The Painter
So the great painter dies. Within minutes of his death the colors disappear from his paintings, the canvases crack and come apart, the frames fall to the floor. Millions of dollars worth of paintings, perhaps a billion dollars worth, are gone. Museum curators summon the police. Private collectors of his work—
No, the painter dies. The great one. Nobody would dispute that. Nothing happens to his paintings after his death. What does change is their value. One painting up for sale that day with an asking price of close to a million dollars, suddenly has an asking price of two million. A private art collector, interviewed on TV that night, says “When I bought this red one ten years ago for a hundred thousand, friends in the know said I paid twice what it was worth. Just a month ago an art dealer offered me five times that amount. Now with his death—not that I don’t grieve for him like the rest of us and think, if he was alive and healthy, what he could still do—I could probably get—”
No, the painter dies. The great one. Almost every artist and art expert agrees with that. The paintings he had in his studio will be exhibited this year in a major European museum and then travel to five of the top modern museums in the world before being put on the market. The heirs, to save on paying an estimated hundred million dollars in taxes, have made arrangements with the government where half the paintings—
No, the painter dies. We all know who. The great one. The greatest or second greatest painter in the last fifty years. Certainly one of the five great painters of the century. At least one of the ten great ones in the last hundred years. Definitely one of the ten great ones, of this century, and one of the most influential painters of all time. What modern art movement in the last sixty years hasn’t been influenced by him? Maybe some haven’t. There have been so many. But five, maybe ten of the major art movements in the last sixty to seventy years have been directly or indirectly influenced by his work. He died in his sleep last night at the age of ninety-one. Ninety-one years old and still painting. The painting he was working on for the last two months was to be one of his largest. Art dealers say the asking price for it, though it’s little more than half finished, will be around three million dollars, which will be one of the highest sums paid for a modem painting if it’s sold at that price.
No, he’s dead. The painter of the century. Or one of them. The day he died—he knew he had little time left, his wife said—he asked her to destroy the painting he was working on. He also asked her to write down his last words. They were “I didn’t paint any of the paintings that bear my signature, nor any painting that is said to be mine but doesn’t have my signature.” All his paintings bear his signature. He then gestured that he wanted to sign his name to the words she wrote down. His son held his writing hand as he wrote his name. Then he said he’d like a glass of his best champagne and some cherries. His wife went for them. By the time she got back he was dead.
No, he died. In his sleep. A peaceful death. Painting he was painting on before he got sleepy and had to be put into bed was of a man sleeping in bed. A dead man, it looked like. Didn’t look like an ordinary sleeping man. That’s what just about everyone said when the painting was later viewed at an auction house before it was sold for more than three million dollars.
No, he’s dead. His paintings aren’t. They live on on whatever walls they’re on. The colors haven’t faded. Nor the themes. They’re still alive.
No, they’ve all faded, colors and themes. The painter for the last week was fading, now he’s dead. Died in his sleep. He was drinking champagne at the time. No, can’t be.
Dead. The painter. Had a glass of champagne in his hand. He was awake when the glass dropped out of his hand. Or was awake just a moment before the glass dropped out of his hand. His wife, who had her back to him at the time, turned when she heard the glass smash on the floor. Her husband was slumped across the bed, hand dangling just above the floor. She called for her son. “Jose!” He ran into the room. He’d been in bed with the housekeeper in her room a floor above. Two floors above.
No glass broke. He did die while he was in bed. He was put there for a nap, but could have been awake when the accident happened. A painting hanging above the bed, one he did four years ago of his wife and him copulating and which he said he’d never sell for five million dollars, ten million, “all the money from all the countries in the world,” fell off its hooks on the wall and hit him on the head. “It probably killed him instantly,” the doctor said. The frame alone weighed 200 pounds. The painting doesn’t weigh more than a pound or two. “He painted that one thickly,” his wife said, “night after night after night for months, and it’s one of his largest, so maybe it’s three pounds, even four.”
No no no. He was killed in an auto accident. He asked his wife the day he died to take him back to the land of his youth. She said he was too frail to go anywhere. He then asked his son to take him there. His son agreed with his mother. “Then I’ll get there myself,” he said. He tried to get out of bed. They stopped him. He said “I will die of a heart attack tonight if I don’t make a quick journey back to the land of my youth.” They called the doctor. The doctor said he might be able to survive the trip. So they dressed him and got an ambulance to come. They put him in back of the ambulance on a cot. The ambulance hit a truck three miles from the house and turned over and the painter died. So did the ambulance driver and the attendant in back. His wife broke both arms in the accident. His son was in a car behind them.
No, the painter died in his sleep. In his sleep he was journeying back to the land of his youth. He got out of bed, in his sleep, did half an hour of the same vigorous exercises he used to do thirty years ago, showered and dressed himself, went downstairs, kissed his wife on the lips, patted her backside, kissed his son’s forehead, drank a cup of the very strong black coffee he always used to drink in the morning but hadn’t been allowed to for ten years, had a large breakfast, more coffee, said “Goodbye, I’ll see you both in a few days,” went outside, got into his sports car and drove down the hill and past the gatehouse. In his dream a truck hit his car just as he was crossing the border. Just after he crossed the border. Several hours after he’d crossed the border and was driving into the small village of his youth. While he was approaching the farmhouse his family had lived in for more than—
No, in his dream he gets on his horse, after his morning coffee, breakfast, kisses and goodbyes, and rides back to the land of his youth. The journey takes him three days. The horse is the one he had as a youth. He crosses the mountains on it, fords several streams. The border guards of both countries wave him on without asking for his passport. They yell out “Maestro…great one.” They say “Hail to the liberator of our unconscious…emancipator of our imaginations…of our dreams.” He salutes them, rides for another day to the two-room farmhouse he lived in as a youth. He ducks his head and rides through the front door right up to his old bed. He jumps off the horse, hugs it around the neck, brushes its coat, walks it outside to the grass.
No, he brings grass and water into the house, puts them on the floor, has the horse lie down by the bed. Then the painter gets into his old bed and covers himself up to his neck with his coat. His hair comes back to his bald head. It turns from white to gray to black. His pubic hairs disappear, his chest and back hairs, his wrinkles, illness, clots, most of his scars. He’s smaller, shinier, slimmer, solider. His sheet’s clean and cool, the bed newer and he has a blanket over him. The horse snores. The young man becomes a boy thinking about becoming a great painter. “I won’t be great, I’ll just be as good as I can. I’ll do things no one else has. No, I’ll just paint without thinking what anyone else has done. No, I’ll just paint, that’s all, and not even think about not thinking of what anyone else has done with paint.”
No, the old painter’s in bed. In the two-room farmhouse of his youth. His eyes close, he falls asleep. Colors, shapes, patterns, move around in his head. Scenes from his past, from his future. His wife twenty years ago, forty years ago, as his
bride. His son as a young man, as a boy, then being born. The painter making love with his wife, with the woman he lived for years with before his wife, with women before that: models, other men’s wives, an actress, a princess of a principality, other painters, a young woman he met at a cafe and went to a hotel with, a young woman he met on a train and slept the night in their compartment with, prostitutes in his adopted country, a girl in his native country when he was a schoolboy. In the bed he’s in now. His first time, hers. Scenes of his parents working in the fields, his horse drinking from a stream, nudging its dead foal. Sunrise, sunset, nighttime, full moon on top of the chimney of this old farmhouse. “Wake up,” his mother says. “Get to work,” his father says. “Do you love me?” the young woman on the train as it’s pulling into his station. “Do you love me?” his wife says. “Daddy,” his son says. “Papa, dada, fada, ba.” Pens, brushes, palettes, tubes of paints. Newspapers calling him a mountebank, defiler, the greatest painter of them all. He tears the newspapers up, pastes them on his canvases, paints over them.
No, the painter’s born. We all know who. His mother’s legs are open. The doctor says push. Out he comes, brush between his gums, tubes of paint inside his fists. The doctor slaps his behind, cuts the cord. His father gets down on his knees and says “At last, a son,” and prays. The painter, no more than eight pounds, starts painting on the soiled sheet. The doctor cleans and dries him, puts a canvas on the floor, the painter crawls on top of it, paints a big circle and then a small circle inside. The outside of the big circle’s white, the inside of the small circle’s black, the space between the two circles is red. The doctor puts the painter to his mother’s breast, blows on the canvas till it’s dry, rolls it up, rushes to a gallery with it and sells it for a half a million dollars. It’s now worth ten times that. The painter sucks at his mother’s breast, nothing comes. He cries, his tears act as a warm compress on her breast, milk comes, he drinks and soon falls asleep. His father goes outside and plants a tree in his son’s name. The tree’s now ninety-one years old. Once a year till around five years ago the painter returned to the farmhouse to paint that tree. He’s kept all of those seventy or so paintings. As a series, art dealers say, the tree paintings could be sold for quarter of a billion dollars. If sold individually the total sale should be around half a billion. The tree has a fence around it, a plaque embedded in the boulder inside the fence which says “This tree was planted on the day of birth of the greatest painter our country has produced in five hundred years. Any defacement of the tree, enclosed area and fence will bring swift prosecution to the full extent of the law.” The painter gets out of bed, goes outside, kicks down the fence, pulls an ax out of a tree stump and chops down the tree, has his horse defecate on the boulder and eat the grass in the enclosed area. When the horse is full it lies down and goes to sleep. The painter lies down, rests his head on the horse’s neck and falls asleep. In his sleep he’s a newborn child. He floats backwards into the house and up his mother’s birth canal. It’s dark, it’s light, he fingers around for his paintbrush and tubes, the dream explodes.
No, he’s an old man riding a paintbrush in the sky. The sky’s a clear blue. He seems to be flying around aimlessly. Far below is green farmland, terraced hills, olive orchards, a farmhouse. A boy’s sleeping beside a horse. The painter’s father is digging a hole. His mother’s nursing a baby. His wife’s making coffee. His son’s playing with the wood toys he carved for him. His infant daughter holds out his eyeglasses to him. She seems to be the only one below who sees him. She drops the glasses and holds up her arms to him. She wants to be picked up. The brush drops out from under him and he floats to earth. The horse stands, shakes itself off, flicks its tail. The painter lands beside it, holds out his arms, someone lifts him and puts him on the horse. He rides to the top of the hill, looks at the brush flying around. His hand reaches up till it’s able to snatch the brush out of the sky. He looks around for his paint tubes and a canvas, doesn’t see any, and sitting on the horse, starts to paint the sky. Whatever color he wants comes out of the brush. One time he paints the sky five different shades of red, another time a solid gray with a thin yellow line through it, another time it’s a combination of fifty different colors. Then he paints it the original blue and flings the brush down the hill.
No, the painter dies. The great one. In the middle of the night. Everyone in the house was asleep. The nurse who was sitting beside him had just fallen asleep. She said she heard a sound in her sleep. We all know what sound. It woke her. Most of the world’s newspapers the next day carried the news of his death on the front page.
The Postcard
He goes into the apartment. His wife’s waiting for him at the door. “I got this postcard today.” She holds it out. He takes it and reads. “Your husband is in love with me, what can I say? Leave him, he doesn’t love you. When he makes love with you, it’s all sham. That’s what he tells me. He pretends to have a good time with you in bed. Oh, all right, maybe he still has a good time with you—at the very end, but every man is like that then. But he has a good time from beginning to end when he’s with me in bed. Or on the floor. Or against the wall. Or on the coach. Or even under the coach, and once, I kid you not, in the bathtub. It’s me he loves, me he loves making love with, me he wants to be with when he sleeps with you or is just with you. Let him go. Let him be with me. Make him happy, no matter how unhappy it might make you. Are you still reading this? So, what are you going to do? Sincerely, Cecile Strick.”
“I never heard of her,” he says. “It’s some postcard. How can anyone write so small? Must take a special pen or at least a special fine or extra-fine point on a pen. What’s this word mean—coach? Couch? Has to be couch. But under the couch? Whoever heard of that? And who has a bathtub so large? I suppose some people have, and that it could be done in just about any size tub. But I’ve never known a Cecile in my life. My Aunt Cecile. Forgot her. She’s been dead tor twenty years—no, more like twenty-five. I was still in college then.”
“You never told me about her.”
“Sure I did. I had to. My Uncle Nate used to beat her up. It’s my feeling, but maybe I got the idea from someone in the family, that he beat her up on the head so much that he was the cause in some way of her getting brain cancer. That’s what she died of. She was only around fifty. Maybe fifty-five. She died, actually, more than thirty years ago. I wasn’t in college yet. So maybe she wasn’t even fifty. I can’t believe she’d be around eighty now if she had lived. He hit her on the head with a chair a number of times and once or twice knocked her out. I remember my father telling me about it. I even remember the calls he used to get from Cecile that Nate was trying to kill her again.”
“You never told me about him or her.”
“Never told you about Uncle Nate? I don’t see how I couldn’t have. My father’s only brother. Or only one that lived past the age of five. Whenever we’d see him he used to give us a fifty-cent coin each. I remember wanting to go over with my brother and sister just to get that fifty cents. And they were always shiny—mint condition, almost. As if he got them straight from the bank and had asked for them to be brand-new. After he gave us the coin, or just me if I only went with my father, I’d show it to my mother at home. She was never impressed. They didn’t get along. But poor Cecile. He once tried to throw her out a window, from maybe ten stories up. They lived on Riverside Drive, around Seventy-Ninth or Eightieth.”
“What number?”
“Ninety-Eight.”
“That’s on Eighty-First, southeast corner. Didn’t Bill live there for a year? Sublet somebody’s apartment—Dan Freer’s?”
“I think you’re right.”
He called today—Bill did. I was going to tell you. He wants you to call him back.”
“Did he say about what?”
“Nothing. Just to call back. He sounded loaded. Two o’clock. Loaded. He’s never going to be able to finish it.”
“Don’t worry. He starts it, gets into it, gets loaded
for a week or so, and then he finishes it. I’ve been through it with him before. I’ll call after dinner. But Cecile and Nate.”
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