight of the carved cross hanging on the wall.
He stared at it for a moment or two, thinking hard. What was it the old man had said? “Perfect love goes on doing until there isn’t anything more to be done.”
He in some small way wanted to be like Jesus and to love perfectly, too. And there were all those dirty pans out in the kitchen waiting to be washed.
He went rather pink and got up slowly. When his mother came in half an hour later, she found the kitchen all clean and tidy and a happy-hearted Lucien writing at the table.
He went up to the old man early next morning while the forest was still dark, and they came down together, leaving the lonely hut waiting for his return.
The old man went off on the train that had carried away Annette and Dani, and his eyes fixed sadly on the mountains.
“When the narcissi begin to come out, I shall come back,” he reminded Lucien as the train was starting off. “You write and tell me when they’re out in the valley, and that will give me plenty of time to get back before they flower in the mountain. Don’t forget, Lucien.”
It was not very long after this that Lucien collected a letter for Grandmother from the post office and hurried up the hill to give it to her, for he knew it was from Annette. He clattered up the veranda steps shouting the good news, and Grandmother came eagerly out.
“Read it to me, Lucien,” she said, and sat down in the sunshine, folding her hands and shutting her eyes so she could concentrate on the words.
It was a very short letter, and Lucien read it all in one breath.
“Dear Papa and Grandmother,” it said, “Dani and I are coming home the day after tomorrow. Dani is quite well again. We are longing to see you, and Dani says please bring Klaus to the station. Your loving Annette.”
There was also a note from Madame Givet giving the exact time of their arrival, and a picture from Dani called, “Me Coming Home in the Train.”
Just for a few minutes Grandmother began to cry—the shaky little cry of a very weak old woman—but she quickly wiped away her tears and pretended to become a very strong old woman, because there was such a lot to be done.
“Go over to the shed and give that letter to Monsieur Burnier, Lucien,” she said firmly, “and then come back here and help me right away. There’s a lot to be done—beds to air, cakes to cook, and the furniture to be rubbed up. We must have everything looking its best for the children.”
Papa, on receiving the news, said, “Oh!” and scratched his head. Then for the first time in his life he upset the milk pail, and shortly afterward disappeared into the forest and didn’t come back for a long time.
The next day dawned clear and beautiful. There was no school. Lucien was up at daybreak picking flowers. He arranged them in a bowl on the veranda table and then set out for the station, walking slowly because there was plenty of time and plenty to think about. Grandmother, Papa, and Klaus had gone in the mule cart.
It was such a lovely spring morning, not unlike the day just over a year ago when Dani had fallen, thought Lucien. What a dark day that had been. The memory of it spoiled his happy thoughts. It had all been his fault they had ever had to go away, and perhaps after all they wouldn’t be very pleased to see him. Annette had said Dani was well, but Lucien could hardly believe it.
He reached the station feeling very nervous, and stood away from the others, with his hands in his pockets, because he suddenly felt a little afraid of meeting them, and wished he hadn’t come.
Papa kept his eyes fixed on the far point down the valley where the train would appear between the mountains, and Grandmother struggled with Klaus, who seemed to want to set off down the line and meet the train on her own.
“It’s coming,” cried Papa.
Lucien suddenly felt shier than ever.
When it came, Annette and Dani were at the window, rosy with excitement and longing to get out.
Dani gave one glance at the well-loved faces that had come to welcome him, and in that glance he noticed Lucien standing apart. For an instant he wondered why. His loving, happy little heart wanted to gather everyone together about him, and he jumped off the train and ran straight to Lucien.
“Look, Lucien,” he shouted, “I can walk! The doctor you found made me better, and I can run just as though I never fell over the ravine. Look, Grandmother! Look, Papa! I’m running without my crutches! And look, Klaus, here’s your kitten. Isn’t he big, Grandmother? Nearly as big as Klaus!”
Klaus and the kitten simply hated each other, and snarled and scratched and swore dreadfully. Dani and Grandmother struggled to keep them apart, everyone laughed, the train rattled off, and Annette clung to her father as though she would never let go of him again.
Only Lucien turned away, because he found there were tears in his eyes. He had been honored above everybody. The wrong he had done had been forgiven and forgotten forever. Dani could walk as if he had never fallen.
Spring had come. The winter was over and gone. With the flowers appearing and the birds singing again, joy had returned to their hearts.
© 1980 by
THE MOODY BIBLE INSTITUTE
OF CHICAGO
All rights reserved
All Scripture quotations are from the
New American Standard Bible
Library of Congress Cataloging in Publication Data
St. John, Patricia Mary, 1920-
Where the river begins.
SUMMARY: A confused and misguided youngster stays with a Christian family while his mother is institutionalized. They help him discover the source of the nearby river and the source of Christian life.
[1. Christian life—Fiction. 2. Family problems—Fiction.
3. Foster home care—Fiction] I. Title.
PZ7.S143Wh [Fic] 80-12304
ISBN 0-8024-8124-8
17 19 20 18 16
Printed in the United States of America
Contents
1. The Cherry Tree
2. The River
3. The Farm
4. The Cherry Tree Again
5. The Gang
6. The Fire
7. In Trouble
8. Flight
9. Refuge
10. Questions
11. The Source
12. The Tulip Bed
13. The River of Life
14. The Swan
15. The Homecoming
1
The Cherry Tree
“Francis!” shouted his stepfather, “will you behave yourself! Leave your little sister alone! It’s crazy, a boy your size!”
Francis gulped down his mouthful and started the usual argument.
“I tell you, Dad, she kicked me first—she always does, and you always think—”
“I didn’t.”
“You did.”
“I didn’t.”
“Francis, hold your tongue! Can’t you see how you’re upsetting your mother and bringing on her headache? Don’t you care?”
“Well, I’m only telling you—”
“You just stop telling us then. Take your lunch and finish it in your bedroom and stay there till I call you. I’m dead sick of all this quarreling. Anyone would think you were a baby!”
Francis seized his plate, snatched a jam tart from the middle of the table, set it down in the middle of his gravy, aimed a last deadly kick at Wendy’s shins, and made for the door. Her yells followed him down the hall. But he did not go up to his bedroom. He sneaked through the living room, stuffed his Star Wars comic down his jersey, and streaked out of the back door into the yard. He must not walk in front of the kitchen window, where they were finishing lunch, so he tiptoed round the house and made a run for the hedge. Stooping low, he crept through the long grass behind the apple trees and reached the cherry tree at the very end of the yard in safety.
Nobody quite knew who the cherry tree belonged to, for its roots were half in Francis’s yard and half in old Mrs. Glengarry’s next door. That imparted an exciting trespassing sort of feeling to begin with. It was fun to peer over into other dangerous territory and pretend he must not be seen, although Mrs. Glengarry had long ago noticed the dangling legs; and when Francis’s sandal had once dropped into her lavender bushes, she had come out and handed it back. She rather liked the dangling legs; they reminded her of something she had lost many years ago.
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