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by Joseph D'lacey


  Gordon remembered his father’s promise to protect them all and his hand went to his mouth. A noble oath Louis Black had been unable to fulfil. Gordon shared his father’s shame.

  By the fireplace was a set of wrought-iron hearth tools and Gordon crossed quickly to retrieve the poker. It was the first weapon he’d thought of – until he could get to a shotgun. With the poker in his hand, another small objective was achieved. Emboldened, he searched the rest of the house.

  It took Gordon almost half an hour to establish the house was empty of agents but the Ward had not trod lightly through it. Every room showed signs of disturbance: drawers open, their contents rifled; mattresses still partially off the beds; clothes torn from wardrobes and left on the floor. The more he discovered, the angrier he became. Part of him wanted to find a Wardsman, perhaps napping on the job, and take him by surprise. He wanted to beat one of them – any of them, all of them – to the floor and keep bludgeoning until they weren’t able to stand.

  How can they do this? he wondered. We’re not criminals.

  Gordon had never witnessed real violence. He’d seen occasional scuffles and flares of temper at school but never serious harm. Footage of civil unrest was on the news most nights. Police raids were an increasingly common part of the bulletins and, now that he thought about it, Gordon remembered seeing grey-coated “bystanders” in many of those news items. He’d seen them attendant at demonstrations too – some of them mounted on horses in full riot armour of the same nondescript grey – but rarely involving themselves directly. Now, all Gordon could see was his father’s bowed and bloodied face. He could only imagine what the Wardsmen had done, what more they would do. They looked coldly civilised in their neat, belted raincoats and brimmed hats. All of them moved with calm assurance, not a wrinkle in their uniforms, not a hair out of place. And yet they were capable of all this.

  Even when he was sure the house was safe, Gordon still tiptoed. In his room he grabbed his camping rucksack and in it he placed the diary he kept under the carpet in his closet. The Wardsmen hadn’t looked there but they had discovered and taken his collection of black feathers. What bearing would a box of feathers have on their “investigation”? He gathered some spare clothes and placed them on top of the books. In the study, he took the lock knife from the pocket of his father’s tweed jacket. The shotguns and all the ammo were gone.

  In the bathroom he took off his jeans and cleaned the wound in his thigh. It began as a scratch near his hip and deepened into a gouge. Some of the skin and tissue around the edge of it looked ruined and lifeless already. He took scissors from the cabinet and with a trembling hand tried to clip away some of the torn flesh. He realised at the first touch of steel that it wasn’t dead tissue. Using a flannel moistened with hot water, he wiped away the dried blood and swabbed into the cut to try to clear away the dirt. When he’d finished, his whole leg was trembling and the flannel was filthy. He placed a disinfectant-soaked pad over the cut and wrapped a bandage around his leg. Down in the kitchen he hid the flannel at the bottom of the rubbish bin under the sink.

  He made himself a large Ziploc bag of cheese sandwiches and stashed it in the pack. He took a leftover pot of chicken casserole from the fridge and heated some of it in the microwave. He ate it quickly, washed the bowl and cutlery and put it away. Everywhere he went in the house, he left it as he’d found it. He even opened the kitchen window for a few minutes to let the wind carry away the smell of cooked food.

  He collected more supplies from the pantry, enough for a few days, just in case. He attached his waterproof sleeping bag to the bottom of the rucksack and strapped his tent onto the back of it. His father had ensured the whole family could survive outdoors in an emergency. Gordon would camp nearby while he waited for Skelton and Pike to bring his family home.

  Before leaving, Gordon took the white feather Judith had given him earlier that day and placed it under her pillow. He doubted the Ward would search the place a second time. He wanted her to know he was OK.

  18

  Gordon kept to the edge of the garden as he ran to the green door and forced his way through. Pushing it closed again, he set off at a fast walk. He was determined and steadfast at first. Sheriff Skelton and Sheriff Pike became the central victims in a dozen brutal fantasies.

  With every step he took from the house his outrage diminished. The cut in his thigh throbbed harder and the muscle around it tightened, slowing him down. The rucksack became a burden and he knew himself and his plans for what they were: the daydreams of a fourteen year-old boy who had no power in this world. Long before he reached the end of the disused bridleway, long before the abandoned railway tunnel mouth came into view, Gordon was crying so hard he could barely see.

  When he reached the tunnel mouth he slung off his pack. It landed and tipped over and he left it that way. On either side of the maw of the tunnel was a grass bank and there, to the right of the black opening, was where Gordon collapsed, sitting first and then lying down and curling in on himself with his arms covering his head.

  The day began to die. Gordon didn’t care. He could lie there all night, balled up.

  What did it matter?

  But with the sun paling and falling the wind was colder, and soon he was uncomfortable enough to sit up. As he wiped his face of tears, two magpies flew up over the hedge on the far side of the bridleway, fast-patting the air with black wings and flashing their white breasts. They both landed on his toppled rucksack and proceeded to flick their tails up, bob their heads down and broadcast their ratcheted chatter.

  He was so shocked he didn’t move. Magpies never got this close; they were far too wary of humans. And yet, here they were, not ten feet away from him and acting as though he didn’t even exist. But there was still plenty of light and every now and again he was sure they were cocking their heads and looking right at him.

  One for sorrow, two for joy…

  “Well you’ve got that wrong,” he said.

  The magpies stopped calling and bouncing. They regarded him for a moment more and then took off. They flew into the mouth of the tunnel. Gordon scrambled down the grass bank after them. If they came back out now they’d have to fly right past him.

  He stood on the threshold looking into the darkness and smelled the tunnel’s cold, earthy breath pushing out at him. The magpies were gone. He waited there a long time, not believing that they would stay in there and then, terribly far away, so far he almost could have imagined it, he heard a single clicking call. Then all was silence.

  He gave up the vigil when he saw how the darkness was gathering. If he wanted a decent place to sleep he needed to set it up right now. He cleared a space on the flattest-looking piece of ground nearby, throwing rocks to either side. Then, laying out the tent’s base, he began to pitch his tiny, solitary camp.

  October 5th ’14

  My eyes only

  I shouldn’t waste the torch batteries like this but I’ve got to write something or I’ll go insane. I can get more batteries tomorrow when I go back to the house. I’m going every day until they come home.

  I keep replaying this story in my mind. In it, I go back to the house with a shotgun and I see Ward vehicles parked at the front of the house. I sneak in the back door and there’s a Wardsman standing in the corridor watching the front door. I shoot him in the back of the neck. A second Wardsman comes out of the living room fumbling for his gun. He gets the second round in the chest and slides down the wall, leaving a smear of blood. I take his pistol and reload the shotgun. I go upstairs. A Wardsman is coming down to meet me, pistol drawn and ready. I fire first, obliterating his hat and the top of his head. At the top of the stairs, two Wardsmen are running for the nearest door. My second cartridge hits both of them, knocking them down. There’s no time to reload so I take the pistol and each of them gets a bullet in the spine. I reload the shotgun and clear the house one room at a time until eight Wardsmen lie dead. I remove all their weapons and ammo, find a set of car keys and drive to the Ward
substation in Monmouth where I storm the building and rescue Mum, Dad and Jude.

  It makes me feel a bit better and it keeps my mind occupied. Please, God, let them be safe and please, God, let me sleep.

  19

  After some days of rising before dawn and making her way through increasingly chillier mornings to Mr Keeper’s roundhouse, a little of the magic goes out of Megan’s new life. Routine takes the shine off the mystery. Each morning when she arrives, Mr Keeper shows her how to pray and make offerings to the Earth Amu, to the Great Spirit, to the animals and plants and to other beings who inhabit the woods. He makes her tidy up the mess inside his roundhouse and clear away any debris from outside while he smokes and drinks tea.

  Then they walk out into the meadows and grasslands or into the many wooded areas or along the rampant hedgerows where Megan never knows what creatures she might see. Sometimes Mr Keeper brings his longbow, teaching Megan to hunt. He’s able to drop a rabbit at fifty paces or more, a deer at a hundred. They never want for meat. Each day is different, though the lessons are often the same. They collect berries from the many bushes which are in fruit, some of which they eat, keeping others for his concoctions. They collect herbs and fungi which they dry above the stove in the roundhouse. Together they visit the sick in the village and Megan gets to know more of the people and learn a little about their troubles. Occasionally, she sees Sally Balston and Tom Frewin, friends she used to play with every day. Now all she can do is wave as they run to the meadow or the river to make mischief. Once or twice Mr Keeper is called to accidents and she accompanies him as he set bones, bandages sprains or rouses a woman from a faint.

  In general, however, what started out as the most amazing adventure has become somewhat dull. Nor has she dreamed of the boy since the night he took her through the ruins to the dead forest and the black tree to give her his heart.

  Now, as Mr Keeper rambles along a wall of hawthorn looking for something in the ditch at its root, Megan recognises the feeling she’s having. She’s bored. She follows along behind him for a while longer, trying hard to search with him, but she doesn’t even know what he’s looking for.

  Finally, she says:

  “Has the Crowman forgotten about me?”

  Mr Keeper keeps shuffling along, bent to half his usual stature as he peers under the thorny branches and through their covering of deep red berries.

  “Hm?” he says after a while.

  “The Crowman. Do you think he’s forgotten about me?”

  He creeps along a little farther, as though stalking unseen prey.

  “The Crowman? Oh, no. He hasn’t forgotten.”

  “But how do you know? He’s not doing anything. Nothing’s happening.”

  Mr Keeper stops now and straightens up. He leans back to stretch and she hears his spine cracking in a dozen places. He looks at Megan.

  “You’re impatient.”

  There’s no point denying it. She nods.

  “Well, you’re young,” says Mr Keeper. “You can’t help it.”

  He bends down and continues his search. Fearing she’s lost her opportunity to make a point, Megan hurries after him.

  “What I want to know is when will… it… happen?”

  Mr Keeper stands up again and faces her.

  “When will what happen, Megan?”

  “Well… whatever it is. Whatever’s meant to happen.”

  “What makes you think it isn’t happening now?”

  “Now?”

  “Right now. Right here as we speak.”

  Megan considers.

  “Because I don’t feel anything. Nothing is happening.”

  Mr Keeper looks up at the sky to see where the sun is. He slips off his backpack and lets it gently down to the grass.

  “Let’s sit for a while,” he says.

  Once he’s descended the great height of himself to stretch out among the fronds of the meadow, Megan watches Mr Keeper run his fingers over and through the long grass, seed heads fully formed now on many stalks. He luxuriates in the contact, it seems, his eyes focussing elsewhere for long moments. Megan sits down too and waits for his absence to clear.

  As the days spent with Mr Keeper have gathered behind her, she has been able to parallel his rhythms quite accurately. She knows when to stay quiet and when to volunteer help. She also knows he has episodes of removal from the moment; it isn’t just a matter of him thinking of something deeply, it’s as though his spirit leaves his body. During these episodes it is better not to interrupt him. Twice she’s done so, thinking he was merely not concentrating and twice he has “come back” prematurely and been irritable and uncommunicative for the rest of the day.

  So now, as he stares through the hawthorn and caresses the grass, she merely waits, listening to the throaty call of rooks in the nearby wood and watching the breeze touching the whole meadow as gently as Mr Keeper touches a few of its living strands. Megan’s attention floats away too and she is surprised when it returns to the sight of something being offered to her.

  “Here,” he says. “Have some oat loaf.”

  Mr Keeper has come back before her. She takes the piece he’s holding out, a half moon of pale bread about the size of her palm. He chews slowly on the other half. After he swallows the first bite he says:

  “Have you ever been to Dulas Pond?”

  “I’ve been fishing there a few times with Apa.”

  “There are some days when you can sit by Dulas Pond and everything is still. Winter days, usually. No insects hover over the water and no wind touches it. No kingfishers dive for food. And the land all around is quiet too, as though everything is asleep. But even though the surface of Dulas Pond is completely tranquil and undisturbed, things are going on down in the depths. All kinds of fish are feeding down there and their muck adds to the muck at the very bottom of the pond, day by day. If you took some of the slime from the bottom of Dulas Pond and put it on your pumpkin patch, you’d grow the biggest pumpkins hereabouts. That pond muck is richer than you can imagine.”

  Megan chews on her piece of oat loaf, knowing that Mr Keeper will get to the point eventually.

  “You’re like Dulas Pond, Megan. Nothing is happening on the surface and so you think nothing is happening beneath. But the truth is that all kinds of things you aren’t even aware of are happening way down inside you. Sooner or later, those things are going to help you bring forth great bounties – not just for you but for everyone hereabouts. Do you see what I’m telling you?”

  “I suppose so.”

  “Well, whether you do or you don’t, I know it’s happening. And when the time comes, many great and unexpected things will rise from the deep, deep pond that is Megan Maurice.” He pops a piece of oat loaf into his mouth, chewing it slowly. “You just have to be patient. And the best way to be patient is to do other things so that you forget what you’re waiting for.”

  While she understands everything Mr Keeper is saying, Megan still doesn’t find it any easier knowing that, for now, all she can do is wait. She’s about to ask if there’s anything she can do to make “things”, whatever they might be, happen more quickly when she hears the feathery swoosh of wing-beats – so close she imagines she can feel the downdraught from them. A grey-beaked rook passes over and lands on the lifeless branch of a tree poking up from the hawthorns that have choked it to death.

  Megan and Mr Keeper are silent and still as they watch the rook. It hops up and lands again, turning to the right. Then again, turning to the left. Looking almost uncomfortable, it opens and closes its wings a fraction, as if trying to fold them more neatly. Then it pushes its head forwards, extends its throat and gives three long, loud croaks, its breast enlarging and its tail feathers stiffening with effort. Then it flies, leaving the dead branch bouncing from the force of takeoff.

  Mr Keeper springs up and watches its progress until it disappears from view in Covey Wood. He puts the last of his oat loaf in his mouth and pulls on his backpack. Seeing the intensity in his face, Meg
an jumps up too.

  “We need to go for a walk, Megan,” he says through a floury mouthful. “And we need to go quickly.”

  He sets off, his long legs devouring distance, and Megan is suddenly running to keep up. Finding a break in the hawthorn, Mr Keeper plunges down into the ditch, through the rambling hedge and up the other side. By the time Megan has made the same manoeuvre, Mr Keeper is thirty paces ahead and striding out for Covey Wood. She hasn’t been there since seeing the Crowman. After waiting all this time for something to happen, she suddenly finds that her legs are heavy and her feet clumsy. Keeping up with Mr Keeper, something else she’s learned how to do over the span of their days together, now seems impossible.

  When she finally catches up to Mr Keeper he is standing on the threshold of Covey Wood, staring up into the trees. It began as a warm, clear day with a lazy breeze nodding the haw-berries. Now everything has changed. The sky is clogged with low cloud and the air is still and heavy. A shiver passes over Megan’s whole body and she moves close to Mr Keeper’s side.

  The clouds must have come from somewhere but without a wind, how did they get here? The land all around has lost its colour and the trees of Covey Wood look black. Many have lost at least half their leaves and suddenly she remembers walking through the dead forest in the night country, led by the boy. The clouds press lower and Megan feels suddenly exhausted, all the strength in her legs sucked away into the earth. Her own small pack now feels burdensome. She wants to ask Mr Keeper what’s happening but doesn’t dare break his concentration. Soon the clouds have become an invading mist that slips down around them and into the wood, wrapping around the trees and entwining itself into their branches like vaporous serpents.

 

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